Ji Youyan pulled her back from her memory, and saw Jingxiu's long eyelashes hanging down, and her brows were the forbearance and sadness she was familiar with. She panicked, and realized that Jingxiu might have misunderstood her silence.
"Axiu." She said eagerly, "It's not what you think."
Her ugly face, not like that, what is it? Jingxiu's eyes darkened with twilight.
Whether it was before or now, Ji Youyan's help to her is the same as a snake.
When others give her a chance, Ji Youyan will be happy and grateful, she will give Ji Youyan a chance, and Ji Youyan will only feel shame and hurt her self-esteem. But obviously, they are the most intimate people, and they are the people who should support each other and work together the most, aren't they
For a long time, Jingxiu felt pain. She didn't know what she should do to love Ji Yuyan better and save their precarious relationship.
She respects Ji Youyan's self-esteem, and leaves Ji Youyan alone. Ji Youyan deviates from her original intention, sold songs and performed plays and signed Wang Junchan. She was distressed and scared. She didn't know how many setbacks and insults Ji Yuyan would suffer if she continued to stand by. So on the basis of ensuring Ji Youyan's pride, she silently released the wind to protect Ji Youyan, making people dare not covet Ji Youyan, but Ji Youyan still chose the most hurtful way to hurt herself, entangled with people, and kept hyping.
It's not that she didn't understand Ji Yuyan. She comforted herself that maybe Ji Yuyan was a kite, destined to fly high. Ji Youyan doesn't want to be her wind, then she can be Ji Youyan's matchmaker. Even if they are far away, they are still connected.
But I don't know when it started, maybe it started when she tried to communicate with Ji Youyan again and again but only got dodging and deceiving, maybe it started when Ji Youyan missed her appointment again and again, but she had dating photos with her rumored boyfriend again and again. Xiu began to doubt herself.
Ji Youyan was still the kite, flying farther and farther, she stood on the spot holding the line, but she couldn't see whether she was still on the other end of her line.
Her line doesn't seem to be Ji Youyan's concern, but Ji Youyan's bondage? Ji You didn't mention breaking up, is it just because she promised "I will be responsible" when she gave her body and mind
She was uneasy and frightened, and she desperately wanted to change the status quo, but Ji Youyan was like quicksand in her hand. The tighter she held it, the faster it would drain.
She was desperate.
And tonight, she plucked up the courage to believe in Ji Yuyan's recent changes, and plucked up the courage to tell her honestly. Ji Youyan's silence, how could she not be disappointed.
Why didn't she help Ji Youyan that it was wrong, but Ji Youyan only thought she was wrong.
Being born in Rome seems like her original sin. If Ji Youyan will always be so clear with her, then even if they get back together, they will only experience mutual torture again.
Jingxiu's nose was a little sour, but she still gave Ji Youyan time. She looked at Ji Youyan, hoping that she might really be able to comfort herself.
Ji Youyan stood up, stepped beside Jingxiu in two steps, and squatted down beside her chair. She looked up at Jingxiu, her eyes were full of tenderness, and she explained softly, "Axiu, I just remembered some things from the past."
She wanted to ask Jingxiu about her previous life, but she immediately realized how could Jingxiu know. Jingxiu said that it was because Tao Xingruo wanted to develop the company that he signed him. This time it is a year earlier than the previous life, maybe because it was secretly intercepted by Wang Junchan in the previous life
She tentatively covered Jingxiu's right hand on her knee, Jingxiu shrank back slightly, and finally condoned her.
Ji Yuyan had a smile in his eyes. She sincerely thanked Jingxiu: "Thank you Axiu, thank you for helping me like this."
Jingxiu looked at her, her eyes twitching. As if she couldn't believe it, she asked Ji Youyan in a low voice, "Are you telling the truth?"
When she couldn't see how to help Ji Youyan before, Ji Youyan knew it was not that she didn't thank her. But she knew that Ji Youyan was reluctant from the bottom of her heart.
Ji Youyan looked at her expression, her heart seemed to be pierced by needles. How many times has she made her girl feel so wronged before.
She clenched Jingxiu's hand tightly, looked at Jingxiu's expression, lightly rested her chin on Jingxiu's knee, and said warmly, "I mean it."
"Axiu, I admit that it would be a lie to say that I was not embarrassed or disappointed at all when I knew that I had always been so-called self-reliance and still did not leave your help." It is not easy to admit one's inferiority. But compared to Jingxiu who had lowered her figure time and time again for her, it was nothing for her to let down a little pride now.
She used to judge herself by fame and fortune, and she felt that everyone would measure herself in this way. She was afraid that her humility and her arrogance would make Jingxiu look down on her. She paid attention to herself with all her heart, so much so that she was blind to Jingxiu's dedication and vulnerability.
Jingxiu felt the weight on his legs and froze his legs.
"But later, I felt more guilty and distressed. I felt distressed for always making you suffer like this, and I felt guilty for accepting your kindness but not really thanking you. I don't know how..." Before the evil words could be spoken, Jingxiu interrupted. took her.
"You don't have to belittle yourself like that."
Ji Yuyan felt warmth in his heart. It doesn't matter what others think, what matters is what Jingxiu thinks of her.
A word of "Yan Yan" swirled in his throat, but Jingxiu finally didn't call out. She said: "I didn't help you. You don't have anything that isn't self-reliant."
"Whether it was before or now when I signed Ran Wen, I have never interfered in your career development. The only time I wanted you to make a movie with me, and you refused, didn't you? A singer's achievement is a song, and an actor's achievement is a drama. , at most, I just provide you with an environment to focus on your career. If it weren't for the development of this circle of pathological conditions, wouldn't it be natural for talented people to come forward with their strength?"
"You perform the play yourself, and you win the award yourself based on your strength. What does it have to do with me if you can seize the opportunity to achieve success?" There are many people in this circle who can't even spend a lot of money, not to mention, She didn't spend money to support Ji Yuyan. Apart from the filter of her lover, she has always appreciated and believed Ji Youyan's talent.
Ji Youyan's eyes were like water, and he laughed softly.
"Yes, it has nothing to do with you." But when she figured it out in her last life, Jingxiu was no longer waiting for her.
"Axiu, I thank you for letting me meet Wei Yizhen." In the last life, she left Wang Junchan's suppression and control method and followed Wei Yizhen, and she slowly regained her confidence.
There was an almost imperceptible mist in Jingxiu's eyes. She said in a soft voice, "Wei Yizhen wasn't the one I was looking for, and it has nothing to do with me." She was bitten by a snake for ten years and was afraid of the rope.
Ji Youyan saw her showing a little familiar tenderness, and her heart became restless.
"I see," she replied in a low voice.
She is so desirable. Ji Youyan bit her lip, her heart beating like a drum. She couldn't hold back, and under Jingxiu's gaze, she tentatively put her thin lips on the back of Jingxiu's cold hand.
The warm touch seemed to burn all the way from the back of his hand into Jingxiu's heart. Her body shuddered and softened.
The long-standing desire was satisfied, Jingxiu heard a sigh of iron in his heart, and then, the desire was even worse, and he wanted more greedily.
Rational and emotional tugging, Jingxiu stared at Ji Youyan in a daze, hesitating to say anything.
Her non-resistance, her softness nourishes Ji Youyan's courage. Ji Youyan raised her graceful neck, her eyes burning hot. She stood up slowly, from looking up to looking down, trying to get close to Jingxiu's long coveted red lips.
Ji Youyan's hand was on the back of Jingxiu's chair, but it was only a short distance away, and their warm breaths were already entangled in the air...
Jingxiu's throat slid, and he suddenly turned his face away.
Ji Youyan was stunned, he stopped quickly, his knuckles turned white with force, and he restrained abruptly.
"Axiu..." She called out in a hoarse voice, with a hint of pity.
Jingxiu didn't dare to look at her, and said in a rustling voice, "Why didn't you think so before?" Her rationality finally prevailed.
"Why did you never communicate with me before?"
Why? Ji Youyan recited it silently in his heart. For many, many reasons, she didn't know where to start for a while.
"Maybe it's a fan of the authorities," she said with difficulty. The longer she broke up with Jingxiu, the more sober she became, and the more she regretted her disappointment. No matter what kind of hardships she once had, it was not a legitimate reason for her to hurt Jingxiu. But when she was caught in the game, she couldn't see clearly.
Jingxiu's line of sight was a little farther away, and he said slowly, "So, distance can help us communicate better, right?"
In the painful days after breaking up, she reflected on it many times. Was it because she was so eager to pursue Ji Youyan that she didn't communicate well, and she didn't give Ji Youyan enough time to think about it soberly, so that Ji Youyan agreed to be with her hastily.
After breaking up, Ji Yuyan never looked for her. If it wasn't for this time they met on the show, their story would have ended. Does she really want to be with her
To love or not to be together or not to be together, these are two things.
Guilt can make people dizzy for a while and move forward bravely, but time will erase everything.
Did Ji Yuyan really think about it this time? Are they really not going to make the same mistakes again
Jingxiu has no confidence.
Ji Youyan opened his mouth and was speechless.
The phone rang suddenly and hastily, and the voice came from Jingxiu's pocket. Jingxiu took out his mobile phone, and Ji Youyan saw that the screen showed that the place of the call seemed to be Yanzhou.
Jingxiu looked at the call and completely calmed down. Her eyes fell on Ji Youyan's arms around her, Ji Youyan quickly withdrew his hand in embarrassment and stood up straight.
Jingxiu nodded slightly, while picking up the phone, he got up and walked out.
Ji Youyan stood there and watched her, raised his hand and touched his lips absentmindedly. After a while, she bent her lips and let out a sigh of relief.
In any case, Axiu's loosening was obvious.
It's a long time coming, she can wait.