My Feelings Can Wait

Chapter 70

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"Auntie, don't cry, tell Yanyan, let her come back soon." Ji Youyan heard the male voice say.

Zhong Qingyu choked and said: "Yanyan, your father has an accident, come back soon. It's in the city's first hospital. I just... I just called you, you changed your number, I can't contact you at all... "

The helplessness in her mother's voice broke Ji Yuyan's heart.

"Mom, I was wrong." She burst into tears: "Mom, don't be afraid, I'll be at the airport soon, wait for me, I'll be back soon."

It's been a few years since we've seen each other, and it's as if mountains, rivers and seas are separated between their family, but at this moment, hearing Ji Youyan's voice and hearing Ji Youyan's comfort, Zhong Qingyu still feels like he has found a pillar, and his heart really has it. A little sense of realism.

When the airport arrived, Ji Youyan hung up the phone, wiped her tears and got out of the car.

On the plane, Ji Youyan pursed her lips and sat wearily. All kinds of past and present lives replayed in her mind like a revolving lantern.

When I was 20 years old, in order to pursue the dream of music, and to stop being like a puppet in the hands of my parents, to follow the path arranged by them, and to live a life that could see the end at a glance, I was always regarded as a proud child of other people's children and parents. She insisted on dropping out of school, giving up the great future in the eyes of everyone, and even the great marriage, which was considered by everyone to be deviant.

Qing Gao's father, who has been studying for a lifetime, believes that all things are inferior, only reading is high. It seems that from the moment she was born, he planned her future life: study hard and live in peace. After graduation, like his parents, he will become a university professor, or take an exam as a civil servant, marry a good man of the right household, and live a simple but comfortable life.

He doesn't like the "stars" who put on heavy makeup and please others on TV all day long. In his eyes, this profession seems to be no different from the actors of the old days. After the fierce quarrel, he said "yes" three times in a row and questioned her sternly: "For so many years, I have planned everything for you and for your own good. I asked myself about my father. Are you gone? I can't take care of you, right? You don't have my father in your eyes anymore, do you?!"

Ji Youyan held his neck and said aggrieved: "That's what you think is good, not what I want! For so many years, I have no freedom at all, I'm a human! It's not a doll dressed up with others, have you asked me what I want? "

He was shaking all over with anger, and asked her in a deep voice, "So, it's still my fault, I'm sorry for you, right?!"

She bit her lip and didn't say a word, tears streaming down her face. There was no way to communicate, he was never wrong, always right.

Her tacit attitude made him even more angry and chilling. He pointed to the door and rebuked: "Okay, you want freedom, I'll give you freedom! I'm sorry for Ji Changsong, and my family can't afford your big Buddha. Ji Youyan , listen, if you stepped out of this door today, I, Ji Changsong, would not have..."

His mother tried to stop him, but he pushed him away. He still said: "I, Ji Changsong, don't have a daughter like you, nor do you have a student like you at Jinghua University. Don't hang on to our name, be grandstanding, humiliate the public, and bring a bad school spirit!"

Ji Youyan looked at his heartless appearance, cried and laughed suddenly, feeling disheartened. She knelt down and kowtowed to him, went back to the room and dragged her luggage, ignoring her mother's cry, and left without looking back.

The mother chased out and stuffed her with a bank card. Tears were all over her mother's face, as if there were thousands of words she wanted to say. In the end, she only said one sentence: "Let's go, so you can do it yourself."

On the way, she received a text message from her mother, saying: "Yanyan, like your father, I am very disappointed in you. However, you can't listen to what I advise you now, and I don't want to accuse you of anything. I just hope You, you are responsible for the choice you make, and you will never regret it. The family can't help you, you take care of yourself and do it yourself. I hope you can have a good dream and a successful career. "

Ji Youyan hugged her phone, crouched down, and cried her heart out on the street.

When leaving Yanzhou, she looked back at the city one last time. She was smug, and she swore that she would make a breakthrough.

But the reality was far more cruel than she thought. In the two years she first entered the entertainment industry, she was unknown and accomplished nothing. She didn't dare to contact her former classmates, friends and teachers, let alone contact her parents.

At the beginning of the fourth year, she had a little splash in her career because she switched to film and television. During the Spring Festival that year, she mustered up the courage to go back to her parents. But she couldn't find them, they moved.

The mother answered her phone and made an appointment with her outside the restaurant.

Without saying a few words, her mother asked her bluntly if the rumored same-sex scandal between her and Jingxiu was true.

She couldn't open her mouth to deny it, and her silent attitude said it all.

The mother's face changed greatly and she accused her: "Do you really know what you are doing now? Is this the dream you said at the beginning? Is this the freedom and life you want? Your father said it was a big dye vat at the beginning. I didn't let you go, but I believed in you, and I wanted to persuade your father for a while. But look at what you did after you went out? Do you know what the news is saying about you? Does your dad point something? Do you know how embarrassed we are when our colleagues and friends come to ask us with all kinds of tidbits about you?"

"Tell me, did you really sell yourself and follow a woman for the sake of fame and fortune."

Ji Youyan asked her with red eyes: "Mom, is that what you think of me? Do you just not believe me?" It's okay if others think of her, even her mother thinks of her.

She doesn't ask how much she has suffered and how much grievances she has suffered in recent years, she just blames and questions. All she cares about is their face, right

"If I say no, I just love her so I'm with her, and I'm gay, would you feel more accepting?"

Mother also blushed and did not speak. After a while, she said, "I can't accept it, can you change it?"

Ji Yuyan looked at her, and tears rolled down suddenly. "How can I change this? I can't help it." Her attitude turned cold.

"You're so disappointing to me. Let's go, we won't contact you until you figure it out." The mother stopped looking at her, as if looking at her again would make her eyes dirty.

Ji Youyan's heart seemed to be delayed by something, blood dripping. Her pride, her cold heart, made her unable to bow her head.

She choked her throat, wiped away her tears, and said word by word, "I'm sorry, you have been embarrassed by giving birth to a daughter like me." After speaking, she left the bank card that Zhong Qingyu gave her to her. Into the snow.

After she went back, she had a small success in her career, and she paid Zhong Qingyu every month. After Zhong Qingyu found out, she would always return double the money to her and refused. Ji Youyan's heart slowly became cold, and then she simply gave up making money, and only sent something to the school during the festival.

Later, her information was leaked, she changed the number, sent a text message to her mother, and found that her mother's number was empty. It is also sad to do this as a parent and child, Ji Youyan gradually despaired. She didn't know what she should do to satisfy her parents and accept her with her parents. In addition to working harder in her career and seeking an achievement, she is powerless and full of hesitation.

Later, she broke up with Jingxiu, she was hidden by Dingfeng, her life was a mess, she couldn't take care of herself, and she completely lost contact with her parents. She followed Wei Yizhen, and she wanted to go back to find her parents the year she won the actress by her own strength. However, there was no time to go back.

She is dead.

After carefully sorting out the context of the previous life, and then recalling the fragility in her mother's words just now, Ji Youyan felt remorse. So was it like this in the past? Did your father have an accident in the previous life? When the mother was most hesitant and frightened in the last life, was it the same way that she couldn't contact herself

She is such an unfilial daughter.

Ji Youyan covered her eyes, gasping for breath.

Wei Yizhen saw that she was in a bad mood, and comforted her: "Uncle rescued him in time, Jiren has a natural appearance, and he will be fine."

Ji Youyan answered her in a low voice, "Yeah."

After a long time, Ji Youyan calmed down and asked Wei Yizhen, "My mother said she couldn't contact me, so how did you know about it?"

Wei Yizhen thought about the whole thing carefully, and figured out that something was wrong. She answered Ji You truthfully and said, "Jingxiu suddenly called and told me. I was also surprised at the time."

Ji Youyan's heart skipped a beat, and conditioned reflex: "How did she know?!"

"I don't know about that. I didn't respond to inquire at the time."

Ji Youyan first flashed one possibility in her mind, but she thought it was too far-fetched. Then, she thought of the second possibility, which was a little hard to accept. She rubbed her brows and suppressed her doubts.

She asked for Wei Yizhen's opinion: "Sister Wei, I may need to accompany me in the hospital for a while. Look at the work side..."

Wei Yizhen sighed, "There's nothing I can do. I try my best to negotiate with the other party, and push back as much as I can, but the recording the day after tomorrow is too urgent, so I might not be able to explain it."

Ji Yuyan's heart also sank.

"After I get off the plane, I will try my best to see if I can find someone to rescue me." Wei Yi said in a reasonable and reasonable way: "Uncle is important. Let's see how uncle is doing first, and then think about how to arrange it in the future."

we can only do this. Ji You said tiredly: "Well, I'll trouble Sister Wei."

Three and a half hours later, Ji Youyan, Wei Yizhen and Lin Yue arrived in Yanzhou. After getting off the plane and hearing the familiar accents that can be heard everywhere in the airport, Ji Youyan has mixed feelings. She never thought that when she came back here again, she would be in such a situation.

A pick-up car has been arranged outside the airport, Ji Youyan got in the car and went straight to the city's first hospital.

After getting out of the car and seeing the golden sign of the outpatient department of the First Hospital of the City, Ji Youyan's heart began to thump, and her legs and feet became weak. Following the instructions of her mother on the phone on the way, she found the thin figure of her mother on the corridor of the intensive care unit.

She was lying on the glass and went to the ward to see. Beside her, a woman of the same age was supporting her, and behind her were two men, one in fifty or sixty, the other standing before her.

Ji Youyan breathed heavily and walked towards them with heavy steps.

The sound of their high-heeled shoes hitting the tiles was particularly abrupt in the silent night. Zhong Qingyu and the others followed the sound and collided with Ji Youyan's eyes.

Only then did Ji Youyan see Zhong Qingyu's appearance clearly. Her usual neatly groomed hair was disheveled, and her eyes were red, haggard and tired. She has aged a lot, and her normally upright figure has become hunched. I can no longer see the once splendid French department flower.

Tears blurred Ji Yuyan's vision. She couldn't hold it any longer, she walked quickly to Zhong Qingyu, hugged her, and whimpered.

"Mom, I'm back, Mom, I'm sorry, I'm late."

Zhong Qingyu froze for a few seconds, then slowly hugged her back, tears wet Ji Youyan's shoulders.

No matter how many estrangements their hearts had, at least at this moment, Ji Youyan felt that their hearts were united.

Everyone standing beside them wiped away their tears. Lu Fang's mother, Professor Liu, patted Ji Youyan and Zhong Qingyu on the back and comforted: "It's good to be back, it's good to be back, don't cry anymore, crying too much will hurt your health."

Ji Youyan remembered that there were still outsiders, and stopped her tears. She let go of Zhong Qingyu, wiped her mother's tears, and asked her, "Mom, stop crying, how is Dad?" She touched the glass of the ICU and looked at Ji Changsong on the hospital bed with heartache.

"Now the person has been rescued, but the doctor said that the physical signs are not stable, and we will have to look at the situation later." Zhong Qingyu's voice was completely hoarse.

Ji Youyan helped Zhong Qingyu to sit down on the chair.

"Uncle has ketoacidosis complicated by myocardial infarction and other complications, so it was dangerous at one time, but the rescue was timely and it will be fine." The man on the side explained warmly. He looked at Ji Youyan's eyes with forbearance of love and affection.

Ji Youyan then turned to look at Lu Fang's family.

"Yanyan, let me take you to see the attending doctor." Lu Fang said thoughtfully.

Ji Yuyan nodded. She thought for a while, then turned to Wei Yizhen and Lin Yue and said, "Sister Wei, accompany Yueyue to buy some food and warm up my mother and uncles and aunts." In the middle of the night, she was worried that Lin Yue would go out alone.

Professor Liu said politely, "No need..."

"Yes." Ji Youyan bowed to them sincerely and said, "Thank you uncle and auntie, thank you... Brother Xiao Fang, thank you."

Professor Liu rubbed her head and said kindly, "It's all right." She sat down beside Zhong Qingyu, took Zhong Qingyu's hand, patted her on her knee, and persuaded her, "Now the child is back. Now, let’s go to the past, the safety of the family is more important than anything else, don’t you think?”

Zhong Qingyu looked at Ji Youyan's disappearing figure, and tears wet her eyes again. She nodded slightly.

Professor Liu followed to look at the back of his son and Ji Youyan who were a good match, and sighed.

This girl from the Ji family is still so outstanding, and she is still so thoughtful and considerate in dealing with people and things. They really like it, and so does my son.

Pity.

The author has something to say: Teacher Jing eats lemons: I like it too.

The article involves medical aspects. Because I am not a professional, I wrote it based on the information I consulted, so there may be bugs. Please understand.

By the way, in the first few chapters, there was an opinion about microphone debugging put forward by a stage-related worker. I gave a reply and explanation at that time. Thank you for your opinion. Later, because of the unpleasantness of other floors, I wanted to delete it after I replied. In order to delete my own reply, I could only delete the entire comment. Hope the little cutie is not misunderstood.

In any case, I still hope that the article can bring a little happiness to the little cuties.

Of course, if you can, it would be even more grateful if you could give me a little joy. :-D