"No, it's just a little itchy." Mu Xiaoya didn't dare to look back, her whole body was not right at this time.
What a shame, how could she be like this, Mu Xiaoya bit her pillow, her face ugly and self-pity.
Bai Chuan heard that Mu Xiaoya said nothing, so he couldn't help but lightly touched it with his hand again.
Mu Xiaoya suddenly jumped up and shouted behind her without thinking, "Don't touch it."
"..." Bai Chuan had already withdrawn his hand, and was staring at Mu Xiaoya with a bewildered expression.
Mu Xiaoya blushed, she knew that her reaction just now was a little big, but she didn't know what was wrong with her, as long as Bai Chuan's fingers touched her waist, she would feel uncomfortable. No, it can't be said to be uncomfortable, but her body has a sense of uncontrollable sex, which makes her a little intolerable and a little vaguely ashamed.
It's really strange, I haven't noticed that my waist is so sensitive before.
"Right... I'm sorry." Bai Chuan had never been so loudly violent by Mu Xiaoya before, he was stunned for a while before he remembered to apologize.
"No, it's none of your business, it's... It's too itchy, I couldn't hold it back for a while." Mu Xiaoya hurriedly explained.
"I'm sorry." Bai Chuan still apologized.
"I said, it's nothing to do with you, you didn't hurt me just now."
"It's blue."
"What?" Mu Xiaoya was stunned, and after a while, she realized that Bai Chuan was talking about her waist, "It's okay, it doesn't hurt, my skin is already white, and it will easily turn blue when I touch it casually, after two days Enough."
Bai Chuan nodded, but he couldn't get rid of the slightly blue skin in his mind. That cyan color was so dazzling on Mu Xiaoya's snow-white back.
"I'll... I'll..." Bai Chuan wanted to say that he would never get sick again, but he knew very well that this matter was out of his control, "I'll get sick in the future, don't worry about me."
As long as Mu Xiaoya doesn't care about herself when she is sick, she will not hurt Mu Xiaoya.
"No." Mu Xiaoya refused without thinking. There were some things she wanted to say when she was in the hospital.
Bai Chuan was stunned and raised his head in confusion, he didn't understand why Mu Xiaoya refused his request. When he was sick, he couldn't control his emotions and actions, he didn't want to hurt Mu Xiaoya, he didn't want Mu Xiaoya to hate him, he was afraid that one day Mu Xiaoya couldn't stand his sickness and would leave him.
"Xiao Chuan, why did you propose to me?" Mu Xiaoya knew that Bai Chuan didn't understand, so she guided her patiently.
"Because, I want you to be my partner." Bai Chuan once answered this question to Mu Xiaoya.
"Yes, everyone needs a partner, because partners can accompany and take care of each other." Mu Xiaoya said, "Do you know what each other means? When one party encounters difficulties, the other party should show up to help him. I am your partner, if I ignore you when you are sick, then I am not a qualified partner. An unqualified partner is not needed and will eventually divorce his other half, you think Do you want to divorce me?"
Bai Chuan shook his head in horror, he didn't want to, he didn't want to divorce Mu Xiaoya.
"Since you don't want to, then you are not allowed to say the same thing just now." Mu Xiaoya demanded.
"But... When I got sick, I couldn't control myself. I didn't want to hurt you." Bai Chuan didn't want Mu Xiaoya to divorce him, and he didn't want to hurt Mu Xiaoya. He didn't want either choice. He felt a little uncomfortable, he didn't know. what to do.
In Bai Chuan's simple thinking, he has never been so entangled, like a small animal trapped at a crossroads, looking around at a loss, not knowing which direction to run in order to escape the rolling of the wheels.
"Take a deep breath, take a deep breath, Xiaochuan, calm down." Mu Xiaoya found that Bai Chuan's mood was suddenly wrong again, and she was shocked. She never thought that a few words from her could make Bai Chuan's mood fluctuate so much. She shouted Bai Chuan's name loudly, trying to regain his sanity, but Bai Chuan was stuck in his own consciousness. Mu Xiaoya had no choice but to imitate Grandma Bai before, forcibly fixed Bai Chuan's head, made him touch her forehead, and made his eyes look at her own.
"Xiaochuan, I'm Xiaoya, look at me, look at me." Mu Xiaoya shouted over and over again, and finally, Bai Chuan seemed to recognize the girl in front of him, his breathing gradually calmed down, empty and anxious. His eyes regained focus.
"Xiaoya~~" Bai Chuan called out Mu Xiaoya's name, beads of sweat dripped down his cheeks, and his expression was full of exhaustion.
"Close your eyes and calm down."
Bai Chuan obediently closed his eyes and let his weight rest on Mu Xiaoya's forehead. He liked the touch, and also liked the distance between the two at this time, as if there was Mu Xiaoya's breath in every breath. Reassure him that he is no longer tired.
"I...Did I almost get sick again?"
After a long time, just when Mu Xiaoya thought that Bai Chuan had fallen asleep, Bai Chuan suddenly made a sound. His voice was very soft, and he had obviously broken free from the anxiety he had just been in, but his mood was not high and he looked a little depressed.
Mu Xiaoya took a deep breath, released her hand, let Bai Chuan look directly at herself, and then showed a big smile.
"Look, you didn't hurt me just now." Mu Xiaoya said in surprise.
"..." Bai Chuan stared blankly at Mu Xiaoya.
"Look, although you almost got sick just now, you didn't hurt me. You controlled it." Mu Xiaoya continued, "This means that you are not out of control every time you get sick, you can control it by yourself. right?"
Bai Chuan listened blankly. He had a good memory since he was a child, and he could almost never forget it, but once he got sick, his memory would become extremely vague. He couldn't remember whether he had taken the initiative to control his emotions before, but if there was, it must be very little, otherwise grandma wouldn't be so worried.
"Before in the hospital, you told me that you said you were having a headache because of the strange noise from that lamp, right?" Mu Xiaoya saw that Bai Chuan didn't speak, and continued to guide her patiently.
Bai Chuan nodded.
"Then did you get sick as soon as you heard it, or did you get sick after listening for a while?"
"I listened to it for a while." Bai Chuan said disappointedly. He kept trying to endure, but no matter how much he endured, he eventually lost his mind.
"Then if we turn off the lights when you hear the sound at first, will you still get sick?" Mu Xiaoya asked.
Bai Chuan shook his head.
"This is the method, I will turn off the lights for you in the future." Mu Xiaoya said.
Bai Chuan looked at Mu Xiaoya quietly.
"Xiao Chuan, let's make an agreement." Mu Xiaoya said, "I don't want to divorce you, and you don't want to hurt me, right?"
"Yeah." Bai Chuan nodded heavily.
"Then we will make an agreement. If you feel uncomfortable in the future, you must tell me as soon as possible. If the lights make strange noises and disturb you again, I will turn off the lights for you. I still hold you like I did just now, so you won't get sick." Mu Xiaoya asked expectantly, "Okay?"
"I don't want you to hate me." Bai Chuan said with difficulty.
"Why do you think I will hate you?" Mu Xiaoya didn't understand, why did Bai Chuan decide that he would hate him, this is not the first time he told himself not to hate him.
"Grandma said..." Bai Chuan said, "Not everyone can tolerate my illness indefinitely, so I have to try my best to control my emotions and try my best to avoid getting sick, so that others won't hate me. In this way, I will wait for her to leave. After that, I can live on my own. That way, when I have a partner, my partner won't hate me."
Compared with the time when he first proposed, Bai Chuan's speech was much smoother, but he used a smooth speech speed to say something that made Mu Xiaoya extremely uncomfortable.
"I don't want you to hate me. I'm afraid you will ignore me for a long, long time like before."
Mu Xiaoya held back her nose and asked, "When did I ignore you for a long, long time?"
"When you graduated from high school," Bai Chuan said, "the day you came to my house, I fell ill, and grandma told you to go back. After that, you didn't show up again throughout the summer vacation. After you went to college, you came less often."
Mu Xiaoya remembered that it was the day when the college entrance examination scores came out. She performed exceptionally well and got a very good score. Her parents were very happy and gave her a sum of money to travel with her classmates. The reason she ran that day was to tell Bai Chuan the good news, because half of the reason why she was able to take the exam so well was because Bai Chuan helped her summarize the key points of her study.
But she just walked to the door that day when she heard a strange noise inside, and then Grandma Bai came out and told her to go back. She left without thinking about it. After that, she was busy filling out volunteers, traveling, visiting relatives, and preparing to start school. The whole summer vacation was very busy.
When she got to college, she began to live on campus. With a bigger circle and more things to study, she had less and less time to go back. Occasionally, when I go back on weekends, I hurriedly come and go, and I never run to Grandma Bai's house as soon as I have time like before.
"I'm sorry." Mu Xiaoya suddenly remembered what Grandma Bai said to her when she was dying.
"Xiaoya, Xiaochuan's world is very small, and he can barely hold himself. But when he opens his heart to someone, that person will be his whole world."
Therefore, when she began to welcome the new world full of joy, she also got lost from Bai Chuan's world at the same time, leaving Bai Chuan there alone.
Mu Xiaoya knew that it wasn't her fault, that no one should become another person's world, and no one should live by another person. But as long as she thought of Bai Chuan sitting alone in her own world, waiting for her to come back, she felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry.
In this life, she made Bai Chuan wait for four years, and then she came back. But in the last life, she made Bai Chuan wait for eight years, but in the end she couldn't return to his world.
"Don't cry." Bai Chuan clumsily wiped the tears from Mu Xiaoya's face with his fingers.
"Xiao Chuan, I won't anymore." Mu Xiaoya took Bai Chuan's hand and assured her seriously, "I promise you, I won't hate you because of your illness, and I won't leave you because of this."
"Yeah." Bai Chuan nodded heavily, feeling a little happy. He believed what Mu Xiaoya said, as long as it was what she said, he was willing to believe it.
"Then you also promise me that you will tell me where you feel uncomfortable in the future, so that I can help you."
"Yeah." Bai Chuan nodded, Xiaoya wouldn't hate herself just because she got sick, so she had to work hard not to get sick.
"Alright, pull the hook." Mu Xiaoya stretched out her little finger.
Looking at Mu Xiaoya's raised little thumb, the smile on Bai Chuan's mouth gradually expanded. He remembered that when they first met, Mu Xiaoya accidentally stepped on a flower in grandma's yard. She forced herself to pull the hook and forbid him to tell grandma that he didn't move, so Mu Xiaoya forcibly lifted his finger.
"I pulled the tick, you are not allowed to complain."
He didn't complain, because the flower grew on its own after two days, and grandma didn't notice it at all.
"You are very trustworthy, let's be friends in the future." Then Mu Xiaoya unilaterally became friends with him.
"Pull the hook." This time, Bai Chuan took the initiative to hook Mu Xiaoya's finger.
This time, it was no longer Mu Xiaoya's unilateral promise.