He looked back, and saw a huge scarlet flame slowly erupting, blooming like a flower!
The oncoming heat wave then became more intense, and many enemies collapsed and disappeared just by being affected.
Seeing this spectacular scene, Seiji knew how the huge crater came about.
He further strengthened the barrier to maintain the defense, and ran away without looking back.
Although the desired information was not obtained, the key information was also obtained.
Xuyan is unexpectedly a good talker, leaving aside the attribute of the second class, his attitude can be called friendly, at least he gives Seiji a much better impression than Kamiya.
If possible, Seiji would like to talk with him longer, but unfortunately there is no room.
Of course, a friendly attitude does not mean that he is a good person. With only a short meeting and conversation, the understanding is very limited, and it is impossible to trust a messenger cadre like this.
But in any case, the phone number and ciphertext obtained are tentatively considered a solution.
In addition to those words... Seiji didn't know how much Xuyan had seen through him, but even if the other party was just bluffing, the touch was real.
Seiji's true words are not to protect humans and the world, but to restrain himself to protect himself.
However, such a disaster has already happened, do we really need to maintain this constraint
After destroying the chasing enemies and entering the invisible state, Seiji did not immediately return to the spirit house, but stood on the roof of a certain building, facing the fog and the huge cherry blossom spirit tree, lost in thought.
He is actually very strong... To be precise, he is actually very strong with the g system.
As long as he let go of the restraint, that is, if he "liberates his strength" as Xu Yan said, he will definitely be much stronger than his current state.
No, it should be said that Seiji himself doesn't know how much he can achieve if he really puts aside his scruples and uses the system with all his strength!
And that's the problem.
He is too powerful, the power he possesses is so strong that he is afraid of himself, breaking the seal may destroy the world... It seems that the second and second lines of this kind can be applied to him.
Perhaps this is still arrogance, just superficial self-righteousness and excessive arrogance, but until it is proven, it does have this possibility.
Seiji himself was the one who was most afraid of this possibility, because once he let go of his scruples...it would be hard for him to tell if he was still himself at that time.
But if you still keep the restraint, can such a disaster and the lives of so many people really be ignored
All kinds of scenes seen along the way came to Seiji's mind... The great misfortune and misery were presented directly in front of his eyes, and they were by no means to be taken lightly.
This is not a movie or a game, but a real tragedy!
Even if strangers can ignore it, what about the partners
Even if the lives of the companions are saved, their relatives and friends will be harmed.
In this case, should we protect even the people we are related to, or should we just give up
It seems more reasonable to expand the scope of protection a little bit, but as long as this opening is opened and the scope is gradually expanded with the development of the situation, in terms of the result, it will still embark on the so-called "salvation" road.
That being the case, why not let go of the restraint now and do what you can to protect everything, wouldn't it be more straightforward
The only obstacle is his own thoughts... or, in other words, "fear".
In the final analysis, this fear is just a prediction, a pessimistic imagination, maybe things will not develop like that at all. But the victimization of the world, the sacrifice of a large number of lives, is already a real reality that has happened before our eyes!
Compared with a large number of worldly lives, one's own weak psychology is more important, which is obvious.
Seiji wanted to make up his mind.
But there is still a small part of my heart that is resisting.
Unreasonable, willful, emotional, like a child throwing a tantrum, struggling to resist.
That won't work!
You're just an ordinary person with a little special power!
Don't be so self righteous and don't fall into the trap of arrogance!
You can't be a hero to save the world! No one can, no one can! !
Shut up... Seiji wanted to shout out, but remained silent after all.
He felt tired, and it was not good to stand still like this, so he opened the door of the spirit room and walked in.
Seeing Seiji come back, everyone looked at him and breathed a sigh of relief seeing that he was fine.
After responding to Xia Ye and the others' concerns, Seiji sat down at the table and took off his helmet.
"I found Xu Yan and talked to him..."
"It's a pity that we didn't get any information, because the God of Misfortune saw us and sent many spirit monsters to besiege us."
"It took me a while to get away, but he didn't know what to do."
Then there is silence.
"Qingji... are you really alright?" Xia Ye looked at his face and felt that he was not energetic.
"It's really okay..."
"But your expression doesn't look like this." Qianqiu said, "What did that Xuyan tell you?"
Seiji didn't look like he was injured, it could only be the result of meeting and talking with the messenger organization cadre.
Faced with this question, Seiji remained silent.
Seeing him like this, everyone became worried.
"Seiji... If you can, please speak up." Meijia also said, "Although we may not be able to help you, it might be better to speak up."
Kagurashi and the others didn't speak, but they all conveyed concern through their eyes.
Sensing this, Seiji's eyes flickered.
He put his hands on the table, crossed them, and stood in front of his face, covering half of his expression in this classic pose.
"Xu Yan told me that he saw through me."
"I don't know how much he so-called saw through, but his words really touched me."
"And the root cause of my touch lies in this disaster, and in you..."
As he spoke, he glanced at everyone.
"Everyone... In fact, I hide my power."
"A very powerful, unbelievably strong force."
"Because it is too strong, I dare not use it casually. I just hide it cautiously as a hole card."
"However, this approach now appears to be wrong."
"If I had used it more actively and done something more proactively, maybe this incident would not have happened."
"Even if it had to happen, maybe it wouldn't be so bad."
"In short, if I don't care about this power so much, but use it well, many people will be saved, or they won't be harmed at all..."
"If a disaster like this happens today, even if the god of evil can be finally eliminated to solve the situation, hundreds of thousands of people will die! Maybe... no, it is very likely that there are people you know, or even your relatives."
"And I can undo that."
"I can do better."
"I should have done better."
"As long as I let go of my fear and loosen the unnecessary shackles, I can... be strong, strong enough to protect many, many people!"
Seiji clenched his hands tightly.
"But... Knowing this, clearly thinking about what is right, I still... feel scared."
"I'm afraid I'm not going to be who I am now."
"Although it sounds a bit secondary, and even I think it doesn't make sense, but I am really afraid, afraid of my own imagination-pessimistic, negative, and illusory imagination."
"Just because of this imagining, I'm holding back and hesitant to save people... It's really useless, it sucks."
Speaking of this, Seiji smiled, and he didn't even know what was in that laugh.
"Guys, tell me..."
"what do I do?"
(end of this chapter)