The more uncontrollable it is, the easier it is to be addicted, and the more dangerous it is, the more irresistible it is, such as time, such as people.
On the same day, Chu Si received both of these temptations.
He could suddenly understand why so many people in the sanatorium or in the training camp were so frightened that their hands and feet were trembling, but they still wanted to get closer to Sae Young...
Because at that moment, he also had the same impulse.
Sae Young's lips almost touched the socket of his neck, his breath spread on his skin, with a subtle electric current, layer after layer on the sides of his ears and face, like a beach at high tide.
If this person really wanted to do something, he would never ask beforehand in a restrained and gentlemanly manner. When he came to the bridge and asked such a question, he just wanted to put a prison on the spot for Chu Si, because whether the answer was yes or no, it proved that Chu Si had never forgotten that moment for so many years.
He did it on purpose.
Just like when a wild beast hunts, it always patiently appreciates how the prey is brought into the hunting range step by step…
Chus closed his eyes in Sae Young's breath: "Saeh, do you remember the second ammunition room hidden in the botanical garden of the sanatorium?"
"Yeah." Sae Yang responded, as low as a whisper.
"One year, a new batch of dimensionality-reducing bombs, which were newly researched by the military, were newly added to the ammunition room, and they spread like a god, but they were hidden and guarded so that no one could approach. I met you there no less than five times that month. Go back, I've never seen you so interested in anything."
Sae Young laughed lowly, and seemed to remember that incident too.
"When I saw you there for the sixth time, you were coming out of the ammunition room." Chuston paused, then added, "After that, I never saw you show any interest in that dimensionality reduction bomb. "
He lowered his head as he spoke, pulled the edge of the towel around Sae Yang's waist down with his stretched fingers, filled the remaining medicine in the syringe one by one, and then threw the empty injection into the sterilizer. layer.
The synthetic material tube was a little hard, and it rolled in two laps.
Chu Si closed the medical box with a click, raised his hand and patted the remote control on the glass round table beside him. The lights went out and the whole bedroom went dark. He tilted his head at the moment when the darkness shrouded, the tip of his nose rubbed Sae Yang's cheek, touched the corner of Sae's lips when his breaths overlapped, and then stood up straight.
"You're not curious about that kind of ammunition itself, it's just because they're strictly guarding against it. Once it does what you want, your interest will naturally be gone." Chu Si stood in the dark, his voice sounded unusual calm. After he finished speaking, he turned his head and walked to the bedroom door. When he opened the door, he turned his head and said to the person on the sofa, "The things that were interrupted in those days have already continued. I suggest that you better hurry up and get some sleep. Even the eyes have been burned to the point of being unable to open, yet there is still such a spirit."
The tone of his speech was the same as before, with a hint of coolness in the calm, as if the touch just happened in the dark just to send people to settle down, as if a little brat knocked on the door for candy on Halloween, and he touched it. Handed it out without any deep meaning.
After saying that, he slammed the door behind his back.
He stood at the door for a while, the short corridor in front of him did not turn on the lights, only the light projected from the living room outside, and even the cab farther away, cut geometric blocks of different light and dark on the ground.
Those words just now were all about Sae Young from the beginning to the end, about Sae Young, who was interested and walked away, and it has been the case for decades. But he didn't mention himself a word.
In fact, just before today, he felt that there would always be a wall between himself and Sae Yang, because the Red Maple Base that year, because the last hope about Jiang Qi was completely destroyed by Sae Yang, so His relationship with Sae Young stopped there and would not develop further.
He has lobbied himself for many, many years with this causal argument, so much so that he believes it himself.
However, everything just now completely cut open this layer of skin, allowing him to see the truth hidden underneath—
The wall between him and Sae Yang had nothing to do with Jiang Qi at all.
When the Red Maple Base was destroyed and Jiang Qi's last hope for resurrection disappeared, he did have a momentary resentment against Sae Yang, and that resentment was actually unreasonable, he didn't even know the so-called "resurrection". What is the content of the plan? I don't know how many other factors will be involved, and I don't know how likely it is to succeed in the end. It's just because the rope that I've been holding for many years suddenly broke and I can't know what to do, so I found a bearer. Just expressing emotions indiscriminately.
It was even precisely because the person who destroyed the Red Maple Base was Sae Yang that he threw away those emotions without asking why.
In fact, when I think about it now, in the more than ten years since then, his focus has shifted from finding evidence that Jiang Qi is not dead to hunting down Sae Yang, which is so obscure and under the pretense that even he himself He didn't react. In a sense, Sae Yang had gradually replaced Jiang Qi as another rope that involved him during that long period of time.
Sae Young did act arrogantly and unpredictably, but he wasn't crazy enough to destroy such an important base for no apparent reason.
He never mentioned the reason for destroying the Red Maple Base, even if he entered the space prison later, the answer he gave to all kinds of people was the same: "No reason, it's an eyesore."
He was extremely perfunctory, but he could never find any other reason not to be perfunctory, so that what finally appeared in the prison file was such a simple nonsense, and then the dust settled, and when Chu Si took over the position of executive officer, it was long over It's time for a second inquiry.
He never asked Sae Young the reason, as if he really believed the nonsense in the file.
But in fact, he subconsciously tacitly tacitly acknowledged that Sae Yang had a deeper reason for destroying the Red Maple Base, and even tacitly tacitly agreed that the reason was not unreasonable, otherwise the relationship between him and Sae Yang would be impossible. Transformed into the later, it is impossible to have time to be side by side again.
From the moment he took Sae Yang into Jiang Qi's apartment, the layer of skin that he had put on for so many years could no longer hide it - no one could let someone he resented into his house without any hesitation.
What he really cared about was actually just what he said to Sae Young just now.
Chu Si stood outside the door with his eyes down for a few seconds, raised his hand to press the fold between his eyebrows, and under the shadow of his palm, he curved the corners of his mouth somewhat self-deprecatingly. Blade has lived for so many years, the skin and bones have worn out thick calluses, but the inside is still succumbed to the sense of security.
It is not five or six years, nor ten years, but a long-term feeling of security that can make him completely relax and no longer need to evacuate. This is probably the indifferent, dark and turbulent childhood experience rooted in his bones. Change the imprint that cannot be reversed...
And Sae Young, who is only interested in unknowable things, how could he have anything to do with the word "safe"
Do not make jokes.
Chu Si put down the hand rubbing his eyebrows, and was about to lift his feet to the living room, when the door behind him was suddenly opened from the inside again, one hand grabbed his wrist, and turned him heavily to the side. pressure.
Behind him was a small door leading to the medical room, and Chu Si was pressed against that door.
Sae Yang lowered his head and leaned over, his lips that had become hot because of the fever were almost pressed against his, but there was a slight gap, and they didn't really touch each other. He became a little anxious because of the action just now. The breaths were entwined together, showing an extreme sense of intimacy.
Holding Chu Si's wrist, he moved his untouched lips slightly in such a posture, and whispered against Chu Si's lips: "That can't be called continuation just now, it's too perfunctory. Your posture was wrong. If I remember correctly, you were pushed against a tree, and the sound of your gasping couldn't be drowned out by the constant explosions in the woods."
Chu Si had no way to retreat. With just one mouth, he could touch Sae Yang's lips, but he still replied, "That's running out."
Perhaps because of the atmosphere, his own voice was low like a whisper.
"Yes, then you are not running now."
After speaking, he had already kissed Chu Si.
At first there were some rules and regulations, and I didn't know when it started, and it started to mess up. In the short corridor, the breathing sound of the two people was very heavy, and the ears were warm.
With a click, the narrow door behind Chu Si suddenly opened.
The two entangled in confusion, first pressing against the wall, and then reaching the medical cabin.
Then, with a "beep" sound, the medical cabin they were facing suddenly opened its cover. Chu Si grasped the fingers of Sae's arm tightly, and twisted and twisted with a skill, and Sae Yang was pressed into the medical cabin by him.
"Injured organisms are detected, and physiological value measurements begin."
Chu Si closed the cover and patted the start switch of the medical cabin. He took a step back, rested his hands on the edge of the medical cabin, panted for a while, and knocked on the cover with his eyes down and said, "Your body It's getting more and more wrong and you can't feel it yourself?"
Sae Young collapsed in the medical cabin, his strong chest muscles heaving up and down, he raised his hand and wiped his face, squinting and said to Chu Si, "Sir, you plot against me."
"A person who can faint within two minutes is not qualified to speak."
Chu Si pressed the back of his hand to his forehead and said, "Get out of here, who will accompany you crazy!"