The infusion room was quiet and empty at midnight, with only two patients sitting crookedly in the back row, receiving infusions and looking equally sleepy. The wind poured in from the corridor, and the cold air rose from the floor, making it cool and gloomy.
Fu Shitian was sitting in the first row of chairs receiving an IV. Shi Yi opened his windbreaker, held her in his arms, and let her lean on his shoulder.
"Are you feeling better?" she asked softly.
Fu Shitian also replied softly: "Yeah."
I don't know if the painkillers are working, but she looks better than before. Shi Yi coaxed her, "Then sleep for a while, okay?"
Fu Shitian was really too tired. He nodded on Shi Yi's shoulder, stopped trying to be stubborn, and closed his eyes obediently.
Shi Yi slightly adjusted the height of his shoulders and straightened his windbreaker so that the clothes wrapped Fu Shitian more tightly.
The night is too quiet.
The clock hanging on the wall ticks away second by second, and every second can be clearly heard.
Shi Yi's eyes fell on the white wall, listening to the time, passing by minute by minute, her mind was in a mess, and she was upset. She seemed to have thought a lot, but she couldn't understand exactly what she was thinking. But there was one thing that seemed to become clearer and deeper in her mind - money was really a very important thing.
It is about a sense of security, about your confidence in loving someone, about your life, and everything in your life.
But she didn't seem to really understand it until today.
Too late.
Steen needs money for surgery.
The money they have left now is barely enough to pay for the surgery, not to mention the necessary supplements that Steen needs after the surgery, making it simply impossible to pay for the surgery.
She... needs to prepare this money. It's not a small amount that can be earned immediately.
Shi Yi held the phone in her windbreaker pocket, her fingertips turning white from exerting so much force. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, took the phone out of her pocket, unlocked it, and entered the text message interface.
Using one hand, she selected "Lu He" from the contact list, pointed her finger at the content input box, and began to type, "Lu He, are you free? Can you lend me 10,000 yuan for emergency? I can't pay you back within half a year, probably until the second half of next year." This was the first time she asked someone to borrow money.
It was not a long sentence, and she deleted it several times before she organized the language properly.
It turns out that borrowing money is such a difficult thing; it turns out that asking for help from others and waiting for their sympathy and help is like this. It is obviously not something to be ashamed of, but for some reason, it feels no better than doing something shameful.
She hesitated to press the "send" button.
The phone was suddenly snatched from my hand.
Shi Yi subconsciously followed the movement of his phone and was caught off guard by Fu Shitian's eyes, which could even be described as horrified.
"No need, Shi Yi." She didn't know when she woke up, clutching her phone, and suddenly sat up straight like a frightened little animal. "I won't have the surgery, Shi Yi, don't be like this."
She couldn't accept it. She couldn't accept that her lover, who made her proud, had to endure displacement for her and lower his head for her.
She can't stand it.
Shi Yi felt a lump in her throat. She could see the impending collapse in her eyes, and could also understand the heartache she couldn't hide. She smiled nonchalantly, ruffled Fu Shitian's hair, and gently scolded her: "What nonsense are you talking about."
She reached out to take the phone back from Fu Shitian's hand, but Fu Shitian held it stubbornly, not letting go at all, and tears wet her eyes.
Shi Yi couldn't use brute force on her, so he couldn't do anything to her. He frowned and sighed, looking up and looking at Fu Shitian. She wanted to say something to comfort her, but for some reason, at this moment, her mind was in a mess, and her language function seemed to be suddenly lost.
They looked at each other in silence.
Fu Shitian's palm-sized face was pale. She had a delicate and overly delicate face. Anyone who was not familiar with her would think she was fragile and easy to manipulate, but Shi Yi knew how tough and stubborn she was inside.
She couldn't convince Fu Shitian.
Sure enough, Fu Shitian spoke up and said, "After all, the surgery involves removing an organ. Although the doctor said it has no effect, if it is really just a useless organ, then why didn't it just degenerate and disappear during evolution?"
As she spoke, she seemed to have found a breakthrough and became more determined: "Since it is kept, it means it may still be useful. Surgery is not necessarily the best option. Non-invasive is better, isn't it? I have also checked for gallstones before, and it is not necessarily necessary to have surgery immediately. Many people pay attention to diet, rest, and after a period of conservative treatment, they are suddenly cured after a follow-up check. Shi Yi, you think it is too serious."
She looked into Shi Yi's eyes and asked very gently and sincerely: "Really, baby, relax. Can we try conservative treatment first?"
Shi Yi couldn't find a reason to refuse. She knew that Fu Shitian was not entirely wrong. Making a cut on the body and cutting off a part of the body was not as simple as the doctor's words "surgery". She felt distressed and afraid.
She wavered.
After a while, she agreed: "Then from now on, pay attention to your three meals, work and rest, and rest."
Fu Shitian opened her eyes wide and smiled instantly, as if relieved. She hugged Shi Yi with her non-injected hand, buried it in the crook of her neck, and responded with a trembling breath: "Yeah!"
Shi Yi rubbed the back of her head and lowered his eyelids, his eyes still filled with gloom.
When the second bag of water was hung, Fu Shitian really fell asleep. Shi Yi turned his phone to silent mode, but still sent the text message, and then deleted the record.
She couldn't allow Fu Shitian to take advantage of her body. She could let her try conservative treatment, but she also had to make another preparation for her. She couldn't bear to see Fu Shitian in pain like this again.
She kissed Fu Shitian's forehead. Her heart was still full, but it seemed that something was different from before.
It was as if there was a hole poked in her body, dark and windy, but she couldn't find it or fill it up.
At around 3:00 a.m., Fu Shitian finished her infusion and woke up when the nurse pulled out the needle. Shi Yi accompanied her in a taxi back to the rental house. Before going to bed, Shi Yi and Fu Shitian discussed that she should not work part-time before her formal internship next semester. If they saved a little money, they could support her until the end of her postgraduate entrance examination.
Fu Shitian disagreed and bargained, and finally the two of them took a step back and agreed that Fu Shitian would keep a part-time tutoring job twice a week.
Fu Shitian never imagined that Shi Yi had another decision in her mind.
*
Two days after Fu Shitian quit his other part-time job, Shi Yi started going to the library's postgraduate entrance examination study room after dinner to study, using the excuse that there was a subway under construction not far from the rental house and there was noise, so he couldn't concentrate on reviewing.
She came back too late, and Fu Shitian was worried, so he wanted to pick her up and drop her off every night on his electric car. However, Shi Yi felt that the weather was too cold and it would take up too much of her time, so she said that a girl from the School of Science who happened to be sitting at the table in front of her in the study room was going the same way as her and could come back with her, so it was okay.
Seeing how stubborn she was, Fu Shitian secretly drove his electric car to the library to wait for her twice. Seeing that she was walking with a girl wearing black glasses every time, he felt relieved and stopped insisting. After all, she had to work part-time for two days and couldn't accompany Shi Yi. It was more reassuring to have someone walking with her for a long time.
With fewer part-time jobs, time was no longer so tight. Fu Shitian no longer dared to skip dinner to save money or rush. Her three meals and daily routine seemed to have become regular. But she still couldn't sleep well, and even slept worse.
Grandma started to have abdominal fluid. As the abdominal fluid grew, she became more and more moody, and her obsession with her blind date became deeper and deeper, and she urged her more and more anxiously; the weather was getting colder, and Shi Yi's winter clothes had not yet been settled, and she wanted to buy Shi Yi some decent clothes. A few days ago, she heard someone talking about Shi Yi while washing their hands and chatting in the toilet cubicle, saying that something had happened in Shi Yi's family and why he seemed strange this semester. Another person echoed that she had the same feeling and could tell from his clothes.
Fu Shitian's heart was trembling when she heard this, but she couldn't move her feet. She didn't know if she could protect Shi Yi's dignity by going out to interrupt them at this time, or if it would only make Shi Yi more embarrassed. She just realized more and more that she was really a burden to Shi Yi.
After Shi Yi decided to work part-time without telling Fu Shitian, she stopped burying herself in books. Except for studying in the library and working part-time in the restaurant, she kept her mind on Fu Shitian. She found that Fu Shitian was even more tense than she thought.
She was worried about her and felt that she couldn't leave her like this any longer.
She didn't know what was causing Fu Shitian to be so tense, so she could only try to find out. She began to try to find out indirectly, using Fu Shitian's grandmother's illness to ask Fu Shitian about his family in Ningcheng.
But without exception, Fu Shitian always stopped talking briefly. She seemed to resist her knowing more, so much so that Shi Yi felt that she was cruel, like using a sharp crowbar to pry open Fu Shitian's protective shell.
The more she resisted, and the more she showed that she didn't want her to know everything, the harder it was for Shi Yi to speak, to tell her the truth, to tell her that he already knew everything.
Like an unsolvable knot, this secret lies between them. Shi Yi can neither move forward nor retreat, powerless, and can only let this secret affect their moods, and even affect the distance between them.
One evening in early December, Shi Yi pretended to come back from studying in the library. After taking a shower, Fu Shitian was washing clothes on the balcony. Shi Yi was at the desk flipping through the handmade account set that Fu Shitian had made for her.
The desktop shook violently twice, and the screen of the mobile phone that Fu Shitian placed on the desk lit up.
Shi Yi glanced at him subconsciously, and was about to look away casually, when suddenly, his sight froze.
On the phone's lit screen, a notification popped up with a text message. The incomplete content of the message read:
Hello, I am Wang Ze, the blind date your grandmother introduced to you. When we met that day...
For a few seconds, Shi Yi wondered if he was dazzled or if he couldn't understand Chinese.
What does this mean
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