When ordinary friends eat together and practice the AA system, it means neither owes anyone anything and it promotes emotional exchange; when boyfriends and girlfriends eat together and practice the AA system, it means neither takes advantage of each other and it promotes coordination and unity; when a husband and wife eat together and still practice the AA system, it means deliberate alienation and a situation in name only.
Chen Kexin didn't understand why she suddenly had such an idea, but she knew very well that her self-esteem was severely hurt by what happened tonight. Although she had always been self-aware, she always knew that she was stupid, lazy, always willful, and not a qualified wife, but she never expected that one day she would be nakedly described as a loser, as if she really cried and begged others to marry her.
Recalling the time she met Wang Weixi online, the time they met in person, and the things that happened later, she knew why she wanted to marry Wang Weixi so much, and she had never been ashamed of it. At that time... ... it was just because she no longer wanted to pretend in front of her father, it was just because she met Wang Weixi at that time, and she just felt that he was really good and gentle, and she just found that she actually fell in love with this man. But... ... is this wrong
Is it... ... Is it that, in the eyes of all men, I am a slut? She didn't know, she only knew that tears blurred her vision, time and time again.
She lowered her head. Rather than not wanting to look at the flustered Wang Weixi beside her, she didn't dare to look at him, fearing his mocking expression. Or maybe, every time he said he loved her, was there a hint of mockery in his expression
Thinking of this, she found it ridiculous again. She was the one who was going to get married, but he was still spoiling her without restraint. People like her deserved to be looked down upon by others... But everything was because she loved him and wanted to be with him as soon as possible. So she gave up her dignity and principles and asked him to marry her because she felt that he loved her, too, because... because she clearly saw happiness in his eyes.
Is this all just my own illusion? Did my coming into your life make you miserable
Wang Weixi sat there, lowering his head like a child who had made a mistake. If he was gentle at ordinary times, his gentleness was a weapon of destruction, but at this moment, even his gentleness seemed hypocritical. He did say that, without considering her inner feelings, and only cared about satisfying his own chauvinism.
I have hurt her so much at this moment. What else can I do or how can I comfort her to ensure that she won't be sad
... ...
The silence of the two people in the room formed a sharp contrast with the confrontation between Chen Keren and the other person on the top floor.
There was no one on the top floor because it was a bit cold at the moment, except Chen Keren and Yi Duanfang who had just come up.
The cold moonlight sprinkled down, illuminating the equally cold faces of the two people at this moment, but compared with Chen Keren, there was a hint of guilt in Yi Duanfang's expression, but he just didn't want Chen Keren to see it.
The distance between Chen Keren and him was only one meter, but it was this distance that made her feel as if they were separated by the ends of the earth. The throbbing she felt at that time had disappeared, replaced by a raging fire in her heart.
"Yi Duanfang, now your wish has finally come true. How about it? Do you feel comfortable seeing the two of them like that?" Chen Keren said bluntly.
Yi Duanfang moved his mouth, and after a while he said, "Aren't you the same?"
"What? Are you blaming me now?" Chen Keren asked with a frown.
Yi Duanfang snorted and said, "Don't play dumb, Miss Chen Keren. Don't think I don't know. You've been upset with Wei Xi for a long time, haven't you? Now you finally got the chance. Regardless of whether Wei Xi was wrong or not, you're going to put all the blame on him.
Just keep blaming him, making them both embarrassed, and then slowly breaking up their relationship, and finally getting divorced, and then you can find a satisfactory brother-in-law for your sister Chen Kexin, right?" After saying this, Yi Duanfang rolled his eyes at her with disdain.
Chen Keren felt her anger rising. She tried to stay calm and sneered, "Really? Then how good are you?"
Yi Duanfang remembered what he had just said without thinking and was suddenly speechless.
"Yi Duanfang, I'm not that stupid. I'm not going to hurt my sister to make her break up with the person she loves. Wang Weixi was wrong in the first place. Doesn't he know that my sister is lazy? Doesn't he know that my sister can't take care of herself? Since he knew everything, why didn't he tell me that he was going on a business trip? Why didn't he let my sister come to my place? Why didn't he let my sister go to Chen Derong's house?"
As she spoke, she approached Yi Duanfang. Yi Duanfang was frightened by her aura. Because he already felt guilty, he could only step back and could not utter a word.
"Speak up? Aren't you very good at speaking? Aren't you very good at speaking? Why are you mute now? Huh?!" Chen Keren yelled angrily.
Yi Duanfang stamped his feet and gritted his teeth and said, "I know I just said something that didn't go through my head. I feel bad, but I don't have the mood to talk to you about this! You guys just dote on Kexin too much, and I feel bad for Weixi. In the end, it was just a quarrel between the two of us, and it ended up ruining their plans..." At this point, he showed a guilty expression and said, "I regret it now... I don't have the mood to argue with you?"
After hearing this, Chen Keren finally fell silent. After a long while, she said apologetically, "Yes, this matter was caused by the two of us, so we must try our best to make up for it. Do you understand?"
After hearing this, Yi Duanfang showed an even more depressed expression: "How can I make up for such a big mistake?"
Chen Keren thought about it, raised his eyebrows and said, "Let's see how they do. Anyway, we both have to admit our mistakes."
Yi Duanfang was a little surprised and said, "What? Admit your mistake? Oh my lady, did I hear you right? You said you wanted to admit your mistake? When did you admit your mistake? Tell me, let me be surprised."
Chen Keren said angrily: "What do you mean?"
... ...
In the ward, blue roses still emit a faint fragrance that is refreshing.
"In the future... I won't eat and drink for free." Finally, Chen Kexin wiped her tears and said lightly.
Wang Weixi looked up at Chen Kexin, whose face was already ugly. Guilt hit his heart little by little, and it was so heavy that he couldn't breathe. He gently took Chen Kexin's hand, kissed her hand, and said apologetically: "Wife, I'm sorry, you can scold me, please don't say that, okay? I said so many hurtful words to you, I'm really sorry... I just... just..."
Chen Kexin looked at him and interrupted him calmly, "Don't say sorry, I am indeed trash. I'm sorry, am I a burden to you? It's all my fault. I think... I am not qualified to be a wife yet."
Hearing this, Wang Weixi's body trembled. He raised his head and said in surprise: "Wife, what did you say?"
Chen Kexin felt as if her tears were about to flow out again. She quickly turned her face away and said calmly, "I said, I am not qualified to be a wife."
Wang Weixi held her hand tightly, shook his head in panic and said, "Honey, don't say that, I don't allow you to say that. You know I didn't mean to hurt you. I was wrong. Please don't say these words to scare me, okay? As long as you are by my side, I am already very happy, really... I have never thought of asking you to do anything... Really..."
Chen Kexin didn't react at all, she just turned her face away and didn't look at him.
"Wife..." Wang Weixi didn't know what to do.
After a moment's silence, Chen Kexin turned around and a faint smile appeared on her pale face. The smile that once looked so warm and lovely now seemed indescribably heartbreaking.
"From now on, you don't need to prepare meals for me, wash clothes for me, or clean the house. You just need to go to work. If you do, I will pay you, and I will never owe you anything." As she said this, Chen Kexin's heart seemed to be torn apart. Everyone thought she was petite and cute, but they didn't know that her way of protecting herself was usually so resolute.
Even though she knew that her words would make their relationship even more tense, she still said them. Whether it was to comfort herself or out of anger, she had already said it and would not take it back. Because... ... she couldn't take it back.
Wang Weixi was stunned at first, but after he reacted, he said angrily: "Wife, what are you saying? Aren't we husband and wife? How can you do this? If you do this, who am I to you? An hourly worker? I hurt you so much, I know I was wrong, but you can't... can't..."
Chen Kexin just listened indifferently. Her willfulness was sometimes so puzzling.
Chen Keren and Yi Duanfang stood there outside the door in a daze. Every word Chen Kexin said struck their hearts, leaving them at a loss.
"Wife, you said that no matter what happens to us or why we quarrel, we must follow the three major rules, right? We said that we are not allowed to say harsh words, we are not allowed to get angry at each other, we must admit our mistakes, we must not forgive each other, and no matter what happens, we must not hurt each other."
After Chen Kexin heard this, that tender night came to her mind. She shook her head, tears welling up again. She trembled and said, "I didn't mean to hurt you, and I didn't mean anything else. I just can't forgive myself. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please do as I wish, okay? I really don't want to owe you..."
Wang Weixi shook his head and said firmly: "No, absolutely not. I don't want it. Are we still husband and wife like this?"
"Then let's go AA. That's the decision!" Chen Kexin's tone suddenly became firm, as if she didn't allow Wang Weixi to say anything else.
Wang Weixi pulled her hand painfully, shouting: "Wife..."
"I'm tired and need to rest. You also have to go to work tomorrow, so go back and rest. It's good for Keren to accompany me." Chen Kexin didn't know where this tough attitude came from. She pulled her hand out of Wang Weixi's hand, turned around, and lay down.
Wang Weixi stared blankly at Chen Kexin, who had her back to him, for a long time. He stood up helplessly and said weakly, "I know. You should have a good rest."
After he finished speaking, he picked up his luggage and left listlessly. Before turning around, he glanced at Chen Kexin who was lying there. He only knew that tears were sliding down his eyes and dripping into his mouth. His dry lips suddenly felt a little painful.
At the door, he saw Chen Keren and Yi Duanfang looking at him with extreme guilt. Without waiting for them to say anything, he turned around and left dejectedly.
Yi Duanfang and Chen Keren looked at each other and ran to catch up.
Chen Keren stood there for a long time, looking at the backs of the two people leaving.
When she opened the door and heard Chen Kexin sobbing, she didn't know what else to say except "I'm sorry."
"Go to bed early, you also have to go to work tomorrow." Chen Kexin just said this and didn't say anything else.
Chen Keren nodded and finally stopped talking.