Ruxue obviously did not expect that I would make such a request, and she was stunned for a moment. Perhaps in her heart, this feeling has become a taboo. She is such a stubborn girl, and she believes that continuing will only hurt her, so she will force herself.
Thinking of this, I felt a little sorry for Ruxue. She always forced herself to guard the village like this. How much did she bear in the end guarding the dragon tomb? No less than me.
If it were in the past, according to my tangled character, like Ruxue, I would have guarded myself and not crossed the line. But now that I have less than three days left in my life, what else do I have to worry about.
So, looking at Ruxue in a daze, I suddenly laughed. I no longer suppressed all my feelings and tenderness, and just looked at Ruxue, then sat on the rock and patted my side. He said to Ruxue: "Our lives are actually so short. There will be a life-and-death battle in Ruxue in a month. Chen Chengyi may be gone at some time, so why do you need to be stingy with a song? You treat me like Whether it's an old friend or an old friend, please sing another song for me."
Ruxue looked at me deeply. At that moment, what greeted my smile was a trace of her heartache. She didn't speak, and finally sat next to me.
Many years ago, we often sat side by side like this. Now, on this clear starlit night, when she comes closer to me, I feel like I am in a dream. I don't want to worry about anything anymore, so I naturally put my hand on her waist, and then With a little force, I pulled her into my arms.
Ruxue's body stiffened instantly, and she whispered: "Chen Chengyi, have you forgotten our agreement?"
"Ruxue, don't move, that's it." I didn't answer her, I just looked at the water and sky in the distance, it was hard to distinguish the stars in the sky and the lake, and whispered this.
Ruxue's body was still stiff, but she didn't move subconsciously.
I didn't care what she was thinking at the moment, I just whispered: "You may think that I am abrupt, or you may think that I have forgotten the agreement. I just want to say that I have not forgotten the agreement, and the reason why I have not forgotten is just because I haven’t forgotten you, and I haven’t forgotten me either.”
At this point, I can’t go on. I’ve known Ruxue for so many years, and I’ve never told her I love you so straightforwardly. I still can’t say it out loud, but she should understand what I mean, because I feel Her body was trembling slightly.
Then I felt her struggling a little, and then she said to me: "Chengyi, whether you forget or not, the outcome is already determined, so why do you bother?"
"Ruxue, what if Chen Chengyi is going to die? Are you still willing to persist like this? Why don't you let me have a dream at the end?" I looked at Ruxue, with a trace of sadness in my eyes. I didn't say anything specific. , but I believe she will understand my eyes.
"What nonsense are you talking about? After a big war, you think you are destined to..." Ruxue had always been cool, but at this time she couldn't help but look at me slightly angrily.
I smiled and said: "Whether it's a war or not, and no matter what it is that makes me dream. From the time you left until now, I have forgotten a few years, because I don't want to remember this, let alone say how I miss you." Over the years, I have hated and complained because you were so reluctant to see me, but in the end I still loved you. Whether it was to celebrate me or comfort me, you were really willing to give up even a dream. Give it?"
Ruxue looked at me and suddenly stopped talking. The next moment, she gently leaned on my shoulder, just like before
"Chengyi, you won't be without it, you won't be without it." I didn't expect Ruxue to lean on my shoulder like this. All kinds of emotions in my heart suddenly merged together. Before they calmed down, Ruxue had already gently held my hand. He held my hand and whispered softly.
The next moment, what else did I want to say? She gently covered my mouth with her hand, and then sang softly: "Half-cold and half-warm autumn is ironing beside you, quietly watching the flowing light flying in the wind. "Red leaves"
Once again, the familiar singing voice lingered in my ears. After so many years, the voice that had haunted me in my dreams and could not be forgotten was finally heard again and my throat became choked up.
The night is beautiful. The night wind blows across the lake, causing microwaves to rise on the lake. Starlight ripples along with the lake. It is so beautiful that it is breathtaking. If possible, I really want my life to stay at this moment. There will be no future. It is a pity. Who will time be? And what about staying
The song "Liuguang Feiwu" has been sung. In this lake and mountain scenery, Ruxue and I didn't move for a long time. The night wind may be cold, but we still have each other to keep warm, right
But a dream is just a dream after all. If I still have a choice, I just choose to take the initiative to end it. Then my heart may not hurt so much. I originally planned to tell Ruxue, Tao Tongzi and Wei Chaoyu, because now It seemed that Ruxue had no idea but I didn’t say anything after all.
Some painful past events are enough for one person to remember and know. Why let Ruxue suffer because of this? Even after Chen Chengyi disappeared, she didn’t know that the birthmark I was born with, except for the strong spiritual sense. , and also came to this world with her mark.
Thinking like this, I gently let go of Ruxue, stood up and said calmly: "It's so late, Ruxue, I'm going back. Thank you for your light. This dream is beautiful, at least it's a dream." Except for the stars, it’s all about you. The night wind is very cold, so don’t stay here too long.”
After saying these words, I turned around and left. I only have three days left in my life. Maybe I can be more arrogant, but my arrogance does not mean that I will give Ruxue a lifetime of pain. If she notices something, it is most likely I found out that Tao Tongzi was not mine, so he must be Ruxue.
Because Tao Tongzi would not look at Ruxue and smile like a child like me.
But every two steps I took, my sleeve was pulled. I turned around and saw Ruxue holding my sleeve. I didn't understand why Ruxue was doing this, so I couldn't help but ask: "Ruxue?"
But without saying a word, she suddenly ran into my arms and hugged me tightly.
I was a little dazed, and it took me a few seconds to react, and I hugged her back tightly. She didn't raise her head, just buried her head in my arms and said, "Chengyi, the years in the Dragon Tomb are not the same." Time, because my life has been cold and dull, I have never regretted it, but I still need support, and what supports me has always been your presence. I may be stubborn and isolate us from each other, because in reality, even if I am not stubborn , we are destined to part ways and abandon the mortal world once we part ways. I am a person who has abandoned the mortal world, how can I drag you down?"
"Ruxue." I didn't know what to say, so I just hugged the person in my arms tighter.
"Chengyi, I don't dare to see you, but you can't live without you! As I said just now, you support my existence. Thinking of you alive somewhere in the world makes me feel full of courage. So, you should never say anything about Chen Chengyi again." Ruxue's voice was soft, and even such strong feelings were light when she expressed them.
My heart was in knots. How should I agree to this sentence? It seems that fate is irreversible, but Ruxue doesn't seem to need my answer, as if my silence has already given her an answer.
She looked up at me, and suddenly she touched my lips lightly. I felt cold tears. At this moment, I couldn't help but hug her tightly and kissed her back.
It's been many years since this happened, and for things like feelings, it doesn't mean that you and I can suppress it just because we have agreed.
In the entanglement with Ruxue, I seemed to have forgotten that time could have such a kiss, as if life had been completely fulfilled. In the end, Ruxue gently pushed me away, then turned around and left without looking back. A sentence floats in the wind: "Tonight is also a dream of mine."
There seemed to be a taste like snow still lingering between my lips and teeth. I looked at her back and did not stop her. I was very grateful that she expressed her feelings for me at the end of my life and gave me a sense of completion. Nothing matters anymore, including why she appeared twice inexplicably. I don't want the answer anymore.
I shouldn't leave her pain. Even in the cold days of Dragon Tomb, her living well is not a comfort to me.
The sound of wind blew away my sighs, and the night was already deep.