After Rong Heng left, Song Yuan sat quietly on the sofa. The diamond ring on the coffee table was on the coffee table. She stared at it in a daze for nearly an hour. The table was a mess. She didn't bother to tidy up, and when the time was up, she got up in a hurry and was about to go out to pick up Rong Ting from school, but accidentally tripped over a chair and almost fell, looking back at the diamond ring on the coffee table, she felt that Orbital pain.
Song Yuan knew that her state was not suitable for driving, and she didn't dare to drive. The burden in her heart was like a heavy weight, and she was almost out of breath.
Walking on the road, luckily it’s not time to get off work. There are no people on both sides of the road. Even if she lowers her head and immerses herself in her own world, she won’t be hit by anyone. Come to yourself.
There were many cars parked at the entrance of the kindergarten, and many parents were watching over them. In the past, Song Yuan would chat with those mothers, but today she has no urge to speak.
She didn't know those mothers very well, and everyone saw that she didn't seem happy, so naturally they wouldn't chat with her.
After a while, the kindergarten bell rang.
From the primary class to the middle class and then to the large class, the teachers led the children out one after another. Song Yuan stood on tiptoe and saw Rong Ting among a group of radish heads.
I don't know if it's her mother's filter, but she always thinks her son is the prettiest cub in the entire kindergarten, with his own halo, so she can see it at a glance.
Rong Ting originally had no expression on his face, but when he saw Song Yuan, he immediately laughed. He is good-looking, with fair skin and exquisite facial features. He has been the prince for several years. Although he is not as self-possessed as his father, his aura is still very special among a group of children. Probably because of the influence of the system in the palace, or because the little boy wants to look like his father, Rong Ting is more like Rong Heng, both father and son don't smile often, and people who don't smile often laugh like this suddenly, there is a very silly and cute look Feel.
Song Yuan was not stingy with her hug. After Rong Ting came out, she hugged him and said, "I miss you so much! Are you happy today?"
Rong Ting was a little embarrassed, although the folk customs here are open, but it seems inappropriate to embrace the mother and queen in the public.
He likes to be close to his mother very much. He quietly took a look at the other children who were being picked up by their father or mother, and found that no one was paying attention to them, so he was quietly relieved.
"fine."
Song Yuan let him go, held his little paw, and forced a smile, "The weather is fine today, so I didn't drive. Don't you always want ice cream? Let's go eat it."
Rong Ting was still surprised, he likes to eat ice cream very much, eating three balls at a time is not a problem, it can be called a storm inhalation, but the mother does not allow him to eat more, he only has the chance to taste ice cream when he goes out with his grandfather taste.
What's going on today, the queen mother wants to take him to eat ice cream!
Rong Ting was very smart, looked up at him, "Did something good happen?"
Song Yuan felt uncomfortable, but still tried his best not to show his true emotions, "It's sort of."
There is a Haagen-Dazs store on the first floor of a shopping mall nearby. When the mother and son walked in, Rong Ting made an inch of it, pointed at the beautiful new winter product, and asked in a low voice: "Can I order that?"
Song Yuan glanced at him, "What do you think?"
Rong Ting wanted to order that Ode to Joy, it was an ice cream hot pot, it looked delicious.
But the two of them definitely can't finish it. Even in summer, they can't eat ice cream so recklessly. What if they eat it and ruin their stomachs
Rong Ting let out a disappointment, "Then I'll eat two balls, one strawberry and one vanilla."
Song Yuan looked at him, thought about it, finally sighed, and ordered an ice cream hot pot in front of Rong Ting.
If he was just surprised just now, then Rong Ting turned pale with shock at this moment, he couldn't believe what he heard!
After the mother and son sat down, Rong Ting asked in a panic: "Mother, what happened to you? I have a very bad feeling."
"Don't you really want to eat that ice cream fondue?"
Rong Tingen said, he really wanted to eat, but the queen made him... so scared.
He always felt that this should be the eve of the storm.
When the ice cream hot pot came, he didn't know whether he should eat it or not.
"Mother, I shouldn't have done anything wrong during this time." When Rong Ting was about to eat ice cream balls, he stopped again. There were some things he had to figure out beforehand. If the storm had nothing to do with him, then he would eat it. If it has something to do with him, he will eat less, "Really?"
"Of course, I heard from your teacher that you are doing great, and you are also very obedient. There are already several little red flowers."
After hearing what his mother said, Rong Ting finally felt relieved, and asked tentatively, "Then I ate?"
"Eat, eat less."
Rong Ting ate happily, but Song Yuan had no appetite, so she just watched him eat, wanting to engrave his current appearance in her heart.
She didn't want to leave Rong Ting, and wanted him to stay here forever and grow up happily and healthily where she could see him. She really wanted to be selfish for a while, but she knew that she couldn't do this, she couldn't make the choice for him, or in other words, don't give him the chance to choose.
In the past, when she was young, she had seen her father lie, and heard the lies of many people. Those she loved and those who loved her seemed to be without exception.
Over the years, she has never deceived the one she loves, and this time, she cannot deceive Rong Ting even more.
Maybe she was never a good mother, and she didn't fulfill her responsibilities and obligations as a mother, but she wanted to be a mother who never lied or cheated him.
After returning home, Song Yuan was afraid that Rong Ting would have diarrhea after eating ice cream, so he cooked some ginger tea for him to keep him from the cold. The mother and son sat on the sofa, and Song Yuan suddenly said: "There is one thing I want to tell you, today your father The emperor came to look for me, and he told me that he was going back to Daye, probably next month, and he told me, if you want to stay here, you can stay here..." She really wanted to keep her tone calm Be a little calmer, but every word is like a blade, making it difficult and painful for her to say even one more word, "I think, although you are young, you have always been a very independent and smart kid, then It's up to you to decide."
After saying this, Song Yuan couldn't control her emotions, but she didn't want to show it in front of Rong Ting, so she got up in a hurry, went to the bathroom, and closed the door with her backhand. She squatted down slowly against the door, hugging her knees and feeling uncomfortable eyes closed.
Now she seems to understand why those people lie.
Rong Ting is not stupid.
Long before Rong Heng asked him if he wanted his mother to go back with them, he had a faint guess in his heart.
Before his father appeared, he had thought about going back, but he missed his mother's warmth very much, so every time he thought of it, he quickly suppressed it, until his father appeared, he felt that this was not something he should worry about It's all over, when and how to go back will naturally be the father's concern, so he will stay by the mother's side steadfastly, what the father thinks in his heart, he also knows, so when the father asks him like that, he will Anxious and worried, I just want to tell my father, don't take my mother back home!
Yes, he really wanted to be with the queen mother all the time, and he also hoped that the queen mother could go back to the palace with them, but he knew better that if the queen mother went back, she would never be happy again. What he wanted, he wanted to see It was the happy queen mother.
Now that the father and the queen have talked about this matter, they must have dispelled the idea that they shouldn't have.
He can rest assured.
He stood up and came to the door of the bathroom hesitantly. He stretched out his hand and wanted to knock on the door, but his hand dropped again in mid-air.
***
Song Yuan couldn't sleep at night, lying on the bed watching the video on his phone.
Some sent it from kindergarten teachers, and some from teachers from former institutional centers.
Every teacher said that Rong Ting was very smart, he was more sensible than other children of the same age, and he was good at everything, except that he was not very gregarious. He also participated in the games in the class, but he still couldn't get into it.
She was also worried about this matter, and she was also reading children's psychology books during this time. Thinking about it now, it seems that she was too optimistic.
She traveled to ancient times and tried hard to blend into that environment, but didn't she also fail in the end
Modern people cannot become ancient people.
Can ancient people become modern people in the same way
Song Yuan got up and came to a corner of the living room. On the desk were all the books that Rong Ting usually read. Apart from Sun Tzu's comics on the Art of War, the books Rong Heng bought for him were History of the Subjugation of the Ming Dynasty and Twelve Years of the Qing Dynasty. Passed on the Emperor and Zhu Yuanzhang.
She opened the History of the Subjugation of the Ming Dynasty, and Rong Ting marked many places with colored pens, and also wrote down her own opinions and impressions after reading it with a pencil.
Song Yuan flipped through the pages, and suddenly understood something. Rong Ting lived in such an environment since he was a child, and everything in modern times surprised him. Isn't this situation very similar to her when she just traveled to ancient times? ? Modern is her home, she has always been very clear about this, for Rong Ting, ancient is also his home.
Rong Heng said that he knew her answer.
Similarly, she also knew Rong Ting's answer, so she felt uncomfortable.
It's just that looking at his books now, she thinks, maybe the person who wants to be a good emperor is not only Rong Heng, but also her son Rong Ting.