Speaking of my identity, this is really a headache, and it is also something that makes me quite unhappy but also helpless.
With this thought in mind, I lit up a second cigarette. The young man who was making medicine for me in the room stuck his head out and glanced at me. He coughed, as if to remind me that I had smoked too much. I could only look at him apologetically. She glanced at him, frowned while holding a cigarette in her mouth and continued to think about her thoughts.
"You can no longer be Chen Chengyi. To be precise, Chen Chengyi in the circle is dead and has disappeared." These were the exact words the female doctor said to me.
"The disappearance of Chen Chengyi in the circle is not important to me at all, just like the circle does not mean much to me! What I care about is my social identity. I am the person in the eyes of my parents, relatives and friends. Chen Chengyi, are you going to declare me dead to them? If nothing else, how can my parents bear it?" This was my response at the time.
I didn't mention my credit or what I did wrong to deserve such treatment, because it was almost a very childish question. If he could tell me, Jiang Yi would not make such a choice. , at least in my opinion, they took desperate measures to save me.
"The organizational work on your parents' side has been done and you have been identified as a missing person. However, we tactfully told your parents through Hu Xueman, who is relatively familiar with your parents, that you are actually performing a secret mission. Call your parents Wanwan Don't expose it. I think having you as their son should be within their acceptance range, right?" The female doctor answered me like this, and then said: "As for your friends, they naturally have their own channels, go You know some truth, don’t you?”
I took a long breath. If this was the case, my parents would indeed accept it, but... thinking of this, I couldn't help but have a sarcastic smile on my face: "Is this also a benefit for meritorious people? Forget it. Help me once?"
When I said this, the female doctor sighed, put on the glasses that she had been playing with, and then looked at me seriously and said: "I am a doctor, but I never treat ordinary people. , do you know why? Because I am a doctor in the circle, destined to be integrated into the lives of ordinary people, but isolated from them. On the surface, the department is a department of the country, but in fact it is independent from the country. do you understand me?"
"Hmm, I don't quite understand." I told the truth.
"That is to say, it is more like two cooperating agencies. The department will never interfere in national affairs, but it will not do anything detrimental to the country. It only needs to solve certain things that are beyond the normal scope in the land of China. It is a matter that falls under the responsibility of the department. To put it simply, such an institution has always existed in China for thousands of years, but it is independent of the political power. In return, in addition to providing some conveniences to the department, the state I will not interfere in any affairs of the department or interfere with any infighting among the forces here. You can understand that this is a matter belonging to two worlds. I say this, do you understand?" The female doctor tried to be as simple as possible. I said.
"You mean, just like the Jianghu people in ancient times, the Jianghu is the Jianghu's business and has nothing to do with the court?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.
"That's probably what it means, but it's actually more complicated, right? After all, society is progressing, and they also have their own departments for some mysterious events, but they are fundamentally different from our department led by Jiang Yi. And for this kind of department, you It can be understood that there are forces in every corner of the world, and the forces are complicated, so the things you get into are matters in the circle. To put it simply, if the big forces in the circle want to punish you, the country cannot get involved! Therefore, your contribution is actually There is no need to point it out, but the department has made great efforts to protect you and even your friends. Is this also called ignoring your contribution?" After saying this, the female voice smiled at me with a helpless expression. .
But she never said clearly from beginning to end that Jiang Yi's behavior was to protect me, nor did she say why she did it? Just like my friends can leave unscathed, why do I have to exist as a dead person
"Okay, you said it so lightly, but can I, Master Li, hold the official title of a country?" I suddenly thought of a question.
"That was your Uncle Li's personal behavior. Even if he participated in some affairs of the country, it has nothing to do with the department. I understand what you mean. What you want to say is that if you leave the circle and become a member of the country, is it a member of the circle? The forces will have nothing to do with you, and the country will protect you? You are wrong. Unless you have never participated in the circle in the first place, and then it is not Shanzimai, the country can legitimately protect you, but you have already participated, and ... In short, it's too late to say anything now." When the female doctor said this, her expression was a little regretful, and she was hesitant to speak.
But I am convinced that there is something important that she has not said. Her identity is definitely not the little doctor in the industry as she said. Although I don’t know when I participated in the industry, what did I do to force Jiang Yi to let me 'I have to die', but I didn't ask. Judging from her attitude, she wouldn't say it, so why should I bother myself with nonsense.
Thinking of this, I sneered and said: "Then what? I will live my whole life with the reputation of a dead person or a missing person? Do you think it is realistic? Is it possible? Or do you think I will be obedient and willing to be a Living dead?"
"Does it matter what I think? The important thing is that since I have saved you, I have given you a chance to get out of this predicament. Specifically, you can only rely on yourselves." The female doctor sighed.
"On our own, okay, if you think you are not telling a joke! Let us juniors without the protection of our elders fight against a force that Jiang Yi has to compromise with? Do you also think it's funny?" Me He was too lazy to get angry, and his mouth was full of sneers.
"You don't have to belittle yourself. A single spark can start a prairie fire, and a small person can do great things, right? At least the big problem in Lake of Ten Thousand Ghosts was solved by you, right? To be honest, in Lake of Ten Thousand Ghosts, Even if the department can take action, it will not be easy to solve. It is immeasurable how many people will be lost. In fact, its existence has indeed caused many people in the circle to enter and never come out. But you solved it, right? ?” the female doctor said to me.
"Yes, these big things that harm the country and the people are solved by little people like us! And then they bully little people like us, and it is the big people in the circle who take action. What kind of bullshit circle is this? Bah!" I cursed angrily.
"I can't argue, but things are far from as simple as you see. When you are a small person, you really have to do things as you please. When you reach a certain position, you have to consider the overall situation. What I can say There's only so much left, Chen Chengyi, I wish you good luck." The female doctor said to me.
"Wish me some bullshit luck? You want me to break the situation on my own and you don't even tell me what to do?" I yelled.
But she was packing her luggage, as if she was talking to me, or to herself: "On the surface, this is the last time to help others, but secretly, who knows? In short, I am alone. The power of human beings is very small. If it were me, I would seek a lot of help, or at least meet up with reliable friends first. At least they can still move, and they must know more than me."
As she spoke, she simply packed her luggage and left.
"It's easy to say, but who knows where they are now?" I shouted loudly towards her back.
"If I were you, I would really be well this month and recuperate with peace of mind. A single spark can start a prairie fire, and it cannot be done by a small fire particle that wants to be extinguished. At least be a strong flame, right? Be patient, be at ease, and the boat will straighten out when it reaches the bridge, right?" These were the last words the female doctor left to me.
Be patient, be at ease, and the boat will go straight to the bridge... The memory stopped abruptly here, and the cigarette in my hand once again burned to the end.
Maybe, she was right? In this precious, peaceful month, I should take good care of myself. At least I know that my friends are fine. From her reminder, I can still walk in the world with peace of mind. Then I should also have peace of mind. At least I will be well. Recuperation is also a comfort to them. You can't just appear in front of them like this, right
"Brother Cheng, let's drink some soup." Just when I was lost in thought, the young man brought up a bowl of medicinal soup and handed it to me. The best medicinal herbs and ingredients made the soup look very luxurious. .
I took a sip and thought that a young master like Xiao Chengqian shouldn't drink it often. After all, there are some things in this that even the richest people can't buy. I'd better hurry up and recover, right
While I was drinking medicine, a tall figure came to the yard, carrying a medium-sized cloth bag. I looked up and saw that it was Uncle Zheng. He was here again. Taking advantage of his recovery, he felt better. Some, it’s time for me to have a good chat with Uncle Zheng.
At the very least, I should ask why he was there at that time