In his student days, Lu Yuanyuan was actually the most boring kind of person.
She doesn't have a smartphone, and she doesn't know how to. There is a computer at home, but she doesn't like to play.
There was always someone in the class who collected the contact information of the classmates. At that time, there was no WeChat, and QQ was used. Every time the paper was passed to her, she wrote a "no".
Without these, naturally there is no condition to listen to music.
But she likes to listen.
Every day after the second class in the morning, I have to do inter-class exercises. Before and after the exercise, the school's radio station will play songs, usually three songs a day.
During the time when Luyuanyuan was doing exercises every day, I was in a good mood.
So now Su Lin sings to her, some are familiar to her, some seem to have heard in some shopping mall, and some are completely unfamiliar.
But, without exception, it was too good to sing from his voice.
And there was a strange feeling of calming her down.
He told her to close her eyes, but she didn't.
Just looking at his face, watching him laugh and hum when he can't remember the lyrics, his heart is warm.
I don't know which song it was, but Lu Yuanyuan felt that his voice seemed a little hoarse, so he stopped.
After a while of silence, he said there first, "Why don't you sleep."
Lu Yuanyuan shook his head and rubbed his face against the pillow: "I can't sleep."
Seeing Su Lin frown, she added: "It's not because of anything else, it's too early, I must go to bed after ten o'clock."
"Senior," she said softly, wrapping the quilt tightly, "are you going to stay here forever?"
"Well... My parents and they should be over for a while." He said, "It's okay, I'm done eating, so I can keep playing."
"Oh, then let me tell you about my parents... Although..." Lu Yuanyuan paused before saying, "It's not very pleasant."
"When my mother just left, my dad was in a very special state for a long time..." Lu Yuanyuan thought about it and could only think of one word: "terrifying."
"I have to be forced to eat. Every day is like a walking dead. My grandfather is dying of anger. Grandma keeps crying. I dare not talk to him, but I keep watching to see his reaction."
"He just, didn't react, as if everything in the outside world had nothing to do with him."
"... After a while, Grandpa first felt that he might have a psychological problem, so he took him to see a psychiatrist." She lowered her voice unconsciously: "Then... It really is a problem."
"What's the problem?" Su Lin asked.
"Although I was in junior high school at the time, I always remember what the doctor said to me and my grandparents. The doctor said that my father actually has a certain degree of mental cleanliness, or emotional cleanliness. But the degree is not serious, in life It's not obvious, but the desire to control is slightly stronger than normal people, and there will be no psychological hidden dangers if there is no major incident."
"But... you know from the name, this kind of hidden mental illness requires an inducement to develop into a disease, an inducement..."
Lu Yuanyuan pursed her lips and suddenly felt a little ashamed, but she still bit her head and said, "...It's my mother's cheating."
"The doctor said that since he realized this incident, his psychological pressure has been increasing, and he has begun to collapse, but at that time he was an adult in his forties, and he had a certain ability to accept it, but he did not directly reflect it. ."
"His final diagnosis was mild emotional deficit personality disorder, apathy, with a hint of depressive tendencies."
Lu Yuanyuan had read the diagnosis certificate. She didn't know much at that time, but she remembered these words firmly until she went to the computer room to take a computer class. For the first time, she did not follow the teacher's instructions to check what apathy is on the Internet.
In fact... almost literally.
No response to the outside world, no emotional fluctuations with relatives and friends, no love to communicate, no love to express, and indifference to everything.
No one knew what he was thinking.
"Have you been treated?" his voice called.
"Ah," Lu Yuanyuan came back to his senses, "for the treatment, the doctor was found by my grandfather in S City, because there is no reliable psychiatrist in my family, so the doctor can do the treatment, but because my father is old Now, all the values, psychological concepts and so on have been formed for many years, so the treatment cycle will be very long."
"My grandfather asked him to move to City S, but he refused. He must go back to this house, and he didn't tell him the reason."
Lu Yuanyuan didn't want to lie down, he turned over on the bed, put his cell phone on the pillow and talked to him, "I'm still in school, I only know that my grandparents were completely disappointed with my dad at that time, and my grandfather was still driving. It's been a long time since the store saw a doctor, and one day they had a big fight and went back to City S."
Su Lin didn't speak for a while.
His black eyes stared at her through the screen, rolling with some emotion, and his thin lips pursed into a line.
Since he finished singing, Luyuanyuan has been much calmer.
She even laughed, and reached out to touch his face on the screen, "You are so serious, don't be like this, I'm not sad anymore..."
"I'm angry," he said.
Lu Yuanyuan was taken aback for a moment, "... huh?"
"I'm angry, your mother did something wrong, and your father has a problem in his heart, what about you?"
"… "
"What the hell did you do wrong? Why are they doing this to you?"
"… "
I don't know if it was anger or something else, but under the light, the corners of his fair eyes were a little red, his chest heaved slightly, he paused, and then said: "Last time, when you cried because of your dad, I just wanted to say it. ."
"You cried again just now. After I heard it, I almost wanted to buy a ticket to go to your house, scold him, and ask him for someone."
Lu Yuanyuan's hands were shaking a little, but his words were not loud, but the words hit her heart clearly.
"Such a good girl, I can't pamper me enough." She saw the redness in the corner of Su Lin's eyes becoming more and more obvious. The last sentence, he almost gritted his teeth: "Why, let him hang for so many years?"
After listening to him.
Her throat choked, and she couldn't control her tears again.
The tickets for returning to S City have been bought long ago. After that night, the atmosphere at home became less and less, and the New Year passed in a confused way. Luyuanyuan gave New Year's greetings to grandparents, grandparents and roommates.
Except for eating in the living room, she basically would not go out of the room, it can be said that she returned to before liberation overnight.
But she was actually used to it for a long time. To be honest, this half month was unaccustomed and unreal to her.
Lu Yuanyuan did not expect to receive a message from her high school classmate the day before she left. She called her landline at home and said that she wanted to ask her out to meet and have a meal.
After all, she was one of the few friends in high school, so she agreed without any hesitation.
When she arrived at the shop she had made an appointment with, there was a wind chime hanging on the door, which tinkled. A person turned around and waved to her with a smile.
Lu Yuanyuan was dazed for a moment, then walked over with a smile, "Long time no see..." When she called her name, she hesitated for a while, and called out her name: "... Qi Yan."
They never contacted each other since they went to college. Lu Yuanyuan sent her text messages, but they all fell into disrepair.
She thought that maybe their relationship was not good enough to be called by a nickname, and after more than half a year, she couldn't say it in a strange way.
"Long time no see," Qi Yan pushed her a menu, "Let's see what you want to eat."
In ten minutes, the two of them ordered their meals.
After being relatively speechless for a while, Lu Yuanyuan spoke first, "You... After graduation, how are you doing?"
"Well, how do you say it," Qi Yan paused and said, "I can't say good, and I can't say bad, I didn't go to university."
"… Um?"
"With my grades, I can't get into the second exam, and it's a waste of money to get into the third. You know the situation in my family."
So... she means she's already working
After speaking, Lu Yuanyuan felt that she didn't seem to want to talk about it, so she answered twice and passed.
The meal was neither embarrassing nor embarrassing. In the middle, they recalled going to high school. At the end, Qi Yan suddenly mentioned something.
"Some time ago, I met my high school classmate who was in the same university as you. She told me that you are now quite famous in the university because..." She paused for a second, then looked at her with a smile, "hand in Got a handsome boyfriend?"
Lu Yuanyuan was stunned for a moment, then nodded, "I... I'm in love."
"I went to your school forum to watch it a few times, it's very handsome."
"Luyuanyuan," Qi Yan suddenly called her: "Before I broke up with that person, I believed in these feelings. I believe he said that we would go to college together and get married after graduation."
"As a result," she spread her hands, "I failed the college entrance examination, and we broke up. Long-distance relationships and families are not acceptable."
"Three years is such a waste."
Lu Yuanyuan grabbed the tissue and stared at the person opposite: "What do you want to say?"
Qi Yan smiled, "It's nothing, just, I always thought you were amazing. In a family like yours, you can't grow crooked at all, just as pure as blank paper."
"So, let's talk for a while while you are in school. After all, you have to be realistic after graduation..."
She didn't go on.
But the meaning is already obvious.
Luyuanyuan felt that a fire was coming out of his heart.
The couple she gave to Wangfeng were Qi Yan and her boyfriend at the time, and Qi Yan was the first to tell her the legend of the Ferris wheel.
What does she mean by these words now
"Qi Yan, I don't know why you suddenly called me out to talk about this," the fire was burning more and more, and the heat spread to the heart and lungs, "I am not you, and he is not the boyfriend you broke up with, please, don't put the I compare with you."
Qi Yan's face froze.
Lu Yuanyuan stood up and looked at her from top to bottom: "I thought we were friends, you asked me to catch up."
"Then from now on, it won't be, I can't listen to what you just said." She clenched her fingers and left the money on the table, "Never seen again."
Lu Yuanyuan left the store and walked for a while, standing on the street, suddenly a little dazed.
Qi Yan has changed a lot, from the way she talks to how she dresses up. She probably remembered her when she heard what the classmate said, and thought about her unsatisfactory feelings, so she couldn't help but warn her.
But she didn't need this kind of warning, with other implied warnings.
Lu Yuanyuan took out his mobile phone, and Su Lin's message just came.
Su Lin: [What is the baby doing, are you awake?]
At this time, if she doesn't come out to eat, she should be taking a nap at home.
She suddenly laughed and replied to him: [Wake up.]
Immediately afterwards, she made two irrelevant words.
Lu OO: [Senior, we kissed at the highest point of the Ferris wheel.]
She seemed to tell him and herself, typing word by word seriously: [So we won't be separated.]
Back to S City is the third day of the new year.
Lu Yuanyuan left in the morning, and when he left, it seemed that Lu Zhi wanted to send her off.
She stood at the door and asked him to go back, "I can take a taxi by myself, Dad, you are at home."
"I... come back on vacation."
He looked at her silently.
There seemed to be something in his eyes, but in the end he just nodded, "Okay, it's time to send a message."
"Yeah." Lu Yuanyuan smiled and nodded, carrying his suitcase downstairs, and when he turned around, the smile disappeared.
He may not remember to read the message.
Take her out, and what if she doesn't look at the road when she comes back - she was really afraid of the state he was in before.
So, let's forget the normal father sending his daughter plot.
Still... be safe.
The county is raining again.
Taking a taxi at the gate of the community, Lu Yuanyuan was waiting by the roadside with an umbrella, feeling the cold and shady wind constantly digging into the bones, and suddenly I missed City B a little.
It's cold there too, but the coldness there is just cold, it doesn't rain, it won't be so cold and sticky that people feel uncomfortable.
And, there is him there.
The high-speed train is always on time, and Luyuanyuan sent a message to Su Lin when he got on and off the train. The signal on the road was not very good, but they were also chatting intermittently.
It was only four o'clock in the afternoon when she arrived at her grandparents' house. She dragged her luggage and lowered her head. She felt the key to open the unit door, and was suddenly dragged to the side by a force.
She was so frightened that she let go, and the suitcase fell to the ground with a sound.
At the same time, she fell into an embrace.
The soft but a bit face-piercing material, the familiar fragrance wafts through her nostrils, and the breath that belongs to him, which she has not experienced for many days, instantly surrounds her.
Without the suitcase, her hands are empty.
Lu Yuanyuan smiled unconsciously, then wrapped his arms around him and rubbed his head against his chest.
He let out a small groan, his chest vibrating.
As if expressing satisfaction.
He didn't speak like that. At this time, during the Chinese New Year, no one passed by, not even a single sound.
I don't know how long I held it, and at the same time let go.
Lu Yuanyuan looked up at him, "You came back early, too." After she finished speaking, she could hear how happy her voice was, and she added: "Will your family tell you?"
The hair in front of Su Lin's forehead had grown a little longer, and it might just turn people white in winter. An inappropriate description came to Lu Yuanyuan's mind, a black-haired, snow-skinned beauty.
As soon as the words came to her mind, she couldn't help laughing.
He raised his eyebrows and squeezed her face, "What are you laughing at, little girlfriend?"
"..." He came again.
"Are you too happy to see me?" Su Lin squeezed her hand and moved her hand, and moved her face close to her, "Miss me, eh?"
This person can always use all the characteristics of the sound of "um" to the extreme, the nasal sound is heavy, and the tail sound is raised, which is very attractive.
He was willing to look at her while talking, hanging his lips and smiling lazily, his lethality increased exponentially.
Lu Yuanyuan blushed suddenly.
She blinked, originally wanting to answer him properly, but when he did this, she couldn't say anything.
"... Obviously I have a phone call every day," she lowered her eyes and whispered, "I don't want to."
Someone quit.
Su Lin loosened her hand and held her in his arms again, tighter than before, he smiled: "Don't you want to?"
His eyes were slightly narrowed, his jaw tensed, and his smile was good-looking, but wicked.
Lu Yuanyuan felt that his expression was a little dangerous.
Instinctively want to earn a bit, the next second, the eyes are black-
His lips were pressed together accurately, and he sucked repeatedly. The force was a little strong at first. He seemed to endure it for a long time, as if he was pouring out some emotion. Lu Yuanyuan looked at his long, dark eyelashes, and slowly closed his eyes. upper eye.
She used to think that kissing also needed a response.
But she later found out that she didn't seem to need to respond to him at all, she couldn't even keep up with his rhythm.
Lu Yuanyuan's lips were a little numb before he let go.
She took a few deep breaths. In the cold winter and twelfth lunar day, she felt as if a thin layer of sweat had formed on her back.
Su Lin was also a little out of breath.
He calmed down a little, suddenly reached out to pick her chin, rubbed it twice, and said in a casual tone: "How is it, do you feel it?"
Maybe it was because of the kiss just now. The corners of his eyes were a little powdery, which was especially obvious on his fair skin.
Lu Yuanyuan stared at his thin eyelids, a little surprised, and unconsciously raised his chin with his hand, "... huh?"
What do you feel
Su Lin curled his lips, a trace of black hair fell to the bridge of his nose, and the end of his eyes was still a bit of an alluring pink.
He lowered his head slowly, leaned over, and kissed her on the forehead with his chin raised, his voice restrained and hoarse.
"... I want to kill you."