"Thank you." Seiji was touched by his step-sister's kindness.
He can't do it by putting himself first and completely ignoring others, but he is very grateful to Xiaoshi for telling him that.
"I also think keeping myself is the most important thing." Zhijiu said, "If changing means that it is no longer what it is now, it may indeed be better not to change."
The tone of the blond otaku was serious and dignified, without any secondary meaning.
His father, brother, and everyone in the Jumon group were in crisis, but even so, he still thought calmly, and didn't rashly hope that Seiji would unleash his power to save people.
He has seen with his own eyes the instances where he and his sister had to enter the abyss of Naraku to rescue their idiot brother.
At that time, it was only with Seiji's help that the problem was solved, but if Seiji had a problem now, how would he solve it
"I... don't quite agree." Zi Ji said slowly, "Does liberating power really need to be so fearful? Seiji himself said that this is just imagination, a pessimistic and negative imagination. As bad as imagined, even if you are eroded by strength, you should be able to overcome it with will."
Like Tomohisa, this is also a speech based on her own experience.
She used to rely on her own will to get rid of the control of alien fate, and now she is also in the competition between self and awakening ability, thinking that this is a trial, fear and escape are useless, only to face it bravely.
Seiji's situation can be regarded as a super-magnified version of her own situation. Although the level of power involved may be much different, the reason is the same. Escape seems to be a choice, but it may actually be a dead end.
"But if it really changes, then it's a complete loss." Feng Wu said, "Seiji must have a deep reason for being so worried. The incomparably powerful power may come with a very heavy price."
She, who experienced the idiot brother incident with Tomohisa, has a similar view to Tomohisa.
"I also think..." Xingxiu said weakly, "Although I really want senior to save my relatives, if it's in exchange for senior's change, then it's better not to do so."
People change. His personal experience gave him a deep understanding of this sentence.
There are good and bad changes in people, good changes are of course good, and bad changes may be worse than anything else.
The senior turned into a person with a bad temper... Just thinking about this kind of thing for a while, Xingxiu felt a huge horror, and didn't dare to think about it.
"So to put it bluntly, it's like gambling." Kazumi pushed his glasses, "If Seiji's personality doesn't change after he releases his power, then it's gratifying. But if his personality changes drastically and he turns into a vicious existence, Let alone saving people, it will also endanger others, and the first victims are likely to be us.”
The scene was quiet for a while.
"In the final analysis, we can only let Seiji decide for himself." Dai said softly, "We hope Seiji can maintain himself, and we also hope that others can be saved. It's best to do both... and if you can only choose one side, Which side to choose, can only depend on Seiji himself."
She also wanted to apologize to Seiji like Mika, for not being able to help him, and for burdening him too much.
It's sad that he helped everyone and no one could help him.
"I think so too." Kaori said.
She had once fallen, hurt her sister, and relied on the help of her sister and Seiji to return to normal. She felt that she had no right to say anything, and she could only trust him.
Miki, who was listening quietly, understood the situation to some extent, but she didn't intend to say anything, she just hugged the dozing Reo, and looked at Seiji gently.
Also quiet were Eagle and Lorna, the former crossed his arms, the latter blinked.
Qianqiu stared at Seiji's face, opened his mouth, wanted to speak but didn't say it, just showing a look of complete trust.
She felt that there was nothing left to say.
Xia Ye also thought so, and she smiled at Seiji, embodying her feelings in it.
Seiji looked at everyone slowly, felt their gazes, and closed his eyes.
As a result, the most old-fashioned answer can still be obtained-it is best to do both!
People need to be saved, but they cannot lose themselves.
In the final analysis, I am too fragile.
Because he is deeply aware that he is an ordinary person in essence, he has no self-confidence... In addition to using powerful power at will, he can also maintain the self-confidence of his normal self, so that he asks his partners for help.
Mei is right, this is acting like a baby.
The problem lies in oneself, the choice lies in oneself, and one must bear it.
Thinking, worrying, struggling... In the end, Seiji made the decision: Take it easy.
He will use his strength more actively, but instead of taking a step, he will walk slowly.
Subtly, cautiously, move forward little by little.
Since he had to move forward and was concerned about the future, he had no choice but to do so.
Undoubtedly, this approach is not straightforward, quite ugly, similar to a child who is afraid of walking at night, but for him, this is already the best way to get the best of both worlds.
So what if I'm not straightforward, so what if I look ugly, who makes me essentially an ordinary nerd, not a big shot. Seiji thought to himself mockingly.
He has limits, he clearly recognizes. It is too difficult for such a self to control the seemingly limitless power.
However, no matter what, he could only move forward with a burden on his back.
No matter how slow it is.
No matter how many times I have to think and worry and struggle.
It's always about moving forward.
After making up his mind, he slowly opened his eyes, with a firm light shining in them.
"Thank you guys..."
"Although I dare not say that I will not be confused again in the future, I will definitely work hard."
"I will not change who I am now, at least most of it will not change, and at the same time I will save the people who should be saved."
"I will try to adapt to the power, not be swallowed by it."
Seeing Seiji's expression and hearing his words, the others breathed a sigh of relief and were genuinely happy.
Although it was not a battle, it actually felt like going through a big difficulty.
If I said something wrong, said something too much, or made a mistake, the situation would develop into an unknown situation, or even collapse suddenly... This kind of pressure is really too great! Perhaps it would be easier to fight a life-and-death battle.
Fortunately, it passed smoothly.
"Next, I want to visit the Lingting Court." Seiji continued, "See if I can meet someone and get more information."
In order to save the lives of hundreds of thousands of people, file reading is already a certainty.
Before "leaving" here, do everything you can think of and get information.
Loading and reflowing, the guilt of giving up the current world... must also be faced up to and borne.
Now that the consciousness has been made, this is the necessary step.
Maybe... I can't actually save anything, but I just chose the road that I thought I was saved. Seiji thought so again.
But even so, you still have to go on.
Even if you are the only one who is saved, you must move forward firmly.
(end of this chapter)