But the pain in retrospect was just an illusion after all, Jingxiu quickly recovered and calmed down. She looked at Ji Youyan's tenderness, a little moved, and a little melancholy.
If regret is valuable, then the price paid is not wasted. Unfortunately, it is impossible for a person to step into the same river twice, so even if you know you regret it, you may not be able to find a way without regret.
Jingxiu pondered for two seconds, and said sincerely to Gu Zinan: "Mr. Ji is right. But regretting this matter, saying that you will not make a regrettable choice in the future is too ideal. It is impossible to regret once in life because you have missed it once and regretted it once. To never make a mistake again.”
"Just don't make the same mistakes." This was her realization after she had thought through the pain.
Since the reunion, Ji Youyan has changed little by little, and she can see it in her eyes. Although she didn't know why Ji Youyan suddenly changed her mind, she was not sure whether Ji Youyan's change could really be maintained. But she became more and more aware that before, there was something wrong with the way she and Ji Yuyan got along.
It was her heart that moved first, she let go of her restraint and pride and took Ji Yuyan to this road, so she was reluctant to let Ji Yuyan suffer a little grievance with her, to be embarrassed by her, and to make more demands on her. But perhaps it is because of this that they have never really opened their hearts to share their joys, sorrows and sorrows, never really got to know each other completely, and entered a period of running-in, which made this relationship miss the opportunity to grow. Ji Youyan stopped in place, she unilaterally gave in without bottom line, but only allowed the distance between the two to retreat further and further.
Jingxiu still doesn't know what the best way to get along with Ji Youyan is now, but she thinks, at least, she can't make that mistake again.
She took off her mask of forbearance and tolerance, revealing her hard-to-get true self, hoping to get more Ji Yuyan under the mask. This time, she can't be the one who has been taking the initiative.
She said it to Gu Zinan, but also to herself. But the speaker was unintentional, the listener was intentional, and Ji Youyan took his seat with a guilty conscience.
Axiu... Do you still mind why you are worried about bothering her that you didn't explain just now
Ji Yuyan was annoyed. Sometimes she doesn't know what's going on with herself. She has clearly made up her mind to change, but when she really faces it, she will always revert to her old ways unconsciously.
"Xiao Die and the program team, I will try my best to make big things small and trivial. You can continue the game with peace of mind." Jingxiu promised. Everyone is bullying the soft and afraid of the hard. Xiao Die can't do anything about her and Ji Youyan, but Gu Zinan is different.
Gu Zinan has never dared to think about what to do after the match and after this incident. After hearing this, she felt that she could breathe a little.
"But..." Jingxiu changed his words and reminded: "I can help you for a while, but I can't help you for a long time. You still need to communicate with your economic company. Liangzi has already been established, as long as Xiao Die is still alive. Wait, I can't tell when he will wait for an opportunity to retaliate. It's up to you later."
She looked after Gu Zinan's cold compress, and while talking, she peeled off the hot egg, wrapped it in a handkerchief and handed it to her.
Gu Zinan's face darkened after regaining some energy. "Enough is enough, Mr. Jing, thank you. What's next is the tuition that I should pay." She knew that Jingxiu had done her best, and thanked her with interest.
She took the egg, rolled it on her face mechanically, and said with a wry smile: "It's really not good, I'll leave this circle."
"I entered this circle at the age of 16, and the people of the same period as me have already achieved small achievements. Maybe, I am really not suitable for this path. I can't get out, and I can't stand loneliness. , but people always have to recognize the distance between dreams and reality." The loneliness and depression in her words made Ji Youyan very uncomfortable.
In countless frustrated days and nights, this confusion has also tormented her repeatedly.
Ji Youyan said that there was a gloomy gathering between his eyebrows. But out of the corner of her eye, she glanced at Jingxiu who was sitting beside her, and quickly let go.
She raised her hand and flicked Gu Zinan's forehead, pretending to be relaxed: "What are you thinking, how old are you now?"
Gu Zinan covered his forehead and stared blankly at Ji Youyan. Jingxiu's eyes also fell on Ji Youyan.
Ji Youyan asked Gu Zinan in a warm voice, "How do you think I am now? On the career path."
"The future is boundless." Gu Zinan said sincerely. Ji Youyan was in traffic before, and his popularity was not bad. He even got an after-view this year, and his acting skills were also recognized. With popularity and strength, everyone can see that her career will go to a higher level.
Ji Youyan snorted lightly: "But I'm 27 years old this year. At your age, I, like you, achieved nothing."
Gu Zinan was choked.
"What do you think about Teacher Jing?" Ji Youyan asked softly.
"Mr. Jing had already won an actress when she was about your age. At the age of 25, she had already become a double actress. Compared with her, am I not worth mentioning?" Ji Youyan asked herself replied.
Gu Zinan was speechless. After a few seconds, she subconsciously retorted: "You can't compare like this. Teacher Jing is different. Everyone says that Teacher Jing is a genius with great luck." Xiu is an idol, even a legend. Her achievements are an indispensable result of the right time and place.
Ji Yuyan sneered. She stared at Jingxiu, her tender eyes gradually turned dark, she mustered up her courage, and said to herself, "Why can't we compare?"
"Are you really convinced? Have you really never thought about it? Why can't we be Jingxiu? Or, why can't we be the next Jingxiu?" The voice was not heavy, but it was strong.
This question showed too obvious unwillingness, even injustice. Not only Gu Zinan's heart was startled, but Jingxiu's heart also trembled.
It turned out that she was so dissatisfied. Jingxiu was in a complicated mood, a little dull pain, and a little joyful because he knew more about Ji Yuyan's thoughts.
"Isn't it a very over-the-top idea?" Ji Youyan laughed at himself frankly. She wanted to see Jingxiu's expression at the moment, but she didn't dare to.
"It's nothing to be overly self-sufficient." Before Gu Zinan could answer, Jingxiu answered Ji You flatly, "I'm not that great either, I just have a little more luck."
She never thought so. It is an honor to be able to do a job that you like, and awards and honors are unexpected joys. There are many people in this circle who work harder than her, or even more powerful than her. She can get these, it's just that chance and luck are better than others. Happy, of course, but nothing to be proud of.
"Axiu, that's not what I meant. I don't think you're anything special, I just think... " Ji Youyan nervously wanted to explain.
Jingxiu's tone softened: "I know, I have no other intentions. You continue."
Ji Youyan looked into Jingxiu's eyes, confirmed that Jingxiu was listening, and was really not angry, so he relaxed.
She continued to explain Gu Zinan and said, "Actually, it's me, Teacher Jing, and even Shen Zhiman, the movie goddess. When comparing, they are all just a target and a reference. What's the difference? Actually, at your age, There are also people who are worse than you. Compared with you, I am okay, but compared with Teacher Jing, I am nothing. "
"Zi Nan, I've gone through detours before. But later, I've come to understand a truth more and more - don't compare yourself with others, it's too tiring, there will always be someone you can't compare with."
"Maybe, each of us has our own time zone. People born in London will always see the sun an hour later than people born in Rome. It's not our fault that we are late. We just need to save money in our own time zone. Heat, after a long cold night, there will always be time to wait until the sun in our own time zone." This is what she realized when she followed Wei Yizhen after breaking up with Jingxiu, and slowly healed her heart disease and calmed her mind.
This kind of open-mindedness is the quality that she attracted Jingxiu in the first place. It's just that, as if after being with her, this trait disappeared from Ji Youyan without knowing it.
Jingxiu's heart pounded when he heard her sweet voice. At the same time, a strange feeling came to mind. In just a few months, why did Ji Yuyan suddenly change so much
"Even if you are not in this circle, you will not be able to succeed in other careers except for the lucky few. Be patient and don't worry, okay?" She comforted Gu Zinan gently.
Gu Zinan was stunned, and dazed. No one has ever said this to her, her parents have always complained that she spent so much money studying art, but nothing has been accomplished, the agency has always blamed her for not being flexible and unable to seize opportunities, so she became more and more anxious, more and more panic.
"Mr. Ji, I see." She replied with tears in her eyes.
Ji Yuyan touched her head in relief. There are some truths, and she may not be able to really do it if she understands it, but she tried her best.
Jingxiu is infected by Ji Youyan. She took out a business card from her wallet, handed it to Gu Zinan, and said lightly, "If you have an appointment with the brokerage company and want to change jobs to Guangyu, you can come to me."
Gu Zinan was overjoyed and thanked him repeatedly.
Ji Youyan was surprised, Jingxiu was softer and kinder than he thought.
Jingxiu's cell phone on the coffee table rang, and it was the personal doctor who said she was here. Jingxiu called Yao Xiao's phone and asked Yao Xiao to pick him up. Then, she looked at Gu Zinan's red and swollen face and asked, "It's not convenient for you to go back to the dormitory now, right? I'll ask Director Chen to open it for you. A new room, will you keep it for two days?"
Gu Zinan wanted to agree, but then hesitantly and hesitantly appeared on his face.
"What's wrong?" Ji Youyan noticed.
Gu Zinan said embarrassedly: "I... I'm alone in the room now, I'm a little scared... Xiao Die, will I suddenly call someone... "
Jingxiu and Ji You said: "..."
Well, I was just frightened, and it is understandable to feel a little more insecure.
"Then otherwise... You are staying in my room for a night tonight?" Ji Youyan suggested.
The bedroom and bed are considered very private areas, and it was actually a little difficult for her to sell. But considering Gu Zinan's mood, and also considering that she might...maybe...be able to stay in Jingxiu's bedroom! Ji Yuyan reluctantly persuaded herself.
"What about you?" Jingxiu frowned. sleep together? !
Gu Zinan said logically: "No, no, if you don't mind, Mr. Ji and Mr. Jing, just lend me the sofa to sleep for one night."
Jingxiu looked at her delicate body and felt that she was too impersonal.
Ji Youyan said quickly and generously: "It's alright, you can sleep in my room." She tentatively said in a cautious tone: "Mr. Jing, I… can I squeeze you for a night first?"
His big eyes sparkled with unbearable anticipation.
Jingxiu: "…"
"Let's do this first." After a while, Jingxiu bit her lip and compromised.
Ji Yuyan was elated.
The author has something to say: Teacher Ji: Perhaps, this is my late Valentine's Day benefit
Teacher Jing responded: Maybe, you can open another room
Teacher Ji: ... ... go to bed quickly.
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