A soft touch fell on the skin, and for an instant, it was like an electric current running through the whole body. Shi Yi froze, and the knuckles that were holding Fu Shitian's wrist trembled almost imperceptibly.
What did Fu Shitian say? Did she agree? Shi Yi's sarcastic smile faded away, and he stepped back, looking at Fu Shitian in a daze.
Fu Shitian still stood there, not dodging or evading, and looked back at her calmly. There was no smile on her face, but her expression was calm, even revealing a hint of waiting.
I remain unmoved and let you pick them.
Shi Yi suddenly felt a surge of anger that could not be suppressed, burning her temples. She didn't know what she was thinking. Obviously, this was the answer she expected more than being pushed away, but the moment Fu Shitian really agreed, she found herself more angry and more disappointed than at any time since they met again.
Why was Fu Shitian so calm and even at ease? Or did she guess correctly that Fu Shitian was just trying to be willing to accept her and was waiting for her here
What is she to Fu Shitian? A successful career, a chance encounter after many ups and downs, a revival of an old dream
Shi Yi pursed her thin lips into a cold straight line. A gust of night wind blew, and her thin cotton skirt swayed slightly in the wind.
Fu Shitian asked her, "Shall we go?"
Shi Yi was so angry that she managed to force a smile. "Let's go." She raised her chin, the emotion in her eyes faded, she let go of Fu Shitian's wrist, turned around and walked in front of her.
Fu Shitian's wrist was red. She didn't care, lowered her hand, and looked deeply at Shi Yi's back. She raised her foot, stepped on Shi Yi's shadow, and followed quietly.
Neither of them wanted to reminisce about the past, and silence flowed between the two.
Shi Yi thought, it doesn't matter what Fu Shitian wants to do or what he thinks of her. She originally played with her, wasn't it just to satisfy the dream that entangled her every night
Because we cannot get what we want, we will be bothered and obsessed with it. Once we are satisfied, we will find that it is just so-so and boring, and everything will be over.
Adults, just what they need.
She tried to convince herself in this way, but her nerves were still constantly agitated by the faint fragrance and calm and steady footsteps of Fu Shitian behind her.
She really followed her up like that.
Is it true that to her, this is just a game that adults are familiar with
So I won’t be angry, I won’t be shy, and I won’t care.
An indescribable feeling of displeasure surged in Shi Yi's chest again.
In tacit silence, they came to the 23rd floor, where Shi Yi's house was located.
Shi Yi opened the smart lock with his fingerprint and walked in. The sensor light in the entrance hall lit up.
Fu Shitian hesitated at the door for a moment, then followed Shi Yi in.
Turning his head, the spacious living room was looming in the semi-dark light. Compared with Shi Yi's house next to Shen University, this house was very simply decorated and had very few furniture. There was a sofa, but not even a TV. The whole living room even had an empty feeling. Fu Shitian's heart suddenly tightened.
She was about to turn around and look at Shi Yi, who said, "You can wear your slippers as you like. There are disposable underwear in the guest room. The pajamas have been worn by others, but they are clean. Do you mind?"
The purpose is direct and clear.
Fu Shitian's eyelashes trembled, and he leaned against the wall to change his shoes and said, "It's okay."
She moved gracefully, lowered her head, and tilted it slightly, her fine hair falling smoothly to one side, revealing half of her soft profile. Under the light, her slender neck and delicate collarbone were so white and delicate that they seemed to glow.
So beautiful, so calm, and so skilled.
The string that had been tense in Shi Yi's mind was completely burned out.
She reached out and held Fu Shitian's neck with her five fingers. Her thumb gently stroked and touched Fu Shitian's ear bone, and her fingertips felt slightly cold.
Fu Shitian was caught off guard, his legs softened, he straightened up and tried to catch Shi Yi's eyes, and Shi Yi's lips pressed down on him at the right time.
Soft, hot, rough.
Fu Shitian felt numb all over, and she closed her eyes, feeling as if her soul was about to melt under Shi Yi's lips. Because of desire, because of satisfaction, because of these fresh, real emotions that she had not felt for a long time.
She really wanted to reach out and hug Shi Yi. But she didn't dare. She didn't know if Shi Yi was still willing to hug her.
Hugging is more intimate and pure than kissing or having sex.
She leaned her hands on the wall, tilted her head back, opened her lips, and responded to Shi Yi.
Shi Yi seemed to pause for a moment, and then, almost maliciously, she repeatedly crushed her lip beads, rushing around, plundering wantonly, and using so much force that Fu Shitian felt pain.
Fu Shitian suppressed a groan, and his forearm that was supporting the wall was trembling slightly.
She opened her eyes and looked at her lover who was so close to her.
Shi Yi's eyes were open, her eyelashes drooped, her face was cold, and all her movements seemed like she was venting.
Fu Shitian could not see a trace of warmth.
Her voice finally began to tremble uncontrollably: "Shi Yi..." She turned her head away slightly and said, "I don't want to turn on the light."
Shi Yi was silent for a second, as if he didn't hear anything, then he held her lips and kissed her again.
She thought she would feel happy after hearing Fu Shitian's emotional fluctuations and her vulnerability, but why didn't she feel happy? Shi Yi felt a dull pain in the back of her head.
Fu Shitian did not avoid her, but the shaking of his chest became more obvious.
It was as if the whole person was shaking.
Like a frightened little rabbit, or like a stubborn but delicate flower.
Shi Yi told herself not to care. But the softness and sweetness under her lips seemed to have turned into boiling water, burning her.
Shi Yi couldn't hold back her emotions any longer, so she let go of her pitiful lips anxiously and stood up straight. She held Fu Shitian's wrist, left the entrance, and walked silently to the living room. Fu Shitian followed her, and there was no sound except for the sound of breathing and footsteps. When passing by the switch board, Shi Yi pressed the switch and turned off the light in the entrance.
The room suddenly fell into deep darkness.
Shi Yi couldn't see how gentle and affectionate the look in Fu Shitian's eyes was when he looked at her from behind.
She took Fu Shitian to the sofa, and Fu Shitian lay down obediently, with the buttons of her shirt dress half unbuttoned. With the dim light from the balcony, Shi Yi sat and looked down at her.
Shi Yi saw something flash across Fu Shitian's misty eyes, but before she could see clearly, Fu Shitian supported himself on the sofa with one hand, hooked his arms around her neck, and kissed her actively.
Her kiss was different from his own, she kissed gently, licked softly, and was careful and gentle.
It seems as if she is still the same as when she was deeply in love many years ago.
Shi Yi's breathing became heavy, and it seemed as if something in her body began to hurt violently. He clearly didn't love her anymore, and clearly didn't want her anymore, so why could he still pretend to be so affectionate and deceive her
Don't be soft-hearted. She should know that her deception has always been so clever.
She avoided Fu Shitian's kiss, slid down, kissed Fu Shitian's chin, pulled Fu Shitian's buttons, and reached inside.
Fu Shitian's eyes dimmed and his body fell down weakly.
She rubbed Shi Yi's hair on the back of his head with one hand and covered her eyes with the other hand. She tensed her body and let Shi Yi bite his lips and endure it.
The moonlight shone coldly on them, Shi Yi tore open her clothes and kissed her down, kissing her neck, kissing her birthmark, and accidentally, his lips touched a slightly raised skin.
She reflexively raised her head slightly to check.
Under the faint moonlight, a small round scar of more than one centimeter lay quietly on the inside of Fu Shitian's right rib. There were two similar small scars on the side of the rib a little below and on the belly. The color was not dark, nor was it ugly, but Fu Shitian was too white, and these three small scars were like the marks of broken white jade - glaring and eye-catching.
Shi Yi was stunned on the spot. The past flashed through her mind like a slide show. She looked at Fu Shitian lying there with his face covered, thin and helpless. A piercing pain suddenly spread through her body.
Are you no longer brave enough
Her baby, has she lost her courage
She could hardly breathe, tears welled up in her eyes and flowed uncontrollably.
She bit her lower lip and stepped off the sofa without crying.
Fu Shitian noticed that Shi Yi had not moved for a long time, so he moved his hand away and murmured, "Shi Yi?"
Shi Yi didn't answer her. He walked into the bathroom barefoot with his back to her.
Fu Shitian looked at her disappearing figure in astonishment, sat up, and didn't know what had happened.
In the bathroom, Shi Yi leaned against the door, squatted down weakly, raised his head, and cried silently.
What on earth was she doing? What did Fu Shitian want from her
"Shi Yi, what's wrong with you? Are you not feeling well?" Fu Shitian asked her softly outside the door. Every tone of his voice was the rhythm of her heartbeat.
Shi Yi could no longer deceive himself.
Even if my self-esteem does not allow it, even if I have vilified and slandered Fu Shitian thousands of times in my heart, even if I have told myself countless times that "it's not worth it" and even if I have hypnotized myself countless times that "I will never like her again."
She still likes Fu Shitian and is still moved by her.
I still feel sorry for her.
From the past to now, it has always been like this. She has no way to deal with her at all.
She knew that asking this question was very undignified and irrational, and it lacked any pride or backbone.
But she heard herself asking anyway.
She asked her: "Jiang Cunxi, have you ever... ever regretted breaking up with me?"
Even just a little bit.
If she had been willing to hold on a little longer, even just for half a year, and gotten through that difficult period and persisted until now, they would obviously be living a good life.
The color on Fu Shitian's face instantly drained away. "Jiang Cunxi," Shi Yi's mocking words from that year seemed to still ring in his ears, "Bad genes are inherited after all."
The wind, frost, rain, snow, hardship and sadness of those years seemed to have swallowed her up again and gnawed at her flesh and blood along with the name "Jiang Cunxi".
How she got through this, only she herself knows. That was not the life that her Shi Yi, her baby, should have endured.
"No." She raised her hand and stroked the door panel, speaking in a low voice.
Shi Yi couldn't hold back her tears, which rolled down again.
Her reluctance was ridiculous.
She said: "Jiang Cunxi, don't you know that some people are only suitable to remain in memories?"
Perhaps from the very beginning, she should not have allowed Fu Shitian to get close to her, should not have gotten close to Fu Shitian, should not have thought that Fu Shitian's love would be like the birthmark reflected in her eyes and engraved in her heart, which would never change over the years.
Fu Shitian's whole body was in spasms due to pain, and the place where his gallbladder no longer existed seemed to be in pain again.
She held onto the door frame, moved her throat, and opened her mouth several times before she could speak smoothly, "I'm sorry..."
Shi Yi took a deep breath, stopped crying, and said in despair: "How did you get here?"
“I drove here.”
"Can you go back by yourself?"
Fu Shitian said, "Okay."
Shi Yi stopped talking.
She sat by the door, looking at the pitch-black void, listening quietly, listening to the footsteps sounding, disappearing, sounding again, and disappearing again, and then, the door was opened and closed.
Everything returned to silence again.
Just like her reunion with Fu Shitian.
Shi Yi thought, forget it. Let Fu Shitian go.
During those years, she laughed for her, cried for her, went through wind and rain for her, cooked for her, endured the pain for her, and gave her everything she could.
She actually loved her seriously.
Now, I just seriously don't love her anymore.
Just treat it as a dream. What you are revisiting is the old dream that you refuse to let go of.
Now, the dream is over and everything can return to peace.
Anyway, she has managed to get through all these years without Fu Shitian.
Isn’t a plain and simple life, without sadness or joy, the true meaning of life
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