Li Yue looked down at Cheng Nuo's pale and weak face, and walked forward more firmly.
The man in his arms is now covered with cloth strips, and his whole body is bound and can't move, so he is so obediently lying in his arms without resisting.
This is good, he doesn't want this person to know his past.
As soon as I thought that I could change the past and no longer carry this broken body, my chest felt hot.
The person in his arms was still trying to obstruct his plan, saying some useless lines.
Li Yue looked at the pale and moist lips that were constantly moving, and covered his own lips in a strange way. Maybe he had a similar idea before, so he did it so quickly this time.
The warm and soft touch made him startled, and he even forgot to breathe, and stopped unknowingly. However, the dazed thoughts quickly returned to the cage - because the other party used all his strength to slam his forehead hard.
Li Yue didn't know what to say in the panic, and then continued on the road with the person in his arms.
He hated other people's breath and touch, but this person's gave him a strange feeling of being hit by electricity.
He reminded himself in his heart that he had been preparing for so long, so he didn't have to be impatient.
Soon he will be able to change everything in the past, and he will not be so crippled and embarrassed as he is now. And this person in his arms is his most important prey, and he will make this person no longer contaminated with other people's breath.
Continuing to walk forward for a while, Li Yue couldn't help but stop when he came to a familiar scene.
He saw his younger self standing under a tree, squinting and looking in one direction, where two teenagers were eating in a small restaurant. The man in his arms was also so young at that time, with a smile on his face, his eyes focused on the red-haired child beside him, and the movements of his hands were fixed when he was serving vegetables for the other party.
Li Yue remembered why he wanted those black eyes in the first place.
Perhaps subconsciously, he wanted something warm and hot to accompany him.
Looking at what he didn't have, he couldn't help but want to destroy it.
—Perhaps this emotion is called jealousy.
Continuing to move forward, Li Yue gradually recalled the things that had been blocked in the depths of his mind by himself.
In fact, they haven't forgotten a day, they just deliberately don't think about it.
No matter how much blood was on his hands, he would still not be able to warm himself in the slightest. This was something he only realized recently.
Those who castrated his body as a child to prevent his blood from losing its potency in adulthood.
Li Yue was reluctant to recall, but he always remembered in his dreams the cold and pain that the knife brought him.
Since then, his body has been unable to heat up, no matter what temperature the weather is, he will shiver and shrink into a ball at night.
Those three people sold him at a high price to a nobleman, and he was chained like a dog, following the city lord's feet. He was the noblest's most extravagant and most desirable dessert, and it was also the highest-level gift that the other party used to entertain guests.
It happened almost every day, his arms, thighs, neck and even his chest would be cut into countless small cuts, and those sticky and slippery tongues would scramble to lick those oozing red blood beads, that disgusting kind of blood. The touch reminded him of a bloodthirsty urge.
Most of the time he can't wear clothes, and sometimes his lower body is played with and laughed at.
He knew from an early age that his body was ugly and disgusting, neither male nor female.
When he was six years old, the nobleman died suddenly at the hands of an assassin that night.
Looking at the energy line in the assassin's hand, Li Yue was also surprised where his courage came from. He grabbed the assassin's trousers, begged him to take him away, and told him the secret of his blood.
This assassin was a very powerful puppet master, but he didn't suck his blood. Later, he also accepted him as an apprentice, and taught him to manipulate and make puppets without hiding.
The puppet master has accumulated a lot of wealth in his years of assassination, and his life is no less luxurious than those of the nobles. He has made countless luxurious female clothes for Li Yue, and the food is also very exquisite.
Li Yue knew that his body was no longer male, so he always wore it, although he was very disgusted.
It's just strange that the puppet master never let him go out or see anyone.
Li Yue is more and more fond of making puppets, and letting them hug him at night will make the night easier.
The longer the time passed, the stranger the puppet master looked at Li Yue. During the teaching process, he always seemed to touch his body, often making him shudder.
Having stayed with the previous city lord for so long, Li Yue knew what those gazes and movements meant—the same would happen when the nobles set their sights on those females, or young and handsome males. At that time, although he did not remember completely, he also knew how disgusting and ugly those things were.
So when the puppet master went out to perform the task, Li Yue secretly configured the chronic poison.
The puppet master likes to leave Yue to feed himself, and it is easy for him to do so.
Day after day, when he was twelve years old, Li Yue saw the master who broke into his room in the middle of the night, and there was not even a hint of surprise on his face.
The man hurriedly tore his clothes and leaned over him, the strong male smell making him extremely sick.
In a trance, Li Yue still remembered what his father, who was too weak to laugh, said to him: "Little Li is a male. When you grow up, you must protect your female."
"Li Yuebei, don't be afraid, Master won't hurt you, it will be very comfortable..." The man on his body was breathing very fast, his flexible and sticky tongue was constantly patrolling his body, and the stiff part had already touched him. lower abdomen.
A sarcastic smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, Li Yue allowed the man to separate his legs, and then stabbed the fine needle in his hand without hesitation.
The chronic poison has also come into play, but Li Yue is still dripping with blood.
When he stabbed the dagger into the man's chest, the other party's energy thread also wrapped around his neck.
Li Yue looked at this so-called master without fear. He was not afraid of death, although he didn't know what it meant to be alive.
He pushed the dagger forward with all his strength.
The man's eyes were very strange, it seemed to be filled with anger and resentment. In the end, he didn't tighten the threads, and the dagger clutching his chest fell down.
Li Yue kicked the icy corpse away, took off the bloody clothes on his body, washed it carefully, and put on a new one.
He looked at himself in the mirror and found that the young man in the mirror was very unfamiliar, with delicate and beautiful eyebrows like a puppet, but he was not alive. But this mutilated skin can attract the attention of those who are extremely dirty.
Li Yue packed up the puppet master's things and left without looking back.
He wants to become stronger, so strong that he can destroy everything!
But it is also ironic that his female dress makes it easy for him to achieve some wishes.
…
Finally reached the original place, Li Yue slowly stood still. His fate changed from here.
He lowered his head and looked at the man in his arms again.
In fact, this person is not very female, very cunning, articulate, but very easy to soften.
In the beginning, they were hostile to each other, and when he discovered that he was physically disabled, those black eyes were only shocked and sympathetic, not the ridicule and contempt of those people before.
At that time, Li Yue made up his mind. The next time he sees him, he must make the owner of those eyes into a puppet to accompany him. He only trusts the puppet.
Seeing each other again, Li Yue heard that the man was rejecting Liu Guang and put his own experience on him.
This man doesn't seem to think that it's shameful for a male to have such an experience, which makes him angry, but at the same time has a very strange feeling. Capture the opponent and discover that he is actually a female body!
As this person said, the puppet will not have no temperature and will not talk to him.
So, keep those eyes for now
He tried to hug the man to sleep, but found that it felt unexpectedly good.
The body under him is warm and flexible, with a faint scent of trees and herbs, and it will not make him feel the kind of disgust towards males.
He slept surprisingly comfortably that day, his limbs wrapped around this man, and he didn't even have the nightmares of the past.
But the living doll used to warm the bed was eventually rescued by someone else.
He is getting stronger and stronger while wandering, and he has also tried to find new substitutes. But those females either cried in fright, or flushed against his cheeks, making him feel disgusted at the sight of them.
third time fourth time...
In the subsequent encounters, this person is changing every time, and there are more and more entanglements.
Looking at the two people standing beside him, Li Yue only knew that this person was his bed warmer and his own! Just like now, this person is lying in his arms very quietly, and the places he touches are very comfortable and warm.
Disguised as a child with a buckle, he knew what this person looked like in front of others.
The bad-hearted is almost stupid, and in such a dangerous environment, he has to try his best to save the children in the slums. However, when this person held him and used his lips to help him, it felt so strange that he kept delaying the time to start.
The time it was covered on this man, he knew even more that his crippled body still had that strange passion and desire. Seeing this person's uncomfortable appearance, a very strange feeling will arise in his heart.
…
Taking a deep breath, Li Yue untied Cheng Nuo's bandages, watched those black eyes focus a little bit from a daze, and then jumped in with him without hesitation.
At that time, only oneself will retain the memory, but this is better, anyway, this person hates himself.
Just start over...
Seeing that the black flames in the sky burned all the pictures that recorded the past, Li Yue smiled heartily.
The surroundings were shaking violently, and the black flames burned into the flesh along the clothes, causing heart-wrenching pain.
Sure enough, as that person said, the past cannot be changed
It seems that he has never been so tired, Li Yue lay quietly on the flames, his vision gradually became blurred - he was relieved soon...
What does it feel like to die? Maybe it's the blackness that never ends.
Li Yue wondered why he was still conscious. Of course, he was probably in a dream in hell.
He walked dazedly step by step until he saw a white exit in front of him, and slowly walked towards it.
A stinking stench rushed towards him, Li Yue couldn't help covering his nose, frowning and looking around, when he found that his palms were obviously smaller, he was stunned.
There was a weak moan from the garbage dump not far away, Li Yue quickly looked over, and his pupils shrank suddenly.