As I got older, I realized more and more that time heals everything, except fat.
I ran with Meimei for a week, along the main road, inhaled countless exhaust fumes, and didn't lose weight at all. Literally, not at all! Even because of the sudden increase in the amount of exercise, my appetite was opened up, and I gained two catties instead.
despair. The stubbornness of fat makes me despair.
But Meimei really lost weight.
Lose weight at a speed visible to the naked eye. Her face was smaller and paler than before, because her way was too extreme. I exercise crazily every day and don't eat. I tried twice, but it didn't help. For the head chef of the Japanese grocery store, she seemed to be desperate.
Although I think... If that person is really Ash, he will not decide to distance himself from Meimei or get close to her because of her fatness.
However, a week later, the disheveled Meimei held her mobile phone and said to me with glowing eyes, "I've added him to WeChat."
I was taken aback.
Like holding a baby, Meimei turned on her phone, clicked on WeChat, and clicked on Ash's profile picture: "Look."
The person in the photo is wearing a chef's hat and chef's clothes. The name is a simple word "Xu", concise and capable, and the whole WeChat reveals the seriousness of "do not talk about other things except work"|冷|Pale appearance, in the style of that head chef.
I was silent for a moment, although it was a little inappropriate, but I still asked: "You called him A Xu, last time the ktv guy called him Xiao Xu, he called himself Xu, so what is his real name? Xu Xian?"
Meibai gave me a look: "This is just a nickname. The real name is very important to us, and we usually don't tell others. It has the power of words. If someone knows the name, it means being caught."
It was only then that I suddenly realized: "So, the name you gave me is also a fake name? Code name?"
"Do you think my real name will be Yu Meimei? Will Li Dangdang be called Li Dangdang? The goddess will be called Jinhua? Xiaoxin, what do you think of us?"
Damn, I naively believed in these non-human beings for so long! Never doubted it!
"It's too natural for you to call your code names!" I protested, "Even the brothers and sisters named Li Dangdang and Li Peipei are called by such names, of course I thought your names were in this artistic style!"
"Lee, Li, and Li accompany don't necessarily know each other's real names." After Yu Meimei said, she obviously didn't want to discuss the name issue with me anymore, she tapped her phone, "Look, I've added him!"
I glanced at Ash on the phone again.
"Did you add it on your own initiative or he added it on your own initiative?"
"I took the initiative to ask his colleague to add it."
I was silent for a while: "Did you spend all the money I borrowed from you last time to eat at this Japanese grocery store?"
"It's not important. What's important is that I have a relationship with him again."
Meimei said, touched the phone screen, and clicked on their dialog box. I saw that in the white dialog box, there was only one sentence from Ash's white dialog box: "I passed your friend verification request, now we can start chatting".
But there isn't any real chat.
"Is that enough?" I asked her.
Meimei hugged her phone: "For now."
I looked at Meimei's downcast eyes and didn't speak again.
After saying goodbye to her in the corridor and telling her to eat, I went home.
Opening the closet, a compartment was cleared out, and there were two boxes respectfully enshrined, one containing a little black dress and the other containing sparkling earrings.
I sealed the two things intact and put them in the closet. I stared at the two boxes in silence for a while, then turned my head to look at the mirror attached to the cabinet. In the mirror, my eyes did not have the same hotness and tenderness as Meimei just now.
I think this is probably the difference between like and love.
I am the restlessness of my heart and thoughts, and she is the depression of desperate work.
I closed the cabinet and sat down at the computer desk. While refining the Meimei story that I had conceived before, I thought, no matter how I look for it during this time, I can’t find everything, and even Li Dangdang doesn’t care about it, and Meimei doesn’t know. There is nothing about the difficulty of everything and that mysterious unbelievable love.
In the next one or two months, life is still very normal. The temperature in Chongqing has skipped spring from winter to summer, and some people on the street are wearing short sleeves and shorts.
In the past two months, I finished drawing the beautiful stories I imagined. During this period, because of laziness, I stopped updating for a while. After being scolded by editors and readers, I woke up and started updating intermittently.
During the period, I was urged to update countless times, and threatened to send blades countless times, but the serialization was finished anyway.
At the beginning, the 24-page plot was expanded to 48 pages under the urging of the editor. After the extra episode was finished, Meimei’s story got a good response.
The editor told me that my manuscript fee can be increased by about 20 yuan per page.
I was very happy and told Jijijiang the news.
Jijijiang is a comic author I met on Weibo during this period. Although her name is dirty, she is a very soft and cute girl.
She and I serialize different comics on the same website. She draws horror and suspense genres. The style of painting is completely different from mine, but she likes to read my comics. She said that my comics look warm and cute, but they are actually sugar. There are ice balls in the middle, no matter how you look at it, there is a sense of indifference and indifference.
I was speechless for a moment. There's even a feeling of... being seen through my life through comics.
Because I do seem to be… kind of aloof.
I live under the same roof with Li Dangdang, Li Peipei, and Meimei, but I always feel that there is a layer of film. Maybe Li Dangdang's rules are too good. He told me from the first day I entered the apartment, "We are different."
I have never forgotten the look and gesture with which he said those words.
My friendship with Jijijiang also started when she said this sentence.
Because I feel that I have met my confidant.
When I was not drawing every day, I started bragging and gossiping with her, and occasionally played a few games of King of Glory. As "colleagues" who are not in the same city, our relationship has grown deeper.
During this period of time, I have long since given up on running with Meimei.
Yes... At the beginning, I vowed to accompany Meimei to lose weight, but insisting on this matter is probably the natural enemy of human beings. Once the three-minute heat was over, I watched Meimei continue to run alone with guilt, and in the end, I was accustomed to being lazy and continued to lie at home.
Meimei is insisting.
She has lost a lot of weight, and in two months, her and Ash's progress... There is also a lot.
Occasionally when we eat together, Meimei will show me the chat records between her and Ash.
From the beginning when Meimei persevered in saying good morning and good night, until Ash began to reply morning and good night, they chatted more and more. Meimei will tell Ash what dishes he eats in his shop, which ones are delicious and which ones are not so good.
Obviously, Ash cared a lot about other people's comments on the dishes. Every time this is mentioned, Ash's replies will increase.
After coming and going, the topic is not limited to the comments on the dishes.
They began to share their lives, Meimei talked about what they encountered on the run today, and talked about the weather, and Ash replied with some precautions for work and exercise, so that Meimei should not fast.
Meimei seldom showed me the later chat records.
But they never mentioned one person in their chat, that is, the "beautiful baby" in Ash's phone.
I know the development direction of this matter, which puts Meimei in a very delicate situation, but what can I say, I have seen Meimei's dream, and I can't judge what is going on with Ash. As a bystander, I can only keep silent.
Until one day, Meimei offered to say, "Xiaoxin, let's find a bar to drink."
I was startled, and looked at Meimei who had lost a lot of weight: "Aren't you going to lose weight today?"
"Occasionally nothing happens."
The door next to me was pushed open, and Li Peipei stood at the door wearing underwear and a pajamas. He didn't even wear any underwear, but the chest was covered by the pajamas, which made me and Meimei feel awkward for a moment. silence.
Li Peipei stretched, half leaned against the door, and folded his hands: "I seem to have heard the word drinking?"
So the three of us packed up and set off.
It's that little bar in Jiefangbei again.
Li Peipai went crazy when he drank, so he went to find a man by himself.
Meimei and I sat next to the bar, she raised her head and took a big sip of the wine, I bit the straw, sipped the juice, and looked at her glass of Long Island iced tea, which had lost more than half of it in an instant.
"Ah Xu told me today that I should stop contacting him." She smiled, "Yesterday, when I went to sit in his shop, I saw his girlfriend coming."
My throat was choked by the juice, and after trying to swallow it, I looked at Meimei and was thinking about what to say.
I don't know whether it's better to persuade her to say, "Let go, he's already another person."
Because this is her business, I have no right to help her make any decisions. And I know that Meimei said these words to me now because she wants to seek support that matches her inner decision.
I don't know what kind of decision she wants to make, so I have to listen to her.
"Her girlfriend seems to have discovered something." Meimei said, "I sent him a message last night, but he didn't reply. This is the only day in these days when I texted good night and he didn't reply."
She spoke calmly, just like when she told me before that she likes rainy days, because every drop of rain flowed past him.
"He told me today, don't contact me anymore. I know what kind of choice he made. In fact, I knew it a long time ago. You see, so many days, fifty days and nights. If it was the former Ash , not fifty days, not five days, not five hours, not even five minutes, when he saw me, he would immediately hold my hand without any hesitation.
"But he remained ambiguous and hesitant, and I was too cheap to leave... I sent myself up like a fish and put myself on his cutting board."
"Beautiful..."
"Xiaoxin." She interrupted me, "I had a dream."
"Huh?" The topic jumped too fast, and I didn't react for a moment.
She looked at the wine glass as if looking at her dream.
"I dreamed that I was still the same as before. I was held in his arms, and the embrace was so warm." She swung her wine glass, her eyes blurred, "He lowered his head and kissed my forehead lightly, I heard him Tell me, I like you, come with me."
Meimei laughed, her eyes were curved, so beautiful.
"But he didn't let me answer, he said, shh, don't talk, you sleep quietly in my arms overnight, when tomorrow dawns, if you want to, just nod your head. So this sleep, I sleep It was so stable. As a result... I waited until dawn, opened my eyes, and suddenly realized, ah, it turned out to be my dream."
She raised her head and took another big sip of the wine, as if the strong wine was paired with ice to suppress the emotions in her body.
"Xiaoxin, do you know how lost I was the moment I woke up, how much I wanted to go back to my dream and sink into that embrace again, I hope the sky will never dawn."
I was silent for a while, tentatively grabbed Meimei's hand, her hand holding the wine glass was cold. Like sashimi sliced and served on ice.
"During this time, I really experienced a lot of emotions that I have never experienced before." Meimei said with a smile, "'I miss you', do you know how to express this euphemistically?"
She stretched out her fingers and counted them one by one: "Are you up, have you eaten, what are you doing?" She paused, "All the words are because I miss you. And I want to be justified and straightforward Tell him that I miss you, but only this sentence, only this sentence, I can’t say it because I have no position.”
When Meimei was talking to herself, I couldn't get in a word.
I can only accompany her, watch her drink, wait for her to get drunk and carry her back with Li Peipai.
Of course, it was Li who accompanied me, because although Meimei has lost weight now, my strength is still not enough.
On the way back, the companion was a little annoying to Meimei, not because she was drunk, but because she kept chanting the same sentence over and over again.
"The love of his life is not me."
"I know, I know! Stop nagging!"
I could only sigh and persuade my companion: "Just let her read a few words."
The two of us sent Meimei back home, and Li accompanied me to open the door and went home to sleep. I thought that there seemed to be sheets on the roof that I hadn't collected, so I went upstairs first. Thinking of what Meimei said just now, she couldn't help humming the tune of "The Love of My Life".
"The sea of bitterness... Turn over love and hate, in this world, it is hard to escape fate..."
I took the bed sheet, and suddenly saw a man standing on the edge of the roof behind the bed sheet, Li Dangdang, holding his hands. I don't know what he was doing alone on the roof in the middle of the night.
I hugged the sheet and looked at him, and he looked at me, a little quiet at night.
"Has anyone ever told you that you sing well?" Li Dangdang asked me suddenly.
I blushed for a moment, and my heart beat for a moment.
"No... no."
"Then what else are you singing?"
"..."
If I hadn't known he could fly, I'd be pushing him down right now, and I'm not kidding!