Bai Xinyu curled his lips, "Who doesn't care? I'm not a zombie." He sighed, "How is the squad leader these days? Are you particularly depressed?"
"No, it's the same as usual, I can't see any difference."
"But that day, I saw that the monitor's eye circles were red." Bai Xinyu felt uncomfortable, "If it was because of other reasons, the monitor might not feel so uncomfortable, but this way the indicator is lost, even I can't go. Not reconciled."
"The squad leader is much stronger than you think, so stop thinking about it."
"I want to go to the monitor, but I'm afraid to go." Bai Xinyu scratched his head, "I still feel..."
Yu Fengcheng patted him on the head, "It's not your fault that I've said it all, when did you love to take care of things so much, can you put your energy in the kitchen and eat pebbles from the vegetables all day long."
Bai Xinyu stared, "Fart, it's fine for me to wash the vegetables, don't blame me for your bad teeth."
Yu Fengcheng flicked his head, "Wait for news from my uncle."
Bai Xinyu nodded, "Then I'll go first."
"Wait." Yu Fengcheng grabbed his collar.
Bai Xinyu looked impatient, "Kiss, right? Come, come, I will reward you with a kiss."
Yu Fengcheng patted his head, "What are you thinking, don't you see anyone outside?"
Bai Xinyu said angrily, "Then what are you going to do?"
"When I called my uncle that day, he said that my mother missed me. If I want to go back, he can find a way to get me a month's leave."
Bai Xinyu blinked, as if realizing something.
Yu Fengcheng looked at his bright eyes like a little hamster, and wanted to laugh, so he snorted softly, "I can get you one too."
Bai Xinyu grabbed his arm and was so excited that tears almost filled his eyes, "Really?"
Yu Fengcheng pushed his hand away, "Did I say I will give it to you?"
Bai Xinyu said: "You, what do you want..."
Yu Fengcheng lowered his head and said with an ambiguous evil smile: "What do you think?"
Bai Xinyu stepped back subconsciously, "Don't tell me to take off my pants and put them on for you."
Yu Fengcheng pinched his face, "Or do you think I asked you to blow up bunkers?"
Bai Xinyu pointed at him, "Yu Fengcheng, you are so fucking wicked, I wouldn't sacrifice myself like this just to go home, I'm not short-hearted."
Yu Fengcheng snorted, "It's up to you." After finishing speaking, he ignored Bai Xinyu and left humming.
Bai Xinyu froze in place for a long time, when he realized that he was actually weighing gains and losses, he wished he could slap himself in the face, how could his chastity be traded! Even if you can, isn't it too cheap just for a month's vacation...
The whole regiment competition will start next month, and many capable soldiers are stepping up their training, hoping to stand out in this competition that will be visited by the future.
Bai Xinyu was affected by Chen Jing's incident, and he didn't have the heart to train for several days. Coupled with the cold weather, it is easy to make people lazy, but after looking at those carefree pigs, he was stimulated again , picked up the gun and insisted on going to the shooting range every day.
After half an hour of practice on the shooting range, his fingers were so cold that he could hardly use them. Today's accuracy also dropped a little, but Wu Qing said that the snowy weather is a good time to test the shooter's ability, so he insisted on lying on the ground. Train in the snow. He doesn't know how others are doing, but he can be said to have made rapid progress in the past two months. Even if he can't become a blockbuster, at least his results can be achieved. At that time, he can go to Xu Chuang to transfer him back to the company.
After shooting the target that day, he returned to the kitchen and found that the cooking team was using the stove to bake the leftover buns from yesterday. The son gnawed on the steamed stuffed bun.
Wu Qing took out a few bottles of white wine, and seven or eight of them drank and ate steamed buns while bragging, feeling very happy.
Cheng Wangwang said: "Xinyu, why are you frozen like this, where did you go?"
Bai Xinyu rubbed his ears, "Going to the shooting range."
"It's so cold today and you still go to the shooting range?"
"Yeah." Bai Xinyu glanced at Wu Qing and said with a smile: "Squad leader, didn't you say that you can only see your true level when shooting in this kind of windy weather."
Wu Qing gave him a white look, "The premise of seeing the real level is that you really have the level."
"I played well today." Bai Xinyu boasted: "I scored two 97 rings. If my fingers were not frozen and the snow affected my vision, I would definitely be better."
"Wow, you are so good." Cheng Wangwang said in surprise.
Bai Xinyu snorted triumphantly, "That's it." After finishing speaking, he didn't forget to flatter Wu Qing, "After all, it was brought out by Squad Leader Wu, right, Squad Leader."
Wu Qing kicked him, laughed and cursed: "Only you can say it."
Bai Xinyu smiled and said: "Squad leader, the whole regiment competition has started to sign up, you can recommend all guns to shoot."
Wu Qing looked at him, "Do you really want to participate?"
"Yeah." Bai Xinyu rubbed his head, "I... I still want to join the company."
Cheng Wangwang snorted, "Hurry up and go, you will be a disservice here."
Bai Xinyu bumped him with his elbow, "Don't worry, brother Wangwang, even if I'm not in the company, I'll come to play with you often."
Cheng Wangwang feigned anger and said, "What am I having fun with you, you little heartless one."
Bai Xinyu chuckled.
Wu Qing said: "You have to be a little self-aware, don't think that you are so awesome."
Bai Xinyu said: "I know the monitor, so you can sign up for me. I'm already mentally prepared. If it doesn't work, I'll continue to feed the pigs. What else can I do?"
Wu Qing took a puff of cigarette, and then looked at Bai Xinyu with that kind of scrutiny, which made Bai Xinyu's hair stand on end.
"Squad leader... I'm not saying that feeding pigs is not good, feeding pigs can also be very rewarding... why are you looking at me like that?"
Wu Qing exhaled smoke rings, "You all go out, I'll have a word with him."
Everyone left knowingly.
Bai Xinyu suddenly became nervous, the half-bitten bun was not good to eat, and he was reluctant to put it down.
Wu Qingdao: "What are you going to do after leaving the company?"
Bai Xinyu was taken aback, and was stopped by this question. After leaving the company, what is he going to do? Maybe it's the same as Qian Liang, who went home after two years? Anyway, he doesn't need to be promoted for good treatment like Feng Dongyuan, and he doesn't have Yu Fengcheng's drive to be the first in everything. He knows that Yu Fengcheng wants to go to the Snow Leopard Team and to find his brother-in-law. Like most men, he is full of admiration and fantasies for the brave and invincible special forces, but he knows that he is not that kind of material, and he can't afford that crime. He is in the company, just wanting to spend an ordinary life like other soldiers. During his career in the army, he would not tell others that he was cooking and feeding pigs in the army after returning home.
Wu Qing had already seen through him, and snorted: "You just want to change your life, because you are afraid that when you go home, others will laugh at you feeding pigs in the army, don't you?"
Bai Xinyu felt a little embarrassed, he didn't think there was anything wrong with thinking this way, but under Wu Qing's gaze, he still felt guilty.
Wu Qing flipped the bun with big pliers, and said in a deep voice, "I know you asked Chen Jing to find out about me, so do you know what I used to do?"
Bai Xinyu was startled, he hesitated and said, "Well, that..."
"Do you know how my waist was hurt?"
Bai Xinyu shook his head.
"Seven or eight years ago, we carried out a mission overseas. We can't say what the specific mission was, because of the special circumstances, that mission could only be carried out by five people, and the enemy we faced was an entire militia group. Probably There are more than 800 people. The militiamen are said to be a mob, and have received some military training, but they are said to be soldiers, and they have no military qualities. Many of the weapons they hold are retired, but their biggest advantage is that We were too poor to fear death. We polluted their water sources with poison, and fought a guerrilla in the forest with those who could move for six days. For six days, we barely slept. We ran out of ammunition and food. My best A comrade in arms was wounded by a grenade, and we took turns carrying him for more than 20 kilometers, and when we reached the next hidden point, we realized that we were carrying a dead man at some point."
Bai Xinyu didn't dare to breathe when he heard it.
"At that time, I was no longer a recruit, but it was the first time I faced the death of a comrade-in-arms. After six days of running, tension, torture, and pain, I thought I would collapse, but I found out that when I survived the special forces After all kinds of harsh training, I no longer have the ability to collapse. At that time, I felt that my will was so firm that as long as I was alive, nothing could hinder me from completing the task. However, I became emotional and insisted on killing the corpse of that comrade-in-arms. I brought him home. He is the only child in the family. I really couldn’t throw his body in a foreign country. Given the conditions at the time, our physical strength was already seriously exhausted, so we shouldn’t have made this decision at all. Others disagreed. But I insisted on going my own way. As a result, I didn’t dodge when the bomb came, and rolled down the mountain with the corpses of my comrades. Later, they rescued me, but my waist failed. When I woke up from the hospital , I don't know that my waist is injured, but I do know that even if I shoot accurately, if I fail to keep calm at the critical moment, dragging down the living comrades, and injuring myself, I am not a qualified sniper at all. I live up to it It ruined the training of the army and wasted the bullets I used for shooting.”
Bai Xinyu swallowed, he didn't know what Wu Qing meant by telling him this, but he felt a little awkward and guilty.
Wu Qing took a puff of cigarette, looked at him in the puffing and puffing smoke, his eyes were burning like a torch, "Do you know why I'm telling you this?"
Bai Xinyu shook his head awkwardly.
"There is a saying that a special soldier is cultivated with his body's gold. Although it may be a little exaggerated, in order to become a sniper, I can't count how many bullets I have fired, tens of thousands? Dozens Ten thousand? In the end, before I had time to serve my motherland, I ruined my sniper career because of an irrational decision. Do you know how regretful I am? What to do, not every soldier has lofty ideals, but at least when you are a soldier, you should be worthy of the food you eat in the army, the guns you shoot, you use up so many bullets, just to not feed Pig, are you worthy of those bullets? You practice shooting just to get out of the cooking class and change to another place to get by. Why do you bother with it? After you go home, you can brag as much as you want, saying that you can be in any company, Don't mention the cooking class, isn't it over."
Bai Xinyu's fingers tugged at his pants, unable to speak.
"Why don't you want to lie? Why don't you go home after two years in the cooking class and go home and brag about it, because you don't want to just fool around with the good two years."
Bai Xinyu had a complicated expression, "Squad Leader Wu, I don't know..."
Wu Qingdao: "Let me tell you the truth, you are very talented in shooting, not worse than me back then, but you lack the soul of a soldier, you don't care about the mission of a soldier, and you don't want to care, you are lazy and cowardly, You just want to throw your talents in the days of fooling around and envy you when you see other people's glory, but you don't even have the courage to fight, and you reject yourself from the beginning, because you just want to live a comfortable life."
Wu Qing's words instantly pierced Bai Xinyu's self-esteem, which had not been hurt for a long time, into a sieve. He clenched his fists, his shoulders trembled slightly, but he couldn't refute a word.
Wu Qing squinted his eyes and looked at him, "I can recommend you to participate in the martial arts competition, and I can help you transfer back to the company, but if you leave the company, you still have this passable virtue, so don't tell anyone that I taught you. All my life, I have regretted not being able to repay the training of the troops, regretting the wasted bullets and my own talents, and I don’t want to train another bad soldier who wasted bullets.”
Bai Xinyu's eyes were a little red, "I... They, they don't shoot too. In peaceful times, not everyone can go to the battlefield. Don't they also waste bullets?"
Wu Qing snorted coldly, "Raise soldiers for a thousand days, and use them for a short time. How do you know when the country and the people need you? When I say you don't have the soul of a soldier, it doesn't mean that you have never been on the battlefield, but that you have never been on the battlefield." Awareness on the battlefield, a soldier like you may also be a deserter on the battlefield."
Bai Xinyu stood up and said angrily, "I'm not a deserter!"
Wu Qing smoked slowly, "Aren't you, it's up to you in the future. Remember, you are worthy of those bullets you knocked out."
Wu Qing is usually a person who doesn't talk much, Bai Xinyu didn't expect him to talk so much to himself today, while he was a little angry, his heart felt numb from the shock. Worthy of knocked out bullets? Bai Xinyu felt a little bit confused, he didn't believe that everyone was as clear-cut as Feng Dongyuan or Yu Fengcheng, and he didn't believe that he was the only one who came here to mix up his military background, but he had doubts about this kind of meddling for the first time. He practiced shooting so hard, practiced in hot weather, practiced in snowy weather, in order to have enough physical strength to support shooting, he even developed the habit of running and exercising, which he never dared to think about before he came to the army. He knocked out so many bullets and put in so much effort, what was it for? After more than twenty years, Bai Xinyu has no goals, no ideals, and only knows how to eat, drink, and play. For the first time in his life, he felt how confused and anxious a life without goals is. It was also the first time that he began to seriously consider Thinking about this question...
After a few days, Yu Fengcheng found him, and it was about Chen Jing.
Bai Xinyu asked expectantly: "How is it? Is there any good news from your uncle?"
Yu Fengcheng folded his hands on his chest, with a strange expression on his face, "There is indeed good news from my brother-in-law, but something went wrong on the monitor's side."
"What's the meaning?"
"My brother-in-law found a lot of contacts, and the matter of the target finally has a clue, but the squad leader and the company commander should cooperate to write an application, but after the squad leader found out, he refused to agree."
Bai Xinyu was surprised: "What? Why?"
Yu Fengcheng said: "The squad leader said that he can't get this index by relying on his relationship, then he is no different from the person who snatched his index, and he doesn't want to owe my uncle this favor."
Bai Xinyu slapped his thigh, anxious and angry, "He's so short-hearted!"
Yu Fengcheng said lightly: "The squad leader is a very principled person."
"No, is this a matter of principle? It's about his future. The squad leader is someone who wants to stay in the army, but how difficult it is for a non-commissioned officer to be promoted. Once you come out of the military academy, you will be a lieutenant. It's a thousand miles away. Isn't that his ideal?"
Yu Fengcheng said: "Squad leader is such a person, he will not accept this kind of indicators brought by relationships."
Bai Xinyu said anxiously: "I'll go and persuade him!"
Yu Fengcheng pressed his shoulders, "Don't go, you talk too much and he gets angry with you, the company commander and the instructor have been persuading him all morning, and after persuading the company commander, the company commander turned his face, you go now just to scold him .”
Bai Xinyu took a deep breath, and felt that his three views had been refreshed again, why one by one... He felt that the people in this army, and the people he had contacted at home before, were not in the same world at all. Not only the economic differences, but also the concepts, ideas, and principles, all of which are not from the same way. He feels that Chen Jing is stupid, stubborn, and willing to suffer for face, but deep down, he has more admiration for Chen Jing. Maybe this is the soul of soldiers in Wu Qing's mouth, with awe-inspiring righteousness and iron bones, even if it is an unfair order, he will not complain a word, even if it is good for him, as long as it is not from a legitimate channel, he will resolutely reject it. For an opportunistic person like him, it is impossible to imagine such a person in the world.
Bai Xinyu sighed, "Then this matter is really dead?"
Yu Fengcheng shrugged, "The squad leader himself refused, what else can I do."
"Then, what about next year, next year there should be a chance to walk."
"The monitor will be over 22 next year, so I won't be able to go."
Bai Xinyu simply didn't know how to describe his feelings. Why would someone give up what might be the most precious opportunity in his life for the sake of principle? He shook his head and said confusedly: "Yu Fengcheng, I don't understand, do you understand?"
Yu Fengcheng understood the nonsensical words, "I understand, respect the squad leader's decision."
Bai Xinyu nodded weakly. This incident shocked him no less than being scolded by Wu Qing that day. The longer he stayed in the army, the more he felt that he was being subtly changed. He saw too much and couldn't understand He met too many people who he couldn't understand, but when he gradually understood what these people did, he began to feel awe, and then doubted his former self. Maybe this is the process of reshaping values, but that At that time, he didn't see it so clearly, he only knew that there were many people here who influenced him, making him not like his former self.
That night, he still went to look for Chen Jing. He couldn't help it. Since the last time he was in a hurry downstairs in the company commander's office, he hadn't looked for Chen Jing. He felt guilty and guilty, so he didn't dare to go. Now he put Putting all these aside, he just wanted to talk to Chen Jing and comfort him, because he knew that Chen Jing was definitely not as calm as he showed.
Chen Jing was not surprised when he saw him. The two of them were sitting and chatting in the corridor holding the thermos bottle. Do you understand the principle of doing things?"
Bai Xinyu smiled wryly and said, "To be honest, monitor, I don't quite understand. I feel sorry for you, but this is your decision, and we can't influence you."
Chen Jingdao: "We are different people. It's okay if you don't understand. I don't ask you to live like so-and-so. You just need to live yourself well, and so do I. I have to live with a clear conscience. Military academy, I really do. I really want to go, but I didn’t pass the exam back then, so I became a soldier. Even if I don’t go to the military academy, it doesn’t prevent me from becoming a qualified soldier, because this is my greatest ideal, so although I feel very regretful, but It's not too bad, you don't have to worry about me."
Bai Xinyu hugged Chen Jing's shoulders, "Squad leader, you are such a strange person."
Chen Jing laughed, "What a strange person, what are you talking about."
Bai Xinyu said: "Squad leader, I feel that after I came to the army, I met a lot of strange people, that is... You are also human, and I am also human, why haven't I met people like you before."
"Then who did you meet before? Rich people?"
Bai Xinyu nodded.
"If they were all like you, I could see why you were so surprised."
Bai Xinyu sneered and said, "Squad leader, you run on me."
Chen Jing laughed and said, "Is this called running on you? It seems that you haven't been trained by me for too long."
"Really, I've been in the cooking class for almost half a year in a blink of an eye. Although Squad Leader Wu is quite scary, he's not like you, who always kicks people on the ground."
Chen Jing sneered, "You deserve it if you don't train well."
Bai Xinyu laughed and said, "Squad leader Wu recommended me to participate in the shooting competition. Squad leader, I will definitely perform well. I will fight for it and I will serve as a soldier under your command."
Chen Jing also put his arms around his shoulders and patted his back, "Behave well!"