After coming to live with grandparents, Luyuanyuan was woken up for the first time.
When she opened her eyes and saw her grandmother patted her face beside the bed, she was very confused.
"...Yuanyuan is up. It's ten o'clock. If you don't eat, you'll be starving."
Lu Yuanyuan blinked his sour eyes, and subconsciously agreed, "Well... Grandma, I'll start now."
As soon as the words came out, my throat felt a little sore.
Grandma had already left her room, and Lu Yuanyuan sat up slowly from the bed, only to feel that something was wrong with her head.
It was heavy, and there was some stuffy pain inside.
As she got out of bed, she recalled what happened last night before going to bed. When she went to the bathroom and picked up her toothbrush to brush her teeth, her memory was still blank.
She squeezed out the toothpaste to brush her teeth, and looked up at the mirror habitually.
The hand that wanted to put the toothbrush in his mouth stopped in mid-air.
She leaned closer to the mirror, brushed the hair from her forehead, and looked carefully.
The eyes are a little swollen, the double eyelid of one eye is missing, the dark circles are so hard to see, and the skin is white, so it appears that the black blue on the forehead is particularly obvious.
... Wu Qing
What the hell did she do...
Lu Yuanyuan washed his face and brushed his teeth at the fastest speed ever, then went back to his bed to get his phone, and found that there were dozens of unread messages on WeChat.
Most are in dormitory groups.
Wang Yihan: [Yuanyuan is home, let’s talk in the group @Lu OO]
Wang Yihan posted another message at twelve in the middle of the night: "I've fucked you and Lin Qian, how much did you blow? Lin Qian is now crawling on my bed and memorizing my hair. She can't write a single word in the fucking class test, why is she memorizing so smoothly now? ? ?]
There is also a live video.
Lin Qian was on Wang Yihan's bed, wrapped in a quilt and her hair like a chicken coop, shouting: "Seek truth from facts! That is, everything starts from reality! Theory is linked to practice! Then what about the mass line! It's all for the masses! Everything depends on the masses! Come from the masses. …”
Lu Yuanyuan couldn't help laughing after reading it. She replied that she had just woken up, so she left the group chat and opened the dialog with Su Lin.
Ten minutes ago, three messages.
Su Lin: [Are you awake?]
Su Lin: [When I just took a shower, I found that my shoulders were blue.]
Su Lin: [How is your forehead?]
Luyuanyuan was stunned: "..."
His shoulders are blue, how about her forehead
What does it mean
After thinking about it for a while, she didn't understand, but she told the truth: [It's also green.]
She remembered that yesterday was a basketball game, and then a few people went to a dinner party. After the dinner party... She had no memory at all. But looking at what Wang Yihan said in the group last night, she and Lin Qian drank too much.
So he said again: [Senior... I was drunk yesterday?]
Su Lin replied in seconds: [Well, remember?]
Was drunk.
And then... the forehead and shoulders turned blue...
Lu Yuanyuan carefully guessed: [Are we going to fight with someone...?]
Su Lin: [… ]
Grandma called her again in the living room outside. Lu Yuanyuan took the mobile phone and left the room. When she got to the living room, she found that her grandfather was actually there.
She walked to the dining table, glanced at the time, and was a little curious: "Grandpa, why didn't you go to play chess?"
"..." Grandpa didn't speak.
Instead, grandma sat beside her, sighed, and pointed to the things on the table, "You eat first."
Only then did Lu Yuanyuan notice that it was not only the grandfather who was abnormal, but the grandma, who was always keen to watch the morning theater TV series, didn't turn on the TV at all.
They looked like this, she was a little scared.
But she still hummed obediently, then lowered her head and drank the porridge. The temperature was just enough not to scald her mouth. She should have been overheated many times by her grandmother.
After drinking, the two old men remained silent.
She has also lived here for a long time. She knows that her grandparents' homes are usually relaxed and comfortable, with laughter and laughter. Sometimes watching them bicker is more fun than watching variety shows.
Their later life, if it is not happy, may have only one place.
"Luzhi, I was hospitalized last night."
"… "
It took Lu Yuanyuan ten seconds to remember that Lu Zhi was her father in Grandpa's mouth.
Hospitalization means—
She squeezed the spoon tightly and watched the old man speak again: "Alcoholic... Stomach bleeding, still alive."
Lu Yuanyuan suddenly let out a sigh of relief, and let go of his gripped heart.
In the atmosphere like before, she thought...
"His neighbor found it out and called us from the address book, saying that he smashed things at home at night, and the noise was very loud. They knocked on the door early the next morning and found that no one responded, and they couldn't open the door. I called the police...and sent him to the hospital."
"… "
Grandma asked aloud beside her: "Yuanyuan, tell us the truth, he used to be like this?"
"If you drink... Yeah, he always drank when I was in high school, and I would buy him medicine, whether to take it or not... I don't know."
In fact, she thought for a moment that her grandparents were going to tell her that your father was hospitalized and could not be saved.
She didn't know why she was so worried.
Maybe it's because that man's way of life has been imprinted too deeply in his memory. He doesn't care about anything. He's like a walking dead. After seeing such a person, she couldn't find a single reason for him to live. It is also possible to disappear into the world like this.
"Hey," Grandma suddenly raised her hand and touched her hair, "I really feel sorry for you... We asked someone about the student status here in S City back then, there is no way to transfer without a hard relationship, and my grandfather and I can't help you. When I was transferring schools, I thought about letting you borrow it, but when you were a sophomore in high school, they said that the exam questions and textbooks were completely different in the two places, so you had to learn from the beginning... alas... it happened to be your grandfather's. I wanted to retire for a while, so I sold his place to see a doctor, and the person who bought the house had a problem again…”
Grandma was already choked up while talking, Lu Yuanyuan was stunned for a moment, and realized that their abnormality today was not because of her father's hospitalization.
because of her.
It's because of regret that I didn't take her over at that time.
"Oh, grandma," she took the old man's hand, rough and warm, "I've always been fine, he drinks and drinks him, I'm still so good at studying, you can't transfer me to another school, I'll take the test if I don't. come here."
At that time, I didn't ask or think about why he had money to pay for tuition every year.
In fact, think about it now... The tuition fees are all given by grandparents.
Living expenses... She didn't want to ask. Even if he used the money from his grandparents to buy wine or something, she still had her own way to make money.
She was really stupid. She couldn't figure out the reason why her father did this. She couldn't figure out why her mother made a mistake and why he was just wasting the rest of his life and passing by in a daze.
"...Actually, I was in the third year of junior high school and three years of high school. I always hoped that my father would get better, but then I just... stopped thinking about it."
"It may be my mother's business. He has completely lost his motivation to live. Even my daughter doesn't even care."
"If you guys pulled me away then, I might be too stupid to be unwilling," she helped grandma wipe the water off her face, "I won't give up, I think... I'm his daughter, I don't care who cares about him. Well, maybe he will return to the way he used to be one day?"
It's not that she didn't expect it. She hoped that her father would have the simplest love for her daughter. She hoped that he could ask her how many places she took the exam, so that it seemed that she would be more motivated to study.
Instead of looking at his first place every time, he can only hold a parent-teacher conference for himself, stand on the podium to share learning experiences, and accept praise from other parents. When he comes home, he is still faced with a messy house, and he still needs to clean up. empty wine bottle.
Her two parents, one has not contacted her once since the reorganization of the family, and the other lives with her every day and doesn't even know when she takes the exam.
After each loss, my heart is all at a loss.
Time and time again, no matter how sad she is, the man doesn't care, he doesn't even notice her emotions.
Lu Yuanyuan feels that learning is much easier than these things.
She is so stupid and can't figure this out. After many times, she thinks, forget it.
I just recognize this reality.
He gave birth to you and raised you, but he does not love you.
Then what can I do, can I ask him to love you, even if I ask... Is it useful
I have worked hard for so many years, but I haven't been able to change him one bit.
I have no other choice, I don't want to be sad, and I don't want to hate anyone.
You can only numb yourself and tell yourself.
You don't want me, and I don't love you either.
"...I was stupid back then, and now I don't care about him that much anymore," Lu Yuanyuan smiled as he hugged his grandma, but suddenly felt a sore nose, "Really, I live with you and grandpa now, You are so kind to me, my university is also very good, and I have met many, many, warm people."
She quickly went through the faces of many people in her mind, those of her roommates, those of her classmates, and those of many people who had given her kindness.
The last one is Su Lin.
It was him who smiled many times, his brows were bright, and he was too dazzling to look good.
how nice.
She rested her chin on grandma's shoulder, blinked, and a tear quickly fell, falling into the fabric of grandma's back, and disappeared instantly.
Only a small dot of water stain remains.
She stared at the little dot, her voice trembling uncontrollably, "I'm really... so happy now."
The conversation ended quickly, and although the home didn't return to the usual atmosphere, it was much better than when she first woke up.
After lunch, she packed up and went out.
In fact, grandparents seem to know about supplementary lessons. But they never asked, never interfered, never forced to give her any money, and Lu Yuanyuan felt very grateful.
In fact, if she didn't have enough money to live or something, she would definitely talk to her grandparents. After all, she still couldn't afford college tuition.
At the current stage, she couldn't tell how she felt.
The closest is probably that she wants to slowly try to make herself independent.
Arrived at Shu Tian's house on time, chatted for a while, and then started the routine tutoring.
Towards the end, Shu Tian was doing the last few questions, and Lu Yuanyuan was a little distracted.
When I saw Shu Tian just now, she was asked about the green on her forehead, she hesitantly put it off.
Suddenly I thought of the conversation with Su Lin in the morning.
Since the first time he came to pick her up for tutoring, he came here again and again like an addiction.
Lu Yuanyuan thought again that it seems to be much colder today than yesterday.
Before she took out her phone, she said to Shu Tian, "Nuo Nuo, I'll send a message."
Nuonuo is Shu Tian's nickname.
"Fafafa!" The girl's voice was full of vitality, "Hehe, my sister must be chatting with her boyfriend, I understand I understand!"
Lu Yuanyuan smiled and said nothing.
She called up Su Lin's chat box, thought about it, and typed: [Senior is cooling down today, remember to wear more if you come to me~]
In fact, she didn't want him to come.
Because of what happened in the morning, her mood was a little low, and trying to adjust it was still useless.
But... And because I'm in a bad mood, I want to see him.
Very contradictory.
There was a quick reply.
Su Lin: [It's too late.]
Lu OO: [Hmm?]
Su Lin: [[Picture] is already on the way.]
In the picture, he is sitting on a taxi seat with his legs.
His slender legs, tucked into black trousers, were tucked between the seat and the front backrest.
I don't know why, but after imagining him sitting lazily to take this photo, I suddenly wanted to laugh.
After half an hour, she finished speaking all the content.
After going downstairs and leaving the villa area, thinking that I would see him in a while, my heartbeat began to speed up.
Regarding meeting Su Lin and meeting his boyfriend.
In the beginning, the deer would bump into each other every time, but since November, she hadn't felt such nervousness for a long time.
I don't know why today, but it was like meeting him for the first time when he went out on a date with his boyfriend and girlfriend, his heart was beating non-stop, and his breathing rhythm was also disordered.
Maybe it's not all nervousness, there are other things, all stuck in the chest, unable to vent.
Finally at the door, Lu Yuanyuan saw him in a familiar location.
She took a deep breath and calmed her breath before walking towards him.
Su Lin was very sensitive to the sound of footsteps, and he looked over when she was still a few meters away from him.
Lu Yuanyuan remembered that it was summer when she first met him, and the color of his clothes was probably black, white, gray and blue, but it seemed that after the weather got colder, he preferred black clothes.
And it's always like today, black trench coat, black pants, and yesterday's sportswear, all in black.
His face is angular, and with black it makes him feel a little colder.
She received his gaze and stood there and smiled at him.
Su Lin's originally expressionless face softened instantly, and he stepped towards her, the curvature of his lips became more and more obvious, and it seemed that her flustered feeling gradually calmed down.
Before Lu Yuanyuan himself realized it, he had already put his hand in his.
She looked down.
It was the way she corrected the first time they held hands.
Fingers intertwined, tight.
In fact, the reason "it's comfortable to hold in this way" is also made up by her now.
She has never held hands like this with anyone else.
With my best friend, I just normally hold hands, mostly arm in arm.
An impulse drove her to do something to him.
Something she never thought she would do before, like kissing his eyes... and lips.
Lu Yuanyuan followed him two steps, and with a little force, he dragged her up a step.
The steps are not high, but it also reduces the height difference between the two instantly.
"Don't move." Su Lin said.
He let go of her hand and took out a small box from his trench coat pocket, which she couldn't see clearly.
He turned around and walked to the nearby trash can a few steps away. She still couldn't see what he was holding when he came back.
When Su Lin lowered her head and fiddled with the things in her hand, she didn't want to look at it, and kept staring at him.
He stared at the corners of his lips that had never been lowered, his pale lips, and his long, trembling eyelashes.
"Come on." After more than ten seconds, he looked up, and the moment he wanted to raise his arm, his expression was a little stunned.
"You..." He lowered his arms slowly, "what's the matter?"
"… "
I can still see it...
Lu Yuanyuan tried hard to put away her emotions, blinked, and put on a smile that she thought should be happy: "It's okay."
She pointed to his hand: "Senior, what were you doing just now?"
"Ah." After being reminded, he raised his arms again as if he had remembered.
Lu Yuanyuan felt his cool fingertips caress his forehead and brushed his hair lightly. He and she were basically at eye level. She looked very happy when she saw him doing this.
There was a faint touch from her dark green area, and then something covered it, as if it was gently pressed by his fingers again,
"Actually, it seems that I don't need to put a Band-Aid after I kowtow," he put down his hand, looked at her forehead with satisfaction, looked at her face, his smile became very big, and reached out to her: "But when I saw this Band-Aid, I just I can't help but want to buy it and stick it for you."
Lu Yuanyuan was stunned and looked down.
In the slender, white palms lay a pink Band-Aid full of HelloKitty.
Su Lin stuffed the Band-Aid into her jacket pocket and looked at the little girl up and down again.
The pink Band-Aid was placed so prominently on her forehead that it did not violate the harmony on her face at all, but more like a sign.
For example, he saw the Sailor Moon that girls often used as avatars, the kind of logo on the forehead.
The more he looked at it, the more itchy his heart became. He rubbed the little girl's soft black hair, approached her, and rubbed her with the tip of his nose, "Why is my baby so cute."
Gentle, low-pitched, with a little nasal and a little dumb.
Full of love and warmth.
In that house, when she was cleaning the wine bottle, the glass cut her hand. She always bought the cheapest Band-Aid. If the wound was not deep, she simply wrapped toilet paper and waited for it to heal.
When I was cleaning up the housework, because I was in a hurry, I would always bump into somewhere, and it would be blue and purple, and the pain would be ignored for several days.
Lu Yuanyuan looked at the person close at hand and blinked.
She suddenly couldn't stop.
How can he be so good.
The tip of her nose that was rubbed by him was sore that she couldn't stand it. She heard herself calling him, and her voice trembled uncontrollably: "Su Lin."
"… "
For a moment he thought he was hallucinating.
Su Lin restrained his smile and found that something was really wrong with her.
After the little girl called, she bit her lower lip, her eyes became more and more red, her big eyes were filled with a layer of water mist, and something was about to fall down.
Then she loosened her teeth, and the corners of her mouth twitched uncontrollably.
Like a child who has been greatly wronged and finally found someone she can rely on.
She raised her arm slowly, and the water vapor that had gathered in her eyes just now finally condensed and dripped.
His heart tightened sharply.
It was as if he was being squeezed tightly by the outstretched hand, almost out of breath.
With red eyes, she called again: "Su Lin, hug me."