"The following years are my happiest years, and they are also the years that I most want to live again in my life... In fact, I believe that everyone treasures that period of time in their hearts, when they dream back at midnight , I want to repeat it again." Lu Shan's voice sounded a little ethereal for some reason.
But I somehow resonate with such literary and artistic words. Why don’t I want to spend another half year with Ruxue? I just thought so in my heart, but when my words came to my mouth, they turned into teasing Lu Shan: "When did you become so artistic?"
"It's not literature and art, listen to me... Even if it's just nonsense, I want to say it, because talking about it, it's like I've lived that time again... But in the past, I didn't know who to say it to ." Lu Shan said to me.
"Then tell me." I stretched my body and looked at the starry sky... Unforgettable years, unforgettable people...
After that agreement... Baima officially appeared in Lu Shan's life... If Lu Shan's childhood was full of suffering, then Baima was released by God in order to make up for Lu Shan. Gave her an elf in her life.
They often met each other in the pasture where Lushan grazed sheep. Sometimes Baima would hold his younger brother, sometimes without him... Their laughter was left everywhere on the grassland where the sky was high and the clouds were dim.
But what Pema brings to Lushan is not just this... Lushan is an orphan, so naturally no one cares about his problem of reading and writing in school, but Pema will teach him, not only teach him to write Tibetan, but also teach him Speaking Chinese, writing Chinese characters... Baima would often bring some books to Lu Shan to read.
Sometimes it's ordinary magazine reading, sometimes it's Tibetan Buddhist scriptures, and sometimes it's even some textbooks... She seems to know a lot, and she always explains to Lu Shan what he doesn't understand... She seems to be very smart too, Always giving Lu Shan bright and cheerful advice...
She also told Lu Shan about the outside world and history... And Lu Shan was originally a very smart person. Baima became the enlightenment teacher in his life and opened a magical door for him.
No one would have imagined that there is such an elf-like little girl in the world, with a perfect face, a smart and rich brain, and most importantly, a kind heart.
"The reason why I say she is kind is because after she learned about my life experience... she would often bring me food, all kinds of exquisite snacks that I had never seen before... She always liked to smile. Look at me and always tell me that you have to eat enough... Chengyi, what if such a girl appeared during your difficult years? How would you describe her? I can't think of a better adjective. , I can only describe her with the feeling I had when I saw her once. She is a goddess. Sometimes I really hope that she is my own goddess... Unfortunately, she never is." Lu Shan was a little sentimental, but His eyes were confused... He was still immersed in his own memories.
"Yes, goddess... In such years, the appearance of such a girl will be engraved in the soul, and she may not want to forget it for the rest of her life." I also said this, so beautiful, so Her kindness... Even if I can't have her love in my life, she is worth remembering in my life.
Lu Shan smiled and didn't say anything... but continued to talk.
Once, he thought that his statement would last forever on the vast grassland... He never thought when would such days end? Just like herding sheep every day, the afternoon appointment has become a normal life. Who would have thought that it would end one day? Unless it's the end of life.
And such days have passed for a long time... It started when Lu Shan was 11 years old, and when Lu Shan was 16 years old, he had truly grown into a young man... After 5 years, how could Lu Shan think that it would end?
It was in the afternoon of that year that Baima met Lu Shan again... and this time, everything finally changed.
Lu Shan was happy to see Baima, because she didn't appear every day. The longest time, she only appeared after three days, and the short time, she appeared almost every day for several months... And that time, Lu Shan I haven't seen Baima for five days.
This is the reason why Lu Shan is happy. He misses Baima and is naturally happy to see her... However, he is actually not worried, just because their agreement is what Lu Shan thinks of life, and he thinks it will never expire.
But in this world, nothing in this universe is eternal, only reincarnation is the unchanging way of heaven... Unless you jump out, but what jumps out cannot be one thing, it can only be a spirit, a kind of The tempered spirit is the Tao.
How could Lu Shan know this at that time? Maybe even if he did, he wouldn't think about it. He just rushed to Baima happily and asked: "Baima, where have you been these days? There is another one in my book I don’t understand the question. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time, but I don’t know the answer I came up with, right? You see, it’s just... "
Lu Shan raised a book in his hand and told Baima happily.
An 11-year-old doesn't understand love, but a 16-year-old has already started to fall in love... Lu Shan knew that he had fallen deeply in love with Baima, but he didn't dare to go beyond the boundaries. Baima always liked his positive attitude the most. Studying... Therefore, Lu Shan always behaves like this actively in front of Baima, and every time he gets the most enthusiastic response from Baima.
But this time Baima didn't read the book in Lu Shan's hand. Instead, he looked at Lu Shan and said sadly: "Zeren, I can't come here starting from tomorrow... I won't come here anymore."
With a 'snap' sound, the book in Lu Shan's hand fell to the grass, the wind blew... the pages of the book made a 'squeak' sound, and everything became silent.
Lu Shan had thousands of words to say, but at this moment he didn't even know where to start. All the emotions turned into sadness, rushed to his mind, and finally his eyes were red...
Baima was also speechless. In addition to sadness, there was more determination in his eyes.
In such silence, Lu Shan finally spoke. He was really afraid that he would never see Baima again from tomorrow on. He said, "Baima, will our agreement be invalidated?"
At this time, Lu Shan realized that he didn't have any trump card, and the only thing he had in his hand was an agreement.
"Even if forever, there will be an end, and the promise will fade with time... The fate of meeting is precious enough, so why bother to force everything?" Baima's words drifted in the wind, but they were like knives stuck in the road. In the heart of the mountain.
"Not coming?" Lu Shan asked again.
"Well, I won't come." Baima said softly.
"Then I can't see Tao Bo anymore?" Lu Shan's voice began to tremble, because sometimes, Baima would bring her brother with her when we met, although not as frequently as when Tao Bo was a baby, but there were still some. Her younger brother did not have a Tibetan name, but strangely had a Han name. Lu Shan never asked why
Just because these are not important, what is important is the time we spend together... In these 5 years, Tao Bo has become a 5 and a half year old child. He is the most intimate with Lu Shan, more intimate than the other. His sister is like Lu Shan’s real brother.
Is it what you felt at that time? Lu Shan will be his biggest support in his growing years.
"If I don't come, naturally I can't take Xiaobai out. Zeren, remember the knowledge I taught you. That is a door. When you push it open, you can see the outside world. Your life will always be like this." You can't just herd sheep on the grassland. You are very good... I hope you can live a good life in the future." When she talked about this, there was a kind of compassion in her smile, just like the one when they first met. mercy.
She was so kind. She once told Lu Shan that she hoped that all the creatures she saw, even plants and trees, would be happy and safe.
What kind of mercy is this? Now that it was placed on Lu Shan, it became the greatest sadness.
All this time, in front of Baima, Lu Shan was the shy, studious, gentle boy who silently agreed with everything Baima said. But this time, under the impact of huge sadness, Lu Shan once again He couldn't help it anymore. He got angry for the first time. He yelled at Baima: "Why should I go out to see the outside world? Does going outside mean happiness? No... I want to guard this grassland. , because only by guarding this grassland can I see you, and seeing you is happiness! Before meeting you, I didn’t know what happiness was.”
This is the cry of a 16-year-old boy... Generally, children of this age are still in school and have no such profound understanding of happiness. However, Lu Shan's special life gave him the greatest understanding.
"But I won't come, and you won't see me again... So, your happiness is elsewhere, and you are going to find it, and I will recite scriptures for you and bless you." Bai At this moment, Ma seemed to have that holy halo around her again, but this halo suddenly widened the distance between her and Lu Shan.
"If you don't come, I will look for you... Just like the poem you read to me, I can always find you when you go to poverty and fall into hell." The stubbornness of the 16-year-old boy is so determined. At that moment, Lu Shan seemed to have chosen the path of life again.
"Looking for me? Where are you looking for me? Do you know who I am?" Baima asked suddenly while looking at Lu Shan, and sighed again.
And Lu Shan really didn't give up... When Baima said he was leaving, his life had been rewritten, or in other words, his destiny had already been determined.