"Believe me." Shi Yi held her face and wiped her tears.
Her eyes were darker than the dark clouds in the sky, but they held a firm and moving light. Fu Shitian's lower lip was trembling as she bit it, and she couldn't say "Shi Yi, let's break up."
It was she who brought her here, into the storm, how could she bear to hurt her, to leave her here alone halfway. She was so determined, so confident in her, and believed in the future they had agreed on, how could she tell her that she didn't want to implicate her, and that they would have no future.
She couldn't say it.
She dug her fingertips into the ground, raised her head and took a deep breath, tears flowing down her neck into her heart. She said in a trembling voice: "I believe you."
Lowering her head and looking into Shi Yi's eyes, she tried hard to force out a smile and repeated, "Shi Yi, I believe you."
"I'm sorry." She still choked.
Shi Yi gently stroked her cheek with his thumb, his eyes deep and his brows slowly relaxed: "Silly girl." She murmured, his hand slid down her cheek to behind her ear, and he gently rubbed the back of her head, and suddenly hugged her to his chest again.
Fu Shitian could feel the violent rise and fall of her chest and how much she needed him.
Her throat was choked again and Shi Yi let her go. Her face was calm and gentle as always, and her hand slid down to her shoulder and asked her, "Can you stand up?"
Fu Shitian nodded restrainedly and stood up with the help of Shi Yi.
Zhang Lulu finally found a place to insert it, and hurriedly stepped down to the other side to help Fu Shitian, asking her with concern: "Are you okay?"
Fu Shitian's nose was still red, and he was embarrassed. He replied with a nasal voice: "It's okay."
Shi Yi checked Fu Shitian's hands and feet. His wrists and elbows were scratched, but fortunately he was wearing cropped pants, so his knees were only bruised.
She took off Fu Shitian's backpack and hung it on her shoulder. Then she put her arm around Fu Shitian's shoulders, supported her, and said to Zhang Lulu, "The school may have its own considerations. I accept this result. It's okay. You don't have to take it to heart."
She looked very calm, as if she really didn't care at all.
Zhang Lulu frowned and wanted to say something in disapproval, but Shi Yi frowned slightly and shook his head almost imperceptibly, signaling her to stop talking.
Zhang Lulu realized something in an instant. She opened her mouth and closed it again, feeling a tightness in her chest.
Shi Yi gave her a way out: "It's going to rain heavily outside, you should go back quickly."
Zhang Lulu looked at them, clenched her fists, and the mist blurred her vision uncontrollably. She took a deep breath, stepped back a few steps, stood in front of them, bowed to them from the bottom of her heart, and said, "I'm sorry." Then, she lowered her head and ran down the stairs like she was escaping, running out of Shi Yi and Fu Shitian's sight.
Fu Shitian turned sideways and looked in the direction where she disappeared, stunned.
Shi Yi reminded her: "Come on, let's go in."
Fu Shitian turned around and looked at Shi Yi. Shi Yi slightly tightened his hand around her shoulders, motioning her to go up, and asked calmly: "Is there any alcohol and cotton swabs in the medicine box?"
Like nothing happened.
Fu Shitian's chest was about to explode with grief. The more she tried to control herself, the more distressed and guilty she felt. She knew how hard Shi Yi had worked and expected so much for this. That was the path she had decided to take since her freshman year, the qualification she had worked hard for three years to obtain, and the reward that clearly belonged to her.
But Shi Yi didn't cry. She shouldn't cry and she had no right to cry.
She suppressed all her sobs and pretended that nothing was wrong. She replied to Shi Yi: "Yes."
Shi Yi was relieved and told her, "Be careful next time."
Fu Shitian responded softly: "Yeah."
After entering the room, Shi Yi took out alcohol and cotton swabs and began to help her disinfect. Then the two of them returned to the topic of admission to graduate school.
The list was released an hour ago. There were 20 recommended places, and Shi Yi was ranked 21st. In terms of GPA alone, Shi Yi ranked second in the 50% of the materials review, and with all the bonus points, Shi Yi ranked fifth overall. But for the 50% of the interview, she was ranked third from the bottom.
The college’s intentions are obvious.
"The last time the counselor came to see you, he was actually talking about Zhang Lulu, right?" Fu Shitian asked in a hoarse voice.
Shi Yi lowered his head and gently wiped the wound on Fu Shitian's elbow with a cotton swab. He was silent for a few seconds before he said "hmm" in a low voice.
Fu Shitian's breathing suddenly became heavy again.
Shi Yi looked up at her.
Fu Shitian's eyelashes trembled quickly, and she tried hard to squeeze back the tears. She pulled down Shi Yi's hand and interlocked their fingers. Shi Yi let her do it with a very gentle and compassionate look.
Fu Shitian knew that Shi Yi understood everything. She knew Shi Yi's answer to some of the words and some of the apologies, but she only said them to make herself feel better, which only added to Shi Yi's troubles.
She sniffed, skipped the topic, and asked Shi Yi: "Can we appeal?"
Shi Yi stroked the back of her hand and was silent for two seconds before saying, "Okay, but forget it."
"Since the academy dares to do this, it means they are well prepared and have an excuse to deal with us."
Each college has its own discretion in the matter of admission to graduate school, and the school will not interfere unless you have solid evidence.
But where does the evidence come from when there is no standard for interviews, which are completely controlled by the school? For the sake of the school's reputation, the school will make it look like there is no evidence.
Besides, Shi Yi paused and said, "The twentieth place is... Yilin."
Fu Shitian's heart was shocked.
She stared at Shi Yi's face, which people always misunderstood as cold and emotionless, and her nose was completely blocked and she couldn't breathe.
She put her arms around Shi Yi's waist, buried her face in Shi Yi's hair, and murmured, "Shi Yi, you are the fool, a big fool." At the end of the words, her voice was so hoarse that it was almost just a breath.
Shi Yi rubbed her cheek gently. "It's okay, Shi Tian, it's okay." She seemed to be talking to Fu Shi Tian, but also to herself.
"It just means you have to accompany me for a while longer."
Fu Shitian endured the pain and said softly but firmly, word by word, "It's not hard. We will work hard together."
"Shi Yi, it's yours, it will definitely be yours, we will definitely take it back fairly and throw it in their faces."
Shi Yi suddenly laughed softly in her ear.
"It seems like this is the first time I hear you say such harsh words." Her tone seemed to contain a hint of innocence, and was unusually soft.
Fu Shitian felt soft-hearted after hearing this. She wanted to laugh a little, but when she blinked, her eyelashes became wet again.
Is this the time to laugh, to make her laugh? You big fool, you big idiot.
But this idiot loves her so much, and she loves her so much too. Fu Shitian wants to rub her into his body.
"How is grandma?" Shi Yi asked, leaning on her shoulder.
"She had a stroke and may not be able to stand up in the future. A tumor was also found and we have to wait for more detailed examinations." She only mentioned her grandmother's illness and still did not mention her complicated family relationships; she did not say that she would probably have to bear a considerable amount of medical and nanny fees; she did not say that her father would be released from prison in a year.
Her inability to be honest made things worse for them.
Let them try again, let them struggle again, let them be selfish again. She prayed in her heart. She was unwilling to accept it. Why couldn't they be a happy couple when there were so many people in love in this world? Why couldn't she love the person she wanted to love? Why couldn't she give Shi Yi happiness
Why
It is obvious that she is no worse than others, no dumber than others, and no lazier than others; it is obvious that she has tried so hard to do her best.
She hugged Shi Yi's waist tightly and tilted her head back to prevent tears from falling. The inner wall of her lower lip was covered with teeth marks.
At least, let her accompany Shi Yi through this difficult journey. At least, let her lead Shi Yi back to the bright future.
*
As if it was an unspoken understanding, after the next day, they no longer mentioned the failure to get into graduate school, as if they just started preparing for the exam late. Shi Yi looked up the textbooks needed for the exam, purchased them one by one, and started reviewing for the exam.
Time was tight after all. Everything was difficult at the beginning, and the judicial examination was just around the corner. Shi Yi wished that her 24 hours a day could be split into 48 hours. She never complained about the hardship or tiredness, and even when Fu Shitian asked her to quit the new media manuscript for her senior, she still wanted to persist.
But Fu Shitian knew that Shi Yi was actually under a lot of pressure, she just wasn't used to crying out in pain - her menstrual period had always been very regular, but this time, until the judicial examination was successfully completed, more than half a month had passed, and her period had not come.
Fu Shitian was worried and asked Shi Yi to go to the hospital for a checkup several times. Shi Yi said it was okay and that he should wait a little longer and that the period might come in two days. Besides, it was normal to have one or two miscarriages occasionally.
Fu Shitian couldn't persuade her, but he was afraid that she would feel annoyed if he said more, so he could only keep his anxiety to himself.
In Ningcheng, the old lady's surgical indicators were not ideal, and the doctor did not recommend surgery. Fu Jiantao gave up and could only hide the old lady's true condition and hired a nanny to take care of her closely, so that she could spend the last period of her life as happily as possible. When the old lady found that she really couldn't get up, she collapsed, tried to die, cried and made a fuss, and finally accepted the reality after a lot of trouble. Her temper became more and more weird. From time to time, she would call, crying and scolding Fu Shitian to go back to see her. If Fu Shitian didn't go back, she would call Fu Jiantao and make a fuss at Fu Jiantao's place.
Fu Shitian had no choice but to try hard to convince himself that a child wants to take care of his parents but they are no longer around, and every time he sees them he has fewer opportunities, so he should cherish them and make as much time as possible to go back and visit them.
But frequent visits not only brought her financial pressure, but also psychological pressure. Every time she went back, the old man kept repeating the same things. Once, he even wanted to ask a neighbor to bring a man over for her to see, which frightened her so much that she left on the spot.
She started suffering from insomnia again, had frequent nightmares and couldn't sleep well.
She always dreams of her mother, the tube-shaped building from that year, her mother's suppressed crying as she hugged her on the last night, and her mother coldly asking her, "Come on, are you doing well?" Then, she wakes up in a cold sweat.
Sometimes she would dream about the spitting eyes of others when she was a child, and dream about her grandmother blaming her for not being born. If she hadn't said anything, her father wouldn't have married her mother, and she wouldn't have ended up like that. Then the scene changed, and her grandmother's horrible face turned into Fang Ruohua's hateful face. Fang Ruohua cursed her: "It's all your fault, it's you, it's you who harmed Shi Yi, it's you!"
The scene changed again, Shi Yi's eyes were dull, he was wearing prison clothes, handcuffed and taken away, and she cried and shouted, trying to pull Shi Yi back, but she found that she was tied up with red cloth by her grandmother and tied to a pillar...
She woke up more than once and found Shi Yi holding her, sleepy-eyed, but patiently coaxing her: "It's okay, it's all a dream, everything will be fine when you wake up."
The psychological pressure is even greater.
She disturbed Shi Yi. Shi Yi was so tired, but she couldn't even let her sleep well.
She didn't dare to sleep peacefully. She quietly opened the sleep recorder app again, keeping a tight rein at all times, trying not to fall into deep sleep, trying to be awake when dreaming, and wake up immediately when she fell asleep.
Shi Yi noticed it, but she was powerless. She thought Fu Shitian's pressure came from their current situation, but the current situation was exactly what she was unable to solve.
She didn't even have the money to ask Fu Shitian to see a psychologist. It seemed that there was nothing she could do except study harder and try to pass the postgraduate entrance examination.
Therefore, she could only study harder and more intensely.
I have never felt that studying is such a serious and difficult thing.
Physically and mentally exhausted - they all felt this way since some time ago. However, no one mentioned it. ,,Website m..net,... ：