Nirvana In Fire

Chapter 18: old friend

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That night, Xiao Jingrui brought an imperial doctor in to diagnose Mei Changsu's pulse, but when the doctor heard that the patient was taking the pills made by Xun Zhen, a cold doctor, he didn't dare to say anything, but said, "Take more rest, don't get emotional. ', and said goodbye immediately. Mei Changsu made the excuse of wanting to go to bed earlier and sent Xiao Jingrui to go with the doctor, but instead of actually going to bed, he put on a jacket, pushed open the window, and sat quietly under the window sill, staring at the slanted hanging in the air. The crescent moon seemed to fall into contemplation.

Fei Liu came over, sat on the rug beside him, rested his head on his knee, and shook it.

Mei Changsu looked down at the black-haired head on his lap, reached out and rubbed it lightly, and asked softly, "What happened to us Feiliu? Feeling lonely?"

Fei Liu raised his head, looked at him with clear eyes, and said, "Don't be sad!"

Mei Changsu was a little stunned, and after a while, he showed a soft smile, "I was just thinking about some things and I was fascinated. I'm not sad, Fei Liu don't have to worry."

Fei Liu shook his head, but insisted: "Don't be sad!"

At that moment, Mei Changsu felt that his whole heart suddenly softened, as if he couldn't hold it, and only a breath of breath was left on his chest, supporting his body's movements and expression control. How easy it is to not be sad. You only need to find a pleasant place in the mountains and rivers, live in seclusion and recuperate, and then have two or three good friends, often lingering, neither intrigue nor conspiracy to betray, lingering old diseases can be healed, and you don’t need to let down the good intentions of others. Not for? It's a pity that it can only be an extravagant hope after all. No matter how heavy or painful it is, it must be carried to the end through gritted teeth.

"Fei Liu, why don't you go back to Langzhou?" Mei Changsu asked in a low voice, stroking the boy's head.

Fei Liu's eyes widened immediately, and he jumped forward suddenly, hugging Mei Changsu's waist: "No!"

"I can write a letter to brother Lin Chen and tell him to stop teasing you in the future, okay?"

"don't want!"

"But Fei Liu," Mei Changsu's tone carried an undisguised arrogance, "If you stay by my side, you will see me getting worse and worse, and then... even Fei Liu will become sad..."

"Fei Liu is like this," the young man pressed his face against Mei Changsu's lap, "I won't be sad!"

"Is that enough?" Mei Changsu sighed deeply, "As long as you can stay by my side and rest on my knees, can you be happy?"

"Happy Flying!"

Mei Changsu gently held Fei Liu's face, and gently stroked his forehead with his fingertips, his expression even more sad: "Okay... If this is the case, then at least I should be able to keep your happiness... Fei Liu, you want Remember, no matter what happens in the future, don't be afraid, because there will always be someone to take care of you, and you will always be my... happiest child..."

Fei Liu blinked his eyes, he didn't quite understand the meaning of these words, but he could feel the warm kindness in the words, so he imitated Mei Changsu's appearance on the cold face that was not used to smiling. He pulled out a smile, although the way the corners of his mouth were pulled stiffly was a little weird, but it was already a rare expression for him to express his emotions.

"We Feiliu are so cute. When we return to Langzhou in the future, let's give a smile to brother Lin Chen, shall we?"

"not good!"

"why?"

"He's bad!"

"You hate Brother Lin Chen so much," Mei Changsu smiled softly and silently, took Fei Liu into his arms, and shook it slowly, "How are you... If I can be as carefree as you, can I be like you? It's good to be so happy..."

Fei Liu broke free from his embrace, sat up straight, and said earnestly, "Yes!"

Mei Changsu looked at him tenderly: "Is it really possible?"

"Okay!" Fei Liu repeated, got up and dragged a high stool over, sat on it himself, then pulled Mei Changsu onto the carpet and sat down, lifted his head and placed it on his lap: "Xiang Fei It's the same! Brother Su can do it too!"

Mei Changsu felt that the corners of his eyes were a little moist, leaning against Fei Liu's knees, he felt his fingers go through his hair, gently rubbing and rubbing, rubbing into his purest love and dependence. own body.

"We are still smart," Mei Changsu closed his eyes tightly and muttered, "So it turns out that Brother Su can do the same..."

"Okay!" Fei Liu tried to smile again, while shaking his knees, he slowly hummed a soothing tune.

"Fei Liu also learned this song?"

"Learn! Feiliu sings!"

Mei Changsu took a deep breath and tried to relax every muscle fiber in his body, a sense of tiredness flooded his heart.

"Sleep!" Fei Liu said.

"Fei Liu is sleepy, do you want to sleep?"

"No! Brother Su is sleeping! Fei Liu beats the bad guys!"

Mei Changsu was stunned, and immediately understood what Fei Liu meant, and his brows could not help but jump: "Someone came in Xuelu?"

"Yeah!" Fei Liu nodded, "Outside! Uncle! Fei Liu is going to beat him!"

Only then did Mei Changsu breathe a sigh of relief, holding Fei Liu's arm to stand up, and said to the window, "Brother Meng, please come in."

As soon as he finished speaking, a figure flashed forward. It was clearly a strong figure, but his movements were as fast as a ghost.

"Uncle is Brother Su's guest. Let's go to sleep first, okay if we don't fight?" Mei Changsu coaxed the boy into the inner room, and Meng Zhi also followed behind. After Fei Liu obediently lay down on his bed and closed his eyes to sleep, the two older people took their seats at the round table in the middle of the room.

"Are the two of them gone?" Mei Changsu asked Meng Zhi, pouring a cup of tea.

"I have already conveyed what you meant, but looking at Wei Zheng's appearance, he doesn't want to leave..."

"Then what does he want to do?"

"Stay in the capital to help you. He said it's everyone's business, and you can't be alone..."

"Nonsense!" Mei Changsu said angrily, "Can he be like me? I'm alone, but he has Miss Yun. In the past 12 years, Miss Yun has been waiting for him infatuatedly, and it's hard to wait until he earns it back. With a single life, two people can come and go and stay with each other, why is he making a fuss? I don't need him here, he can go if he wants, and he has to go if he doesn't want to go!"

"You don't have to get angry," Meng Zhi advised slowly, "I don't know Wei Zheng yet? No matter what you think, he will always listen to your orders. I'm only worried about you now. Didn't you bring any backup?"

"I brought Fei Liu."

"Just that child?" Meng Zhi glanced at the bed, "I'm so sorry to say that, I didn't know that the child was yours that day, and I was shocked by his movement style, so I made a move out of curiosity, but I didn't offend you. What's the trouble?"

"No." Mei Changsu said lightly, "It's just a show."

"Why didn't you inform me in advance that you are here this time? I have no preparation at all. How can I help you?"

"Are you going to help me?" Mei Changsu's smile contained a hint of indifference, "Forget it, you are now the commander of the Imperial Guard, and you are deeply favored, so why bother me? As long as you pretend you don't know me, you have already helped me. very busy."

Meng Zhi gritted his teeth, with a slight anger on his brows, "Are you sincere when you say this? Do you see what kind of person I am, Meng Zhi?"

Mei Changsu showed a faint smile that was almost invisible, pressed his palm on Meng Zhi's elbow, squeezed it slightly, and said in a low voice, "Brother Meng, how can I not understand your thoughts. No matter what kind of love those of us had at the beginning, just because of your character as a chivalrous person, you will not stand by. But the fact that I have to do is no chance of winning, and I don't want to involve you in it. I'm afraid it will be destroyed once..."

"Loyalty is in the heart, not in the name. As long as you don't directly endanger the emperor, you will never be my enemy."

"Your Majesty? Your Majesty is always a knife, and you have to rely on him to kill or slash," Mei Changsu said with a smile on his lips: "It seems that you already guessed the purpose of my visit to Beijing. ."

"Yes, I think I can guess it," Meng Zhi's eyes were full of worry, "but the Crown Prince and Prince Yu, it is easy for you to break one, but it is difficult for the two to get rid of them together. In any case, Your Majesty must keep one! "

"That's not necessarily true." Mei Changsu sneered, "The emperor is not the only two sons."

Meng Zhi probably never thought about the possibility that someone other than the crown prince and Prince Yu would inherit the throne, and his expression was extremely shocked: "You... do you want to support Prince Jing?"

"Is there anything you can't do?"

"I know that you have a good relationship with King Jing, and I don't underestimate his ability. To be honest, his disadvantages are nothing, but his mother's status is low, and he has never been valued by the emperor, so I will show more of these in the future. It can be changed at once. But the most important thing is that King Jing is not good at scheming by nature, and he also hates disputes over power and position, but how dangerous it is to seize the heir, how can he have such a temperament against the ruthless and powerful prince and Honorable King?!"

Mei Changsuba was holding the bowl of the tea cup, and said expressionlessly: "He's not good at scheming, what's the harm, isn't there me? I'll do those dark and bloody things, in order to make It doesn't matter if a person who is full of evil falls down, even if I stab innocent people's heart with a knife, although I will feel sad because of it, but when a person's pain has surpassed the limit, this level of sadness is okay. be patient..."

Although these words were cruel, they contained a kind of sadness and desolation that could not be concealed. Meng Zhi looked at his face blankly, and suddenly felt unbearable pain in his heart, and it took a long time to let out a sigh of relief , asked in a low voice, "Then King Jing... is he willing to agree?"

"Why not? He hates the crown prince and Prince Yu as deeply as I do, not to mention that there is still a throne waiting there. The attraction of the throne is huge, and few people can resist it, even Jingyan The same…”

"It's impossible!" Meng Zhi slapped the table with a slap. "He naturally hates disputes, do you naturally like it? When did King Jing become so cruel, doesn't he know he loves you?"

"Brother Meng," Mei Changsu smiled lightly, "You forgot, Jingyan didn't know it was me... I'm already dead, and I'm already a scar on his heart... That threat and lure that tempted him to set foot on the throne. Lu's is just a stranger named Su Zhe, what does he have to worry about?"

"Ah," Meng Zhi cried out angrily, "yes, he doesn't know... But haven't you met him today? You didn't tell him? He didn't recognize you either? "

"Why tell him?" Mei Changsu's face was snow-white, but his eyes were very calm, "No matter what kind of innocent friend he was, people who come back from hell will become evil spirits, not only he can't recognize it, even me I don't even recognize myself anymore."

Meng Zhi held his hands tightly and tried so hard that his knuckles began to turn white, trying to offset the tearing feeling in his chest. I still remember him when he was eighteen, his bright smile when we parted, and his apple-like rosy and healthy face. Twelve years have passed by like water, and suddenly I look back, it is like a previous life.

"Xiaoshu..." Holding the hand in his palm, he was thin and pale, and he could imagine how difficult and painful it was when he struggled to survive.

"You promise me that you will never tell Jingyan," Mei Changsu looked out the window, his eyes blurred and hazy, "the lively and lovely partner who grew up with him, and the sinister and vicious man beside him, do things together. Unscrupulous strategists are never the same person. Wouldn't it be better?"

“Xiaoshu…”

"The only people in the capital who know Lin Shu's return are you and grandma. I don't want a third person to appear. Brother Meng, please."

"You can rest assured, but how does the Empress Dowager know? She has been a little confused in recent years."

"I don't know how she recognized it, she's already beyond recognition, but when she looked at me and called me 'Xiaoshu', her eyes were so warm, I can be sure that she didn't call me by the wrong name... Maybe it's because of confusion. , I don't remember many things, but it's easy. I'm just her Xiaoshu, and I should have appeared by her side, so she was so happy, not surprised at all. "

Meng Zhi was slightly uneasy, "The Empress Dowager won't say it."

"No," Mei Changsu said quietly, "Besides, no matter what she says now, no one will listen carefully."

"Alas..." Meng Zhi sighed, "That's true."

Mei Changsu picked up the tea bowl and sipped it lightly. After a moment of silence, he slowly asked, "Brother Meng, since you are here today, I just have a question to ask you..."

"Just ask."

"We have been in private contact many times over the years. Why have you never told me that Brother Jing Yu has a posthumous child?"

"What did you say?" Meng Zhi was taken aback and almost jumped up, "His Royal Highness King Qi has a child?!"