It’s another winter in the north, and it’s late at night.
It was still that small border town. On such a cold night, there were no pedestrians on the road except me.
When I came out of that familiar tavern, I forgot to apologize to the boss and once again drank until late at night in a shop that others had already closed.
When I walked out of the store, I felt that I was drunk, but my heart was awake. My heart was beating in my chest with habitual pain, but I was numb to myself in this state. Every two or three days, I would always be in this state. I have been sleeping deeply for a year. If I am still not numb, I think I will have died of pain in a corner, right
I walked out of the store lonely, and the boss stopped me. I turned my head with a drunken look, and asked inarticulately: "Is...did you not give me enough money?"
"How could you? You've been here almost every day this year to take care of our business. You didn't pay me once or twice, so I treated you like my brother." The boss was very honest and upright, and he was sincere when he said this.
On this freezing night, his words were filled with warmth, which actually warmed my cold heart a little.
"Brother, what's the matter? It's okay... I... I have to go back." Snowflakes fell and fell on my shoulders. My heart, which had been warmed a little, started to ache and become cold again. I found that many times, I lost the patience to talk to people properly.
"Brother, what I mean is that it's freezing cold and it's such a big night, so you're just going to stay here for one night? It's so cold, but you'll freeze to death. There's a room on the second floor of my shop. Room..." the boss said to me.
But before he finished speaking, I interrupted him and said, "No, I have to go back so that I can feel better. Thank you." After saying that, I turned around and rode on my bike. A bicycle crookedly set out on the road.
Behind me came the discussion between the kind-hearted boss and his wife. I heard the wife of the boss blaming the boss: "It's such a dark night, it's so cold, and he's so drunk. How could you let him go alone? What if something happens? What to do?”
"I kept him, but he didn't appreciate it. Hey, this nice young man doesn't look like a bad person. How come he behaves like this every once in a while? Why does he have to get himself so drunk?"
"Then how can we know? Is there something sad?" the landlady said uncertainly.
As the distance grew, their voices became quieter and quieter, so quiet that I could no longer hear them clearly. The only thing that filtered through my mind repeatedly was three words, sad.
Yes, sad things, the love of your life or never seeing each other again, is it considered sad? I insisted on staying in this small town, staying in the house we rented before coming here. I have been living there for a year, waiting for a miracle to happen, waiting for her to appear, but I am disappointed day after day and become more and more desperate. Not a sad thing
"Either we won't see each other again, or we will see you again, it all depends on fate." Thinking of this sentence, I was in a daze, Ruxue, could you have lied to me? No one answered me, only the snowflakes were floating in the sky.
The street alone is so deserted, and the yellow lights emanating from the windows on both sides of the street are so warm. But only a few meters away, I feel that I am in a cold world, as far away from that warmth as Thousands of miles.
There were no tears, my expression was numb, but I didn’t know which house was playing TV. The sound echoed in the cold street. I had no idea what they were talking about. I just pedaled my bicycle mechanically, but gradually I became stunned.
Because I don’t know who’s TV came from, a familiar tune came from a female voice singing faintly: “In the half-cold and half-warm autumn, ironing is next to you, quietly watching the flowing light flying, in the wind... . ”
I suddenly became excited from being in a daze. I searched frantically for which window this song came from. If I heard this song on such a cold street, does it mean that my fate with Ruxue has not yet been resolved? Exhausted
My mind was in a trance, and the joy in my heart was inexplicable. I seemed to have returned many years ago to the pavilion with dancing gauze on the bank of Yueyan Lake. The snow was leaning on my shoulders, and we looked at the soup on the red clay stove in front of us. It exuded curls of green smoke, and then sang this song to me softly.
I fell into memories and finally found which window it was, but because I was in a trance and drunk, I fell off the bicycle. I didn't feel any pain, although my hands were rubbed to pieces by the cold ground...
I staggered to the window, sat against the wall, and listened quietly to the song "Flying Lights". There were already cold tears on my face, but I didn't want to move anymore, letting the snowflakes dance on my body. , let it bury me, like the embrace of snow.
In the haze, I felt that my body was getting colder and colder. It turned out that the cold snowflakes were not as warm as snow at all. Was I wrong? I closed my eyes and smiled numbly, feeling that my head was dizzy and my whole body was even more dazed.
Then just rest here? I lay down on the roadside, and I couldn't think clearly. In the darkness, in the haze, I saw Ruxue coming out of the gate. She came to see me. I saw Master looking at me with a smile. Said: "Chengyi, this girl is good, let's marry her."
I have a smile on my face, what could be happier than this? After marrying her, will I live with you from now on, and then there will be a yellow light waiting for me every night
In my confusion, I heard someone calling me: "Third brother, third brother..."
"Chengyi, Chengyi..."
There were so many sounds, but in such a happy moment, how could I be willing to open my eyes? I insisted on falling into my own world, unwilling to wake up again. I felt someone dragging me, and then I lay down in a slightly warmer place. , I heard the sound of the engine. Is someone driving? If you want to take me away from here, I don't want to... .
I wanted to struggle, but my whole body was so weak that I had no strength. After humming twice, I finally fell into a deeper and deeper drowsiness...
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I don’t know how long I slept. I just felt very hot, my head hurt, and I was very dizzy. I was very thirsty and felt uncomfortable, so I started to struggle. During the struggle, I realized that my eyes were closed. Yes, where am I? I opened my eyes suddenly.
The first thing that caught my eye was a familiar face. Are the facial features that are so engraved in my heart like snow? No, it's not her, it's Ruyue. They look very similar, but they can still be distinguished at a glance.
My eyes changed from surprise to dullness. When I looked up, I still saw the familiar ceiling. I knew that I was still in this familiar rental house in this northern border town. That was enough. You have to wait here like snow!
I'm not at all curious why Kisaragi is here.
"Third brother, are you awake?" Seeing me opening my eyes, Ruyue asked. She held a towel in her hand and put it on my forehead as she asked.
Do I have a fever? Thinking of this, I suddenly laughed, what's wrong with me? My master has given me such a good physical foundation since I was a child, but I actually get a fever
Thinking like this, I nodded towards Ruyue, and then shouted: "Drink water..." As soon as I said it, I was shocked. Why did my voice become so hoarse, and I felt like I couldn't speak. .
Unexpectedly, a person helped me up, and then handed the water to my mouth. I took a look, it was Qinhuai!
"Chengyi, why are you like this? Come on, Ruyue and I owe you what you deserve. Why do you have to come all the way to take care of an uncle like you? Can you cheer up?" Qinhuai's voice spoke to me. rang in my ears, but I pretended not to hear it. I drank the warm water in the cup gurglingly, and the water slid down my throat. I felt that my throat was much better, but I still didn't want to talk, so I lay down on the bed again.
"Come on, don't lie down, you need to drink medicine soon." Another voice broke in. When I heard it, I knew it was Brother Chengxin coming.
He still looked clean and walked in with a bowl of medicinal soup that was exuding a bitter taste.
My heart suddenly tightened. Is it time
I remembered the scene when we parted here that day. Brother Chengxin persuaded me: "Let's go, Chengyi, come back with me. You have to see your parents, don't you?"
"No, I feel uncomfortable now. I can't go anywhere. I can only stay here, be closer to her, and feel more comfortable!"
"You want to stay here and wait for Ruxue, right? Do you think she will come here to find you again, right?"
"..."
In the end, Brother Chengxin had no choice but to say to me: "Then you stay here. We will raise money outside and do some related things. I will come find you when the day comes that we can sail."
"Okay, my passbook is in the second drawer of the wardrobe in the house. The password is xxx. I treat it as the money I collected."
The past events are still fresh in my mind. Now that Brother Chengxin is here, are we about to set sail? The time has finally come, am I leaving here