The nights in the snow-capped mountains are all beautiful, but the same night, experienced with Ruxue, and traveling with the mountains, feels so different.
Together with Ruxue, any beautiful scenery can evoke infinite thoughts in the heart. But with Lushan, the two people are not focused on the beautiful scenery. The grass rustles under their footsteps, and the two people walk in silence. , what I feel is that men support each other and are not alone.
We still stayed at the same rock beside the lake where Ruxue and I were last night. Lu Shan and I jumped up at the same time and sat down on the rock.
In the gentle night breeze of the starry lake, I took out a pack of cigarettes from my robe on the way and gave me one. We lit up the cigarette silently together. The light blue smoke filled the air, and Lu Shan finally spoke. "Actually, I have wanted to tell you my past several times, but it was not a pleasant thing. I even doubted whether I had the courage to tell this story."
"Everyone has things they can't forget, and if they can't be forgotten, they must be good things, right?" I comforted Lu Shan. In fact, life is like this, and the sadder it becomes, the more regretful it becomes. The more difficult it is to forget.
"I am an orphan from a Tibetan area," he said on the way and suddenly looked at me and smiled.
I was surprised, but when I thought about it carefully, I found that apart from taking great care of Tao Bai, Lu Shan almost never mentioned his relatives. It turned out that there was such an allusion.
I didn't interrupt, but Lu Shan continued: "But it's not entirely true that I am an orphan. I just have no parents, but I still have grandparents and an uncle. Of course, this is the name of the Han people. In short, you just need to understand this relationship."
"In that case, you were not without support when you were a child, right?" I lived a warm life since I was a child. My parents, sister, and master all loved me. I couldn't empathize with Lu Shan's life experience, but I subconsciously hoped that Lu Shan would be the same. Can be relied on and loved.
Lu Shan held the smoke and looked at the lake in the distance. He did not directly answer my question. Instead, he smiled slightly and said with a sense of distant memories and vicissitudes of life: "I have never seen my parents." , my grandma told me that they disappeared deep in the snowy mountains, looking for a mysterious existence."
"Ah? Your parents?" I looked at Lu Shan in surprise. I always felt that there was an incredible story behind this. How could an ordinary couple go to the depths of the snow-capped mountains to find someone who was living an ordinary life? A mysterious existence? Still have a tiny toddler left behind? Do Lu Shan’s parents have a story
Facing my question, Lu Shan looked at me and smiled bitterly, and then said: "Chengyi, if I tell you, not only have I never met my parents, but I have rarely heard about my parents. Do you believe?"
"Of course I believe it." I don't know why, but there is also a trace of bitterness in my heart. It seems that Lu Shan's bitter smile has also been engraved in my heart. Losing my parents is a very sad thing. I don't even know much about my parents. That is What kind of sad childhood
"But it's not that I don't know at all." Lu Shan suddenly lay down on the big rock, with a cigarette in his mouth, and then squinted his eyes and said: "When I was a child, my grandma once told me that my father is A respected person, and my mother is very beautiful, and they all love me. My mother lacks milk, and my father milks me every day, even when the snow is falling. I was weak when I was a child, so I My mother hugged me all day and night, refusing to let me leave her arms. My father also collected medicine for me, but I don’t remember any of these memories. I only regret that I was too young at that time."
I also lay down side by side with Lu Shan. I understood how sad he was. He couldn't remember the good memories, and he couldn't even remember what his parents looked like. It turned out that this was Lu Shan's childhood.
And I also know that nothing happens without a reason. Lu Shan is an outstanding and mysterious cultivator, and his talent must be related to his parents, even though he doesn't know about his parents.
"Do you think I'm miserable? Chengyi?" He suddenly asked me with a smile, but without waiting for my answer, he continued: "Actually, before I was seven years old, my grandparents took pity on me who was not miserable. I lost my parents, who loved me very much and always protected me. Our family is a herdsman. Although the family is not rich, we still have a flock of sheep and have no worries about food and clothing. The only person who doesn't like me is my aunt. After I came in, not even my uncle gave me a good look."
"Huh? What happened next?" I continued to ask.
"Later? I said, because of the existence of my grandparents, my uncle and aunt would not do anything to me. Besides, at that time, when the families were separated, they also had their own flocks. The herdsmen just followed the flocks. In fact, there were no What a big intersection. But human life is limited, right? After all, my grandparents are old and miss my parents too much. Their bodies weaken quickly. I often see my grandma crying at night, talking about my dad. name." When Lu Shan said this, the smoke had burned to the end.
His side face looked a little sad. Although he said it lightly, I knew how deeply he would have feelings for his grandparents as a child.
Lu Shan lit another cigarette and was silent for a long time before he said: "I remember it was the winter when I was seven years old. It was such a cold winter that even the grassland was covered with snow. It was during that winter that it lingered for a long time. My grandfather and grandmother passed away one after another. What happened after that is actually very ridiculous. In short, you don’t need to know the details. It was probably that I started living with my uncle and aunt, and the sheep that my grandparents left for me also It belongs to them.”
When Lu Shan talked about this past event, he felt even more relaxed, as if the suffering he had suffered was not worth mentioning at all.
"Do you hate them?" In my eyes is the infinite sky. The brilliant starry sky is actually under this sky. How insignificant we are, and when I think about it carefully, I feel how insignificant we are? If you take it to heart, it means you hate it. If you don’t take it to heart, then everything has nothing to do with your life and your happiness.
"Before there were haters, in their homes, who couldn't eat well, and heavy household chores that weighed on their bodies for a little bit of a year, and went to the sheep, and everything had to be left to my brother, who was unhappy, and I would be beaten, and I think grandparents would be alone at night, holding their favorite sheep, crying out to my parents, and you said little me, how can I not hate?"As the mountain gazed at the sky, it sighed leisurely.
"You didn't hate it anymore?" I asked.
"I don't hate it anymore. Without them, I, a seven-year-old child, would not be able to grow up smoothly in the vast grassland. After all, I didn't know how to herd sheep at that time. There were wolves on the grassland, and there were all kinds of unknown animals." They are not good to me, but at least they let me grow up, just like even if the food is not good, I can still be full, right?" Lu Shan said leisurely.
"You are very open-minded." I commented simply.
"Chengyi, with your personality, you might have figured it out earlier than me. Just because if you remember hatred, you will live in pain, but if you look at kindness, you will live a more relaxed, happy and open-minded life. They Anyway, he raised me for a few years. At that time, I thought my life would go on like this. When I grow up and marry a wife, my uncle and aunt will give me some sheep. Well, even if it’s not much, I can still live my own life. I feel that as long as I work hard, the sheep will gradually grow bigger and my life will get better. At that time, the thing I longed for most was Grow up." When Lu Shan talked about this, he had a smile on his face, as if it was a beautiful dream. I can understand that if I can really live like this, wouldn't it be a kind of happiness
"Then what happened next?" I couldn't help but ask.
"What can happen? You can probably guess it, right? It's just that what you can't guess are the details." Lu Shan smiled faintly again, as if he was immersed in memories and unwilling to extricate himself.
"Then just say it." In fact, I should be able to guess that his fate has taken a certain turn, and this turn may be related to the temple full of mysterious evil.
"That year, I was 11 years old and already a mature herder. I was familiar with the grassland and the sheep and had become accustomed to the life of herding sheep. But even so, I couldn't guard against the elusive prairie wolf. In that summer, I couldn't go out to herd. I don’t know why, but a small group of prairie wolves came to the usually peaceful pasture. I was in trouble at that time, and I couldn’t bear to let go of every sheep. During the days when I lived with my uncle and aunt, my feelings for every sheep were overwhelming. It's so deep." Lu Shan glanced at me and asked, "Can you understand?"
"Yeah." I nodded.
"It was at that time that I met Baima, the woman who changed my life. I met her while I was chasing sheep and running for my life from a confrontation with wolves."