When he recalled the past many times, he didn't feel anything else, just a sentence that was only ordinary at that time, lingering in his heart, and it lasted for a long time.
In the gap between time and space, it was still as dark as ever, no different from usual. He woke up in the darkness, glanced at the boundless darkness, and closed his eyes again.
Li Dangdang is very clear that his story has already ended long ago. The rest of his life is like watching an old movie, replaying it over and over again without stopping.
In fact, sometimes, I feel hopeless.
I don't know how long it has passed, and there is a sudden wind in the darkness.
Li Dangdang opened his eyes, and in front of him, there was a fluctuation in the gap of time and space. He knew that this was a gift from God, which could let him leave this dark day.
Without delay, he stood up, adjusted his black robe, and stepped into the black vortex amidst the howling wind.
The howling wind seemed to tear his body and soul apart. As the world spun, a huge force pushed him out of the vortex.
Walking through the corner of the pendulum of the clock, he opened the door of the huge clock, and he stepped out—it was the room where everything was difficult.
It has been about ten years since he left the gap last time, but the room is still the same, unchanged.
Sitting on the hill where his clocks were piled up, the old man used it as his throne and repaired a watch on it. Seeing Li Dangdang coming out of his big clock, he was not surprised at all. Glancing at him, he went on with his business.
"They set up a hot pot outside." It's hard to say anything, "I have a headache from the quarrel, you like to watch yourself."
"What year is this?" Li Dangdang asked as he walked outside.
"2018. You just cleared out the homeless, that girl went home for a while, and you brought her back again."
Li Dangdang remembered that this was after Lin Zishu kidnapped Su Xiaoxin. Su Xiaoxin was rescued, but suffered serious injuries. Everyone in the residential building thought that Su Xiaoxin had left and would never come back, but in the end, she came back. Meimei arranged a party for everyone to eat hot pot together. In his memory, everyone had a good time that night.
Or... tonight.
Li Dangdang just opened the door and was about to leave, Wan Shi Nan, who was still repairing the watch behind him, sighed: "Let her go just before, I'm afraid it will be much easier for you than it is now."
Li Dangdang slowly closed the door.
"Not always."
He went downstairs to the entrance of the corridor on the second floor, hiding his figure in the shadows. He folded his hands, leaned against the wall, and looked at the open space outside the building, where a large table sat his former friends, relatives and... lover.
He hides his aura so that no one can find him, not even his past self.
From a certain point of view, even if he leaves the gap of time and space and comes to the real world, he still has to live in darkness, because about him, people in this time and space can only see darkness.
He went back and forth between time and space, so many times, Li Dangdang himself sometimes wondered if all this was just a dream of his. Inside and outside the dream, there was a silent darkness, and he would never can't wake up...
"Ah!" In the open space, Ah Xiao saw everyone eating hot pot and started howling. Then, just like the past memories, everyone was eating, drinking, and playing around, everyone's faces were filled with happiness. Smile.
Especially Su Xiaoxin.
Li Dangdang looked at her, the corners of his mouth raised unconsciously.
Su Xiaoxin probably didn't even know how happy she looked on her face when she was eating hot pot.
The long chopsticks held a piece of hairy belly and rinsed it in the red oil pan. Baba watched, his eyes glanced at the other dishes next to the pot from time to time, thinking about what to pick up with the next chopsticks after eating this piece of hairy belly. When she was done thinking about it and the hairy belly was cooked, she put the steaming white hairy belly into the oil dish, dipped it in, shook off two drops of oil, and then ate it in one mouthful. The eyes are shining.
Really fragrant.
And when Su Xiaoxin was eating so deliciously, he would unconsciously glance at Li Dangdang who was sitting on the other side.
It wasn't intentional, but a completely subconscious action, revealing what she cared most about someone from the bottom of her heart.
Li Dangdang looked at her quietly in his black robe.
Until everyone was drunk, according to memory, Li Dangdang dragged Su Xiaoxin away from beside Yu Shao, and dragged him back to his room.
Li Dangdang pulled his black robe, turned around, and landed outside the bedroom of his own room on the first floor.
In the room of this old residential building, looking out of the bedroom window, you can just see the entrance of the entrance of the living room.
He saw that he had locked the door behind his back, and when he heard him, drunkenly, he said to Su Xiaoxin: "Su Xiaoxin, kiss me again."
Su Xiaoxin was caught off guard in shock.
Li Dangdang under the black robe couldn't hold back a chuckle.
"I want you, kiss me."
"Li Yanran...you take some sober medicine..."
"Why?"
"Because you're drunk!"
The conversation over there was going on, but to his ears at this moment, it seemed that hundreds of millions of light-years had been separated. Until he heard himself say: "Su Xiaoxin, I can endure endless loneliness, but I can't bear the loneliness of gaining and losing.
"Longing for the morning sun will only make my night longer."
Li Dangdang looked at himself who was already drunk.
The black robe on his body was like a curtain formed by the night behind him, wrapping around his body.
He watched Su Xiaoxin hug him quietly, leaned down gently and timidly, and put a kiss on his lips.
It is so light that it has almost no strength, but after so many years, it still seems to be a brand. Seeing this scene, it made his lips burn.
He really didn't know it at the time, it was the first time he... saw this scene and learned about it.
Su Xiaoxin never talked to him about this night... When Su Xiaoxin was still around, he seldom mentioned their past to him. She is always walking forward with him, doing new things and seeing new scenes. She already knows what Li Dang is about to face after she leaves, so she rarely does repetitive things.
She makes every day count.
Li Dangdang watched Su Xiaoxin kiss her back then, suppressing the panic in her heart, she dragged him into the house.
When Su Xiaoxin was about to leave, Li Dangdang's black robe and black smoke passed, and flashed past the second floor that she could glimpse.
"I saw it." Su Xiaoxin was startled by his words, and he said with a smile, "Don't be afraid, I won't tell anyone, just keep it secret for you."
This is a secret between them, even the past self has never known it.
Maybe... this is not an old movie, there are so many details about the past time between them, and Su Xiaoxin has secretly hidden so many secrets, enough for him to spend endless time digging.
Li Dangdang returned to the room where everything was difficult.
Everything is difficult and I am still repairing the watch: "If you come back later, you will not be able to go back. You should know what the consequences are."
He knew that once he couldn't go back to the gap in time, he would disappear in time and space forever, and he wouldn't even have time to wait for the next time he saw Su Xiaoxin.
He stepped into the clock, and the pendulum stayed at the angle when he stepped out.
"See you later."
He can't say anything.
Everything is difficult to sigh.
He stepped into the angle of the pendulum, and the vortex sucked him back into the darkness.
In front of him was the familiar nothingness, and next, there was endless waiting, as if confirming his words at that time, his life from now on would be faced with endless nights.
But Li Dangdang was different from what he thought at the time.
It is not longing for the morning sun, the night is longer. But because of yearning for the morning sun, this long night is no longer difficult.
He knew that the cursed self would eventually walk towards the sun that would embrace him.
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~I'm a little sleepy. Tomorrow afternoon, I will write and update Li Peipei’s episode~
Tomorrow will completely end a good life~