Zhong Qingyu was busy with the paper at hand, and when he turned off the computer and habitually searched for news about Ji Youyan, he saw several hot searches for Ji Youyan in a row.
When she saw the entry "Ji Youyan was attacked by a naked man", her heart stunned, and she clicked on the video to see Ji Yuyan covering her face, being helped by Jingxiu and another woman with difficulty in getting into the car, and her footsteps were vain. , hands and feet are weak.
She immediately grabbed the phone aside and called Ji Yuyan, but luckily the call was connected in her prayers.
Ji Youyan reassured her that it was okay, but Zhong Qingyu heard her say that her head was broken and her bones were broken.
No matter how much unpleasant there was on the phone before, the long-lost concern from his mother still made Ji Yuyan feel hot. So although she felt it was unnecessary, seeing Zhong Qingyu's insistence, she did not shirk too much and agreed.
As soon as she hung up the phone, she saw Jingxiu push the door and come back. Jingxiu looked tired, but looked at her with soft eyes.
"Do you feel okay?" Jingxiu sat down beside Ji Youyan's bed, his eyes fell on Ji Youyan's left arm fixed with a triangular scarf.
Ji Youyan saw her worry, moved the fingers of his left hand, and pretended to be relaxed: "Does it look bad to you?"
Jingxiu held her hand nervously, "Don't move."
Ji Youyan chuckled softly, endured the pain and rubbed the back of Jingxiu's hand with her thumb, "It's alright, the doctor also said that you can move properly." She paused, then diverted Jingxiu's attention and said, "Axiu, my mother is watching. It's the news, so I can't worry about it. I'm just taking this opportunity to formally introduce you to them, okay?"
During this period of time, although there was still a quarrel with Zhong Qingyu about the relationship, Ji Youyan felt that Zhong Qingyu's tone had loosened up a lot. She felt that when Zhong Qingyu really saw Jingxiu, she would be convinced by Jingxiu's outstanding charm.
However, Jingxiu's reaction was not what she expected. She frowned slightly and hesitated, as if she was embarrassed.
Ji Youyan thought she might be unwilling, so she quickly changed her mind and said: "It doesn't matter, Axiu, if you are not ready, we will wait for the next time. Speaking of which, you should focus on the performance these days, and it is not suitable to be distracted... "
Before she could finish her sentence, Jingxiu interrupted her softly, "It's not like that."
She Dingding and Ji Youyan looked at each other, bit her lip and said frankly: "Yanyan, I have seen them." Her eyes were filled with imperceptible anxiety.
Ji Yuyan was stunned.
Jingxiu lowered his eyelids and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry, I didn't discuss it with you without your consent. I wrote them a letter. Two months ago, your father asked someone to tell me that if he wanted to see me, I would Go. I do it myself."
She didn't want to tell Ji Yuyan about this, but now she has some doubts that she can't relieve herself. Her reason told her that she should not let Ji Yuyan bear the consequences of the backlog of these problems as before.
"Don't apologize, I'm just surprised, I don't mean to blame you at all." Ji Youyan came back to his senses, and stretched out his right hand to cover the soft catkin that Jingxiu placed on the thin quilt.
She knew that Jingxiu must have done this to help her gain the approval of her parents, so how could she be willing to blame her.
She knew Jingxiu's character well, and she knew her parents' stubbornness. Thinking of Jingxiu's embarrassment just now, she said eagerly, "Axiu, did my parents make you feel wronged? Did they say something ugly?"
Jingxiu looked into Ji Youyan's full of distressed eyes, thinking of Ji Changsong and Zhong Qingyu's cold words to her, sourness surged up her nose.
She said hard: "They didn't say anything, they just didn't think highly of us."
"Yanyan..." Jingxiu hesitated, the gloom in his eyes couldn't be turned away, "They think I can't protect you, and I can't give you real happiness."
"I thought it was harsh at the time, and my rebuttal was plausible, but I'm a little unsure now," she confided.
But the suspicion of letting go of Ji Yuyan made her feel like she was torn apart by something. Guilt and reluctance rubbed back and forth on her wound like a dull knife. She tried to withdraw her hand from Ji Yuyan's subordinate and clenched her fist, restraining herself not to be too rude.
Ji Youyan held the hand she wanted to escape tightly, and said in a trembling voice, "Not sure what?"
The strength in his hand was Ji Yuyan's unmistakable unease. There was another sharp pain in Jingxiu's heart.
She forced herself to look directly at Ji Youyan, and choked out, "Yanyan, I'm not sure if I did something wrong."
"I want you to be brave, but after you are brave, I can't protect you. I will only make you hurt again and again because of me." Her long eyelashes trembled, and tears fell silently down her cheeks, "I really Is it your best choice?"
She tilted her head and tried to dry her tears, as if she was asking Ji Yuyan, more like she was asking herself.
Whether this question is the best choice, she was asking herself before reconciliation, and Ji Changsong lingered in her heart more after questioning. She has been working hard to believe in herself, until just now she could only watch Ji Yuyan collapse in front of her eyes, her psychological construction completely collapsed.
Jingxiu's self-doubt was like a sharp arrow piercing Ji Youyan's heart, making her eyes wet with pain for a moment. She was reluctant to look at Jingxiu's fragile appearance. She looked at Jingxiu, and for a moment seemed to see herself back then.
She also asked herself this question the year she broke up with Jingxiu.
She reluctantly wanted to sit up straight and approach Jingxiu, but Jingxiu quickly stood up to help her, but Ji Youyan lifted her chin to kiss the tears at the corner of her eyes as she leaned down.
It was so painful that her heart was broken.
"Axiu, do you remember what you told me? I love you, that's your greatest confidence." She stared at Jingxiu's beautiful eyes so close.
Jingxiu stared at her, his heart throbbing.
Ji Youyan moved her body to the left with her arms supported, and said tenderly, "Axiu, sit up." She raised her hand and hooked Jingxiu's waist lightly.
Jingxiu couldn't stand still, afraid of pressing Ji Youyan, so she sat down on the bed and sat in Ji Youyan's arms.
Ji Youyan wrapped Jingxiu's waist tightly, as if this would make up for the unease in her heart. Her voice was faint and distant, as if it came from memory, "Do you know why you agreed to break up with me back then without any reservation?"
Jingxiu raised her heart and looked sideways at Ji Youyan.
This knot in her heart had been in her heart for many years and it was hard to let go. At first, she thought that Ji Youyan didn't love her anymore and waited for her to break up. Later, she thought that Ji Youyan was tired and didn't want to be together. After all, being in love is one thing, and being together is another.
"Did you believe the reason I was late back then?" Ji Youyan had a wry smile.
Jingxiu's lips twitched, unable to deceive Ji Youyan.
That year, she fell from the sky, thinking she was going to die, she vomited blood before she fell into a coma and made the only phone call-to Ji Yuyan.
It was Ji Youyan's assistant who answered, saying that Ji Youyan was in the middle of filming and it was inconvenient to answer the phone.
She was in so much pain that she couldn't speak clearly, and she couldn't even say a complete "I miss you so much". It was Yao Xiao crying beside her to help her convey the news that she had an accident and that Ji Yuyan would come back soon.
Before she completely lost consciousness, Yao Xiao was still encouraging her, sister, don't sleep, sister, cheer up, sister Ji will be back soon, sister...
She listened. Although it hurts, she thinks she must wake up. She hadn't seen Yanyan for a long time.
But she tried hard to wake up and looked around, but she still didn't see the person she wanted to see the most.
The mother saw through her searching eyes and told her that Ji Yuyan lost her passport and the embassy was closed on weekends, so she was stranded in Italy.
What a coincidence.
It's like the coincidence that she doesn't have time on a date but has time to have dinner with the person of the scandal; it's the coincidence that she always has a job on the anniversary of her love; it's the coincidence that on her birthday, her car breaks down halfway through and can't come back until 0:00.
This time, it was a coincidence that Ji Yuyan arrived at the hospital safely and low-key after the media on the fifth day was gradually brought under control.
"You didn't believe me, did you?" Ji Youyan affirmed.
Jingxiu looked at the self-deprecating expression on her face, her throat choked with pain. "I'm sorry, Yanyan, I'm sorry, I..."
Ji Youyan pressed her head down and judoed: "I don't blame you, it's because I lied to you too much before, which made you lose your trust in me."
"I really lost my passport, or in other words, I didn't realize it until I had a confrontation with Wang Junchan. She should have lost my passport on purpose back then."
That year, when she was shooting an advertisement in Italy, her assistant received news of Jingxiu's accident at noon, but Wang Junchan suppressed the news and didn't tell her until the evening when she completely finished shooting.
Like five thunders hitting the top, Ji Youyan shook his body and almost stepped on the air and rolled down the steps. At that time, it had been eight hours since the phone call from Jingxiu.
She wanted to go back like a madman, and Wang Junchan said that she had booked a plane for her in two and a half hours. With trembling hands, she dialed Jingxiu's number, and the call went through, and it was Jiang Chun who answered.
Jiang Chun said that Jingxiu was undergoing surgery, and the situation was not very good, and asked her where she was. She broke her liver and intestines, panicked, anxious, and powerless, crying and answering that Jiang Chun was still on her way to the airport. Jiang Chun was silent for a few seconds before speaking again to tell her the hospital address.
Ji Youyan heard her silent dissatisfaction and doubts from Jiang Chun's silence. As the first person to know, eight hours later, she was still on her way to the airport. How ridiculous.
She also thought she was funny. She blushed and blamed Wang Junchan for not telling her, but Wang Junchan also plausible. She questioned Ji Yuyan at the time, she knew what to do, did she leave the half-shot commercials behind? What about liquidated damages? What to do next? What to do in the future? Moreover, she also checked the ticket for the first time, and found that the flight changed and changed, and the final arrival time was within three or two hours, so she made this decision after weighing it again and again.
What to do in the future? Without Jingxiu, there is no future. She yelled at Wang Junchan.
Wang Junchan apologized to her soothingly when she saw her collapse.
But when it was finally time to change the boarding pass, the assistant told her that her passport was lost.
Ji Yuyan's sky was completely dark. She ran around the airport like a madman, leaving all her dignity behind, crying and begging for Wang Junchan, ground crew, police, and embassy security...
But the weekend is over, the embassy is not working, and the visa cannot be filled. Wang Junchan said there was no way.
On Sunday, they finally asked the embassy to open an emergency channel, specially processed her visa, and put her on the return trip back to China.
During the waiting period, every minute and every second was a torment, and the pain was unbearable.
She finally arrived at the hospital where Jingxiu was staying, and was stopped by Jing Shurong on the walkway to the ward.
Jing Shurong said he had something to tell her.
Jing Shurong bluntly stated that she and Jingxiu were not suitable, and hoped that she would seriously consider this relationship with Jingxiu again.
She said that Jingxiu had not been happy for a long time. After the evaluation by the family psychologist, she said that Jingxiu's mental health was very bad and she should consider accepting psychological intervention. Jing Shurong is very sure that the cause of Jingxiu's heart disease is the unbalanced relationship between her and Ji Youyan - Jingxiu loves too deeply and has no self, Ji Youyan loves too shallowly and too self.
She asked Ji Yuyan, if being together is so unhappy, is it necessary to continue reluctantly and torture each other
Ji Youyan slept well for several days and nights without closing his eyes, and made it to the hospital entirely by will. She was so dazed that she couldn't think, and she was thinking, why doesn't she love Jingxiu enough? Is it wrong for her to want to be better? Why do they just look at themselves with colored eyes
She was very unconvinced and very unwilling. She didn't want to let go of Jingxiu and didn't want to lose her.
But she pushed open the door of the ward and saw Jingxiu on the hospital bed with weak breath and dying, the string in her mind that was stretched to the limit was broken. She could no longer deceive herself. Self-blame, distress, and self-disgust flooded her heart.
It was she who tortured this radiant and dazzling girl into such a state.
It was her incompetent trash, humble as an ant but unwilling to be mediocre who hurt Jingxiu.
She is not worthy of Jingxiu.
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