My Feelings Can Wait

Chapter 87

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Jingxiu's eyes flickered, and he lowered his head and said angrily to Ji You, "The strong words are arguing."

Ji Youyan shook her arms around her waist, and said ambiguous: "Then do you want this return gift?"

Jingxiu wanted to say "no", but when she saw the vague apprehension in Ji Youyan's eyes, she softened her tone and joked, "Are you so good at bribing?"

"That's not it." Ji Youyan denied it seriously, "It mainly depends on who is giving the gift."

"Only you can do it." She leaned close to Jingxiu's ear and said with a sigh of relief, "You stand in front of me, you don't have to do anything, I just want to dedicate myself to you."

The heat crept into Jingxiu's heart along his ears, and Jingxiu's breathing that had just calmed down became chaotic again.

"Axiu, will you accept it?" Ji Youyan was still coaxing her in a sultry low tone in her ear. She kissed Jingxiu's earlobe lightly, down the line, kissed her delicate mandible angle, tender swan neck...

Jingxiu couldn't hold it anymore. She leaned back slightly, avoiding Ji Yuyan's kiss.

Ji Yuyan stared at her with burning affection.

Jingxiu bit his lip. She compromised: "After I answer..." When she made a sound, she realized how soft her voice was now. She quickly stopped talking, cleared her throat calmly, and continued: "Before I answer you, please answer me a question."

Ji Youyan's eyes lit up, and he said quickly, "Okay." Don't say one, a hundred is fine.

"Why did you suddenly figure it out?"

Ji Youyan repeated doubtfully, "Have you figured it out?"

Jingxiu left her embrace, turned around to look at the lanterns swaying in the dark, and said out of focus: "Suddenly wanting to start over with me, suddenly becoming brave and calm... Obviously if you didn't meet this time on the show, you would I didn't mean to look back for me."

"I didn't mean to disbelieve you." She looked sideways at Ji Youyan and smiled lightly: "I just don't believe in my own charm."

She pretended to smile easily, which hurt Ji Youyan's eyes and hurt Ji Youyan's heart. She took Jingxiu's hand and said solemnly, "Axiu, it's not that I don't want to look back."

"I just can't look back."

Jingxiu clasped Ji Youyan's hand tightly and listened quietly.

Ji Youyan said in a low voice: "I used to... I thought you were tired of being with a coward like me, so I broke up with me. I thought I wasn't worthy, so I didn't dare to pester you."

She raised Jingxiu's hand to her heart, and explained half-truths: "A few months ago, I passed out from hypoglycemia once. When I passed out, I thought I was going to die. Fear, instead, there is a sense of happiness that I can finally be released. This boring life can finally end." Before she died, she really sighed in her vague consciousness.

Jingxiu was moved, tears welling up in his eyes for a moment. She thought of something, and her heart was cut like a knife.

Ji Youyan wanted to drown in Jingxiu's tender tears. But she still wiped away Jingxiu's tears and coaxed her: "Don't cry, the weather is cold and windy, and your face is easy to get frostbite when wet."

Is this the point? Jingxiu was poked at the point of laughter, unable to laugh or cry. She glanced at Ji Youyan with red eyes, Ji Youyan took her to the lantern area with a little windshield, and said softly as she walked: "So when I come back to life, I will treat the rest of my life as an extra pick up. I swear in my heart that this time I will be myself and live a meaningful life."

"And my life, without you, has no meaning." She confessed under the rows of red lanterns.

The lights are shining brightly. The swaying hazy red light reflected Ji Youyan's dark eyes like stars twinkling, affectionate and charming. She raised Jingxiu's hand, dropped a kiss, and took out a heart-shaped paper ring from her pocket.

"Stay with me and spend the rest of your life with me, okay?"

Jingxiu's heart was beating wildly, and he couldn't resist. She calmly said with the last bit of restraint, "Is this paper ring a little ugly?"

Ji Youyan explained dotingly: "It was made by me on the way, but it was not my intention. It was made of the diary of the day we reunited."

Jingxiu's ring finger trembled as she touched the ring, "What's written on it?"

Ji Youyan tempted her and said, "How about you promise me and I'll tell you?"

Jingxiu lowered her long eyelashes: "Then don't tell me." With such a soft tone, how could Ji Youyan not be able to hear her duplicity.

She pushed the ring domineeringly into Jingxiu's knuckles and said with a smile, "No way."

Jingxiu stared at Ji Youyan with pretentious dissatisfaction, but at the moment when she stumbled into Ji Youyan's eyes, she finally revealed her sweetness uncontrollably.

Ji Youyan couldn't help but hug Jingxiu again, pursed Jingxiu's lips, and whispered, "The diary is very long, and the summary is very short."

"It's all, I love you." She opened Jingxiu's lips and kissed deeply.

This time, after the symbolic resistance, Jingxiu quickly wrapped Ji Youyan's waist tightly, catering to him enthusiastically. Ji Youyan's hand is cruising along the curve unconsciously.

Jingxiu was pulled out of the fire, and a low moan leaked from his throat. Ji Youyan seemed to have received some encouragement, and the arson became more and more reckless. Jingxiu's legs were soft, and her long white fingers were clasped on Ji Youyan's shoulders, trying her best to find a fulcrum.

The hem of his clothes was lifted, and Jingxiu's tight stomach was exposed to the air. A gust of cold wind blew past, Jingxiu shuddered and regained his senses. She bit Ji Yuyan's tongue lightly and pulled away.

Ji Youyan looked at Jingxiu innocently, with no desire to go away.

"In the wilderness, what do you want to do?" Jingxiu asked lightly panting.

Ji Youyan came back to his senses, and when the cold wind blew, he felt that he had gone too far. She quickly pulled her hand out of Jingxiu's sweater, wanting to help Jingxiu straighten her clothes, but when she thought about the bra that Jingxiu had just unbuttoned, she subconsciously wanted to go in and button it.

Jingxiu took a few steps back in an instant, with a sultry look on his face, but a slightly sullen look in his eyes.

But there is no deterrent at all, like a kitten with fried fur. Ji Youyan approached her, stretched out his hand to help her pull up the slumping shoulder, tucked the hem of the dress, and said warmly, "I just want to help you fasten it."

Buckle what? Jingxiu reacted, and felt both shy and annoyed when he noticed the ease after his chest was unbound. She forcefully refused and said, "No need."

Ji Yuyan was half-smile but not smiling.

Jingxiu lowered his face and turned to leave, but Ji Youyan panicked and hugged Jingxiu from behind, "I was wrong, I won't tease you anymore."

The hugged woman returned to the scene and laughed happily.

Ji Youyan didn't get angry when he was bluffed, he buried his face in the back of Jingxiu's neck and laughed, making Jingxiu itchy. Jingxiu just wanted to let her go, when the wet and cold water on her skin blocked Jingxiu's throat.

"You promised to be with me." Ji Youyan sighed softly.

Jingxiu could hear her vague unease. "Well, I promise you." She answered Ji Youyan clearly and firmly in a low voice.

Ji Youyan's joyful breath tickled the back of Jingxiu's neck again. Jingxiu tried to suppress the restlessness, but Ji Youyan didn't understand her hard work at all, and stuck out her tongue to lick it.

She judoed softly: "Tonight, can you take me away?"

Jingxiu's whole body went numb. She reminded Ji Yuyan angrily and helplessly: "Have you and the director asked for leave?"

Ji Yuyan was stunned.

"Lin Yue told me that you have to go to the beach at 4 o'clock to shoot a night scene." Filming at 4 o'clock means that you have to get up at 3 o'clock or even earlier to start putting on makeup.

Ji Youyan was like a salted fish that had lost her dream, and slumped weakly on Jingxiu's body. "Actually, it's too late, but, but I don't want to be so hasty..." The first time she started over, she didn't want to leave any bad memories for Jingxiu.

Jingxiu's heart is warm. She eased her tone and said, "So, I'll have someone take you back to rest after a late night snack."

Ji Youyan and Jingxiu bargained: "Then there is plenty of time next time..."

Before she could finish speaking, Jingxiu interrupted, "We'll talk about it next time."

Ji Youyan lowered her head and started licking and kissing Jingxiu again. Jingxiu couldn't bear it any longer, and feigned anger, "Are you a dog? Let me go."

Ji Youyan clasped her hands around Jingxiu's waist and said slyly, "Don't let it go. Promise me first, this time it's what you owe." She was worried that Jingxiu would come back to his senses and there would be another progress bar.

Jingxiu was silent.

"If you don't speak, I'll take it as your promise." Ji You said in a fast tone: "I count down tens of seconds, ten, nine, one. Well, that's it."

Jingxiu was amused by her scoundrel, but in the end he did not refute it, and acquiesced.

The supper is exquisite western food prepared by Jingxiu himself, such as smoked salmon, steamed sea bass, all of which make Ji Youyan move his index finger. Because of the long delay, Jingxiu had to reheat the dishes. After starting it, she was worried that eating too much at night would not be good for digestion, so Ji Youyan tried it and stopped, but Ji Youyan did not listen to the persuasion and carried out the disc operation.

Jingxiu couldn't help her, but she was fortunate that the serving size of western food was very small.

After the supper, the two leisurely watched the lanterns for a while. It was getting late, and Jingxiu reminded Ji Yuyan that it was time to go back.

The two walked to the parking lot together, and Jingxiu revealed, "I asked Lin Yue to help you put the last gift in your hotel room."

Ji Youyan was overjoyed, but still reluctant to part, "I want to take you back together."

Jingxiu didn't give up, but she was afraid that Ji Youyan wouldn't be able to rest for a long time if she went back late, so she forced herself to get into the car and left in two separate ways with Ji Youyan.

Ji Youyan sat in the car back to the hotel, recalling everything that happened at night, it felt like a dream. She unfolded the black ribbon in her hand, blindfolded the ribbon, and pulled the ribbon tighter and masochistic. The eyeballs felt real pain because of the oppression, and Ji Youyan raised the corners of his lips in relief.

She returned to the hotel, turned on the light, and was attracted by the half-human giant panda doll sitting on the bed.

The giant panda has exquisite workmanship, slender hair, excellent hand feel, a little bright red between the eyebrows, and an oversized photo frame sitting under the buttocks.

Ji Youyan picked up the photo frame and saw that there were nine photos put together in the photo frame, and the scenery in the photo was obviously Nepal where Jingxiu traveled some time ago. In the nine photos, except for the middle one, each of them has the same panda pendant entering the country. The location of the panda in each photo is different. Because of such ingenious positions, a little red on the center of the panda's eyebrows shows a striking heart-shaped arc when the nine photos are linked together.

Ji Youyan stroked the panda pendant in the photo, her heart pounding. Although it is clean, the material is still very old.

She was sure that it should be the one she gave to Xiao Jingxiu back then.