Qiao Shao suppressed the surging of his chest and ate the crabs on the table.
After just one bite, he couldn't hold back his nausea and went to the bathroom to retching.
In fact, there is nothing to vomit. I haven't eaten for two days and my stomach is empty.
He wanted to wash his face, but saw the person in the mirror.
—Skinny, pale as paper, like crawling out of a grave.
Qiao Shao lowered his head abruptly, turned the faucet, and flushed his face.
Leng level regained his heartbeat, and when he looked in the mirror again, he was back to normal.
He was still thin or pale, but not the skinny skinny nor the bloodless dead face.
He's back, he's back!
Qiao Shao's hand wiping his face with the towel kept shaking.
At 10:40 in the evening, Qiao Zongmin returned home.
As soon as Aunt Wu saw him, she said worriedly: "Sir, Shaoshao didn't eat anything for dinner."
Qiao Zongmin was taken aback.
Aunt Wu was worried all night: "As soon as he came back, I saw that his face was not right."
Qiao Zongmin took off his jacket and said, "I'll go see him."
Aunt Wu didn't say much, so she could only take his coat and help him hang it in the cloakroom.
Qiao Zongmin knew, Zhang Guanting reminded him that the final exam would definitely be a hurdle for Qiao Shao.
Especially when Qiao Shao has just improved a little and his self-confidence has increased, if he is hit again, it is very likely that he will return to the original state.
Although he was mentally prepared, he was still afraid when he thought that his son, who was becoming more and more normal, would not eat or sleep again.
"Shao Shao?" Qiao Zongmin knocked on the door, "Are you asleep?"
Qiao Shao couldn't sleep, he hid the wooden sign under the pillow, got up and opened the door: "I'm falling asleep." He pretended to yawn.
Qiao Zongmin pondered for a while, and didn't dare to ask him about dinner: "Are we going to have a holiday?" He didn't even dare to mention the exam.
Qiao Shao said, "I'll take the summer vacation when I get my grades."
Qiao Zongmin asked, "Then... when will we go back to school?"
Qiao Shao paused and said, "Four days later." That's when the results came out.
Qiao Zongmin thought about it for a long time, and thought of a topic that would make Qiao Shao happy: "Aren't you going out with your classmates these days?"
Qiao Shao stabbed in the heart, and was stabbed firmly by his father.
He casually gave a reason: "I still have to participate in the math club competition, and I will be reviewing at home these few days."
When Qiao Zongmin heard him say this, he immediately responded, "Alright! Then Dad won't bother you anymore."
Qiao Shao nodded and said good night to him.
After closing the door, Qiao Shao slipped and sat on the floor...
Before the exam, He Shen said, "When you wait for the league, come to my house to do the quiz."
Qiao Shao agreed.
But now...
He buried his head in his knees and sat against the door all night.
He thought that he had gotten better, that he was not a "mentally ill", that he could live like a normal person.
But in fact, he can't.
As soon as he entered the examination room, his true form was revealed.
The last-to-last result was a shame, but the most unacceptable thing for him was that he had not changed.
Qiao Shao really thought he had changed.
He thought of his mother, his scattered memories, and even the house under the incandescent light...
But it didn't work.
He still didn't dare to go up to the third floor, he still couldn't remember the events of that year, and he still didn't know who the person who kidnapped him was.
He is still the waste in a hard shell, numbing himself and dragging all those who love him to suffer.
How to recover.
How to get out.
How to live as a person.
Qiao Shao clenched his knees tightly, and his nails left deep marks on his calf through his pajamas.
In this way, what qualifications does he have to confess to He Shen.
Such a good He Shen, how could he have the face to disturb his life.
Qiao Shao didn't sleep all night, and He Shen also sat in the rental room all night.
The phone couldn't get through, and no one responded to WeChat, so Qiao Shao ignored him completely.
He Shen leaned on the sofa, staring straight ahead without blinking.
There is no TV in the rented house, there is a poor quality painting, and there are dozens of prints on the stall, so poor that it has no value for appreciation.
But He Shen was like staring at a famous painting in the world, seeing every detail of it clearly and remembering it clearly.
He needs this distraction, he needs to memorize something worthless to stop his mind from remembering.
Good memory, is it really a good thing
Do not…
It is absolutely painful when all the memories can be played back as accurately as a movie.
Remember the good things, and remember the bad things.
A person who can't forget, eventually everything turns bad.
Just like now, Qiao Shao ignores him.
The little things they got along with each other became painful memories.
And he will never forget it.
After losing his mother five years ago, He Shen thought that he would never like anyone.
Whether friends or lovers, he no longer needs important people in his life.
Because losing is too painful, especially cruel to a person who cannot be forgotten.
But he met Qiao Shao...
A child who looks very much like the self five years ago, but is even weaker than the self at that time.
He Shen had unknowingly protected him by his side, but he couldn't protect him for a lifetime.
Qiao Shao noticed his feelings and began to alienate him. What about the future
He Shen took a deep breath and tried his best to look at the cheap computer-printed painting.
- Be friends.
He can be friends with Qiao Shao.
As long as Qiao Shao is always there, he can still look at him, that's fine.
He will never disturb his life.
If Qiao Shao is really annoying him, he will change seats when the next semester starts.
He Shen closed his eyes, and two words echoed in his heart—
There is only one Qiao Shao in this life.
I will never like anyone again.
The next day Qiao Shao logged into QQ with his mobile phone and saw the message left by the president of the Math Club: "Brother Larry, how are you preparing? Don't forget the league tomorrow! It's better to answer the questions online and participate on time. "
Qiao Shao replied to him: "Well, I won't miss it."
The top pillar happened to be online, and immediately replied to him: "Actually, you don't need to prepare too much. You can play normally. This time, the two brothers will join forces to turn the gang of turtles and grandsons over!"
Qiao Shao was not in the mood to chat, so he wanted to go offline after a perfunctory sentence. Who knew that the pillar of support came again: "In other words, I think we have a chance to win the first place in this final exam."
Qiao Shao was stunned for a moment, and asked intently, "How is that possible?"
The top pillar said mysteriously: "You are also in the first examination room, didn't you see it?"
Qiao Shao was in the first exam room of the shit. He typed quickly: "I didn't see it, He Shen..." After typing, he realized that the name was not good.
The top pillar sighed and said, "Who knows, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, and they have handed in a blank paper for studying God's language and writing."
Qiao Shao's heart jumped.
Ding Liangzhu said: "This time the topic is too simple, even elementary school students can do it, but to be honest, it's pretty fucked up. When I wrote it, I remembered that my mother would cook for me at five in the morning and at eleven in the evening. Accompany me to do my homework, I almost cried myself writing... "
He babbled a lot, but he didn't know that there was no one on QQ.
Qiao Shao casually changed his clothes and went out. He couldn't wait to stop a taxi and asked the driver, Uncle Chen, to take him to school.
He wants to see He Shen, and he wants to see him right now!
How could he be so selfish.
When He Shen came to him after the Chinese test, why did he drive him away like that
Faced with such a problem... He is in pain, isn't He Shen not in pain
On the edge of the basketball court, Qiao Shao will never forget He Shen's lost voice when he talks about his mother.
What has he done!
Just caring about self-pity, never thought about He Shen at all!
Miraculously, when Qiao Shao was all worried about He Shen, the shadow that had always shrouded his heart gradually tended to dissipate.
Being cared for is important.
Caring for others is also a form of self-salvation.
When Qiao Shao got out of the car, the words He Shen said to him echoed in his mind—
We are not only parents, as long as we keep going, we will meet many good people.
Like you.
Like you.
These three words gave Qiao Shao great courage.
He wants to tell He Shen, he wants to tell him all!
Because He Shen regards him as a very good person he met after losing his mother!
Climbing all the way up to the third floor, Qiao Shao was so nervous after ringing the doorbell.
The door opened, and He Shen was stunned when he saw him.
Qiao Shaosheng was afraid that his courage would disappear, so he opened his mouth and said, "I want to talk to you!"
He Shen's pupils shrank, and his voice was a little hoarse: "Come in and talk."
Qiao Shao didn't dare to go in, he lowered his head and stood up straight: "No need!"
He Shen was suffocated, knowing what he was going to say.
He made mental preparations all night, but he didn't expect to face it at dawn.
It's okay, if he said it earlier, he would put away all the thoughts he shouldn't have.
They spoke at the same time and said two very different words.
Qiao Shao: "I'm sorry He Shen, I like you!"
He Shen: "I will restrain myself and won't like you anymore."