The originally good atmosphere of the conversation was wiped out by Ji Yuyan's sudden stupidity. When Ji Youyan heard Jingxiu's advice, she covered her mouth in embarrassment, put down her phone and trotted to the bathroom to wash.
Soon she came back, her lips were red and moist, and she defended in a low voice: "I want to kiss it. It hurts..." She said with a choked voice.
Jingxiu's heart is warm. She put her arms around her belly, half covering the scar, and said warmly, "It's over." In fact, no matter how painful it was, she didn't feel the pain at that time.
When Ji Youyan saw Jingxiu's embrace, he suddenly said nervously, "Axiu, are you cold?"
Jingxiu was suddenly asked this question by her, and when he saw how nearly naked he was facing the camera, he felt ashamed.
She didn't answer Ji Yuyan's question, and went straight to get the pajamas on the sheet. She first put her arms into her sleeves, then stretched her waist and put her head in.
Ji Youyan stared intently at Jingxiu's graceful body in the video, and swallowed inappropriately. Just when everything was about to be hidden under the clothes, Ji Youyan asked her curiously, "Axiu, what is the English tattoo on it?"
There was a small black tattoo near the edge of Jingxiu's scar, which Ji Youyan couldn't see clearly.
Jingxiu put on her clothes, and subconsciously followed Ji Youyan's question, and stroked where the tattoo on her ribs was. "The first letter is F." She said lightly.
Ji Yuyan had many words in his mind.
The tattoo was suggested by a friend when Jingxiu was in a bad mood a year after the breakup.
"When designing, I told the tattoo artist that the best tattoo is 'forget'."
Forget something, it goes without saying. Ji Yuyan bit her lip.
"When I lay down, I regretted it." If you can really forget, why should the "forget" tattoo on your body become a memory.
But it's just trying to cover up and deceive others. Jingxiu curled his fingertips slightly, "Finally, I got tattoos forgive."
She lowered her eyes, with a bit of self-deprecation, "Unfortunately, you see, I didn't do well in these two words in the end."
It's forgiveness. Ji Youyan's eyes loomed again. "No, Axiu, you have done enough."
She was glad that Jingxiu didn't do it completely. If Jingxiu had done it all, what should she do now, who was still stuck in the same place and unwilling to leave. But she felt distressed again, distressed for her last life to the end, she still didn't do it well, but she could never wait for her Jingxiu.
Jingxiu was noncommittal. She pondered a little, pressed the scar, and turned back to the topic that had just been interrupted by Ji Youyan's actions: "Yanyan."
Ji Youyan listened to Jingxiu's words with gentle eyes.
"Like when I showed you the ugliest scar on my body, I also felt embarrassed, apprehensive, and even afraid that you would think my body was no longer perfect. However, I choose to believe in you. Likewise, Yanyan, if you put your Your wound is exposed to me, and I can't lick your wound, but I despise its ugliness, and you don't have to miss a lover like me. It's not worth it."
"You don't even have such trust in me. Is it because I haven't done well enough to give you a sense of security?"
Ji Youyan lowered her head and said abruptly: "No, Axiu, it's my own problem. Axiu, I..." She tightened her fingers on the phone and continued: "I was kicked out of the house by my parents back then, as if The worldview collapsed. After that, the shadow seemed to never go away.”
Her eyes were wet: "At that time, I felt that I was alone in the north, and I had a feeling of being shut out of the world. I suddenly discovered that what I learned from books since I was a child, the so-called parents' love is selfless and great, It's not entirely true. I'm their ideal daughter, and they love me, and I'm not what they're ideal, so they can ruthlessly drive me away. I realized that even the blood is connected by birth. The love of parents is conditional and can be withdrawn at any time. My self-protection mechanism seems to make me subconsciously, no longer able to fully trust and rely on a person. I don’t know, this world is Not really someone who can fully accept me and love me for all that I am, including the different, imperfect sides of me and hers that I imagined. I'm… so afraid of being dumped again."
Jingxiu listened to her talk about her fear, and saw her sad face with red eyes, her heart ached unbearably.
Ji Youyan squeezed out a smile at this moment, looked directly at her and said softly: "But I believe in you now. Axiu, I believe in you. Even me who was so unbearable, you are willing to give me another chance, It's enough to show that you are real, love me miserably, don't you?"
Jingxiu opened his mouth and suddenly became silent. Although she was happy when she saw Ji Youyan's radiant appearance, although she really had no way to refute Ji Youyan's conclusion, she really wanted to turn off the video and terminate the call.
After a long while, Jingxiu looked away and said with difficulty, "You are right."
Ji Youyan's tears turned into laughter, Jingxiu restrained her shyness, looked directly at Ji Youyan and said, "But Yanyan, love is not enough. Love is easy, but getting along is not easy. I admit that I was not frank enough before, I thought I was Everything can be accommodated, but it has resulted in more and more problems between us.”
"There is something wrong with the way we get along. I even think that I was too forbearing in the past, that I condone your non-communication. If we can't change the way we get along, we will never be the right person for each other. I don't want to be like before. That's it, I don't want to be like this anymore, I'll force you a little bit, you tell me a little bit. The forever initiative, I can't do it. "
Ji You's words were as tender as water, and he promised: "Then I'll do it. Axiu, this time, can I take the initiative?"
Jingxiu's feathered eyelashes fanned lightly, showing a shaky look.
"It's my turn to chase you, okay?" Ji You said in a persuasive manner.
Jingxiu lowered his neck, and after a few seconds, he said quietly, "Aren't you already chasing?" The voice was soft, like a feather scratching Ji Yuyan's heart.
Ji Youyan's whole portrait was lit up at once, and he licked his lips and said tentatively, "Then... Then have you seen my sincerity and change?"
Jingxiu answered her with an almost inaudible "Yeah."
Ji Yuyan's spirit was lifted. She thought of something, struck while the iron was hot, and summoned the courage to invite Jingxiu: "Axiu, would you like to come and see my father?" It was a gesture of completely letting go of her territory.
Jingxiu's throat moved a little, in addition to being moved and happy, there were grievances and tears that could not be controlled in her heart. This invitation, how she used to wait from anticipation to death.
But she still held back her desire and asked Ji Youyan rationally: "Does your father know of my existence?"
Ji Yuyan actually didn't know the answer. In the past two days, she has not had time to talk about this topic with her parents. When her mother asked her about Jingxiu, she mentioned very few things. It was more like a guess that she did not want to believe, and she did not mention her father. Do you know what the attitude is. But thinking about it, it is estimated that knowing it would not be a good attitude.
She replied honestly to Jingxiu: "My mother knows, my father, I don't know if she knows."
"Then what's your mother's attitude?" Although the environment is actually much better now than before, Jingxiu didn't dare to expect too much from Ji Youyan's family's old-fashioned traditions.
Ji Youyan's expression darkened, "My mother... I don't really agree."
Jingxiu's expression also darkened. She said softly: "Then are you sure, I'm going to see your father now, won't your father be angry?"
Ji Yu was speechless.
Jingxiu understands Ji Youyan's intention to invite her at this moment, so she can understand her better, now is not the right time.
"Yanyan, there are some things, don't be in a hurry. All I want is your attitude. You wait for your uncle to get better first, and deal with the family affairs first."
Ji Youyan felt Jingxiu's thoughtfulness and generosity, and when he thought about his already bursting presence with Jingxiu's parents, and then when he thought about his parents' unknown attitude and Lu Fang's ambiguous attitude, he felt ashamed and soft.
She touched Jingxiu's beautiful and gentle face on the screen, giving birth to infinite longing. It would be great if she was by Jingxiu's side at this moment. I want to hug her, and I want to kiss her. But maybe, Jingxiu would reject her
According to what Jingxiu agreed with, Ji Youyan asked Jingxiu carefully: "Axiu, if there is a progress bar between us, then my heart, on the way to your heart, walk How many processes are over?"
Jingxiu was stopped by her questioning.
Afraid that Jingxiu would say a terrible low number, Ji Youyan hurriedly saved herself and said, "Is there 80%?" She said this ratio with a guilty conscience.
Jingxiu recalled the orthographic characters drawn on the notebook... Obviously there were none at all. However, she looked at Ji Youyan's nostalgic face, looked at the small look of anticipation and anxiety on her face, and silently filled up all the lack of "righteousness" in her heart.
"Yeah." She affirmed with red ears.
Ji Yuyan smiled instantly. She felt a sense of stability and stability, and she said: "In that 80% process, can I hug and kiss my face?"
Jingxiu: "…"
Jingxiu didn't speak, and Ji Youyan took her as the default. She finalized the chapter and said, "Is it possible or not, then I will write it down first."
Jingxiu moved his lips, but he did not refuse. It's not that she doesn't long for Ji Yuyan's hugs and kisses.
Ji You understood what she said, and said gently, "Axiu, wait for me to go back." As soon as she finished speaking, she couldn't help yawning.
Jingxiu frowned, "How long has it been since you slept?"
Ji Youyan rubbed his eyes and whispered, "I didn't sleep last night."
That is? Jingxiu's face sank, and he said in a low pressure, "Go to bed now." She could see that Ji Youyan was behind the bed, ready to sleep.
Hearing the displeasure in Jingxiu's tone, Ji Youyan was rather sweet. "Okay, I'll take a shower and go."
After a pause, she said with a coquettish taste: "Axiu, can you not hang up the video first, I want to watch you sleep."
Jingxiu didn't speak. Ji Youyan added: "Just put your phone on the bedside and do your own thing. I won't affect you."
Jingxiu sighed, neither saying good nor bad.
But the phone was still standing by the bedside, "Come on." She took out the book and flipped through it, as if carelessly.
Ji Yuyan was satisfied. Seeing that she really didn't care about her side at all, she turned off the speaker, reluctantly took a few more screen shots of Jingxiu's silhouette, and then took the clothes and went to the bathroom.
A few minutes later, Jingxiu found out that Ji Youyan really didn't affect him at all - he didn't hear the voice from Ji Youyan's end at all.
She couldn't help but turn her head to look at the phone, only to see that the light on the screen had turned warm yellow.
The picture that the camera is facing is vaguely distinguishable as frosted glass with a white cloth gauze in the bathroom.
Under the strong light of Yuba, the figure of the person bathing in the cloth was clearly visible. Although she can't see her body at all, Ji Yuyan's slender and slender figure is like applying shower gel: she lifts her slender neck, raises her hand along her neck, and slides all the way down...
Through the shadow, Jingxiu could see every move clearly.
Did Ji Yuyan do it on purpose? ! It was as if a string had broken in Jingxiu's mind.
Her heart was pounding and her ears were red with heat.
Eyes, but can not move completely.
The author has something to say: Sister Ji is cunning: Axiu peeks at other people's baths and is ashamed~
Teacher Jing's ears were so red that blood dripped: I was reading, and I didn't see anything.
Sister Ji is meaningful: Oh~~
Teacher Jing is annoyed: Chicken coop warning!