There is a gloomy grayish white in my heart, and the colorful world of the past seems to have lost its brightest color in an instant. I am very affectionate, but I don't give it lightly. Once I pay, I trust it 100%. But it turns out that I failed and must bear the consequences. The cold words and irony in this situation, my heart is gradually numb, but at the same time, I am enduring and supporting me, I don't know when I will fall. All the trivial things and worries that I used to have seemed to have revived, and tortured my brain cells together.
Maybe my problem with Xian Ichiro cannot be attributed to "trust" or not, but I defined it like this without thinking, because I didn't have the strength to get rid of the skin and look at the essence from the phenomenon. We had a cold war, maybe it was just me unilaterally, and never went to Sanada's house since that day.
After talking with the class leader Yamada, he acquiesced to the'isolated action' in the class. Before, I was a bit dark and careless under the envy, envy, hatred and helpless eyes of others. Now I have to face the isolation and expulsion of hostility, and I have to endure those who look at strange eyes, but it is not at all uncomfortable.
Bilyshi and Yuriko had talked with me, but they were both blocked by me saying "I don't want to talk about this topic." Even so, Yuriko always pestered me twice. I learned something from her: Kendichiro denied the rumors from the official channels for the first time. After that, all the tennis clubs were selected to attack their respective support teams, hoping to put an end to'violent incidents', otherwise they would not rule out the banning of support. The possibility of group.
Whether such a move is effective depends on the development of the situation in the future. At the moment, I have not encountered any evil things, but I do not rule out uninterrupted pranks. As for Genichiro, even though he did a lot of weird behaviors, I still don't plan to forgive him.
Even if there are no major events, it will be maddening to clean up the boring mess every day. The messy books on the floor, the lost homework, the white sneakers missing from the locker... I'm being patient. The book fell on the floor and I picked it up; I lost my homework, and I wrote it again as quickly as possible before the teacher checked it. As for the sneakers, I took it to and from school every day.
Fortunately, there is Asaka by her side. She is not like Yuriko who always wants to make me happy. She just stays with me silently. Her thoughtfulness and understanding always make me feel calm in my upset.
This time the incident is different from last semester. Two weeks later, there is still no sign of abating under the maintenance and my indifference. I haven't seen Xuan Ichiro, and now I can't talk about who is hiding from whom, just keep doing this, alright
Many things come too quickly and do not give people a chance to breathe-Brother Yukimura suddenly fell ill. His illness is very serious. The Yukimura family secretly kept a secret from Yuriko's elder brother's condition. Even Yuriko didn't know it very well. They only knew that a major operation was needed, which was very risky.
Hanging up Yuriko's phone and heading straight to the hospital, I cried, both for myself and brother Yukimura. It seemed that there was too much backlog in my heart and I needed to vent it.
When I came to the hospital, there were only two people in the ward, Yukimura and Yuriko. Seeing the piles of condolences, they felt uncomfortable. Everyone has been here.
"Brother Yukimura, I'm here to see you." The flowers were delivered to his arms, with a smile on his face.
"Thank you, Xiaoyin." He smiled softly and asked me to sit down.
I nodded and sat down and looked at Brother Yukimura carefully. He was a little pale, but his eyes were still clear, and my heart dropped slightly.
Because no one said, and I didn't ask carefully what kind of illness Brother Yukimura was. I knew he would get better. Just asking it would increase his psychological burden.
"The flowers are so beautiful, Yuriko, can you go and put them up?" Brother Yukimura handed the flowers over, and Yuriko took the flowers and the vase out of the ward.
There was a moment of silence in the ward, and I don't know why I wanted to break this boring scene.
"Brother Yukimura, what's your situation?" I really want to hit myself. I made up my mind not to ask anything, but I asked it so directly and didn't tactfully.
Brother Yukimura didn't mind, with a smile on his lips, he told me plainly: "The doctor is still checking and may be transferred to the hospital in Tokyo. Don't worry, I will get better." The non-emotional voice was mixed with firmness. . New Bayi Chinese website first launched www.(x81zw).com m./x81zw/.com
He smiled again, as if comforting me. Such a warm smile made my heart sour, and I lowered my head and dared not look at him. Suddenly, he said: "Xiaoyin, can I ask you something?"
"Well, I promise everything!" I quickly raised my head.
"Take care of Yuriko for me, you know her personality, she's been confused all day long."
I couldn't help but feel shocked. It was the first time I saw him with such a solemn expression. I firmly responded, "I will definitely. Brother Yukimura is a strong person. You will definitely get better soon."
Seeing my promise, Yukimura smiled comfortingly. The flash of emotion in his eyes made people a little confused. He lowered his head and groaned, and suddenly said to me: "Small sound, you have to be strong."
Looking at the weak but beautiful boy in front of me, I lost my senses. Brother Yukimura has always been very good. Why should he be tortured by this kind of illness? He should stand on the court to bloom his glory and passion. At that time How touching he is.
Yuriko put the vase on the window sill, and there was a hint of anger in the room. We talked for a while. Aunt Yukimura came, and she asked Yuriko to go home to rest, so we went out of the ward together.
In fact, I didn't understand the meaning of Brother Yukimura's words at all. He was worried because of my situation at school. Later, he gradually understood his intentions for me to take care of Yuriko, but I was not strong to the end and did nothing. New Bayi Chinese Website is first published at https://(www). https://m/.x81zw./com/
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Although I lost my patience with everything, I accidentally noticed a bruise on Chaoxiang's wrist.
"Asaka, what happened to your hand?"
She pulled her sleeves, a little afraid to look at me, "Nothing."
"Are you hiding something from me."
"Really not, Yueyin is too much for you."
Recently, Chaoxiang was very strange, she was in a trance, sometimes she couldn't be found after class. The whole body was messed up somehow last time. I asked her, she said that she accidentally fell. I am struggling to deal with such and such things around me. Yukimura's condition has made my life even more chaotic. Maybe I neglected Asaka. Could it be that something happened to her or her family
My guess has not been confirmed, because Chaoxiang has been avoiding, she only said that I don't need to worry, but she has more and more strange places.
until one day.
"Um, classmate Sakura..."
I looked strangely at the famous cowardly classmate Asabahara in the class. Her personality was very similar to her last name. She was a little troublesome, but she never spoke to me.
"Well, I seem to have seen Komatsu taken away by a few senior sisters." When she finished the last word, she had already ran away.
There will be such a thing, is Chaoxiang's recent mistakes related to this matter
Regardless of how scary my expression was, I looked around the campus desperately until I saw the bullied Chaoxiang in the gap between the two teaching buildings.
Her face was swollen and she was crying on the ground.
The heart gripped tightly. Why didn't Chaoxiang tell me how could he suffer here alone.
"Do you not speak!" Another slap fell on Chaoxiang's face, which must be heavy, because the corners of her mouth were bleeding and the person fell to the ground. I recognize those people, Chaoxiang is suffering for me.
This slap was like hitting my heart, my mind was blank, and I could no longer remain indifferent, there was only one thought in my heart, these people are dead!
This time may be the craziest time in my life. I kept punching and used all the karate moves. They are not human beings, but sandbags. I just want to release all my grievances. Why should I be patient? Why should I be so angry that my good friends are also implicated? I don't want this, don't do this...
"Yueyin! Yueyin!" Chaoxiang shouted, desperately stopping me.
My consciousness gradually became clear, and I stopped. An undeniable fact, I started too hard. I fell on the ground, my eyes lost. Will things get out of hand at this point? My heart is messed up, but the other voice is very happy, screaming and screaming.
What's wrong with me? It seems that the long-standing backlog of emotions suddenly broke through. I am eager to release them, happily, regardless of the consequences.
I always feel that I am very happy. Although sometimes I hide my true character and sometimes not work hard for myself, I firmly believe that everything is worthwhile for my family and my parents. However, I will enter the middle of the country for one year. I have been enduring the pressure of this unfamiliar environment. I thought I didn’t care, but it turned out that I never wanted to experience the pain that the dark world once brought me. Life is cold and without warmth. Why should I endure this? From the beginning, there seemed to be a voice in my heart, and it was getting louder and louder, run away, run away.
The psychological obscurity has not been cleared up, when it is completely released, everything may be doomed, as if I have forced myself to this situation...
When I woke up again, Asaka had taken me to the top floor, and the cool wind blew on my face, making me feel numb.
Looking ahead, the scenery that I can see is still Lihai big flowers and plants. I feel bored and feel the pain of the eyes being pierced. Such emotions are out of control, and I feel more and more strange here.
"Yueyin, what's wrong with you?" Chaoxiang pushed my arm and looked at me worriedly.
I didn't look at Asaka, just shook my head because I didn't want to talk at all.
Looking up at the sky, there are a few white clouds floating in the blue sky. Even the most beautiful and natural scenery cannot relax me, and my heart is full. I can still think that the violence just now will soon cause an uproar in the school. If it is exposed, it will humiliate the family. Maybe many people will think that I am nervous.
"Chaoxiang." I whispered, turned around and hugged her, "I'm sorry."
Asaka patted me on the back and asked, "How are you doing?"
Even the gentle Asaka is stronger than me, and now I am more like a wounded person.
I pressed my throat and said dullly, "Maybe... I'm going to drop out."
Chaoxiang suddenly became anxious, "No, no, they are not right, Yueyin, you are to save me, I won't let you drop out of school!" She dragged me away while anxious, "We rushed to those I was looking for a teacher before, no, I asked the principal to confess the facts. By the way, Yueyin, call your parents quickly, they will not just sit back and watch!
What I am most afraid of now is letting my parents down. They must be sad to see me like this. "No, I won't go!"
Can I stay in Lihaida even if I am not dropped out of school? The two paths in front of him are obvious: one is to transfer school by oneself and end the failed campus life completely; the other is to stay, whether it is relying on family power or own power to conquer everyone. The second path is impossible, and sometimes I think, if I work harder and become a high-profile figure in the school, can I stand with my childhood sweetheart. Many things are not if, our starting line is different, I don't have the time to work hard, besides, I am not a high-profile person.
We pulled to the door, Chaoxiang was very tough this time, she opened the top floor door.
"Kawashima Taeko!" Asaka exclaimed, the two of us were taken aback at the same time.
Kawashima was also taken aback at first, then grinned gloomily, pointed at me and said, "You, over, I'm going to tell the teacher..."
"What do you want to do?" Asaka grabbed her.
But Chaoxiang couldn't stop him, she had already been pushed to the top of the stairs. I wanted to go up and pull away Kawashima, but she pushed hard.
"Ah..." Chaoxiang stumbled and fell backward. There are stairs behind, I quickly reached out to grab Asaka, but unexpectedly Kawashima pushed it again behind.
"You two go to death together!"
Who was going crazy? Maybe I wasn't completely crazy enough. I grabbed Asaka's hand, pulled her up to myself, hugged her tightly, and we fell down the stairs in this posture...
With a loud noise, we fell to the ground.
"Chaoxiang, are you okay?"
"It's okay, ah! Yueyin, you, you bleed, why did you do this? Why don't you let me..." Chaoxiang couldn't say anything.
Kawashima above was looking at us with horror, as if frightened, and said incoherently: "No, it's not me, I, I didn't mean it..."
"Yueyin, how are you? Talk..."
When I fainted, I heard Asaka crying, and I saw Taeko Kawashima’s panicked and ugly face...
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