It's not that what she said was not true. It has been like this since I was a child. No one likes me around Shen Xieqing. Among all people, only Dongdong loves me and completely ignores her perfection. But now even he is hers. After leaving Shen's house, I didn't want to go home, and I didn't want my mother to know about the dispute between Xieqing and me. Now I think about it, I don't even know where I can settle down in such a big city B. Every time at this time, the first person I think of is Dongdong. I dialed Dongdong's number, it rang once and then I quickly hung up.
I shouldn't call him. But he called back alertly.
"Xie Yi, where are you?"
"Dongdong, please don't marry her, okay? She doesn't want to marry you at all, she just wants to piss me off."
The other end of the phone fell silent. After a long while, he slowly and softly asked back, "So Xieyi, will you marry me?"
I was choked by these words. My thoughts stopped immediately and I was stunned for a moment.
"I… "
"Am I still not as good as your A Yan after all?" He smiled as if at self-mockery.
"not me… "
Dongdong didn't get a reply from me for a long time, so he changed the subject and said, "I'm just kidding. I have something to do, so I'll hang up now."
This was the first time he hung up the phone impatiently in front of me.
Should I marry him
What about Ayan
I hurriedly called A-Yan, but after the call was connected, I was at a loss when I heard the familiar "Hello". I didn't know what to say. Xieqing said she wanted to beat A-Yan, but I told her that she couldn't. I didn't know whether I was talking to Xieqing or to myself.
A Yan, he won't. Even if the whole world doesn't want me, A Yan won't. Definitely, absolutely, 100%.
"Xieyi, what's wrong with you?" he asked hurriedly.
"Ayan, where are you? Are you still at the beach?"
"Well, I want to be alone here."
"Is it the house by the sea where we stayed before, in the suburbs of City C?" I had something in mind when I asked this.
"Yes, you want to come?" he asked with a faint smile, not knowing that I was in the country.
"I miss you so much." I choked a little.
"I'm going back in a few days, right?" He said this very gently, and I felt that if he was standing right in front of me, he would definitely hug me and rub my head after he finished speaking. Although he always let outsiders misunderstand me as his sister and was mean and mean to me, he loved me deep down and would not let me suffer any grievances.
I have always believed this.
I took out the remaining money in my handbag and bought a ticket to City C. I felt so dizzy on the bus that I vomited until there was not much acid left in my stomach. Halfway through the journey, I held my dizzy head and suddenly thought, what if he left halfway, what if he was not where I thought he was, then I would come all the way there and find nothing, what should I do? I was so scared that I had to call him, but the phone was not connected. However, since I had done this kind of thing a few years ago, I could only grit my teeth and continue now that I was halfway through the journey.
It was already the next morning when we arrived at City C. The falling snow made the morning light come very late. The area around the station was full of busy city atmosphere. Because it was rush hour, I finally found a bus to the suburbs. When I arrived outside his house, it was already bright. I was almost too sick to stand. I raised my trembling hand and knocked on the door.
There was no movement inside.
I knocked hard.
Still no movement.
I leaned against the door somewhat desperately, kicked it twice somewhat desperately, and just when I was about to kick it the third time, the door suddenly opened.
The heat in the room hit me in the face, and then I saw the face I had been dreaming about. He seemed to be taking a shower, his hair was dripping with water, and he hurriedly put on a pair of pants and came to open the door.
For a moment, the expression on his face froze. It was obvious that he was much more surprised to see me than I was to see him.
Before I could even utter "Ayan", I burst into tears and fell into his arms. I could no longer hold back the tears that I had held back for so long in front of my mother, Xieqing and Dongdong, and they burst out immediately.
He let me hold him, made some space and closed the door.
"Why did you suddenly… suddenly come here?" He lifted my face, "How did you get here? Didn't I say I would be back? Or were you already on your way when you called me yesterday? Did something happen at home or something?"
For the first time, he looked more flustered than me and asked a series of questions in one breath.
I cried even harder and didn't want to say a word. While he was talking to me, I suddenly kissed him, then put my arms around his neck and pressed my upper body against his naked chest.
After a while, he let go of my lips, and seeing that I was going to take the next step, he said, "Xie Yi, we... shouldn't do this."
"Why? I came here just for this." I said angrily.
But in the end, I became afraid again.
"Ayan... why don't we wait a little longer? We can practice rehearsing first, and then..." It seemed that neither of them was proficient in the business.
"No need." He whispered hoarsely in my ear, "I'm not a good person anyway."
When I woke up in the afternoon, I found that there was no one around me, so I hurried downstairs to find him.
"It will be ready to eat soon," he said in the kitchen without looking back.
"Ayan." I called him from behind him.
"What?" He still refused to turn around.
"Are you embarrassed?"
Tsk tsk tsk, thinking back to the time when those women didn't even bet on me, they were so short-sighted. This time, he turned around quickly and gave me a cold look. I felt guilty and my back was tingling, but I pretended to be calm and said, "It's not just my fault. People say it takes two to tango." Then he turned his back, his face already red.
"… "
After a while, A Yan said, "Your mother called just now. They couldn't find you, so they had to call my cell phone."
"What did she say?" I asked cautiously.
"It's said that your sister's engagement ceremony was ruined by you running away from home in the middle of the night." A Yan summarized the content of the entire call in one sentence.
Later I found out that Dongdong didn't go to the engagement hotel in order to find me.
Under the vague sense of guilt, I actually felt a little bit of inhuman pleasure, which was based on the fact that I didn't realize that Xie Qing had feelings for Dong Dong. I thought she didn't care about him, and she always behaved that way. At that time, I didn't understand that Xie Qing's arrogance in front of me could actually cover up her true feelings.
Many years later, I suddenly realized that I had been stealing her things for a long time. I stole her father, her warm home, and her Zhan Dongzhen, and I was the winner all the time.
When I was very young, my mother once told me that love is trust.
I asked, “Do you trust your father?”
"letter."
"But why doesn't he want us?"
Mom touched my head and said, "I trust him, but he also has his responsibilities. A person's life is not all about love. Your aunt Ren has done him a favor. If he disregards everything and betrays us and stays with us, I will also despise him."
Those words have always been too profound for me. I don’t understand them and I never want to understand them.
Later, Ayan came to Germany and said to me: "Xieyi, you once said that no matter what happens, you will believe me."
I smiled sadly. "Trust? My father died, and my mother followed him. I asked you why, why, but you didn't want to say a word to me. How could you ask me to trust you?"
He turned his head and looked away, remaining silent.
I sniffed. “I just want to know if it was you who did this, right?”
He came over and held my hand, and said slowly: "Xieyi, if you think it is, then it is, and if you think it is not, then it is not."
I shook off his hand and for the first time in my life I avoided him like the plague. I quickly stepped back and stood still. I held back my tears and said quietly, "Li Zeliang, I hope you will never regret this in your life."
I turned around, opened the door, got in the car, stepped on the accelerator and rushed out. No matter how he shouted, I never looked back.
The two cars in front and behind were speeding on the road. In the car, I made the last phone call with him.
At the end, I said, "Ayan, I am tired after guarding under your window for ninety-nine days. I have to leave now."
Sunny Day
If I asked Xie Minghao for the moon in the sky, he would not just pick a star and be done with it.
It's not just Xie Minghao, many people around me are like this.
Only Zhan Dongzhen is a little different.
He has been a handsome and somewhat effeminate child since he was young. No wonder Xieyi has always bullied him and asked him to dress as a girl. These things really make me despise him even more.
He was born to Uncle Zhan outside. The Zhan family has three sons, and he is the eldest. However, due to his status, he always doesn't like to talk at home, and even rarely comes to our house. His two younger brothers are useless. They only know how to gamble, bet on horses, and fool around with women all day long, and they have almost squandered the family's wealth. Therefore, even if Zhan Dongzhen is not very good, he is better than his two younger brothers, and Uncle Zhan's hopes are placed on him.
But Zhan Dongzhen is also a strange person. Whenever he is asked to speak in front of many people, he will definitely blush.
I once heard Xie Yi laugh at him: "You are a boy, how can you be like this?"
"What should we do then?" he asked her.
The only girl he was willing to get close to was Xieyi, as if he would never feel uncomfortable being with her. Many people of the opposite sex of the same age always thought that Zhan Dongzhen was very arrogant and didn't want to talk to them. In fact, I later found out ridiculously that he was not proud, but embarrassed.
Xie Yi added: "A real man should be able to stand tall and upright, and not bend even under the pressure of a mountain..."
In order to hear more clearly, I took a few steps closer.
They were chatting, but when they noticed me, they stopped. Xieyi glanced at me and shut up awkwardly.
I sarcastically said, "When I got home, I heard two flies buzzing. I was just about to call someone to kill them, but I didn't expect there were two of them."
Zhan Dongzhen lowered his head and stopped talking.
Xie Yi sneered: "Can flies buzz? Miss, haven't you ever read a book? That buzzing sound is the sound of its wings flapping."
At that time, Xieyi was a senior high school student. She was short in stature, but had a very annoying mouth. No one knew how the woman who always pretended to be virtuous could give birth to such a rude and sarcastic daughter.
I was slightly angry, "Su Xieyi, this is not your home, don't always sneak over to my dad and act like a spoiled child when I'm not around."
"Dad doesn't belong to you alone. I'm also his daughter. He asked me to come here."
"Unless I die, you will never be welcome in this house."
She retorted: "Whether you live or die, he is still my father."
I became more angry and said, "Get out, you bastard! Get out of here." I picked up the bag I was holding and was about to throw it at her, but I didn't expect Zhan Dongzhen to protect her behind him.
When she heard me utter the word "bastard", her lips trembled a few times, but she said nothing more.
I saw her hand grabbing Zhan Dongzhen's sleeve, her eyes were sparkling, and she looked pitiful.
What a show!
I hate her!
He was arguing with me so arrogantly just now, but in an instant he turned into a pitiful person.
Am I the only one in the world who can see her true nature clearly? If she likes someone, she can instantly change from a biting little tiger to an innocent, pure and lovely face, and can also control her tears of grievance freely.
She is like this in front of her father and also in front of Zhan Dongzhen. I wonder how many men in this world are fooled by her appearance.
Zhan Dongzhen gently held her hand back, took her hand, picked up her things and walked out. When he passed me, he said softly, "Miss Shen, please don't use that word in the future. It hurts Xieyi's heart."
That was the first time he spoke such a long sentence to me, and the purpose was for her.
She ridiculed me so much, but he couldn't hear it? And he told me not to hurt her
I sneered, "Who are you to me? What right do you have to meddle in my affairs?"
His fair face suddenly turned embarrassed.
Xie Minghao parked the car and then walked in. He nodded when he saw Zhan Dongzhen. Xie Minghao is older than Zhan Dongzhen and me. He is now working with his father in the Zhan family's business. When he met the eldest son of the boss, I didn't say much because I was angry.
"Xieyi, what's wrong with you?" Xie Minghao asked.
"Brother Minghao," Xieyi sniffed, "I'll come play with you later. I'm leaving now."
Xie Minghao looked at their backs as they left and murmured, "Did you guys quarrel again?"
"She is annoying."
"She is still a child. You are older than her. Just give in if you can," he said.
"Minghao!"
From then on, Zhan Dongzhen rarely stepped into the Shen family's door. We occasionally had some interactions, such as meeting at a friend's party. He was the most taciturn person, always sitting in the corner and watching with a faint smile.
Quite the opposite of me.
I like standing in the center of the spotlight and enjoying the gazes of others. When those gazes fall on me, they may be hot, jealous, infatuated, or intoxicated. No matter which one it is, I feel a sense of satisfaction.
I said leisurely, "Why did you let Master Zhan sit there alone, without drinking?"
As soon as I said this, many men and women who usually wanted to curry my favor went to find him.
The first time, he politely refused. The second and third time, he could no longer refuse and had to drink. A daughter of the Li family actually sat next to him and leaned towards him. He had been a good guy all his life, neither avoiding nor pushing, and was extremely embarrassed. I felt a little unhappy in my heart. It was really pedantic that he didn't know how to enjoy the benefits that were delivered to his door. I put down the cup in my hand and walked towards them, and those people left wisely.
I sat down and looked at him. Because of the red wine, his face was a little red, and there were red rashes on the tip of his delicate nose, as if he was allergic to alcohol.
No wonder he never drinks.
"Miss Shen." He nodded as a greeting, then stood up and prepared to change places.
When I heard this name, I was furious. Why did he call her affectionately when he saw her, but only called me "Miss Shen" when he saw me
"Mr. Zhan, have a drink." I deliberately pulled him and handed him a glass of wine.
He shook his head. "I really can't."
I said with a fake smile, "Mr. Zhan drank their wine instead of mine. How can you not give me face?"
He looked at me awkwardly, "I..."
"If you drink it, I'll be in a better mood. Maybe next time Su Xieyi comes to my house, I won't embarrass her." I said with a smile.
"real?"
"Of course." I raised my eyebrows. Of course, that's when I'm in a good mood. If I'm in a bad mood, it's hard to say.