I don’t want to hear any more, and Lu Shan doesn’t want to say any more.
However, since he decided to talk today, Lu Shan had to face the wounds in his heart. After gasping for breath for several minutes, he finally spoke again: "Chengyi, I'm really afraid that I'll cry."
"If you want to cry, then cry. Those who love to cry may not be real men." I said calmly. At this time, I felt that my attitude could give Lu Shan strength.
"No, it's not that I'm afraid that if I cry, I won't be a real man... But, there is a saying among us that don't shed too many tears for the person who has passed away, as it will make him feel worried, and he will not be able to enter reincarnation properly. Although Baima cannot be reincarnated... However, my wish is always like this, I hope she can be reincarnated. She is so kind. Once the soul is liberated, there will always be good things waiting for her... Therefore, I repeatedly warned myself , Can't shed too many tears for Baima." Lu Shan lit up another cigarette as he spoke.
Now he must rely on these things to stabilize his mood.
I also want to smoke a cigarette, because I know Lu Shan will definitely say, but it is definitely a tragedy, and I also need a little strength to face it, even if it is the strength of a cigarette.
"Baima was made into a living instrument... The drum you saw, the drum skin is Baima's skin... Baima's soul power is sealed inside, and the secret method is used to suppress Baima's soul will. Cheng Yi , do you understand now?" After Lu Shan smoked almost half of the cigarette in one gulp, he finally told me this fact.
Although I had expected it, my hands couldn't help but tremble a few times. The cigarette I was holding fell off and burned my chest... I quickly picked it up and let out a long 'hiss' sound, as if there was only one thing I could do. This kind of pain can suppress the shock and anger in my heart.
Such a beautiful girl was made into a living device? And what kind of torture will Lu Shan face? Do you carry this drum with you every day? I just thought that Baima's soul was sealed in the drum. After all, I have seen it... Today, through Lu Shan's telling, I realized that the truth is so cruel, even though I was mentally prepared.
"Actually, Baima knew that she would be made into a living instrument. At that time, I didn't know how those scammers from Lagang Temple brainwashed Baima... She was so kind and thought that she could make sacrifices like this. A group of people felt the power of the Kingdom of Heaven and decided to do this. But... she just found me the day before the sacrifice." Lu Shan has already talked about the most painful part, obviously I feel my breathing becomes smoother, but there is another kind of anger that I can't suppress.
"Baima volunteered?" I could never imagine that Baima would voluntarily endure such a thing... I don't want to think about that cruel term, but in fact it is 'cut alive', which is simply commonplace. Unimaginable pain.
"Yes, she volunteered... Most people will not understand Pema's kindness and kindness. Later I found out that the people from Lagang Temple lied to her... If her power is used to make a living instrument, it will be Open a way to the Kingdom of Heaven for the suffering people!! She agreed directly without thinking about it... However, she came to me the night before the sacrifice." Lu Shan took another puff of cigarette, and his voice became softer again. pain.
"She is looking for you, why don't you take her and run away? Can you just watch this happen?" I couldn't help but ask Lu Shan.
"How could I be willing? And with my status at the time, I had no idea about this grand ceremony... The most critical and last secret ceremony that only a few people participated in was the sacrifice of Baima alive and her death. Make it into a living device... And the night when Baima came to see me, she didn't tell me a word." Lu Shan's breathing became a little faster.
"Then why did she come to you...? And how could she come to you?"
"We have been together for five years, and naturally we have a language that only each other understands... That time, she didn't know why she left a line of words in my room. It was very cryptic, but I could tell... She was asking me out. We met outside Lagang Temple... I don’t know how excited I was at that time... And finally I left the temple at night. At that time, I was already free to go out and enter the temple. Already." Lu Shan said in a low voice.
That night... it was a beautiful weather. Although it was not full of stars like tonight, there was a beautiful full moon.
And the moon on the plateau, on a sunny day, is always so big... It seems that only this size can illuminate the artistic conception of the reunion of man and moon.
Lu Shan and Baima stood silently on the top of the mountain where Lagang Temple is located, silhouetted under the moon, their clothes fluttering in the mountain wind... Lu Shan once thought this was a dream, just a beautiful dream that he had been looking forward to all his life. ... He couldn't believe it was true.
The white horse in front of her was no more than three meters away. She was no longer wearing the grand attire of a saint, but had resumed her very simple attire, just like when she first saw her... the familiar smile between her eyebrows and the look in her eyes. Kindness is as dazzling as it was back then... Even though everything was the same as before, at that time, Lu Shan's heart was as far apart as a chasm.
This distance made him weakly believe that all this was really just a dream.
"At that time, the last thing I expected was that you really found Lagang Temple and found me." Baima spoke softly... The moonlight shone dimly on her, and at that moment, Lu Shan was even in a trance. I feel that soon she will leave the mountain top and drift away towards the moon... After so many years of no close contact, she has become even more sacred.
Even at that time, Lu Shan was a cultivator and was used to seeing all kinds of magic... It took a lot of effort to calm down the fluctuations in his heart that he did not dare to blaspheme, and said: "But, I So what if we find her? The distance between us has not narrowed because we have seen her, but has become farther and farther as the years go by."
"It's not far... It's just that I am a saint from Lagang Temple, and you are a cultivator from Lagang Temple... Don't you understand that getting close to me will bring disaster to you?" Baima Said softly.
Lu Shan was stunned for a moment. He had never thought of this aspect... Some of him just didn't understand it, but he was a smart man. As he got to know Lagang Temple, he thought about it carefully and realized that this might really be the case. .. So it turns out that Baima is caring about herself
Some misunderstandings are not necessarily solved just because people are smart... When they are tainted with emotions, nothing makes sense... No matter how smart a person is, he will be confused by the authorities, unless the person he deeply loves and cares about speaks personally. , otherwise the inner emotions will always be sour, but this sourness is not hate.
"But I'm not afraid of any disaster... One day in heaven is happier than countless years in hell... If I can get close to you, what does the disaster mean?" Lu Shan felt great comfort in his heart, and he was excited. He couldn't help but confess his feelings again.
"But I care, do you understand?" Baima suddenly turned his head, looked deeply at Lu Shan, and said this.
The words were simple... but the friendship behind them was already evident. This was the first time that Baima said such ambiguous words to Lu Shan. Under the moonlight, Lu Shan looked at Baima's sincere eyes and couldn't help but be stunned. .. Just like a dream has really come true, people’s first reaction is not ecstasy, but simply disbelief.
However, Baima smiled at him... This smile was not filled with that kind of holy light, but as if he was laughing at him as an idiot... Baima was perfect, but this was the first time Lu Shan felt that She is so full of human interest and so close to herself.
Lu Shan couldn't help but take a step forward, and Baima also took a step towards Lu Shan... Under the moonlight, it was Baima who took the initiative to lean into Lu Shan's arms: "We first met when we were young, and we haven't seen each other for five years. Guess... My mind was pure at that time, but I was not unreasonable... You were smart, tall, handsome, brave, and most importantly, had a tough heart... When you appeared in front of me again , I knew why I had been worried for a long time? I also realized that although I am a saint, I am not a real god and Buddha, and I can never see through the word love in my heart... Even if I have more wishes I want to pursue you, but I don’t want to deny that you are close to my heart.”
Two lines of hot tears fell from Lu Shan's eyes... In this life, he never thought that Baima would say these words to him... She was in his arms, but he didn't dare to hold her tightly with his hands, for fear of hugging her If he stays, she will disappear like a dream and then disappear... Then he will fall from heaven to hell.
"No matter what happens in a person's life, there will always be dilemmas and regrets... But the choice is still to continue. I owe you the beginning of the most beautiful relationship, and I will make up for it tonight... Then, your life I have to continue, I heard people say that you are a promising cultivator... I hope that you will have a glorious day, and then help me take care of Tao Bo."
Baima did not leave Lu Shan's arms, but leaned against him, and said such words quietly, which made Lu Shan's heart suddenly tighten.