That night? How could I not remember... It was the night before we started to escape, when I was just recovering from my injuries, my master made fragrant soup... The moment I saw it, I seemed to have returned to my childhood, and that night I still remember every scene of tenderness.
Why did Master bring this up? I looked at Master...I didn't quite understand what he meant for a moment. My heart was tortured by this time of year, and my brain's thinking ability was about to become rigid.
"Do you still remember what I told you?" Master turned his head and looked at me.
At this moment, I saw such an emotion from Master for the first time. This emotion often appeared in me when Master left, so I was too familiar with it. This emotion is called -helpless!
Master can be helpless? Why are you helpless? He reminded me of what he said that day... I think my memory is good, but it is still impossible to remember every word I said a few months ago.
I frowned and tried to remember, and suddenly a sentence clearly appeared in my mind... At that time, Master was helping me wipe my back. He once said to me, "When you get old, you love your family!" I am making a metaphor, if one day I get old and I don’t know what to do with myself anymore, and I want to retire here, you have to be by my side. '
Is this a sentence? Master obviously only has one year to live... Why did you say such a thing to me? Is there still hope? My heart suddenly became hot. At that time, I was still wondering about that sentence, but Master took it away with another topic.
"Master, is that what you said? If one day you are old...so old that you don't know what's going on, I want to be by your side when you take care of yourself? That means you still have hope, right? ? You want me to live, which is also a hint to me, right? Master, you definitely can't say it, for fear of being extrapolated, right?" I suddenly became energetic and my mood improved a lot.
Before, in the mountain gate of the snow-capped mountains, Master once said not to say too much... I was afraid that it would be deduced as soon as I said it, so I naturally found this reason for Master. As long as he can live, Everything is fine.
I thought of Master's helplessness as just worrying about me.
I didn't expect to face such joy in me... Master could shake his head cruelly, his eyes full of sadness for my guilt, and he said to me: "Chengyi, everything is not what you think. I I think it’s better to tell you some things in advance than to face them suddenly. I really don’t have much time left.”
"What do you mean?" My smile froze on my face, and my eyes suddenly became lonely again.
Master turned his head and didn't look at me. He didn't know if he couldn't bear to watch anymore. He just sighed and said to me: "The way I live my life this year is a little special, just like repaying my destined fate... . Before, I told you, right? What is the result of our suppression under the great formation? It is that the soul is separated from the body... and then the separated soul is directly exposed to the great formation, and is crushed to death. "
At this point, the master took another puff of dry cigarette, then looked at the distant starry sky and continued: "Your master gave you a choice, and I chose the second one... That means that after the time is up, you After the master's power dissipates, my soul will still leave the body... You know the consequences of this, so you don't need me to explain it, right?"
My face suddenly turned pale... The body that has been separated by the soul has nothing more than two results... The general situation is to become a vegetative state. The second one, if the body is strong and the willpower of the owner of the body is strong enough, There will be some fragments of soul and willpower left in it... But what's the use? It will also become a walking zombie without the ability to think.
This is more cruel than the soul slowly separating from the body. The symptoms are like the onset of Alzheimer's disease... Even though I have been wondering whether the root cause of this human disease is related to the soul, I don't care too much. .
Today, Master's situation is even more cruel than this... That is to say, once an attack occurs, Master's situation will leave me without even a chance to buffer!
"Ah." The sadness, depression, and unwillingness that suddenly surged in my heart... flooded me like a tide. After learning the true situation, I almost suffocated. I could only yell, going crazy. I feel so powerless to vent my emotions like this!
I know too well in my heart... The master and the others were destined to die at that time. The master kept people under the law of heaven... just because the master's remaining soul was used to deal with the disaster left by Kunlun. Yes, this is the destiny arranged by heaven... And the master's free and unrestrained character, in the end, chose love and kept the master and the others... But that's all.
Even if you use the life-extending technique, it won't work! It's like becoming Master Liu's daughter... How can the suppression of the Pattern of Heaven be so simple? This is not a matter of forcing the body to shut down the Yin, nor is it a matter of borrowing the life span of others through 'trade'... Forcibly doing so is just to let the Master's body survive for a few more years... What's the point of this? !
This cruel pattern of heaven directly peels off the soul! !
This time, Master did not stop me from venting. He just said quietly after I finished yelling: "Your Grandma Lingqing, I owe her a debt of gratitude... Before we were finally suppressed that day. , I used a method to directly shake out part of her soul, and placed it in the soul-nurturing bead where the remnant soul of your master is... Then, I tempted God, saying that as long as Ling Qing is released... before my soul is destroyed, I will tell you where the other Kunlun remnant souls are... Actually, I want to save more people, but your master's soul-raising beads can only protect Ling Qing's remnant soul at most, but not more. .. Fortunately, we are all seniors and fellow comrades, as well as old comrades... At that time, it was better for everyone to be more generous and forgive me for my slight selfishness. Even Wu Liyu understood... He knew that this was our old friend Regarding the matter between Li and Lao Wu, Ling Qing is actually just following me."
At this time... I really understood the ins and outs of the matter... Master never liked to express anything, and his expression to Ling Qing was also very limited... But this deep affection was reflected in this plain narration. , all revealed.
However, no matter how deep the love is, no matter how wonderful the past is... it will disappear when the person disappears, right? During Master's narration, I shed tears... This is not just my sadness, it is the sadness of everyone... I think of Xiao Chengqian's eldest cousin... Master and their final endings are also the same Is that so
I hate, but I don’t know who to hate... I couldn’t find a way to vent my clenched fists, but at this moment, Master’s warm hands touched my back... He said to me To: "So, Chengyi... you have to be strong, you can't just disappear... You know that I, Jiang Lizhun, have never been weak in my life... but I don't want to wake up in my dream at midnight now, But I was very afraid, afraid that I would become like that at that time, unable to take care of myself when eating and drinking... That would be a bit humiliating. Buddhists say, stinky skin, stinky skin... The soul has left, so what else do you care about? Appearance? If I had the same state of mind as a Buddhist, that would be fine... Unfortunately, I am a Taoist, and my thoughts are no different. No matter what happens to my soul... my body will always exist for me. Traces, always hope to be decent..."
While Master was talking, I burst into tears beside me. This was the first time that Master showed weakness... In fact, he has always been slovenly... but being slovenly just represents his casualness, and it does not mean that he can accept it when the time comes. Living without knowing anything... He has always wanted dignity, and he has never lived a stooped life!
His hope only lies in me, I... His inheritance, his continuation, can keep him like that, and he can leave with dignity, but how can I accept it
"Chengyi, do you understand? In the end, I have to trouble you to take care of me... Take care of me just like I took care of you when you were a child, and it may be even more troublesome... You are the only one I have in this fear. Comfort, the only reliance... So, how can you live without being strong and give up easily?" Master's hand finally fell heavily on my shoulder.
I wiped away my tears, looked into the distance, and choked with sobs: "Master... I know everything."
"That's good, I feel at ease."
"Then Master, where will your soul go after you leave? Will it still be scattered?" If this is really the case, I absolutely cannot accept it. Even if I go against heaven, I will force Master to stay.
"That won't happen... But I don't know where to go... But no matter where you go, if there is still a road ahead and a place to go, that's called hope."
The night wind blows slowly... Is there hope
The master continued: "If there is hope... then you should be happy for me in the end."