My Outside Expression Is Different From My Inner Expression

Chapter 4

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Li's old house.

Shortly after the sisters and brothers Li Xusheng and Li Hanyu went upstairs, Mr. Li asked Li Hongjie to go shopping and left temporarily.

Butlers, babysitters, etc. also withdrew.

The living room soon became a place for quiet conversation.

Li Qingzhou could hold his breath.

But Mr. Li gradually frowned, put one hand on his knee, stared at Li Qingzhou's unhealed wound on his forehead and asked, "If Chengkang didn't tell me about this, how long would you want to hide it from me?"

"You don't even tell grandpa when you have a car accident, and don't you say anything after you return to Xicheng?"

Li Qingzhou said lightly: "It's not something worth talking about."

This sentence made the old man angry.

He patted the coffee table in front of him forcefully, and the afterglow rippled, and even the water in the cup trembled and spilled out.

A thin layer of red also appeared on Mr. Li's face: "What are you talking about?!"

"It's not something worth talking about, what is it?! Is it waiting for you, waiting for you..."

Mr. Li's finger pointing at Li Qingzhou was shaking, and at first glance, he was very angry, his chest was heaving violently, and he couldn't stop breathing.

Li Chengkang hurriedly stepped forward and followed Mr. Li's back: "Dad, don't be angry, don't be angry, be careful with your body."

"It's not like you don't know Qingzhou's character, he has always been like this..."

Li Qingzhou's fingers curled up, but he never passed.

Jiang Biling rolled her eyes secretly, and said in a mocking tone, "Dad, I think he just didn't take us to heart. It's because you didn't sleep well at night because of him, so you worry for nothing."

"Master Li's heart is probably made of stone..."

"Bi Ling!"

"shut up."

Li Chengkang and Mr. Li said in tandem.

Jiang Biling: "Okay, I'll shut up, I won't let anyone tell the truth..."

She murmured a few last words, and simply leaned on the sofa, with one leg crossed, and leisurely sharpened her fingernails.

It looks like he really doesn't want to care anymore.

Mr. Li said with a slow sigh, "I don't want to hear you say such things again... Qingzhou, someone in the family will worry about you."

"If something happens, you can't carry it yourself, you know?"

Li Qingzhou nodded stiffly: "...I see, grandpa."

Li Chengkang's eyes flashed, and he sat back in his seat again and smiled: "Dad, don't worry, since Qingzhou understands where he is wrong, he will definitely not do it again in the future."

"Right, Qingzhou."

Before waiting for Li Qingzhou to answer.

Mr. Li first snorted heavily, and then sighed: "I hope he can keep this matter in his heart..."

Li Chengkang smiled and said a few words.

Then he said: "By the way, I heard that this car accident was obviously aimed at the Liu family in Yanjing... At that time, Liu Bohuai was sitting in the car and was slightly injured."

"Qingzhou, have you met Liu Sanye?"

"No." Li Qingzhou said coldly.

Li Chengkang: "Really?"

"Qingzhou, after all, you had a car accident because of Liu Bohuai... Does the Liu family have nothing to say?"

"What does the second uncle want from the Liu family?" Li Qingzhou asked rhetorically.

"No, just thinking of Qingzhou, you rarely feel kindhearted..."

Li Qingzhou didn't want to talk about the "compensation" of the Liu family for the time being.

Although Li Chengkang could get the news that he was hospitalized in a car accident, he would not know the connection between Assistant Liu Bohuai and Fang Xiyan.

The northern suburb land project has not yet been resolved, and Li Qingzhou will definitely go to Yanjing again after that.

He owns a property in Yanjing, which he bought when he was a university student. He also has one in Xicheng. He seldom returns to the old house of the Li family.

Even his sister and brother live here in the old house.

Because of Li Qingzhou's car accident, Mr. Li directly ordered him to stay and wait until he is completely healed before thinking about other things.

The project of the land in the northern suburbs of Yanjing is not in a hurry.

Li Qingzhou agreed.

The old house is huge.

Li Qingzhou lives on the first floor, which is convenient for traveling. Old man Li and his two siblings live on the second floor.

As for the Li Chengkang family.

They moved out of the old house long ago, and only occasionally came back to live for a while.

After Mr. Li went upstairs to rest, Li Qingzhou turned his wheelchair and returned to the room, but he didn't want to be blocked by others.

Li Hongjie folded his arms, looked down at his disabled cousin, and sneered at the corners of his mouth, "Aren't you very decisive when you moved out?"

"If you have the ability, you should never come back here for the rest of your life. The Li family doesn't belong to you."

In the face of Li Hongjie's full of malice, Li Qingzhou raised his head with undiminished momentum: "The Li family doesn't belong to me, does it belong to you?"

"People have self-knowledge, you are a dull-headed idiot, what qualifications do you have to say such a thing?"

"Just because you are stupid and ridiculous? There must be a limit to delusions, get out."

Li Hongjie was instantly annoyed, and his face flushed red.

Because he was in the old house of the Li family, he didn't dare to do anything, so he could only pretend: "What are you proud of as a disabled person!"

"If it weren't for you, my uncle and aunt would not have died! You are a disaster! A scourge! You deserve a lifetime of misfortune!"

"Why do people like you run the Li family..."

"Shut up!" Li Qingzhou said gloomily.

His voice was not loud, but he managed to make Li Hongjie shut his mouth, and he couldn't help but take a step back with his left foot.

Seeing that it was too humiliating, Li Hongjie reluctantly stood still.

Li Qingzhou sarcastically said: "You can't even compare to a disabled person, how can you still have the face to live?"

"If I were a disaster star, I would be the first to curse you to death."

"You are a waste of food, waste of air, waste of land, and a waste of RMB if you are not alive."

While Li Hongjie was furious, he couldn't help but be stunned.

Usually when he was insulting like this, Li Qingzhou would just stare at him with sullen eyes, and then turn the wheelchair to leave.

Not as it is now...

Li Hongjie couldn't help but stay where he was.

Li Qingzhou didn't bother to pay attention to him anymore, turned the wheelchair and rolled over Li Hongjie's instep, and soon shut the door of Li Hongjie's scolding screams.

His room in the old house of the Li family has been cleaned and kept as it is.

But because there was no one living there for a long time, the room looked a little deserted, especially the loneliness that couldn't be dispelled by the sunlight outside the window seemed to pervade the house...

After Li Qingzhou locked the door, he first looked around, and then went straight to the bookcase standing by the wall.

A row of drawers in the bookcase is at the bottom right.

Li Qingzhou took out the key that he had been carrying with him and opened the locked drawer at the top of the bookcase.

—A photo album is kept in it with great value.

He took out the album on his lap and opened it.

There are photos of the whole family, as well as photos of Li Qingzhou alone with his parents, photos with his sister and brother...

Most of the backgrounds in the photos were taken in hospitals, and a few were taken in old houses.

Photos carry past memories.

- Li's father and Li's mother smiled brightly. Although he was trying his best to raise the corners of his mouth, he was a little stiff, while the younger sister and brother who took the photo together had a strange expression...

This was when Li Qingzhou was brought back to Xicheng by Li's parents and Li's mother, and when his legs could no longer be healed.

He has just reunited with his parents and family members, and they are slowly getting along with each other and tentatively accepting them.

Li Qingzhou's atrium originally built a dam, waiting for the day to be gradually warmed and disintegrated by the family.

But the shadow of a lifetime of disability has always shrouded Li Qingzhou's head, and the Li family is incompatible with the environment he used to live in...

This made him even more gloomy, sensitive, and even inferior.

Repressed and contradictory emotions are accumulating every moment.

Finally, it exploded when Li Qingzhou felt a huge drop.

- That was the first time Li Qingzhou had a dispute with Li's parents and Li's mother.

After that, he left the old house of the Li family alone.

He wanted to go back to Licheng, to the orphanage.

But where can a disabled person go

Li Qingzhou looked around blankly on the street where people came and went - his palms were red from rubbing the wheelchair for a long time, and there were obvious dust marks on his knees and trouser legs.

He fell on the stumbling path, struggled for a long time before being helped by a kind person who happened to pass by...

At that moment, countless complex emotions such as shame, embarrassment, and pain swarmed.

Li Qingzhou's throat seemed to be restrained, and he couldn't breathe.

He thought that the darkness of the day was all here, until... Li's parents and Li's mother had a car accident right in front of him.

Rescue failed and died.

There are only a few sentences in the original book.

But the reality has always remained in Li Qingzhou's memory, the same traces that have been carved into the bone marrow.

—That day seemed to be reflected in an old photo of a black and white moment, full of rainy sadness and despair, which could not be flipped through or touched…

Li Qingzhou stroked Li's father and Li's mother in the album and sighed.

From then on, he no longer mentioned the matter of returning to Licheng.

And under the arrangement of Mr. Li, he entered Xicheng High School to study, and then he was admitted to Yanjing University and graduated by skipping grades.

Li Qingzhou's intelligence was seen by Mr. Li, who taught him how to handle some affairs of the company when he first entered the university.

Li Qingzhou also did a good job, and after getting acquainted with it, he began to slowly get in touch with the core of the Li family's career.

He moved out of the old house of the Li family since he was able to support himself.

Strictly speaking, apart from having the most communication with Mr. Li, Li Qingzhou and his two younger sisters and younger brothers get along with one another.

But it's not that Li Qingzhou doesn't love them.

He just didn't know how to restrain the thorns all over his body - afraid of hurting them, and afraid that he couldn't bear it.

Li Qingzhou stroked the position of his chest and heart, dull and dull pain.

"Wow, I'm such a poor little one."

Li Qingzhou couldn't hold back, he squeezed the sleeve of his left hand with two fingers and wiped the corner of his eyes. After that, he held up the album on his lap with both hands, and kissed his grandfather, parents, sister and brother one by one.

mua, muamuamua…

After Li Qingzhou kissed, he placed the photo album in a prominent position.

The back of the album was not full, it was blank.

Mother Li lost no photos of him from childhood to adulthood. She wanted to make up for it from the moment she found him, but it will always be a regret.

"It won't be a pity, I will fulfill your wish for you." Li Qingzhou said softly.

The sunlight outside the window was still as bright as ever, but the room seemed to be finally infused with warmth.