Lu Shan is smart, and the experience of losing his parents since childhood made him a little sensitive. How could Lu Shan not be confused by Baima's behavior
But Baima was very calm, as if he had guessed Lushan's thoughts, and just said: "My practice is not limited to Lagang Temple, I may go to places far, far away... You and I have been together for 5 years. In my life, I feel that the person I can trust the most is you. Tao Bo is young, and although he will be well taken care of when staying at Lagang Monastery, he still hopes that you can take care of him. In fact, the biggest The problem is when his emotional sustenance...because in his life, apart from me, you are the most dear to him."
"Baima won't lie, but that doesn't mean she won't tell everything in an understatement... She thought that being made into a living instrument was another part of her practice. And when I thought she wouldn't lie, I believed her so easily... I couldn't stop all this. At that time, I just sighed, after all, she was not from the same world, and she was going to travel far away... And allowing me to meet this night, it was already my The greatest blessing in life, at least I know that she has friendship for me. As long as I have this friendship, what's wrong with two people even if they fall in love across the world? After all, we cultivators can see clearly... and we also know that two people love each other and understand each other. , we don’t have to stay together forever... What’s more, she asked me to take care of Tao Bai." Lu Shan's mood became calmer at this time.
Indeed, from Lu Shan's perspective, if Baima wanted to hide it, how could he know this cruel fact
And that night, he finally hugged Baima, and even kissed her gently at Baima's request... This was the only moment when the love in their lives bloomed, like fireworks, it dissipated quickly, but The splendor of that moment will remain in my heart forever.
It was also on this night that Pema told Lu Shan about her life experience. In fact, she and Tao Bo were not purely Tibetan children. Their father was a Han... and a Han who was not an ordinary person.
"I don't know much about my father... My mother told my brother and I that we are actually ordinary, especially my brother, who has amazing secrets... But my father only wants me and my brother to live an ordinary life. , so he resolutely chose to leave here and returned to the department where he worked... There is no news yet." Baima said to Lu Shan.
"What about your mother?" Lu Shan couldn't help but ask. In fact, although he was an orphan, he still had relatives, but he had never met any relatives of Baima and Tao Bo.
"My mother passed away when I was very young... She passed away in a very strange way, and she also said she was going to find a magical place... She handed us over to a kind neighbor grandma to take with her, but she didn't go far away. How long did it take for her to come back again... When she came back, her condition was already very bad, and she couldn't even speak. It felt like she was supported by her will in front of our siblings... At that time, my brother just For two months, she seemed to want to say something to us, but was unable to say it, so she passed away." Baima told Lu Shan with sad memories.
"Then... what happened next?"
"Later, the day after my mother passed away, the monks from Lagang Temple showed up and picked up my brother and I... After all, this is a sacred temple. Although the temple has been closed for a long time, its light of mercy is still there. It remained in people's hearts, and the old lady who took care of my brother and I felt relieved to let us go... The monks here thought that my brother and I were outstanding practitioners with outstanding talents, so I became a saint and my brother became a saint. Holy Son... I met you later." Baima leaned on Lu Shan's shoulder.
"It turns out that Pema and I are both poor people, and my parents and her mother seem to be surprisingly similar. They are both looking for some mysterious existence... The difference is that her mother came back, and I My parents never came back. I once wondered if it was for this reason that God allowed us poor children to meet together and warm each other... And I also knew the reason why Tao Bo didn't use Tibetan people's names. , because of their parents’ agreement, one follows his mother’s Tibetan name, and the other follows his father’s Han name.” Lu Shan told me.
In short... that night was their most intimate night, and they talked about almost everything... It wasn't until the moon gradually set and the east turned white... that Baima reluctantly left, and before leaving, he still gave her Lu Shan gave Lu Shan a hug without any words of farewell... However, when going down the mountain, Baima seemed to feel something in her heart. She suddenly looked back at Lu Shan, with tears in her eyes, and smiled at Lu Shan... . Then he really left.
And that glance was the last time Baima and Lu Shan looked at each other.
"What happened after that? How did you become Lu Shan of the department? And you took Tao Bo with you?" I couldn't help but start asking.
"That's a memory I don't want to recall... Chengyi, I found out the truth seven days later. At that time, the sacred artifact was ready. It was taken out and everyone was asked to concentrate on blessing and consecration. As an important person in the temple, I My disciple, Manrenba accidentally revealed this secret to me... Seeing that I was curious about the sudden appearance of the holy weapon, he couldn't help but proudly told me that it was the key to heaven... before he was completely inspired. , has supreme magic power... And after being completely inspired by refining, combined with something, you can truly open the kingdom of heaven... I was very surprised at that time, how could such a powerful holy weapon suddenly appear, Man Renba told me nonchalantly that it didn't appear suddenly, but was a sacred artifact that the temple had cultivated for many years... before refining it." When Lu Shan said this, his emotions became excited again, and his hands moved again. Start shaking...
"Stop talking, I can guess the answer..." In fact, I don't need to elaborate on the subsequent conversation, I can probably guess it. There is really no need to open this kind of wound, because it is really too cruel.
"Well... I just want to tell you, Chengyi, that my hands hidden in my sleeves were full of blood because they were in too much pain... I clenched my fists so tightly that I almost used up all my strength to draw. Broken my palm... Do you know that kind of pain? It almost makes people collapse instantly... It was this kind of restraint that prevented me from having an attack on the spot... At that time, I actually already vaguely knew that pulling The monks in Gang Temple behave badly and are not as holy and compassionate as the eminent monks of Tibetan Buddhism in other temples. Even their practice is not entirely within the scope of Tibetan Buddhism... There is a faint evil spirit, but I was The brainwashing was so powerful, and because such a perfect goddess like Pema was a saint in this temple, I didn't want to believe anything, or I thought I was too focused on form... At that time, I just felt that Pema had been deceived. Because Manrenba's tone was so relaxed, this silly girl Baima was deceived." At this point, Lu Shan's voice trembled so much that even his Adam's apple was shaking.
He said, don't shed tears for Baima... At this time, he is definitely enduring the pain. No matter how strong a man is, if his beloved woman is killed so cruelly and turned into a living instrument, it would still be... For those who have been deceived, the fire of anger in their hearts can burn to the sky. It is good that Lu Shan can restrain himself to this point.
I quickly took out the jug of wine from him, handed it to Lu Shan, and comforted him: "Don't talk about it yet, come on, take a few sips."
In fact, I felt very sad inside. Before handing it to Lu Shan, I took a few sips... And Lu Shan took the wine bottle and drank almost all the wine in one gulp. It was a strange feeling. A flush appeared on his face, and he held back the tears that were about to burst out of his eyes.
"Chengyi, I made a decision at that time. I wanted to find out the truth. I wanted to take Baima and Tao Bo away... You don't know what kind of courage I had at that moment. Facing that sacred artifact, what kind of courage did I use to keep myself from collapsing... Chengyi, but every day I feel like living in purgatory... Do you know? For these purposes, I began to practice harder and harder , showing off his talents more and more... Then, I, Lu Shan, in front of you, for this purpose, also deliberately colluded with those monks... I can only guarantee that there is no innocent life in my body, with both hands It has not been stained with their blood...but there are too many things that have happened while turning a blind eye. You even have to understand or applaud, and do nothing to save you...I can't tell you one by one about these. I only hope you understand my tolerance. To what extent... In fact, I am a sinner named Zeren... I changed my name to Lu Shan, but I can't wash away the sins on my body. Those who were made into living instruments... those who use spiritual practice And all kinds of girls whose names have been stained, or even lost their lives... so many, so many..." Lu Shan's mood began to collapse as he drank heavily.
And my heart is extremely painful. I am also a man. If I were Lu Shan, what would I do? At that time, what can I do except endure it? In fact, there is no choice...
But I still forcibly lifted Lu Shan up, looked into his eyes, and said to him seriously: "No, Lu Shan... I don't deny that you have sinned, those sins that you are forced to turn a blind eye to. But , I do not admit that you are a sinner... Because everything in the world is a cycle of cause and effect. If you sow evil causes, you can also sow good causes. When there are evil retributions, there will also be good retributions... In the cycle of cause and effect, They can cancel each other out... Just do it with a pure and kind heart! Instead of doing it to avoid bad consequences... Heaven sets up cause and effect, and it is only the human heart that is tempered... The important thing is that you have a What kind of heart! Didn’t you Buddhists once say that you should put down your butcher knife and become a Buddha immediately? This is the power of a heart... You have so many statements, no matter what the purpose is, you can use them Use the time in your life to do good deeds and wash away your sins... Such people are not sinners. Knowing their mistakes can greatly improve them. This is what this sentence means, because the most irreparable thing from ancient times to the present is just a human heart. "
"Chengyi, good brother!" Lu Shan patted my shoulder heavily, then looked at the sky and said: "I thought you would look down on me, but you know better than me... In short, there is no such thing After years of forbearance, how could I escape from Lagang Temple with Tao Bai and the sacred artifacts? It was a long story, careful planning, and finally a desperate success... However, after escaping, I discovered that the world was full of people. Da, I have nowhere to go! The people from Lagang Temple are naturally going to hunt me down... If you ask me why I became a member of the department, that is because I took Tao Bai to find his father... I also hope You get asylum from the department, do you understand?”
"So, that's it?" At this moment, all the clues were finally connected... .