We looked at each other in silence, and the atmosphere in the room was a little heavy. The round boy was pulled out by Huijue, saying that he was going to recite sutras. When he left, he gently closed the door. I knew that he wanted to leave the room with me. A space for Master to talk alone.
Master lit up cigarettes. In recent days, I found that Master smoked cigarettes more frequently and was very worried.
Smoke was rising in the room, but we, the master and the apprentice, were still silent. When the smoke was almost finished, the master suddenly handed the pipe to me and said, "Want a sip?"
I took it and took a puff. A hot breath swirled in my lungs. At the end, there was a slight medicinal aroma in my mouth. This was Master's unique dry tobacco leaf, which cannot be bought in ordinary places.
However, dry tobacco was too strong and I wasn't used to it. I touched my pocket and took out a cigarette to light it. Am I not worried too
"Still thinking about Yang Sheng?" Master finally spoke.
"Yes, I want to know everything." I really want to know everything. The back view of Brother Sheng's last turn still hurts my heart.
"Here, let's take a look." The master took out something from his arms.
I took it, and it was a roll of paper. I unfolded it, and there were many messages written on it, but they were written in a special code, and the translation was underneath.
"I don't know why we here can't receive telegrams, but we can send out messages. I didn't think too carefully." The master explained beside him.
Actually, I understand, he doesn’t dare to think too carefully, it’s too scary! We can't receive any news, but we can call people to come. It's like there is a pair of eyes watching us, and we do it on purpose.
Looking at the contents of the piece of paper carefully, my face became more and more ugly. When I finally handed this piece back to Master, my hands began to tremble again.
"Do you understand?" Master asked.
"I understand." I nodded.
The above is a conversation between a person and an organization. They have already colluded and agreed. The last one is a satellite phone contact. Hey, satellite phone...
That person was Brother Sheng, that organization, I thought of that devil face, it turned out to be an organization.
"Master, did you know this a long time ago, or...?" I pinched my hands until the veins bulged, and I felt so heartbroken that I couldn't breathe. It was indeed a conspiracy and a deception. Brother Sheng, how could he do this to me
"I don't want to doubt Yang Sheng. This news was brought by Ling Qing, and there is this evidence..." Master looked at me and said.
I lowered my head in pain and grabbed my hair, and it took me a long time to say: "Brother Sheng, how could Brother Sheng do this?"
"Because he has an obsession in his heart, and for this obsession, he has gone crazy. This obsession has made his world without right and wrong, without any emotions. From another perspective, his state of mind is as high as the one we are pursuing. Realm. It's a pity that it was born out of obsession, and when it is shattered, it will be irreversible. This is a crooked way. However, it is also his own way." Master's words were very deep, corresponding to my pain, Master was very calm and rational.
"Master, is that organization very powerful? Can I get Brother Sheng back?" I looked at Master, with a glimmer of hope in my eyes.
"Sanwa'er, you are 23 years old. What I have always hoped for is that you are no longer childish. Powerful? Powerful is no longer enough to describe it. It can be said that even the country is taboo about taking action. Do you know why? The relationship is intricate! It can only be done slowly. Clean up. Think about the details yourself. Helicopters can fly in here without any scruples. Do you think the country’s airspace defense is so weak? Helicopters can fly anywhere at will? There is one more thing, I forgot to tell you... . ." The master said, throwing out another thing.
It was a document with an order for Brother Sheng and Sister-in-law Jingyi to join this mission and be responsible for investigating something.
"This is this?" There is nothing wrong with the document, including the signature and seal.
"Don't you understand? This is true, but it can also be said to be false, because there is nothing wrong with the document itself, but the person who issued this document has an affair with this organization. The information we got is still secret. The purpose of the country sending people here this time is to prepare us against Yang Sheng, secretly control him, and then quietly and slowly clean up and collect, hoping to catch the people behind this organization. However, Yang Sheng... . "The master sighed when he said this.
"Master, can you tell me about this organization?" I asked, because I also had an obsession planted in my heart. I wanted to find Brother Sheng and ask him clearly. I wanted to understand this organization.
"No." Master refused directly.
"Why, why are you always like this, not telling me anything, not saying anything to me! Master, how long are you going to protect me?" I was angry, I hated this feeling, all this time, everything That's right.
A trace of sadness flashed in the master's eyes. After a long silence, he said: "I want to protect you and let you grow slowly."
"Master..." I choked up a little.
But the master turned around and said: "But I still let you go. Today, after you left for a while, I received the news. According to my speed, I could have arrived in time, but I didn't. There are some things that you have to experience by yourself." .”
What do you experience? Betrayal? I felt angry in my heart. I didn't know why Master didn't look at me. I stared at his back and resisted his decision with silence.
"Have you let it go?" Suddenly, the master asked.
"Let go of what?" I don't understand.
Master turned around and stared at me deeply: "Let go of the heavy emotions and be more sensible in the future."
I was silent. That betrayal was like a barbed knife that penetrated my heart. When I took it out, my flesh and blood were still hanging on it. I felt pain.
But, let it go? Many people's faces appeared in front of my eyes, dad, mom, sister, Surou... Finally, Master!
"You just want to use a betrayal to make me experience letting go?" My voice was sarcastic. This was the first time I spoke to Master like this.
Master didn't care, looked at me and said: "I don't want you to have any obsessions. Too heavy feelings are too deep bonds. If your feet are tied, you will inevitably stumble. I want you to go more smoothly in the future. Cultivation "When you cultivate your mind, you cultivate a fair and transparent heart. But a fair and transparent heart is indifferent and calm, and it cannot carry too many emotions."
Oh, discussing Tao
I lit a cigarette again, lay down heavily, lit it, took a puff, and said: "Tao is natural, and emotions are also natural. I don't want to violate it. I can't pursue such a high realm."
"Taoism is naturally not something you understand. The correct answer is that a heart will eventually merge into nature. What is nature? The sun rises and sets, the clouds roll and relax, life goes on endlessly, and the years wither and prosper. This is a heart that follows absolute rules. Run, don't interfere, just feel. This is the natural way of life." Master said in a deep voice.
"Ha..." I looked at the ceiling and exhaled a puff of smoke, and then said: "Really? As ruthless as the law! Master, have you let me go?"
silence.
Then, Master's tired voice sounded in the room: "I can't let go of many things, but I can let them go."
My heart felt sad again. Is this a cold road? Will Master let me go? To pursue the ethereal nature
That's all I thought at the time.
However, it was many years later that I realized what kind of person the Master was, what kind of nature and realm he could be, and what he could do without looking back. What he wanted, I didn’t understand until many years later.
It's a pity that time can't be turned back. In this dark little room, I looked at Master and said in a deep voice: "I'm sorry, Master! I won't let you go!"
Master stared at me for almost a minute, and then suddenly laughed, and the laughter was full of bitterness: "Haha, my apprentice. Well, there are three thousand avenues and countless small ways. Everyone has his own way. , this deep feeling may be your way. I hope that in the future, your journey will be safe, I just want peace."
Is it safe? Is Master so disappointed in me that he only wants my peace from now on
It seems that my disciple is not worthy of his pride, and he did not ask me to be his pride.
However, once many years later, I realized that pride is really not important. Peace is the best blessing that parents can give their children. Master really regarded me as his son.