I had a bad feeling from the moment Uncle Johnny said he saw Zaiya and Patel.
Having been in India for a few days, even if I don’t know much about this country, I still know some things about this country from hearsay. Not to mention the strict caste system, although the elimination of discrimination and injustice between castes has been written into The Constitution cannot eliminate the estrangement from people's hearts and is almost useless. Among them, anti-caste marriage is a very serious matter.
The so-called anti-caste marriage refers to the marriage between the upper caste and the lower caste. In their view, it is a thing that 'pollutes' the bloodline and cannot be tolerated at all.
So if Patel and Jaya really... .
Thinking of this, my expression became serious. Uncle Johnny was still complaining in pain, and my mood seemed to be in pain together with Uncle Johnny.
"It was a normal rest day. Even in strict practice, people must relax. I had plans for that day, and this Patel also knew it, but he refused our collective activities because he had something to do. . Maybe God wanted me to know something, but the arrangements for that day were canceled due to unforeseen circumstances. Out of boredom, I went to look for Patel, but he was not there in his room, but we were together with him. Our practitioners gave me some clues."
"Sharma, I don't want to spread gossip about Patel, but you know what? I suspect that Patel has a charming lover, that's what it is." A practitioner said to Sharma.
In strict Hinduism, there are many taboos, and messy relationships between men and women are prohibited in any religion, including Hinduism. But that is always what is on the table, and in fact there is not much restraint on this group of top people. As long as it's not too outrageous, it's just 'gossip' circulating in the circle.
Therefore, Sharma didn't pay much attention to this news. At this age and being so good, having one or two women was not an outrageous thing. Sharma even thought it was completely reasonable, just like him. Some women have been through it.
What Sharma didn't expect was that Patel kept a secret from him. Is this proof of the estrangement in the relationship? Or, you should go to meet Patel and take a look at his lovely lover, so that maybe their relationship can be further eased. If men know a little bit about each other, it is extremely easy to become intimate again. of.
With this in mind, Sharma asked more about the cultivator.
Naturally, he also got the answer. It turned out that the cultivator saw Patel twice with a lovely woman in a high-end place, a hotel to be precise. They looked very intimate, but Patel did not. Didn't notice him.
"Sharma, I promise you, Patel's lover is so beautiful. I really envy him. Go and have a look. This guy is not here on this rest day. Maybe you can see him again there." The cultivator said this Describing Patel's lover made Sharma a little more curious in addition to wanting to ease the relationship.
"I can't remember the specific process of searching for Patel. I just remember that it rained heavily that afternoon, and the already dirty city was even more muddy. I was very embarrassed, and my clothes were covered with mud. Idea, I was almost expelled by the foreign manager of the high-end hotel. I could only prove my identity. Just when I was struggling with him, I saw Patel. He came out of the corridor of the hotel. At that moment, I saw his face. , I was very happy and wanted to call him loudly, but the next moment, I saw a woman holding his arm on his left side. They were talking intimately and laughing happily. It was all happiness, so much so that in this luxurious lobby where people were coming and going, Patel couldn't help but kiss the woman next to him. You know, the atmosphere in India was still very conservative at that time... At that moment, I It's funny that I feel that Patel has truly fallen in love, and I should be happy for him, but when I saw that woman, I almost went crazy..." At this point, Uncle Johnny's expression became even more painful. He wiped his face with his hands, then grabbed his hair and said, "I saw that woman, it was Yaya, my lovely sister Yaya."
At that moment, Sharma's first feeling was a sense of betrayal. Patel had completely betrayed him and their family. Otherwise, why would he act like this despite knowing the gap between his and Jaya's identities? A private meeting with Nuya? This is obviously impossible to achieve, and his father will not agree to Yaya marrying him. Even if the whole world doesn't know that he is a Dalit, at least his father will know.
And if Nuya desperately marries Patel, the consequences will be even more serious, and may even bring shame to their family for hundreds of years... It is no exaggeration to say that Nuya's life will be completely ruined. , even that guy Patel will be destroyed, it is impossible to tolerate it!
Everything seemed to be in slow motion, Patel's doting eyes, the smile on his lips, Jaya's happy look, her blooming smile... They walked slowly less than 5 meters away from Sharma. , and Sharma, who was still arguing with the manager, experienced for the first time in his life what is called a spinning feeling.
"Patel, I'm going to kill you." In anger, Sharma yelled such a sentence, almost screaming with all his strength.
The happiness of Patel and Zaiya was also frozen and shattered at this moment. They looked back at the same time and saw the roaring Sharma.
"I will never forget their expressions at that time. Patel seemed to be very frightened, but his eyes were terrifyingly calm. At that moment, there was even an expectation of being so indifferent. And Yaya was really scared. Her eyes were so frightened and her face was extremely pale. She wanted to cry but didn't dare to cry. She looked at me with an expression that was almost pleading." Uncle Johnny seemed to be immersed in that moment. I saw There were tears in his eyes.
“我发誓我是爱婞娅的，就是因为这种疼爱，让我不忍，也让我手足无措，在那个时候我唯一的反应竟然只是要痛揍帕泰尔一顿... ”强尼大爷吸He rubbed his nose, calmed down his emotions, and continued talking.
But Thya stopped him: "Please, brother, find a quiet place to talk. Don't hit Patel. Everything is my fault, brother..."
Sharma couldn't look at Jaya looking so sad. For a long time, Jaya had been his angel, the sunshine in his life, and his sister of the same blood, so he let go of Patel. Tire had been punched several times by Sharma, and the corners of his eyes were red and swollen, and he even had a nosebleed.
But he didn't fight back, and he had an amazing calmness from beginning to end. This was the conclusion that Uncle Johnny came to when he recalled it a long time later. Yes, he was very calm... and also a long time later, Patai Er confirmed Uncle Johnny's idea, but this happened a long time ago and had nothing to do with the chaos at that time.
In a quiet place, Sharma listened to what Jaya and Patel said in extreme confusion and irritation. If the caste system is put aside, this is a simple and beautiful love story. A girl who has just begun to fall in love. After learning that one of the brothers I had always admired was not my biological brother, my feelings began to feel subtly different.
And at that time, that girl was in her loneliest time, growing up in adolescence, and the two closest people she had been with since childhood left her to study.
In this loneliness, the brother came back, and he came back once a year to accompany him, which made the already subtle emotions begin to ferment, and finally matured, and they fell in love regardless of everything...
"Brother, please forgive me. Patel didn't accept it at first, but I insisted on it." Yaya's crying was so painful.
Jaya's pain broke Sharma's heart. He said as calmly as possible: "This is not a question of whether I forgive you, but it is simply impossible for you to be together. Do you understand? Impossible! Don't you understand? ?"
"Brother, love is a simple thing. Why should it be connected with a person's status? Or even with something like a name? Isn't it ridiculous? Brother, you are also the most important person to me. Others don't understand. Okay, I just hope to get your understanding." Yaya is extremely persistent, and women are often so persistent, more determined than men. What's more, because of her prominent family, Yaya has accepted the advanced Western culture since she was a child. Education, more open-minded and free!
"But what are you going to do in the future? So what if you get my understanding? Do you think you can still get the understanding of others? There is no place for your and Patel's love in this society. This is a fact! While things are still going on, It's not too bad, just give up." Sharma persuaded with his last calmness. In fact, the irritability in his heart was about to overwhelm him. It was because of his love for his sister that he could still maintain such restraint.
"I have never thought about getting any understanding in this unfair land. Patel and I can leave! Whether we go to the UK, Spain or Portugal, we can leave. There will be no unfairness there. , Patel's excellence will also be recognized to the greatest extent." The power of love is so powerful that Zaiya even plans to leave her homeland.
During this conversation, Patel remained silent. He seemed uneasy and had no position to speak. In fact, Uncle Johnny only realized that he had no intention of speaking after combining his memories and what Patel said later. Just watching a good show.
Undoubtedly, Jaya's decision ignited the anger of young Sharma. He could not tolerate his sister wandering in a foreign land just for her 'great' love.
The conversation broke up unhappily, and Sharma hit his sister for the first time. He slapped Jaya. At this moment, Patel stopped Sharma and it turned into a melee between the two of them. .
To be precise, Patel allowed Sharma to beat him up.
"To this day, I still can't tell which side is right when family affection and love conflict. As a brother, I can't bear for my sister to wander in a foreign land all her life. I hope she can get a blessed marriage and live a happy life. Is that wrong? ?As a sister, is it wrong to pursue your love persistently? The emotions in this world are mixed together, often because no one realizes that they are at fault, which contributes to the tragedy of the person's life. But compromise should be How to compromise? Who can guarantee that things will be successful after one party compromises? To this day, I still can't figure it out." Uncle Johnny's voice was full of bitterness.
And I remembered a passage from Master, and couldn't help but say: "Uncle Johnny, my Master once said that feelings are debts, so they can only be a reason for giving, not an excuse for restraint. And the only thing that can control your own destiny is You only have yourself, but in this world, others often try to influence the fate of others just because of the feelings in their hearts. This is actually inappropriate. Whether Wu Ya is lucky or unlucky can only be the process of tempering herself throughout her life, and she will gain something. Only when you let go, lose something, and realize something can you be considered complete. But what people often value is not this kind of perfection. What they value... is just the so-called happiness. As for whether this happiness is spiritual happiness, No one cares less and less.”
"What do you mean? Can you be more specific?" Uncle Johnny was suddenly stunned.
"I...I can't say." In fact, because the years of practice are limited, and my mind cultivation has been marked by Master as my weakness, so my understanding may not be that deep, and I dare not be presumptuous about it. Uncle Johnny said something.
"Let's talk about it even if it's not possible." Uncle Johnny was very urgent.
I could only bite the bullet and say: "I think other people's blessings, the consummation of love, the warmth of family affection, these can all be regarded as happiness, but who can guarantee that this happiness will last forever? For example, blessings will eventually When it fades away, your lover may leave, and your loved ones may not be able to accompany you throughout your life. Then what is left? It is spiritual satisfaction and peace... A kind of relief and no regrets after letting go... If only Like you did to Yaya back then, can she still have this kind of spiritual happiness? I don’t think so! In a person’s life, I think the greatest happiness is that no matter what, you have pursued and faced it before you can finally Forming spiritual perfection... Sometimes others' not letting go is a kind of cruelty, for your happiness and your own good."
"Hahaha..." After hearing what I said, Uncle Johnny suddenly laughed loudly, with tears in his eyes when he laughed. After laughing, he patted me on the shoulder and said, "Back then, Li, for this kind of thing, I just said this, I won’t let it go, and Ziya has no chance to let it go. I don’t understand... It turns out, it turns out to be like this."