The last time was the same, like a dream, in the dark, Shi Yi stood in the dormitory, looked at her with very gentle eyes, and then pushed her into the abyss with very hurtful words. The pain was too unforgettable, and since then, she has been very restrained even in her dreams, not daring to cross the line.
The ecstasy lasted only a moment, and then she became panicked. Subconsciously, she wanted to pull her hand back.
However, Shi Yi held her with even greater force, preventing her from breaking free.
Fu Shitian was suddenly confused, her brain was not functioning, her heart was completely out of order, "Shi Yi..." She trembled as if she wanted to ask something: "You..."
Shi Yi stared at her without blinking, with a hint of pleading in his watery eyes.
Fu Shitian's doubts disappeared in her throat. Sadness appeared in her eyes. Suddenly she smiled bitterly, raised her head, closed her eyes, and said to herself dejectedly: "I must be crazy..."
Otherwise, how could hallucinations occur
The weak voice contained tears. Shi Yi could not see her expression, but only saw the girl's tears continuously falling from her chin like beads with broken strings, piercing her heart.
She didn't know why Fu Shitian said that. But she didn't want to see Fu Shitian cry again, and she didn't want Fu Shitian to feel wronged and in pain again. Her eyes were wet, she let go of Fu Shitian's hand, climbed up holding the handrail of the ladder, stood at a height that was a head shorter than Fu Shitian, stretched out her hand, held Fu Shitian's chin with her palm, and wiped Fu Shitian's tears with great love.
The coldness of the fingertips on his cheek was too real, and the tenderness was too real. Fu Shitian's fingertips fell on the sheets and pinched the fingertips fiercely.
The pain was so severe that she was numb, and this illusion had not ended. Fu Shitian opened her tearful eyes and looked at the face that haunted her dreams, the one she wanted to love but couldn't, the one she wanted to forget but couldn't, and she completely collapsed. "Shi Yi... Tell me, am I dreaming? Am I crazy?"
Her pale face was full of tears, and it seemed that no matter how hard she tried, they would not dry up. Shi Yi stroked Fu Shitian's cheek, his throat was blocked, his voice was hoarse, but his tone was so soft that it seemed like water could be squeezed out of it: "It's not a dream, it's real. Shitian, I'm sorry for making you wait for so long."
"I'm sorry to have wronged you."
In the dim light, Fu Shitian's breathing suddenly became heavier. "Shi Yi, why... why are you doing this?"
Why doesn't he want her to like her but also doesn't allow her to dislike her? Why does she come to give her hope, tease her, and push her into deeper despair when she has clearly convinced herself to give up and has tried to get used to living in the darkness
She couldn't hold back her tears, but she was powerless. She choked up and couldn't speak: "What do you want? What do you want from me?"
She bit her lower lip, afraid that she would cry out, and curled up, hiding her head in her knees. The sob was stuck in her throat, very light and muffled.
The voice was weak but heart-piercing. Shi Yi couldn't hold back her tears.
She leaned over and hugged Fu Shitian. In her arms, the girl's shoulders trembled, and she was so thin that it hurt her hands. Shi Yi felt as if her heart was broken. "I don't want to do anything." She rested her forehead against Fu Shitian's head, and her voice was bitter. "I want to be with you. I want to accompany you when you have insomnia and when you sleep peacefully. I want to give you stars and smiles."
"Si Tian, promise me, be my girlfriend, okay?"
Fu Shitian's body was shaking even more violently. Shi Yi's voice echoed in her head, "Shitian, promise me, will you be my girlfriend?" A huge wave of joy and endless sorrow came over her, engulfing her mercilessly.
Every cell in her body was clamoring for her to agree, but she bit her lower lip and said with blood in her mouth: "No, Shi Yi."
She raised her head and looked at Shi Yi, her long eyelashes fluttering, tears falling, her eyes filled with endless love and despair.
Shi Yi didn't understand. Si Tian... rejected her? Her mind was still unwilling to react, but the heartache had already swept through her limbs and bones, and she almost couldn't hold on to the handrail to stabilize herself.
"Why? Don't you like me anymore?" Shi Yi lost all expression, his voice as low as dead water.
Fu Shitian shook his head, and with his last bit of strength, he said sadly, "Shi Yi, you have a boyfriend."
"Didn't you say it was disgusting?"
She was admonishing Shi Yi and also admonishing herself: "Don't be like your father." Don't hurt innocent people in the name of love.
Shi Yi frowned slowly, and the frown became tighter and tighter, "I have a boyfriend?"
"Who? I don't even know."
The confusion and displeasure on her face did not seem fake. Fu Shitian even forgot to breathe. He was stunned. A certain possibility flashed through his mind and his heartbeat suddenly became wild.
"You... didn't you agree to the pursuit of that boy who often goes to class with you?" she said with a tight throat.
Shi Yi looked at her pitiful and nervous expression, and suddenly understood. The pain faded away, and he felt relieved and angry at the same time, "Who told you that?"
Anyone could hear the denial in her tone.
Fu Shitian's tears stopped, he opened his lips slightly, and a huge surprise burst out in his eyes.
Shi Yi was alarmed and couldn't help sighing. She raised her hand and tapped Fu Shitian's forehead, "Who do you think I am?"
Fu Shitian seemed to be stunned by the surprise, and she didn't move at all. She was reflected in the rippling water. Shi Yi's heart softened again. Following the action of flicking her forehead, his knuckles slid down and gently scratched her nose, "He and I are different people."
Her expression was serious enough to reassure Fu Shitian: "I admit that I thought about escaping and being with Xia Ke. But I couldn't do it, and I rejected him. What's disgusting is not the love itself, but the deception of an innocent third party."
"I'll never be like my dad."
"Stein, I apologize for any prejudice I may have had."
Fu Shitian's numb body was completely revived. She heard her own heartbeat for the first time in a long time, how joyful and powerful it was beating in her chest. She felt like she was floating in the air, as if she had survived a catastrophe. She wanted to laugh, but when she blinked, tears blurred her vision.
But Shi Yi was still giving her more happiness, stimulating her tear glands, "So you don't have a boyfriend, I'll ask again."
She grabbed Fu Shitian's hand, interlocked their fingers, her brows were calm, she was smiling, but there was a nervousness in her voice that was difficult to conceal, "Shitian, do you still like me? Are you still willing to be with me?"
At that moment, Fu Shitian was sure that he saw his own brilliant starry sky in Shi Yi's eyes.
She couldn't hold it in any longer, so she bent down, hugged Shi Yi's neck, and said out loud the thoughts that she had wanted to kill countless times and thought would never see the light of day again: "I like you, Shi Yi, I like you, I like you very much."
Tears flowed down his neck and into Shi Yi's heart.
Shi Yi hugged her back tightly, he couldn't breathe through his nose and his eyes were misty.
She was about to speak when the dormitory door suddenly creaked.
She heard it, and so did Fu Shitian. Without time to think, Fu Shitian quickly let go of Shi Yi and sat up straight as a reflex; Shi Yi felt inexplicably guilty because of her reaction, and quickly jumped off the ladder and stood on the ground.
I was so panicked that I did it all in one go, and everything happened in a flash.
The creaking sound of the door disappeared, and several seconds passed, but the imagined footsteps did not sound.
The two of them turned their heads to look at the door at the same time. A thin gap appeared between the door and the door frame, and the light in the corridor cast a thin strip of light on the wall.
It must be the wind...
Shi Yi mechanically turned back to look at Fu Shitian, who was also looking at her with a red face. When their eyes met, Shi Yi suddenly couldn't help but curl the corners of her lips and laughed out loud.
What a stupid thing she did tonight.
Fu Shitian was infected by her smile and his eyebrows curved, tears still hanging on his long eyelashes, and he burst into laughter.
No one was willing to look away and they just stared at each other's smile for a few seconds. They both felt sweet yet a little awkward in their hearts.
The laughter stopped, and the air was quiet for two seconds. Fu Shitian lowered his eyes and asked softly: "Did you drive here?"
Shi Yi's throat was dry, "Hmm."
"Then... do you want to go back?" Fu Shitian twisted the corner of the quilt unconsciously with his fingers, glanced at Shi Yi quickly, and lowered his head again.
Shi Yi thought she was so cute. His heart was so full that it seemed like something was about to overflow.
She walked closer, deliberately raised her head to find Fu Shitian's eyes, and asked: "Then can I not go back?"
Fu Shitian's eyes rippled, he bit his lip and said nothing, supported himself with his arms, and stepped back. What he meant was self-evident.
Shi Yi laughed contentedly. The feeling of shackles that had trapped her for so long completely disappeared.
"Can you lend me your slippers so I can wash my feet?"
"Okay." Fu Shitian responded obediently.
There was only a pair of plain cotton slippers beside the ladder. Shi Yi bent down to pick them up and walked towards the bathroom. Fu Shitian suddenly called her nervously: "Shi Yi, you came here without shoes?"
Shi Yi's body stiffened, and he hid his embarrassment and said "hmm" naturally.
The sound of the bed shaking was immediately heard in the quiet space, and then Fu Shitian landed barefoot in front of her.
"Shi Yi, you..." She hesitated, "Idiot."
She scolded her, her eyes quickly turned red again, snatched the slippers from Shi Yi's hand, squatted down, and told her in a muffled voice: "Put on your shoes first, I'll turn on the light and see if you're hurt anywhere."
The warm little hand touched her feet regardless of the dirt, and warm liquid dripped down.
Shi Yi's heart was burned.
She reached out and pulled Fu Shitian's shoulder. Fu Shitian looked up at her in confusion, his clear eyes full of heartache.
"I will wear it myself."
Fu Shitian blinked, her seductive lips slightly opened and closed, "Okay, I'll go turn on the light."
She stood up and was about to turn around and walk towards the door when Shi Yi suddenly grabbed her wrist with one hand and protected the back of her head with the other, pushing her against the ladder.
Before she could be surprised, Shi Yi's nose rubbed against hers, and his soft lips fell down.
Fu Shitian couldn't describe the feeling at that moment.
It was as if an electric current instantly passed through her whole body. All her pores stood up and her whole body seemed to be filled with hearts, beating so fast that she almost suffocated.
Shi Yi pursed her lips gently and pressed them repeatedly. Fu Shitian couldn't bear it anymore. She felt dizzy from the heat and was about to go limp.
Shi Yi let her go.
She leaned her forehead against hers, breathing lightly, with a burning heat still in her eyes. Her red lips slowly rose, and her whole body was like a blooming white rose.
Cool and elegant, gentle but not coquettish, captivating.
"Si Tian." She called her with a smile. "I didn't have time to tell you just now."
"I like you, too."
"I like you very much."
The author has something to say: The old mother is worried, can the little rabbit still be 1? (Actually I'm laughing, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha)