I didn't know what Lin Chen said. At that moment, I even had an idea. If he cared so much about winning or losing between me and him, why would I deliberately lose to him again when I knew it was him
If so, this is already his obsession.
In my silence, Lin Chen suddenly withdrew his gaze and looked straight at me: "Are you thinking? If you know it's me, why not lose to me?"
In fact, when it comes to scheming, I'm afraid two Chen Chengyi can't keep up with one Lin Chen. His ability to penetrate people's hearts is much stronger than mine... He grew up in that environment, and faced the situation where Young Master Xiao, who has been passed down by his family, is... The organization, an 'outsider', can reach this point, it is probably his survival instinct.
I was speechless, and denying it was actually a very childish statement for me and him now.
But Lin Chen seemed to want to ask me for an answer, so I could only choose to be sincere and say seriously: "Maybe, unlike you, I don't care about this."
Lin Chen seemed a little excited, but he calmed down in an instant. He still had his hands behind his back, making his figure more upright. He chuckled, but compared to just now, this smile seemed a little bitter, and then he said: "You shouldn't be contemptuous of me. You really don't care. If you are in a person or a sect, your status will not be established by winning one victory after another and handling things perfectly. What you want is long-term. What do you need to care about winning or losing in your relationship? People are cheap, ignore what you already have, what you can’t get is the most important... I am such a person, do you think I regret it? "
His look made me feel a little bitter, just because he and I have one thing in common, that is, the women we once loved deeply came from the same village, and they were both hard to find, but different. Yes, I had a little bit of hope, but after Lin Chen got this sentence, he was completely desperate.
"Don't think about it anymore, this person has passed away, fate can come together and fall apart... Master once said that if we are destined people, maybe we can still walk together for a while at the next intersection, so look further. "I don't know if these comforts are feeble, but for me, this is often the best comfort, but it is just comfort, just like painkillers that temporarily relieve the pain.
That sentence cannot be obtained by thinking, and cannot be done by thinking... The Master who said this sentence that year seems to be very far away.
"Really?" Lin Chen was noncommittal. For some pain, even the most effective painkillers had no effect. When he said yes, he was silent for a long time, as if he was reminiscing, and he seemed to be deliberately avoiding the topic.
And I have already said what I should say, but there is still only silence.
Compared with the previous encounters, he and I have matured and gone through many changes. Our lives are different, but a few years may be a big change... All simple words and silence are enough.
After a brief silence, Lin Chen took a few steps towards me and stopped about two meters in front of me.
He came to me, and my natural way is definitely not just as simple as fighting. My friendship with him is strange. It can't be called hatred, it can't be said that I hate it, it can't be said to be a lot... but there is also a hint of sympathy. If I just want to fight, I certainly wouldn't choose such a troublesome method.
"Let's go." Lin Chen looked at me and said these three words, as if he was afraid that I wouldn't understand. He added another sentence: "I mean get out of here."
I understood what he meant instantly, and I didn’t know what to think, so I said to him: “Maybe I don’t leave, but you help me?”
This sentence seemed to trigger his smile, and the corners of his mouth began to rise again. He looked at me and said, "Do you think it's possible?"
"I don't know, but I can't leave, now that I'm here." I said seriously.
"It's really smelly and hard. If your lineage lasts for ten thousand years, this comment will be useful for ten thousand years." There was some anger and helplessness in Lin Chen's eyes, because my eyes were very calm, calm. Not even a hint of firmness to express his will.
"Maybe, this is not necessarily a bad evaluation." I said to Lin Chen with a smile. The feeling of meeting old friends is always strange. After all, the basic component of life is time, and the most precious thing for people is also time. If you spend a little time on a person, always remember it, because that person becomes the fabric of life.
A truly kind smile is not a sign of weakness, it is a smile that hopes to resolve grudges when we meet...
"Forget it, it's just a matter of words." Lin Chen turned around and left, then coldly said, "I think you will know the way back, there is no danger."
I looked at his back, took out the cigarette I was about to light when I saw him, lit it and took a puff, but my expression felt a little relaxed... Maybe, many things are not hopeless. Thinking about this, I turned towards him. Walking in the direction of my village.
But before I took a few steps, I heard Lin Chen's voice behind me: "Chen Chengyi, I lost Irene, so I feel that the things I can't get are more precious, you know? Because I lost and missed. At the expense of what is truly most important, the value of something unobtainable is attached.”
"Yeah." I turned to look at Lin Chen.
"But this is just what people do who don't understand regret and don't want to regret it! Regret is an emotion, just to guide the present and the future, not to change the past as people understand. This is what I have learned over the years. I understand. Unfortunately, I still don’t understand, and I don’t want to regret it.” Lin Chen’s words were a bit deep and inexplicable.
But, I understand. I turned around and looked at Lin Chen and said, "Are you trying to explain why you don't help me? Because you are unwilling to give in, you have to pursue everything you want. Just because you lost Irene, right?" You can't let it go, right? But you know what? You are not proud, but cowardly and useless, because you have lost your own will."
A trace of anger flashed across Lin Chen's face, he looked at me and said, "Can you understand what my own will is? Maybe, this is my own will?"
I chuckled, feeling a little helpless, and remained silent for a long time before continuing: "That's really a lot of words." Then, I turned around and prepared to leave again.
"However, I still have some ability to repay your friendship, for example... half of your master in the inner village." Lin Chen suddenly said this to me.
Half a master, in the inner village? My heart began to shake violently. At that moment, I almost lost the ability to stand. Before, everything was just pursued with an obsession. After that, there seemed to be hope of getting closer, but it had never been like this. Someone suddenly brought me such extremely certain news.
I was stunned on the spot, Lin Chen didn't seem to be very anxious, and looked at me quietly.
At that moment, I couldn't describe my feelings at all. Time, space, past, and future were endlessly cluttering in my mind. I didn't even know how much time had passed. When I could barely calm down my emotions, I found that Lin Chen had already leaned against him. Sitting on a short slope, I almost finished smoking a cigarette.
"What do you mean?" I could only say this out of a thousand words.
"Literally, this is all I can say. Chen Chengyi is worthy of your love for me. Let's stop talking about it." Lin Chen put out the cigarette, and this time he simply left. Like a maze of low slopes, his figure disappeared quickly.
And I, once again, weakly... inexplicably... shed two lines of tears. If it were in the past, I should have cried a lot.
My fists were clenched tightly, as if only in this way could I suppress my excited impulse to rush into the so-called inner village... But at the same time, I was also confused, and I missed my friends very much, because Lin Chen's words really scared me.
What does it mean to have half a master in the inner village
Thinking like this, I could no longer restrain my impulsive emotions. I ran out of the open space, but I didn't run towards the village where I was, but towards the location closest to me, where Brother Chengqing was. Run!
Fortunately, it was Brother Chengqing. Fortunately, the calm Brother Chengqing was closest to me. This was the only thought in my mind subconsciously. Because I was running so fast, the howling wind kept blowing it off my face. Condensed tears... I don't want to cry, but I can't control it anymore. If no one can control it, right
This is not as simple as finding the Master at all, but... it represents my many years of missing and searching, various emotions, various encounters, various people or things since he left... . After the explosion, I couldn't stop crying.
Haha, half of the master is in the inner village!