"You are forcing me to get married," Sang Wuyan put her hands into Su Nianqin's hair and kissed him back, "Next time, we will start over again."
Su Nianqin sucked Sang Wuyan's lips intently and silently. He seemed to agree, but he was actually thinking in his heart: There will be no next time once you're on this pirate ship.
After a while, Sang Wuyan raised his hand and looked at the ring for a long time, and suddenly said with disdain: "Why is it so small?"
"It's already big enough. If it's any bigger, it will be uncomfortable to wear." This woman is quite materialistic, Su Nianqin thought.
"Why is it pink?" she asked again later.
"Xiao Lu said this color suits you very well."
“Why do all the diamonds I see seem transparent? How can they have any color?” Sang Wuyan said in a very rustic way.
"I'm not sure, it seems to be called colored diamonds." The man was also not very familiar with this kind of thing.
“It can’t be fake, right?”
Su Nianqin was furious.
When Sang's mother came back from the market after buying onions, she saw the ring on Wu Yan's hand and suddenly burst into tears. She said, "Okay, okay. Let's go see your dad tomorrow, the first day of the new year."
In the evening, my uncle, aunt and many other people came to our house to have the New Year’s Eve dinner.
Su Nianqin was a little unaccustomed to a large table of people, and there were so many dishes that he didn't know how to start eating without making a fool of himself. Fortunately, Mother Sang carefully took a small bowl and placed it in front of Su Nianqin.
Sang Wuyan picked up the dish from a distance and put it into Su Nianqin's bowl and said, "This is the pickled meat my mother made. It smells very good." After Su Nianqin finished eating, Sang Wuyan picked up some meatballs and poured the soup into another small bowl, saying, "The meatballs and soup are put in there together. Do you want some rice?" He took care of her very attentively.
After dinner, a group of people watched TV. Su Nianqin and Sang Wuyan were talking in another room. Sang Wuyan's little niece and cousin also followed in.
The twelve-year-old cousin asked, "Brother Nianqin, can we play with you?"
The six-year-old niece didn't let him go either, and followed her aunt in calling him, "Brother Nianqin."
Sang Wuyan found it funny. It was true that all the women in the family, from the age of six to the 55-year-old mother, were not immune to him.
"Why don't you go home for the New Year?" asked my cousin.
"Your sister Wuyan asked me to come, so I had no choice but to come." Su Nianqin answered honestly.
At this time, the niece stretched out her hand and waved it in front of Su Nianqin impolitely, "Brother Nianqin, can't you really see?" Children speak without restraint.
Sang Wuyan was afraid that Su Nianqin would care, so she wanted to interrupt the conversation, but she didn't expect him to gently hold her hand and said, "It's not that I can't see at all. For example, Nuonuo, when you just swayed in front of me, I could feel the wind. And I could see something moving before, but I didn't know what it was. Or if you asked me to count your fingers, it would be even worse. But now my eyesight is worse."
In fact, he is born visually impaired, so he doesn't mind it too much psychologically.
But the biggest regret is that even our imagination of this world has no real source.
"What's the blue one?" Nono asked him.
"The sea, the sky, and, um... what I'm wearing." After he answered, he asked Wu Yan, "That's what you said this morning, right?"
Sang Wuyan smiled, "Yes."
"What about white?"
"Yun, and Nono's teeth."
My niece Nuonuo grinned, revealing her two missing front teeth.
"What about pink?" This is not easy to describe.
Su Nianqin thought for a moment and said, "Your Aunt Wuyan's lips."
Sang Wuyan's face flushed immediately, "What nonsense are you talking about in front of the child?"
On the second day of the Chinese New Year, Li Lulu, who lived in the same city, called the Sang family to wish her aunt a happy new year.
While Sang's mother was out visiting relatives, Sang Wuyan went to Cheng Yin to talk about her feelings after being proposed to.
Su Nianqin was alone at home and answered a call from Li Lulu.
"Wu Yan went to find Cheng Yin." Su Nianqin said. He didn't know why she insisted on not letting him go.
"Cheng Yin? Mr. Su, are you kidding me?"
Su Nianqin was confused and didn't understand what the other party meant.
"Cheng Yin has been dead for five years."
Su Nianqin suddenly straightened up and asked, "What did you say?"
Su Nianqin and Li Lulu agreed to meet at a teahouse not far from the Sang family.
Li Lulu said: "If you are talking about Cheng Yin, Wu Yan's and my college classmate, she died when we were in our junior year." After listening to Su Nianqin's description of everything about Cheng Yin, she felt that the matter was a little serious.
"So you're saying I'm lying?" Su Nianqin narrowed his eyes.
"No, no." Li Lulu hurriedly denied it. She didn't want to challenge Su Nianqin's consistent authority.
"What was the cause of her death?"
"There was an elevator accident in our teaching building. It was too late and she was trapped in the elevator, and no one thought she would have a serious heart disease," Li Lulu recalled.
"What about Wu Yan at that time?" Su Nianqin was a little nervous.
"She and Cheng Yin were also trapped in the elevator and witnessed everything. You know, they were the best of friends in the dormitory. Cheng Yin often helped her out and they were almost inseparable. Since then, Wu Yan moved out of the school to live alone and didn't interact with her classmates much."
"Ms. Li, do you want me to believe that ghosts exist in this world?" Su Nianqin found it ridiculous.
"Mr. Su, I'm a psychologist. If it's not a ghost, then in our opinion it can be called paranoia, a mild form of paranoia."
"Paranoia?" Su Nianqin had heard of it.
"This is a relatively common psychological symptom. Many writers suffer from mild paranoia. According to everything you just said about Cheng Yin, you didn't see it with your own eyes. You heard it from Wu Yan. In fact, you have never met her."
Su Nianqin agreed.
"All of this is just Wu Yan's fantasy to relieve psychological tension, loneliness or depression. Some people with paranoia will imagine themselves as the Secretary-General of the United Nations, and some people will imagine a non-existent person. Wu Yan just happens to think that her best friend is still around, and she subconsciously knows that Cheng Yin is dead, so she never mentions Cheng Yin's affairs in front of people who know the truth, for fear of being exposed."
Li Lulu added: "And they have a family history. Her mother also looked like this a year after her husband died. Although it is impossible to determine whether it is hereditary, it is at least related."
"So is this what you call schizophrenia?"
"No." Li Lulu shook her head. "It's not that serious. These fantasies are just a form of self-protection for her. When she is at a loss, she will act out Cheng Yin's personality and way of speaking in her mind, so as to talk to herself. So it is a kind of positive self-coordination. At present, the best way for Wu Yan is not to tell her to see a psychiatrist, but to pretend that you don't know, take good care of her, reduce her time alone, and don't let negative emotions affect her."
When Li Lulu said goodbye, she added, "I will always keep an eye on her, but Mr. Su hopes you can have someone watch her all the time to prevent any emergencies. This disease requires a lot of effort and patience from the family, and many people may never be cured in their lifetime."
There was a drizzle in the sky, even if it was as fine as needles, it would still be extremely painful when it fell on the skin in winter. Su Nianqin sat alone on a bench in the community downstairs of the Sang family for a long time, and most of the shoulders of her coat were wet.
When they returned to the Sang family, Sang Wuyan rushed over and acted coquettishly: "Nianqin, where have you been? How dare you sneak out when I was not around?" She looked very happy.
Su Nianqin avoided the question and asked, "Did you go to see Cheng Yin?"
"Yeah. Cheng Yin said that if we get divorced in the future, you can't take back such a valuable ring."
Su Nianqin smiled.
Mother Sang had not returned in the afternoon. Just after they had dinner, Su Nianqin received a call from Xiao Qin.
"Mr. Su, I've already been to the address you asked me to check this morning. The landlord and the security guard on duty downstairs said that the girl who was studying at University A who rented the house to me before had always lived alone and had no roommates."
He hung up the phone without saying a word, then shouted, "Wu Yan?"
"Hey, I'm washing the dishes." Sang Wuyan's voice came from the kitchen, along with the sound of water.
Su Nianqin groped his way over, put his arms around her waist from behind, and lowered his head into her hair.
"What's wrong?" Sang Wuyan touched his cheek with her greasy fingers.
"Nothing." Su Nianqin whispered, and after a while she said, "Wu Yan, stop studying and come back to City A to accompany me."
“Su Nianqin, I didn’t realize you were so feudal.” Sang Wuyan continued to wash the dishes.
"Why is it feudal?"
"And you also forbid women from going out to learn to read. Are you jealous that I am more educated than you?"
Su Nianqin was speechless.
"You don't even have an elementary school diploma. Don't think I don't know. Xiaolu betrayed you a long time ago."
The man burst out laughing.
When he returned to the Su family, his family did not send him to a blind school. In his mother's eyes, he just had poor eyesight, which had nothing to do with being blind or not. She also believed that her son should interact with normal people, so she hired a tutor to teach him.
So, it can be said that Su Nianqin has never been to school.
"I asked Li Lulu, and she said that you probably don't have any classes anymore, so you can write your graduation thesis in City A while accompanying me."
"When did you meet her? How come I didn't know?" Sang Wuyan continued to wash the dishes.
Su Nianqin silently buried his face in her shoulder again and hugged her tighter.
"Nianqin, what's wrong with you? You weren't this clingy before."
"I'm afraid you'll be snatched away."
"Who could be more attractive than you?"
"Cheng Yin." Su Nianqin said lightly.
Sang Wuyan said with a silly smile: "Hey, Xiao Su, you are too jealous, aren't you?"
Before the new semester started, Sang Wuyan, under the dual persuasion of Su Nianqin and Sang's mother, went back to City A with Su Nianqin to stay for a few more days.
Su Nianqin went to work and she was watching DVDs at home alone. Later, she received a call from Yu Xiaolu.
"Has Nianqin gone to the hospital?" Yu Xiaolu asked.
"Why go to the hospital?"
"For a checkup, his eyesight has deteriorated significantly. Dr. Li, who has been treating him, finally came back from the United States and has urged him to come over several times."
Sang Wuyan then remembered what Yu Xiaolu said last time. She was so careless that she actually forgot about it.
"I'll tell him when I get back."
"We didn't tell him, we forced him to go there," Yu Xiaolu emphasized.
"If I could kidnap him, I wouldn't be Sang Wuyan."
"If there is only one person in this world who can force him to do something, it's you, Sang Wuyan." Yu Xiaolu parroted her back.
Sang Wuyan couldn't help laughing.
"My good-for-nothing nephew is as cute as I am, right? Otherwise, how could you be so willing to agree to become my niece-in-law?"
After Su Nianqin returned home, opened the door and put away the key, the first thing she did when she stepped into the entrance hall was to ask, "Are your shoes not in the wrong place?"
The first time, Sang Wuyan was so angry that she tried to bite him, "How could I?" Later, she became numb and said, "Master Su, how dare I?"
"Why don't you go to the hospital for a check-up?" The two had dinner outside and walked hand in hand in the nearby park.
"I know my own situation very well. I don't like to do those boring tests like a fool. They are useless."
"But your eyesight is indeed getting worse and worse, at least before..."
"At least I could see you kiss me before."
"You are so conceited." Sang Wuyan still feels embarrassed when he talks about it.
After a while, Su Nianqin said, "And I don't mind if my eyesight continues to deteriorate."
"But I mind!"
Su Nianqin was stunned when she heard this, and then her expression gradually became stern, "Are you worried that I will become completely blind and become a burden to you?"
Sang Wuyan stopped and turned to look at him, "How could you think that?"
"What was I thinking? Was I right?" Su Nianqin raised her voice and subconsciously let go of Sang Wuyan's hand.
Sang Wuyan was angered by his unintentional release, "You are really unreasonable!" He turned around and left with his right foot, leaving Su Nianqin standing there alone.
Ten minutes later, Su Nianqin did not move. He was a grown man standing in the middle of the park with a cane. There were not many people around at the moment, so he was more conspicuous, and people turned back to look at him from time to time.
In the past, if the two of them got lost while shopping, he would definitely wait there for Sang Wuyan to find them, but now it was he who made her angry and left.
Twenty minutes later, Sang Wuyan still hadn't returned.
Maybe he was really angry and went home alone, Su Nianqin thought.
Go home? When these two words flashed through Su Nianqin's mind, she felt bad. She shouldn't be allowed to take the elevator alone. She felt a little anxious just thinking about it, so she had to rush back.
Sang Wuyan came home angrily, then buried her head in the quilt and shouted in a muffled voice: "Hateful! Hateful! What a bad temper!" After a while, she felt suffocated in the quilt and stuck her head out.
He had to cross the road twice when walking back home from the park. The traffic lights didn't have a warning sound, so he would sometimes stand there waiting for several minutes without knowing for sure whether it was a red light or a green light, but he gradually got used to it.
"How do you know the light is green?" Sang Wuyan asked him curiously later.
"I heard the car brake and I assumed the light was green."
Hearing him say this, Sang Wuyan took a deep breath and never dared to let him cross the road alone again.
Sang Wuyan then regretted leaving him there, so he put on his coat and went out to look for him again.
The two of them bumped into each other at the corner.
"Where are you going?" Su Nianqin knew that she had rushed out of the house rashly, and asked nervously, always afraid that she would run away again if she got angry.
"I... I..." Sang Wuyan hesitated. She couldn't be so embarrassed and go away to vent her anger and then go back to find him. "Where I go... is it any of your business?"
"Are you worried about me?"
"Nonsense, who would worry about a heartless blind man like you!" Sang Wuyan said angrily.
The corners of Su Nianqin's lips curved slightly, and then he pulled her back home.
"Actually, Wu Yan, I am no different from being blind."
Su Nianqin felt that they should talk calmly.
"No, I don't want you to live in darkness without any light."
"Is that so?" Su Nianqin hugged her gently. These things should be solved peacefully. They can't always quarrel over trivial matters.
"Also," Sang Wuyan added, "You don't know how beautiful your eyes are. It would be such a pity if they were just for decoration."
"Wu Yan..." Su Nianqin discovered a problem, "I feel like you always judge people by their appearance."
"this is not good?"
"Of course not." This is something that even elementary school students understand.
"What if I fell in love with you so much then? It was a mistake in judgment."
"This is the only correct choice. It's rare to find someone as talented as me."
Sang Wuyan giggled and bit his chin, "Su Nianqin, when did you become such a cunning man?"
"Influenced by a certain woman."
"I'll go get checked tomorrow."
"I can't not go?"
Sang Wuyan rolled her eyes. All her ideological work for so long was in vain
"No, not unless you want to see me run away from home."
The woman had to resort to desperate measures.
The next day, the results of the examination were terrible.
Su Nianqin almost lost the ability to sense things within three feet, and his light sensitivity was decreasing drastically.
"What is the cause?" Yu Xiaolu asked first, and Sang Wuyan was anxious.
"How could you let him drink? Moreover, he drinks excessively for a long time. Alcohol accelerates the atrophy of the optic nerve." Doctor Li's words were similar to Yu Xiaolu's own guess. "Also, don't let him overwork."
Only then did Sang Wuyan realize that she had hardly paid much attention to Su Nianqin's eye condition.
Yu Xiaolu explained to Sang Wuyan outside the ward: "It was caused by the incomplete development of the visual nerves in his brain when he was in the mother's womb."
Sang Wuyan understood this. Just like a child becoming mentally retarded due to partial brain atrophy, it can be said that at the current level of medical science, those treatments are just comforting and completely useless.
"I have never paid enough attention to his health." Sang Wuyan sat down on the bench in the corridor with red eyes. She only knew how to quarrel with him, and she was just using the temper of an only child that she had been spoiled by at home on him.
"Wu Yan," Yu Xiaolu patted her shoulder, "Take your time, you just need some time to get used to each other. Besides, he has a bad temper, few people can stand it."
"But you and Xiao Qin seem to be able to get along well with him." Sang Wuyan said dejectedly.
Yu Xiaolu smiled, "Xiao Qin is because he is her boss and the breadwinner. And I am because I am his aunt, and as an elder, I can't argue with a child."
On the way back, Sang Wuyan remained silent and secretly made an important decision in his heart.
"Wu Yan, what's wrong?" Su Nianqin came over when she saw that she was feeling depressed.
She seemed not to hear.