Nirvana In Fire

Chapter 159: Blind spot

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The three people who were left in the courtyard by Lin Chen were like clay sculptures, and they didn't move their rigid bodies for a long time. Among them, Nie Duo had the longest joy, the most anticipation, and the deepest disappointment. He kept his head buried in his palm, and Wei Zheng reached out and shook him, but he didn't respond.

"Nie Duo, when you see the young marshal tomorrow, you said that you were here because you were worried about this place, so you ran here in disobedience. Don't mention that shit... He knows that we are sad, and he will be sad too..."

Nie Duo froze for a while, his hands clenched into fists, he turned around abruptly, knelt in front of Nie Feng with a plop, and said in a trembling voice, "Brother, there are some things... You probably already know, now that father and uncle are no longer there, You should discipline me, beat me up, please, beat me up!"

"Nie Duo, what are you doing?" Wei Zheng came over and pulled him, "Is it useful to beat you? If it is useful to beat you, a group of people have already started. What are you making a fuss about?"

"Don't worry about me!" Nie Duo slammed his hand away and shouted, "Do you know that I hated you for a while, and there was nothing at all. When I came back, no one knew about it, and the young marshal didn't notice it, but why do you insist on asking me what's wrong, and force me to tell me when I'm drunk! But what was the result? Liu heard that everything was irreversible, and he couldn't deny it..." Wei Zheng was also aroused by him, kicked him, and said angrily: "You still said why I hit you, do you still remember what you said? What are you talking about? You said that you love the princess more than everything in this world, you don't care about anything for her, you can even betray the young marshal!"

"Yes," Nie Duo's eyes turned red. No matter what I think or say, I know I can't do that. Indeed, I often have some very selfish thoughts in my heart, even poisoning When I was digging the ice in the swamp to continue the grass, I couldn't help but think, I worked so hard. Is it because as long as the young marshal is alive, I can hope to get Nihuang? He will forgive us, he will fulfill us, no matter how many people object, As long as the young marshal is willing to break the engagement, he will definitely have a way to bring us together... And once he's gone, even if we don't care about other people's attitudes and opinions, Nihuang and I... will never get over the hurdle in our hearts "Nie Duo... "

"These thoughts sound disgusting, don't they?" Nie Duo took a deep breath. He raised his head, "But I still think so. But after thinking about it, I suddenly realize that these are not important. Put aside all selfish thoughts. Put aside Nihuang, put aside my weakness and contradictions. I ask myself. If The truth is quite the opposite. If the young marshal is alive, I will never get Nihuang. What would I do? The answer is still so unquestionable, I just want him to live. You know this feeling, because you feel the same way. , we are all like this, but why, why not? Why?"

Wei Zheng looked at him and was speechless. Nie Feng took a deep breath, his still purple lips trembling, and tears fell, soaking the sparse hair on his face. Compared with those two people, he has experienced more and has deeper feelings, but he can't say it now, and he is too uncomfortable to say more.

After a brief burst, the yard returned to silence. Nie Duo looked at Wei Zheng's sad face and felt a little discouraged. He reached out and patted him, then knelt down and bowed to his brother, saying, "Brother, take care, I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?" Wei Zheng jumped up.

"I'm going back to Yunnan. The young marshal won't let me come. Don't tell him, I'll go back quietly."

"You... don't see him?"

Nie Duo shook his head, turned and walked out, only to be grabbed by Wei Zheng.

"Don't leave, just let the young marshal rebuke twice and stay in the capital." Wei Zheng's eyes flashed, as if he didn't want to say, but he had to say, "Yunnan is a long way, I'm afraid... it won't be too late. I'm telling you..." "What's the notification?" Nie Duo was shocked by his overtones, his heart almost stopped beating, "What do you mean?"

Wei Zheng swallowed hard and whispered: "The situation in the capital is good, it's not the same as when the young marshal didn't allow you to come... Besides, the young marshal's situation is not very good, you should stay."

"What's not good? Isn't Young Master Lin here?"

Wei Zheng looked at him, his eyes suddenly filled with tears, he couldn't help but turn his head and hide to the side, but was pulled back by Nie Duo forcefully, and asked: "He keeps writing to say that he is fine, and he should also Very good, the young marshal is just over thirty now, do you know that? What nonsense are you talking about?"

Nie Feng's hand slowly stretched over to cover his brother's hand and held it tightly. The forward general of the Chi Yan Army was a man who was more able to stabilize the overall situation than the willful young marshal in those days, and this moment is no exception. Under his steady gaze, Nie Duo slowly controlled his emotions and let go of Wei Zheng's hand.

The air was so dignified that it was almost suffocating, and none of the three spoke.

That night, Nie Duo stayed in his brother's room. There was no sound, no tossing and turning, just sleepless nights, and he opened his eyes until dawn. After waking up in the morning, he groomed himself neatly and went to see his young marshal with a slightly pale complexion.

Maybe it was because the situation in the capital was different. When Mei Changsu saw Nie Duo kneeling in front of him, he was not very angry. He stared into his eyes with a bit of joy, although he still blamed him. , and just said "why are you disobedient", and then asked about the current situation of Princess Nihuang.

In fact, although Nie Duo was in Yunnan, the two of them had been avoiding each other and never met. At this moment, when Mei Changsu asked, Nie Duo was afraid that he would be over-hearted and dared not tell the truth, so he answered vaguely, "She's alright." . At this time, Zhen Ping came in and reminded Mei Changsu: "Sect Master, Marquis Yan's birthday is today, and an invitation has been handed in a few days ago. Please go and reward Zaogui. Does the sect master go in person, or just give a gift?"

Mei Changsu pondered for a while, and said, "Get ready, I'll go for a walk later."

Lin Chen leaned on the table and supported his chin with his hand and said, "Marquis Yan's birthday, you probably invited the prince too, right?"

Mei Changsu turned to look at him, knowing that he had seen the reason for his emotional ups and downs yesterday. He smiled and said, "Since we already know everything, there is no point in avoiding it. I've been thinking about it all night, and this is the end. It's better to meet more often and get used to it earlier. It's better for Jingyan and me."

"Then take me with you," Lin Chen stretched and stood up, "I like that smiling son of the Yan family. He once went to Langya Pavilion to spend money and asked him what his future daughter-in-law was like. She's cute. of."

"So you're teasing him and talking nonsense?"

"Hehe." Lin Chen smiled heartlessly without refuting, and rushed into the yard to chase Fei Liu again. Mei Changsu ignored him, leaned on the bench and asked Nie Duo about the status of the border defense between Yunnan and Dachu, and told him to pay attention to the situation in the East China Sea. While talking with him, Nie Duo carefully looked at the appearance of the young marshal who he hadn't seen in years. The more he looked, the more he understood that what Wei Zheng said last night was not groundless. The heart couldn't help but tangle into a ball, like a knife twist.

Contrary to him, Mei Changsu did not pay attention to the expression of his subordinate. After talking for a while. He stopped to rest and looked out of the window in a trance.

Lin Chen's laughing voice came from the courtyard. Sounds like a lot of fun. No worries at all.

Although in fact, it is impossible for people in this world to exist without troubles.

"Nie Duo..." He listened quietly for a moment. Mei Changsu let out a soft cry.

"I am here."

"Jingyan already knows about me," Mei Changsu turned his head and looked at him gently, "You know, he's a bit stubborn, so he will definitely oppose you and Nihuang's affairs... You have to be patient, I will figured out a way."

Nie Duo stared at him. For some reason, he suddenly felt very angry in his heart and couldn't help shouting: "Young Commander, please stop worrying about us. This is not important nor urgent, the most important thing is now. It's you, you obviously..."

The words were choked here, and could no longer be spoken. What is it? It is obvious that it is already dead, and it is obvious that every day has been exhausted, but why do you still want to bear all the heavy burdens and exhaust all your hard work? Mei Changsu's blind spot is that when he delays his own life little by little for the sake of his dead soul, for his old friends, and for the sake of his life-and-death brothers, he forgets that others will worry about him, and he forgets that when his friends watch him The guilt and pain in my heart when I kept sacrificing.

After Nie Duo roared, he was at a loss, and with tears in his eyes, he pressed his forehead against the armrest of the young marshal's chair, while Mei Changsu stared at him with a bewildered expression. Lin Chen did not know when he appeared outside the window, tilted his head to look at the scene inside, and sighed, "Changsu, I can tell from the look on your face that you don't understand what Nie Duo is angry about."

Before Mei Changsu could speak, Nie Duoxian jumped up and retorted: "Don't talk nonsense, why am I angry? How could I be angry with the young marshal?"

"Okay, okay," Lin Chen waved his hand and said, "I can't stand my own business, I really can't stand your group, I can't stand it, why am I so unrestrained and unrestrained as you?"

At this time, Fei Liu suddenly appeared and poured a large pot of water towards Lin Chen from a few steps away, instantly turning him into a chicken, and at the same time loudly said: "Losing!"

The eldest son of Lin was indeed a handsome character, he was stunned for a moment, then calmed down, wiped the cold water on his face, turned gracefully to face Fei Liu, and said sternly, "Xiao Fei Liu, I tell you seriously, although I played the game of splashing water with you just now, when we have been in a truce for half an hour and I start talking with your brother Su on other topics, most people should know that the game is over, At this time, it is very wrong and ineffective for you to sneak water behind my back, do you understand?"

Fei Liu obviously didn't understand, because he immediately blushed angrily: "Losing! You suck!"

The sad atmosphere was disturbed by them, and it disappeared in an instant. Nie Duo took a deep breath and stood up straight, a little annoyed at how he suddenly lost control of his emotions just now, which caused trouble for the young marshal. Fortunately, Mei Changsu's attention was now distracted by Fei Liu, and he was stroking his head with a smile. Hair, listening to him accuse Lin Chen of being mean. In the end, in line with the principle of educating children not to lose faith, the owner of Su's house forced Lin Chen to cash out the bet after losing - wearing a long skirt and dancing fan dance, the whole house came to watch, and laughed for a while, Sweep away the dullness and sadness of the past few days.

In the afternoon, Lin Chen examined Mei Changsu's pulse carefully, with a satisfied expression. At this time, Li Gang had already made all kinds of preparations to go out to celebrate his birthday, and the two of them got into the same carriage together and drove to Yanhou's mansion.

Although he said that he would not avoid it deliberately, when Mei Changsu arrived at Yanfu, Xiao Jingyan had already come and left in a hurry, so the two did not meet each other. Since the national mourning has not yet completed, it is still not possible to gather people for a banquet. Therefore, the name of Hou’s public invitation is to invite everyone to enjoy the prosperous Zaogui in the backyard of Yanfu, and there are not many people who receive invitations. The whole mansion is still It was very quiet. When Mei Changsu entered, there were only four or five people in Guixiang Hall. Everyone knew each other, but they were not particularly familiar with each other.

"Why don't you see Yujin?" Mei Changsu looked around and asked.

"He was there for most of the day today, entertaining guests with me. Unfortunately, not long before Mr. Su arrived, he wanted to send a friend away, so he ran out."

Mei Changsu's expression changed slightly, and then he smiled again, and the words slipped past. This kind of occasion is nothing but a courtesy, and the purpose of Yan Que's invitation is to show that he has begun to become active again in the court, so there is nothing important to say, after sitting down for a while, Mei Changsu got up and said goodbye.

The carriage returns along the route it came from, crosses the Suzaku main road, and cuts diagonally along the closer lane. When passing the intersection, another black carriage was coming from the south, so the driver of Su's house stopped the reins, avoided it, and let it drive past first.

"Liyang Mansion..." Lin Chen murmured through the screen window, looking at the black gauze lantern hanging in front of the carriage.

"The news of Xie Yu's death came a few days ago," Mei Changsu sighed softly, "The friend Yujin went out to see off today is probably Xie Bi. Although Qianzhou is a long way to go, as a son of man, he still has to go. Just bring the bones back. I'm just pitiful for Aunt Liyang, now there's no child left..."

"As long as they have their lives, they will come back." Lin Chen glared at him, "Sympathy, it's better than you."

Mei Changsu didn't mind his nasty tone, but a light smile appeared on his lips, patted his arm back, and said softly, "Lin Chen, thank you..."