Two days later, on Saturday, November 16th, was Shi Yi's lunar birthday. In previous years, Fang Ruohua would make time to cook for her on this day, and Shi Yuanmian would also come back specially. The family of three would have a rare meal together at home and spend some warm time together.
Last year was the first year of the divorce. Shi Yi's birthday happened to fall on the same day of the lunar and solar calendars. Fang Ruohua followed Shi Yi's wishes and asked her to focus on celebrating with her classmates and friends. This year, Xiang Ye wanted Shi Yi to come to his house, and he would cook for Shi Yi and help her celebrate. Fang Ruohua couldn't find the reason why Shi Yi lost control of her emotions last time, and she was worried and didn't want Shi Yi to contact Xiang Ye again.
She didn't know whether Shi Yi had been acting stubbornly all along, and whether her remarriage had brought more harm to Shi Yi.
She made an appointment with Shi Yi to go to a resort in the neighboring city that day, just the two of them, mother and daughter, to relax and unwind.
Shi Yi originally didn't want to go through so much trouble, but after receiving a call from Xiang Ye, he changed his mind and agreed.
They arrived in the morning and spent most of the day wandering around the various attractions in the tropical resort surrounded by blue sea. In the evening, they were tired, so they went to the restaurant they had booked to have dinner and celebrate their birthday. When night fell, they walked back to the villa under the moonlight and lights to rest.
The villa is located on the hillside. Looking up, you can see layers of green forests, charming light and shadows, and a relaxing and pleasant feeling. There is a pool of hot springs in front of the courtyard. Fang Ruohua suggested that Shi Yi soak in the water for a while.
Shi Yi followed her advice, but Fang Ruohua did not go into the water. She just gathered her skirt and sat elegantly on the hot spring pool platform where Shi Yi was leaning to accompany her.
"I haven't been feeling well these past two days." She explained naturally.
Shi Yi did not force them. One of them was in the water, the other was outside the pool, chatting casually.
After chatting for a few words, Fang Ruohua's phone rang. Fang Ruohua took a look and said, "It's your uncle," then stood up and walked away to pick up the phone.
After a while, Fang Ruohua came back.
Shi Yi was surprised: "So fast."
Fang Ruohua explained: "Nothing, just asking if we had eaten and what we had for dinner."
Shi Yi laughed softly: "Uncle should come with us."
Fang Ruohua carefully observed Shi Yi's expression. Shi Yi looked normal, and even had a faint smile on his face, which didn't seem to be fake.
"We can't bring him." Fang Ruohua said with a smile, "It would be very inconvenient for us if he, a grown man, came with us."
Shi Yi looked at her smile, feeling a little sour, but more tender. Fang Ruohua's smile when she mentioned Xiang Ye was very different from other times.
This kind of happiness was something Shi Yuanmian had never given her, and it was also something she could not bring to her.
She suddenly turned sideways and put her hand on Fang Ruohua's flat belly.
Fang Ruohua was caught off guard and her whole body froze.
Shi Yi looked at her calmly and said gently, "Mom, if your body allows, please stay."
Fang Ruohua's lips trembled, and she was rarely flustered: "Yi Yi, you..."
"I know everything." Shi Yi lowered his eyes, "My uncle called me two days ago."
"Who told him to say that!" Fang Ruohua frowned, furious.
Shi Yi stood up from the water, put on a bath towel, and said calmly, "I should know."
Recalling the feeling of a landslide and tsunami when she received the call and learned that Fang Ruohua had a new life in her belly and that she was no longer Fang Ruohua's only one, Shi Yi still felt a little uncomfortable. That was the panic feeling that her mother was completely taken away.
But what was even more painful was that Xiang Ye told her that after various examinations and repeated considerations, they had originally planned to keep the child, but after Fang Ruohua visited her that time, she decided not to keep it.
He apologized to her and frankly said that he had selfish motives and he couldn't bear to let her go. He also felt that Shi Yi had the right to know about this, so he wanted to talk to her and hear her thoughts.
At that moment, Shi Yi felt mixed emotions, her brain was as chaotic as a hurricane, and she couldn't think at all. She didn't answer and hung up Xiang Ye's phone.
Xiang Ye called her twice more, but she didn't answer. After taking a deep breath, she replied to Xiang Ye: "Let me calm down."
That night, she sat on the balcony enjoying the breeze for a long time, then stepped into the audio-visual room and turned on the stargazer which she had not touched for a long time.
Under the vast stars, she thought a lot for a long time. Just like the two times she went to the psychological counseling room, she was silent, talking to herself in her mind, and trying to sort out her thoughts objectively and rationally.
At about five in the morning, she replied to Xiang Ye: "I'll talk to her on Saturday."
"Because I knew nothing, I became the executioner who killed your happiness. I don't want to experience this a second time." Shi Yi sat next to Fang Ruohua with a low voice.
Fang Ruohua couldn't bear to hear her say that about herself, "It's not like that. This is my own decision. It has nothing to do with you."
"But I can't help thinking this way." Shi Yi looked into her eyes, "If it really has nothing to do with me, Mom, tell me, if you don't consider my opinion, do you want to keep him?"
Fang Ruohua choked up and turned away, ready to deny it, but Shi Yi saw through her hesitation and whispered, "Mom, do you want to hear my thoughts?"
Fang Ruohua hesitated.
Shi Yi said directly: "I was indeed very unhappy some time ago, and I made you worried." She looked at the white steam rising from the hot spring and said calmly: "But it has nothing to do with you and uncle, it's my own problem."
"From the time I told you that I approved of your remarriage and blessed you and your uncle, I have no grudges against your marriage or your life."
"Of course I feel disappointed when someone else takes away your attention. But seeing you doing well, I am happier than disappointed."
She was not good at expressing her love, and she thought she would be embarrassed to confess to Fang Ruohua for the first time. But after she opened her mouth, she found that everything was much easier than she thought. She turned back and looked at Fang Ruohua, "I don't need you to sacrifice anything for me, I just want you to be happy."
Fang Ruohua was moved, her voice hoarse, "Shi Yi, I don't need you to force yourself for me."
"I didn't force myself." Shi Yi held her hand and placed her hand on her belly. "If you want him, I will look forward to his arrival just like you do, and look forward to having another person in this world who is connected to me by blood and loves you as much as I do."
Fang Ruohua's eyes were red. She raised her head and took a deep breath to calm herself down. She asked Shi Yi: "Have you solved the problem that has made you unhappy for a long time?" She was still worried.
"No." After a pause, Shi Yi added: "But I seem to have got the answer I wanted."
Just like she didn't need Fang Ruohua to sacrifice for her, Fang Ruohua also said that she didn't need her to force herself to do anything for her.
Maybe it is not easy to accept many things at first. Just like accepting the broken family, accepting Fang Ruohua's remarriage and pregnancy. But they have all experienced it, and it is even more impossible for both parties to feel good if one party compromises for the other.
She looked at Fang Ruohua's gentle face and asked seriously: "Everyone, if you choose to be responsible for yourself, is it also a kind of responsibility to the people who love you?"
Fang Ruohua nodded subconsciously.
Shi Yi smiled faintly, "I think so too."
The bright light of Qingming Festival cleared the haze in his eyes, and the night wind blew across his face. Shi Yi felt the fluttering of his hair and the breathing of his pores for the first time in a long time. It was as if his body, which had been numb for a long time, had finally awakened.
Her brows relaxed and she said firmly, "Then I hope you can make responsible decisions for yourself so that you can really live a good and happy life. This is what I hope most, the way you will be responsible to me."
She was trying to comfort Fang Ruohua, and also comfort herself. She convinced herself that this was not an excuse. After all, Fang Ruohua's love for her must be the same as hers.
Fang Ruohua's eyes sparkled with relief, "Shi Yi, you have really grown up."
Shi Yi turned sideways, hugged her lightly, lowered his head, rested his chin on her shoulder, and promised softly: "So, don't worry about me, I will also take good care of myself."
"No matter what happens in the future, you are my mother, I am your daughter, and I love you very much. This will never change."
Rare intimacy, rare confession, rare little girl behavior. Fang Ruohua's heart softened again and again.
The two chatted in this position for a long time, until the night grew colder and Shi Yi felt a little cold, so they ended the conversation and returned to the villa.
Shi Yi went into the bathroom to take a shower. Most of the shackles were removed, and the hot water washed over his whole body, making him feel warm and comfortable. All the heaviness seemed to flow away with the water.
Her thoughts gradually drifted away, entangled with Fu Shitian who was thousands of miles away.
Take responsibility for yourself, accept your true self, and then what
Can she be with Si Tian
Si Tian... Can you forgive her? She thought of Fu Si Tian's avoidance and resistance to her, and her heart was heavy again.
She came out of the bathroom after taking a shower, sat on the bed and blew her hair, absent-minded. The screen of her mobile phone stayed on the QQ homepage for a long time, and Fu Shitian's chat bar was pulled to the top again.
Shi Yi finally clicked on it when his hair was about to be burnt.
Then, looking at the last record that Fu Shitian had not replied to, she lost her courage again.
Every word pierced her eyes like a needle, reminding her how cruelly she had hurt Fu Shitian.
How could she have the nerve to look back
Chen Xizhu's words rang sharply in his ears, "Shi Yi, you think too highly of yourself."
The phone screen went dark, and Shi Yi's eyes also went dark. She turned off the hair dryer, turned off the ceiling light, closed her eyes, and tossed and turned in the dark.
She had a realization: she had never been a person who liked to escape, but when it came to Fu Shitian, she had always been a coward.
At one in the morning, she still couldn't fall asleep. She opened her eyes and habitually opened Fu Shitian's small account homepage.
Minute by minute, she refreshed Fu Shitian's homepage. She set a time for herself, three o'clock - the latest time she had seen Fu Shitian appear. She hoped that it would not appear, and hoped that Fu Shitian would have a good sleep tonight.
However, at 2:30 in the morning, she did not wait for the entry "She just liked this Weibo post", but she keenly noticed that the number of Weibo posts had increased by one.
Fu Shitian posted a Weibo post that was visible only to himself.
Shi Yi frowned and sat up with her arms propped up. She stared at the line of numbers on the top, her lips tightly pursed, and her heart was overwhelmed by heartache.
How many days have passed? It's not a coincidence at all. Fu Shitian has never slept well all night.
This can't go on any longer.
She rubbed her forehead, closed her eyes, took a deep breath, put aside all her reserve and worries, and opened Fu Shitian's dialog box again.
Apologize? Where to start. Care? I don't even know where to start.
But reconciliation must have a beginning.
"Si Tian, are you asleep?" she asked with difficulty.
The moment the screen lit up and Shi Yi's name popped up, Fu Shitian was stunned.
She stared at the screen blankly, wondering if she was dreaming.
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