Lying on the bed of the mental illness treatment center, Chen Ge's expressions and words were perfectly integrated into this environment.
"A person who is fine during the day, how can he be so sick at night?" Zuo Han sat back on his bed, separated from Chen Ge by a long distance: "I studied forensics, and after so many years of study, I really I've never heard that frequent stimulation can activate memory."
"You study forensics to deal with corpses, and the situation of living people may be more complicated."
"Do you know how low your body temperature was when you were sick just now? The only difference between you and a dead person at that time was that you still had a heartbeat." Zuo Han initially wanted to cooperate with Chen Ge and let everyone escape together, but he Now I gradually find that my roommate is very dangerous, and maybe I will kill myself at some point.
In Zuo Han's view, Chen Ge is not just sick, there seem to be other secrets hidden in him.
"Could it be that this hospital has been conducting human experiments?" Zuo Han tried to use his knowledge to find the answer, but the more he thought about it, the more confused he became. It was difficult for science to explain Chen Ge's state. This is already the category of theology.
"Zuo Han, can you tell me a few ghost stories? The most frightening one." Chen Ge lay on the bed and turned to look at Zuo Han with anticipation on his face.
"Are you sick? What ghost stories are you listening to all of a sudden?" Zuo Han blurted out, and he found that he couldn't understand Chen Ge at all: "You want to hear the patient's ghost stories in the early hours of midnight. Say something like that?"
"I just want to try it out and see if the emotion of fear can stimulate my memory recovery."
Hearing Chen Ge's words, Zuo Han also felt that there was a bit of truth. The corners of his eyes twitched slightly, and then he told Chen Ge a few ghost stories that he knew.
"Do you feel frightened?"
"No, your story doesn't excite me at all."
"Whoever listens to ghost stories won't get excited!" Zuo Han got up from the bed, and he dragged his hospital bed away from Chen Ge until he stopped at the door.
At this distance, if Chen Ge is not good for him, he can open the door and run out immediately.
"Has anything really terrible happened around you?"
"Yes, I was put in a mental hospital, and my patient asked me to tell him ghost stories at night." Zuo Han couldn't understand Chen Ge's behavior at all, and it was difficult to explain both medically and occult.
"Your ghost stories aren't scary at all, why don't you..." Chen Ge barely raised his hand: "How about we play some psychic games? Like pen fairy, dish fairy or something?"
There is no need to think, some things have been engraved in the body, and Chen Ge is very familiar with these words.
"Didn't you lose your memory? How do you know so much about these strange things?" Zuo Han realized the problem.
"I had the impression that I was the owner of the haunted house, but the doctor said that I took on someone else's identity and that my story was made up."
"The doctor may be deceiving you. Judging from your strange performance tonight, you are keen to seek stimulation, like the feeling of panic, and you are familiar with horror games such as Pen Fairy and Die Fairy. You may have been driving a haunted house before. Yes!" Zuo Han rubbed his chin in thought.
"But why did the doctor lie to me?"
"how could I know?"
"Then let's play the pen fairy game? I should be able to remember something slowly."
"No play, no pen."
"Where's Die Fairy? I also know of a horror game called Back to Back, where one person lies on the bed and one person hides under the bed board..." Once he thought deeply, Chen Ge's brain seemed to be torn apart, so whether he was talking, or Doing something is instinctive.
Zuo Han didn't talk to Chen Ge anymore, he lay on the bed with a cold face, turned his back to Chen Ge and began to think about how to escape from the hospital.
Lying in this position for a while, Zuo Han felt inexplicably uneasy in his heart. When he recalled Chen Ge's words, he always felt something was wrong: "Is it possible that he is pretending to be sick? With my back to him, will he be right now? standing behind me?"
Goosebumps appeared on his neck, Zuo Han suddenly turned over and found that Chen Ge had fallen asleep.
"It looks normal when he is asleep. I really didn't expect him to say such terrible things."
The ward became quiet, and at more than two o'clock in the morning, there was a sudden noise somewhere in the hospital, as if something had exploded.
Chen Ge and Zuo Han were all awakened. Before they could understand what was going on, footsteps suddenly sounded outside the corridor.
"Someone is here!"
The door of the ward was knocked lightly twice, and before Chen Ge and Zuo Han approached, the footsteps went away again.
When Zuo Han opened the door, there was no one in the corridor outside: "Who knocked on the door?"
"By the way, when you went out to check last night, someone knocked on the door, but he only knocked once." Chen Ge found that when he recalled the memory after waking up in the hospital, his brain didn't hurt, but if he recalled the memory before he fell into a coma memory, the brain will have a sense of tearing.
"Knocked once yesterday and twice today? It seems that the other party came here specially and is doing it in a targeted manner." Zuo Han stared at Chen Ge: "Do you still know other patients in the hospital? ?"
"I don't remember. I seem to be in a coma many times since I was hospitalized. Every time I wake up, the memory before the last coma becomes blurred."
"Is it possible that this is the case? The hospital wants you to become a 'normal person' who meets their standards, but every treatment fails, so you can only keep 'restarting'?" Zuo Han thought the more he felt it was possible: " You may have experienced a similar treatment process many times, but you just didn't realize it."
"But what does this have to do with the knocker?" Chen Ge was lying on the bed, he tried his best to control himself not to think, and hurry up to recover.
"Will the relationship between you and the knocker be the same as the relationship between us?" Zuo Han boldly speculated: "He should be your former patient. You were 'restarted' because of treatment failure, and he hides it. Come down, the knock on the door may be some kind of agreement between you, or is he implying something to you?"
"Makes sense." Chen Ge nodded.
"He may appear tomorrow night, and we will try to get in touch with him at that time."
"it is good."
The hospital tonight was not peaceful. There were footsteps in the corridor all the time. Chen Ge only fell asleep when it was almost dawn.
At eight in the morning, the door of the ward was pushed open, and Dr. Gao and Xu Wan entered the ward together.
"How was your rest last night?" Dr. Gao once again ignored Zuo Han who was lying on his side on the bed, and walked directly to Chen Ge's bedside. He looked a little tired.
"It's not very good. It seemed that something exploded in the hospital last night, and a loud noise woke me up." Chen Ge looked a little weak and spoke slowly.
"There is a problem in the boiler room of the hospital, it's not a big deal." Dr. Gao sat on the bed in the middle of the ward: "Did you have a dream last night?"
"No." Chen Ge shook his head: "I feel like I'm forgetting something. Some vague memory fragments in my mind are being overwritten by new memories. I'm conflicted, and I don't know which one is the real me."
"If you can realize this, it means that your condition has improved significantly. Don't force it, let's take it slowly." Dr. Gao was very patient: "You can't be in a hurry to treat mental illness, you must accept it and recognize it clearly. And then beat it."
After speaking, Dr. Gao turned to look at Zuo Han for the first time: "Chen Ge, I heard from the nurse that someone was wandering in the corridor last night. You and your roommate didn't leave the ward last night, right?"
Hearing Dr. Gao's words, Zuo Han opened his eyes, but he was lying on the bed with his back to Dr. Gao, so neither Dr. Gao nor Chen Ge noticed.
"We've all been in the room, but I heard footsteps in the middle of the night. It was very chaotic, as if there were a lot of people outside." Chen Ge didn't continue the topic, but instead focused on the fact that he was woken up just now. Get up: "Doctor Gao, I found something very strange last night."
"you say."
"Last night, when I was woken up by the sound of the explosion, the sense of horror at that moment seemed to run through my body like an electric current. I was very disgusted with that feeling of panic, and my body kept shaking." Chen Ge hit his chest with both hands, his face was very bad .
Dr. Gao listened patiently, while Zuo Han, who was pretending to be asleep, pouted.
The lunatic who can stare at the mental patient in the door with a perverted smile, now actually says that he hates the feeling of panic
"It was as if I was thrown into a boundless nightmare, with headaches, palpitations, and cold sweat all over my body. I couldn't breathe, and I even felt a sense of weightlessness and near-death." Chen Ge covered his head and said in a hurry: "I The memory of the past seems to be full of fear, when I was frightened again, that deep sense of powerlessness penetrated my body, I hated the memory of the past and wanted to completely remove them from my mind! Doctor Gao, can you Can you help me?"
Before Dr. Gao, who was sitting beside the bed, said a word, Zuo Han opened his eyes first. He already knew what Chen Ge wanted to do.
"Fear makes you disgust and fear your past memories?" Dr. Gao nodded slowly: "I have communicated with you before, and the stories you imagined are really scary, and they are definitely bad memories."
With blank eyes, Chen Ge looked at the ceiling stupidly: "It's really painful, I hate myself when I'm in fear."
"This is a normal reaction. You will feel this way, indicating that you are gradually being cured." Dr. Gao took out the medicine bottle from his pocket and poured out two pills. After watching Chen Ge eat it, he turned and left: "I'm going to revise the treatment plan, and you will follow Xu Wan to breakfast in a while."
After Dr. Gao left, Xu Wan helped Chen Ge up, helped Chen Ge wash up, and then took Chen Ge to the hospital cafeteria.
"This is the cafeteria in the third ward. When your condition stabilizes, you can come here to eat by yourself." Xu Wan prepared for Chen Ge before leaving.
"I'm very familiar with this scene. In my memory, she often brings meals for me." Chen Ge said to himself, he had no friends, and sat alone in the corner of the restaurant, occasionally looking up at the patients around him.
"The third ward of Xinhai Central Hospital is a treatment center for mental patients, just like a place called the third ward in my memory."
Memories are interspersed with reality, firmly intertwined, Chen Ge tapped the table lightly with a spoon.
He was expressionless, thinking about one thing in his mind.
"Dr. Gao said that insight is very important for mental patients. The word insight key appeared in my mind some time ago, and the memory that came up with this word is the third ward, although I don't remember being in the third ward. But one thing is certain, there is a certain connection between the key of insight and the third ward. If the third ward I imagined, the actual prototype is the third ward, that is Doesn't it also indirectly mean that the key to insight is hidden somewhere in the third ward?"
The deformation of the key in his hand, the pain tortured Chen Ge's nerves, but he held it down with a terrifying will.
"Dr. Gao said that my past memories are all made up stories, and the most impressive things in my memory can be found in reality, so I want to see what the key to insight in my memory looks like in reality. "
When Chen Ge remembered the key of insight and the third ward, another memory fragment naturally appeared in his mind: "Insight is very important for mental patients, the key of insight is related to mental hospitals, this arrangement It's not accidental, it feels like someone behind the scenes deliberately set all this up, he seems to have predicted that one day I will be locked in a mental hospital, and set up the key of insight in advance."
Every time the brain operates, it is as if countless needles have passed through it. This kind of pain is simply unbearable for most people.
"The key to insight is like a node that triggers memory, pointing a direction for my thinking."
While twisting the key that was about to deform, Chen Ge endured the pain and ate his food one bite at a time.
He was slowly getting used to the pain, and faced his past in the most stupid and cruel way.
After eating, Chen Ge came to the garden outside the hospital with axillary crutches: "No matter what, I can't be locked in the isolation ward again. I will play what kind of person the hospital wants me to be. There is a chance to find out the truth.”
Sitting on the bench, Chen Ge looked at the gazebo in the distance, but Zhang Jingjiu did not come.
"Just saying a word to me, will I be punished so severely?" The sun shone on Chen Ge's face, but he didn't feel the slightest warmth.
"It seems that Zhang Jingjiu won't come."
A few minutes later, the flowers were arched open, and a cat's head was exposed. The stray cat seemed to have been waiting for Chen Ge. Of course, Chen Ge might also be waiting for it.
After getting out of the flower bush, the white cat bit Chen Ge's trousers and dragged him to the fence, but Chen Ge didn't resist.
It's just that this time is different from the last time. After the white cat led Chen Ge to the fence, it barked at Chen Ge a few times, and then it climbed out of the gap in the fence and ran to the paradise across the road.
"Is it asking me to wait for it here?" Chen Ge had no impression of this cat, neither in his past nor present memories.
Ten minutes later, just when Chen Ge suspected that he had been put out by a cat, the white cat appeared again, followed by a woman in red.
"Zhang Ya?"
The woman wore a ghostly makeup, and when she heard Chen Ge call out her name, she was slightly stunned.