In fact, I have always had an awareness about the future, that is, before a certain period of time, the peace and happiness I wanted may have always existed in the mirror, but it was not long-lasting, and even a bit illusory.
And what about after a certain period of time? Is it just calm, but the so-called happiness you want is only full of regrets
I didn't dare to think too carefully, so I could only vaguely anticipate the worst, and prepare myself for the worst. But when Xiao Chengqian suddenly said that, my hand holding the cigarette couldn't help but tremble. The cigarette held between my fingers suddenly slipped and then rolled down my face. It was so hot that I couldn't help but let out a low sigh and sat up from the flat stone.
And because the action was too intense, it hit my chest. The moment I sat up, I couldn't help but stroke my chest twice and take two breaths.
Xiao Chengqian looked amused and said in a frivolous tone: "Why did you react so bigly?"
I ignored Xiao Chengqian, but waited until the pain in my chest subsided before saying: "It's just the cigarette burn. In fact, I have been mentally prepared. Everything is entangled, and this kind of happiness is no different from stealing half a day's leisure. It's okay to have it." I’m already very satisfied. However, don’t only speak half of what you say, speak more directly.”
"To be more direct, we are leaving here and going to the end of the world. What do you think?" After Xiao Chengqian finished saying this, he jumped down from the big rock, clapped his hands and stared at me.
He tried to look relaxed, but his eyes were extremely serious, even a little bit heavy.
On the run? Is it that serious? In fact, I should have thought of it... I did not answer Xiao Chengqian's question directly, but looked at him and said: "Your grandpa is also back. If running away is a matter of our lineage, what are you doing with Shenhe?" ? Haven’t you always wanted to go back, get your status back, and get your things back?”
Hearing what I said, a hint of anger appeared on Xiao Chengqian's face, and then he strode over, strangled my neck with his elbow, and said loudly: "You are a troublemaker, I provoked you . Mr. Jiang is not much better, my grandpa has provoked him... Do you think we can stay out of it? That kind of young life and from the moment you meet, I am destined to be unable to survive. .Even the Tao that I have always believed in has changed because of you. Are you telling me this?"
The more Xiao Chengqian talked, the more excited he became. I was choked by him and my face turned red. I could only forcefully open his hand, coughed twice, endured the pain in my chest from the coughing, and then said To: "Are you going to kill someone or rob someone? I'm going to call someone!"
"Then scream!" Xiao Chengqian's face bulged because he was angry, which made me a little funny.
He also jumped down from the boulder, patted Xiao Chengqian's shoulder, and just whispered: "Actually, I know."
Xiao Chengqian let out a long sigh. After all, he was not angry with me anymore. He was silent for a while and then said: "My grandpa said, it's okay not to go back to that place."
"Actually, isn't it safer to go back?" I said seriously. After all, it is an organization with a lot of manpower and material resources that can be used. It can even provide some financial help. At least it is safer than fleeing with us.
After hearing what I said, Xiao Chengqian couldn't help but turn around. He put his hands in his pockets and looked at me seriously and said: "Chengyi, that's not what you said. The organization is not the same organization anymore. Since my grandfather came back this time, he passed Judging from some information received through secret channels, the people who truly belong to our force have been completely ignored. The environment you grew up in was simple, and speaking of it, there are only less than 10 people in the sect... You don't understand. The cruelty of the struggle is like fighting for the throne. Once you sit on that top position, will anyone be willing to give up? In addition, grandpa has been away for too long, we simply can't go back, and if we go back, we will surrender."
Maybe I really don’t understand these things, because I feel that since this organization was created by the descendants of Lao Wu’s lineage, it should belong to them. How could this happen? But I don't want to understand these disturbances, just like some people's life is pursuing the pinnacle of power and materiality, while some people think that a cup of tea and a meal are enough.
I can't say who is right or wrong, I can only say that when you pursue differences, you don't need to understand the other person's world in front of you, but it adds a bit of confusion to your own 'purity'.
Life is something that depends on your heart. Whatever your mood and attitude is, life will naturally be like that.
I was silent for a while and asked Xiao Chengqian: "Do you want to go back?" I actually wanted to ask why we were on the run, but as a brother, I should be more concerned about Xiao Chengqian's thoughts. At least I don't want him to live. reluctantly.
Xiao Chengqian sighed, stood beside me, looked up at the swaying bamboo forest in the sun, and said a little lonely: "Of course I want to go back, I have many ambitions, just like so many people in the organization, I am very I want to cleanse their minds again, and I am not afraid to admit frankly that what we have pursued before and the path we have identified is wrong. I want to lead the organization in a new direction... I even want to Become an organization that supports justice and has a clear bottom line from now on! No matter how bad it is, it is not impossible to hide from the world and become an insignificant existence like the snow mountain lineage... Chengyi, can I understand my unrequited heart?"
"Yes!" I nodded gently.
"It's a pity that I can't do anything... I can only listen to my grandpa talking about everything in the organization, and then feel sad! It's completely parallel to the other three evil sects. To be more direct, they are all following Yang Sheng crazily. I just I don’t know how this Yang Sheng did this.” Xiao Chengqian couldn’t continue talking.
"You shouldn't doubt Yang Sheng's IQ. From the first time I saw this person, I felt that he was the kind of person who would be able to do anything he wanted to do to the extreme. Because he is really smart enough. , otherwise he wouldn't be called a young genius. Secondly, can you understand his persistence? That kind of persistence, for the sake of scientific research, he can't even take care of himself. Maybe he just doesn't bother to pay attention to these unimportant details? "I In fact, my previous understanding was not that profound, but when I spoke about it myself, I found that such a smart and persistent person is really scary.
Geniuses are all paranoid. Did Yang Sheng interpret this sentence well
Xiao Chengqian would not doubt my words, but when he heard what I said, his face became paler, and finally he roared feebly, and kicked the ground with a somewhat irritable kick, and then the bamboo leaves spread on the ground flew into the air. When the bamboo leaves were falling one after another, he said: "Maybe I was young and frivolous. Facing the organization I worked so hard to run, I embarked on such a path, but my grandpa was much calmer than me. He told me, ' Yuanfa', it's never too late to realize enlightenment. He just thanked Mr. Jiang for letting him see a different world, different feelings, different righteousness, different persistence... I also thank you for letting me I have experienced something different, but I always feel that if I don’t do my best, how can I live up to my destiny? However, my grandpa told me that doing my best means that I am already doing it, and should not look at it with an anxious heart and cling to it. The result, you don’t have to look at the result, it’s just that, I still can’t understand it.”
After saying this, Xiao Chengqian once again lit up a cigarette a little irritably, but I grabbed his hand, took the cigarette, rubbed it, and threw it away.
I said: "You don't understand what your grandpa said, I understand. In fact, he has already made a choice. Even if he runs away with us, it is still a kind of confrontation and obstruction. Don't you understand?"
"Is that so?" Xiao Chengqian suddenly felt helpless, but looked at me with hope.
"Of course it is, you can think about it yourself. Your grandpa just wants to 'pin' the source of the 'evil' with us, and then choose to go back." I said seriously.
"I think I kind of understand it." Xiao Chengqian looked at me and suddenly smiled.
I also laughed, took Xiao Chengqian in my arms, and then asked casually: "Why are you leaving Zhulin Xiaozhu so soon? Why are you on the run again?"
"Master Jiang asked me to talk to you specifically. Regarding this matter, Yang Sheng has completely broken up with us in the Guidawan battle... Do you know? How big are the forces supporting Yang Sheng now? ?" When Xiao Chengqian said this, his brows wrinkled slightly, and it seemed that the mention of this kind of thing made him very embarrassed.
"Four major forces?" I asked uncertainly.
"That's just the biggest force on the surface. Secretly, I heard Mr. Jiang talking to my grandpa and accidentally mentioned that it's immeasurable." When Xiao Chengqian said this, he kicked the ground unconsciously. It seems like this is the only way to shift the pressure.
"In this case, we must be killed. Of course, if we are willing to surrender... Then why not find us as soon as possible? I mean after we came out of Guidawan." My voice also changed. low.
"Do you think he doesn't want to? Two reasons. The first is because he seems to have something going on over there, and he hasn't had time to take care of us yet. As for the second, there is still someone on our side who intervened a little bit and delayed for a few breaths. Give us your time." Xiao Chengqian said seriously.
"Who is helping us?" The only one I can think of is Sister Jenny. Under this kind of pressure, I'm afraid she is the only one.
"I'm afraid you have to ask Mr. Jiang specifically about this." Xiao Chengqian sighed.
"When are you leaving?" In fact, where can we go if we leave? I don't dare to think about this question, and I don't dare to ask it. If it is true as Xiao Chengqian said, it will be overwhelming.
"I don't know." Xiao Chengqian just said to me in a low voice.