Su Lian pinched the glass with her fingers, and raised her eyes to look at the moon. As Chi Wang said, it was completely covered by the clouds and disappeared.
He remembered the phrase "be careful on the road" that he said to his father before leaving today, and his heart suddenly hurt, and even his internal organs seemed to be cramped, and he couldn't straighten up in pain.
That year, he also told Su Huasheng that way, it's raining today, so be careful on the road.
On his 20th birthday, Su Huasheng flew to the capital with the air ticket money he had saved for a long time, wanting to surprise him on his birthday.
Su Lian got the news after he got to the airport and made a phone call.
The father and son hadn't seen each other for a long time. He was practicing surgical suturing at that time, and his hand trembled and his finger was stuck, and he was absent-minded all afternoon.
Su Huasheng was used to saving money, and it was rare for him to take a taxi once when he was in a hurry to see someone. It was raining heavily that day, the road was slippery in the dark, and there was a series of car accidents on the road. The car he was sitting in was in the middle.
When Su Lian rushed to the hospital, there was unstoppable blood everywhere on the pale bed sheet, and he was almost dead.
He grabbed his bloody hand and repeated loudly over and over again: "Didn't I tell you to be careful on the road? Why don't you listen, why don't you listen."
The people next to him looked over, and the young man had no demeanor and no reason at all.
Su Lian didn't know who to blame, whether to blame the rainy weather, the bad driver, Su Huasheng's surprise, or himself who celebrated his birthday today.
"I'm sorry, the cake crashed." These were the last words Su Huasheng said, and then he slowly closed his eyes.
He didn't even leave his last words, just an apology that he shouldn't apologize for.
The moment the person on the bed stopped breathing, Su Lian felt as if her own life had also ended at the same time, turning into a straight line of nothingness.
He blamed it in a circle, and finally blamed himself for the crime, which he could not forgive or let go.
If it wasn't for the damn birthday, this accident would never have happened.
His father will live a good and healthy life, and may live a very long life, a long life.
There are many ifs in life.
Only one cannot choose to be born.
However, you can choose to die.
Standing on the roof of the hospital, the miserable and rainy weather was very suitable for the occasion, and he felt that it was a joke to wake up and work hard all these years.
He wanted to become a doctor in the future so that his father could live a good life, but the point of hope that he had been staring at had disappeared, and everything became meaningless.
Then, under the roof, Chi Wan, who was passing by, raised his head and stopped him: "Wait for me to go up, don't jump."
That person is really gentle. When he ran to him, his hair was all wet and he was panting heavily, afraid that he would fall from a tall building in the next second.
In the next second, the wrist was pulled hard, and Su Lian was pulled whole from the precarious edge and fell into his arms.
He didn't know whether it was because of the cold or fear, but he couldn't control the trembling all over, he just kept shaking.
Chi Wan stretched out his hand to comfort his back, and asked in a low voice, "Why do you do something stupid?"
Su Lian pressed her forehead against a stranger's shoulder, and wept silently: "No one will care about me from now on, so don't meddle in other people's business."
"Brother Chi takes care of you, okay?" Chi Huang held his head and rubbed it lightly, "I'll take care of you, and I'll take care of you in the future."
The obviously torrential rain stopped suddenly, as if nothing happened.
In the next few years, Chi Wang really became the whole of his life. Give him all the tenderness and love that takes up every minute and every second of his spare time.
Every Mid-Autumn Festival, the two of them would choose an open place to get close to each other, and Chi Wan would sit by the side, quietly watching the moon with him until dawn.
To him, Chi Wang is of great significance. He is the brother he adores, the only family member, and the impeccable boyfriend.
It's just that in the end, this person also left without promise. He clearly said that he would take care of him for the rest of his life, and he did what he said.
Since then, I dare not look at the bright moon, lest I think of my sweetheart.
Su Lian lowered her eyelashes, feeling that her eyes were so sore, the mist was about to turn into tears, and she couldn't control the emotions that had accumulated all night.
Because the past is too heavy, if you drink too much alcohol, you will probably really go crazy.
What will happen, he himself does not know.
But when Chi Wang called him, somehow, he still chose to sit here.
Chi Wang pressed his hand and teased in a low voice: "Why do you want to be crazy? Have fun or cry in your arms?"
"It's possible, are you afraid?" Su Lian closed her eyes severely, suppressing the soreness.
"Brother Cool is drunk, I'm afraid of death." Chi Wang moved the glass away and put it in front of himself, "Then stop drinking, they are playing a game, do you want to join us?"
Su Lian breathed out, as if she was especially easy to talk tonight: "Okay."
"Brother Lian is coming too? We're playing rock-paper-scissors, and the loser will drink." Gu Anjiu stretched out a fist at him, shaking it in front of him indiscriminately.
Su Lian's heavy mood was disturbed, and the corners of his mouth were bent: "You guys have been arguing for a long time, and finally chose such a childish game?"
Lin Yan supported his chin and explained: "The simplest game is the cruelest battle situation, there is nothing wrong with it."
With her fingers still pinching the glass, the mist dissipated, leaving only water in one hand, Su Lian smiled speechlessly.
Chi Huang hooked his shoulder and shook him, pulling him out of the sadness and throwing him into the noise of the night market: "Come, Teacher Xiao Su, let's fight till dawn."
Su Lian tilted his head, looked at Chi Wang's slender eyelashes from the corner of his eye, and casually reached out for a pair of scissors.
The opposite happens to be a stone, and if you lose, you will be fined to drink.
So he reached out to touch the wine, Su Lian felt the back of his hand being wrapped in warm palms, Chi Wang snatched it, and whispered into his ear, "I'll drink it for you."
When he was speaking, the smell of alcohol swept over him, Su Lian was a second late, and when he realized it, the glass was already empty.
The hand was still wrapped in Chi Wang's palm, so he lifted his hand to hang in the air, and drank it clean.
"Master Wang, what's the matter? Brother, I haven't seen you helping someone to drink for a few years." A yellow hair yelled, watching the excitement is no big deal.
The person next to him quickly picked up: "That's right, just a glass of beer, do you still need a replacement?"
Chi Wang stretched his long legs, smiled and cursed in a loose manner: "He can't drink well, I asked him to come here, if he really drank too much, I have to take responsibility."
"You are in charge, you have to be responsible sooner or later anyway." Gu Anjiu became more courageous after drinking, squinted his eyes slightly, and spoke in an extremely ambiguous manner.
Su Lian coughed lightly, looked up at the booing everyone, and said unconvinced, "Come again."
Scissors. Stone. Scissors. cloth. cloth.
No matter how it changes, Su Lian will be sure to lose, and there is already a small row full of beer in front of him.
Chi Wang turned sideways and lit a cigarette, held it between his fingertips and burned it to enjoy himself: "Mr. Su, your luck is really bad, you are trying to force me to death."
"I don't want your help." Su Lian raised her hand to take a cup, and drank it down boldly. The bitter taste cooled down her throat all the way to her heart.
It seems that with just one extra glass, the brain starts to feel dizzy, the vision also begins to blur, and the person in front of him becomes a double image.
"Be obedient, don't drink." Chi Wang was afraid that he would move again, so he lowered his head and extinguished the cigarette.
With his left hand, he clasped Su Lian's hands on the table and pressed them down lightly. With his right hand, he passed the cups one by one, and the row of cups was emptied in an instant.
Su Lian was really obedient and didn't move, just let him hold it like this, feeling that the sound just now was still lingering on the tips of his ears, very familiar.
It seems that his brother Chi is calling him, be obedient, he will listen.
Seeing that the person next to him remained motionless, Chi Juan was delighted: "You're so obedient all of a sudden."
Su Lian nodded lightly, grabbed his hot fingertips with her backhand, and fell to the side uncontrollably, as if she had lost her support and was on the verge of falling.
Gu Anjiu let out an "ah" and said in surprise, "Brother Lian is really drunk? How many bottles did he drink quietly?"
Chi Wang stretched out his hand to hook the man into his arms, pressed it on his shoulder, and patted comfortingly: "I already told him that he can't drink well, and you are still teasing him to drink."
"No, didn't you drink all the wine?" Gu Anjiu felt so wronged, raised his fat face and complained.
Lin Yan glanced at the time and reminded: "Then withdraw? Su Lian's house lives far away, and it will take a while to send it back."
The word "withdraw" was interrupted before he could say it.
"Handsome guys, do you want to order a song? Ten yuan a song." A man with a guitar hanging beside him leaned out and bent over and asked, "Order one, it's not expensive."
Su Lian raised her eyes from her embrace, reached for his microphone, and whispered, "I want to sing."
Chi Wan: "..."
You are really crazy, fresh and refined, very distinctive.
"Just kidding, we don't order." Gu Anjiu greeted people with an awkward smile, and took him to the table next to him, "I'm sorry, my friend has too much to drink, so ignore him."
Su Lian raised her head and stared at the curvature of Chi Wang's chin, as if she was sure that this person would agree to his unreasonable request, and repeated slowly: "I want to sing."
It was obviously the usual voice, but because of the drunkenness, it was tainted with a special waywardness, which made people feel soft.
Gu Anjiu kept silent, and carefully suggested: "Brother Lian, have you thought about it? There are a lot of people."
Su Lian repeated the third time, losing patience: "I want to sing."
"Sing, sing, sing." Chi Wang was so troubled that he couldn't help it, he looked up at the big brother who was a performer, and discussed, "I'll give you fifty, can I lend the microphone to my friend to sing two songs?"
The man twirled the microphone cable and asked with great interest, "Okay, what does this handsome guy want to sing?"
As if he had already thought about the answer, Su Lian answered fluently: "If it's you."
After searching for a long time, the man raised his eyes from the phone and asked doubtfully, "Is there this song? I couldn't find it."
Su Lian slowly got up from Chi Wang's arms, took over the microphone: "Then sing a cappella."
It was almost midnight, and it was the busiest time for the food stalls, with people sitting inside and out. Gu Anjiu looked around and secretly wiped his face.
When Brother Lian wakes up tomorrow, will he want to kill himself who is drinking too much
Before the little theater of fighting in her heart was over, Su Lian had already held the microphone and began to sing softly.
The young man's voice was clear and gentle, probably due to drunkenness, the ending sound was very long, as if he was telling a long-ago story, but it was surprisingly nice.
"Damn it, Brother Lian has something." Gu Anjiu couldn't help but took out his phone and started to record it.
"We lost. The handsome guy won't make a fool of himself even when he's drunk." Huang Mao sighed, "This voice is awesome."
Hearing the singing, the people beside him all looked over and saw the boy in the white shirt with his long legs slightly bent, singing as if no one else was around.
High-spirited, it seems to hide a little melancholy of a teenager, and it feels meaningful after tasting it.
"You look at me, smile and say nothing."
"When the crowd is restless again, hug me."
Su Lian leaned halfway in the chair, staring straight at Chi Wang, reluctant to move away from the face he had seen thousands of times, a little dazed.
He thought of many scenes, such as the fireworks on New Year's Eve, the conversation on the rooftop, the profile of the moon, and the appearance of wearing a suit.
It was his lover, Su Lian suddenly missed his hug very much, it must be very warm.
After listening for a while, Chi Wan stretched out his hand and waved at the man, signaling to come over.
Afraid of disturbing the singer, his voice was very low: "Please lend me the guitar, I will accompany him."
If Su Lian would feel embarrassed when he woke up tomorrow, then add him.
As long as the two of you are together, nothing will be so embarrassing.
"Here, here." The man handed it generously.
The guitar was tilted on his lap, Chi Wan lowered his head slightly, hooked the strings with his fingertips a few times, and easily found a suitable chord to match.
The clear boyish voice and the harmonious guitar sounds, as if this song should be like this, like the last evening wind in September, sweeping gently. Listening to it carefully, it makes people feel lost.
"If it were you, would you also shed tears to heal all memories, the ripples of the four seasons."
"The most bizarre, most depressing and favorite banquet, I am the only one left in place."
"Formed into a glass, isolated."
The table next door cheered, clamoring "one more song", Su Lian finished the last beat and a half, staring blankly at the person in front of her, her eyes gradually turning red.
He couldn't see others, and his eyes were full of delusion.
Just in a trance, the man in his twenties disappeared, leaving only a seventeen-year-old boy.
Sitting in the noisy and lively food stall, with a guitar on his lap, his eyes are slightly lowered, and his brows and eyes have restrained the previous sloppy arrogance, filled with endless tenderness.
He had never seen such a delusion.
It took a long time for Gu Anjiu to come back to his senses: "No, why does this lyrics sound so sad, does Brother Lian think of his ex?"
Afraid of touching Ni Lin, Lin Yan said cautiously: "Drinking too much is easy to get emotional, it's normal."
"It's over, thank you." Su Lian handed the microphone back, in a trance, silently lowered her eyes.
Hearing the discussion next to him, Chi Wan felt his heart was lightly pricked, it didn't hurt very much, but it was uncomfortable.
He couldn't figure out what emotion he was feeling at the moment, but he felt that his mood was affected by the song, and he was also a little panicked.
Su Lian didn't speak, and silently drank another glass of wine. With the strength of the wine, it seemed that the Qingming that had been strong just now had been completely shattered, leaving only a trance.
He sat there, motionless, not knowing what he was thinking.
"Going home? I'll see you off." Chi Wan let out a soft breath and asked in a low voice.
Su Lian shook her head slowly, her vision blurred a bit and she regained consciousness: "I don't want to go back, I want to see the moon."
Because of his drunkenness, his speech was a bit intermittent, and his articulation became slurred, which weakened his usual aloofness and became cute.
Chi Wang was helpless, carefully pulled him up from the seat, and looked at the crowd: "I'll take him back to the Internet cafe to sleep, everyone, let's go, we'll meet again some other day."
"Okay, remember to send a message when you get home." Gu Anjiu helped to settle the bill first, and sent people to the taxi one by one.
"Let's go, there is a rooftop above the Internet cafe where you can watch the moon." Chi Wang supported the wobbly man, and rubbed the back of his neck soothingly, "Take the car first, huh?"
"Okay." Su Lian, who was drunk, was not noisy, but would have some strange actions and come up with special thoughts from time to time.
He was stuffed into the car, leaning on the window with his elbows to look at the sky, and then looked sideways at Chi Wang: "Will you watch with me?"
Chi Wang stared at his head that hit the glass, gently moved him, hooked him back and hugged him, and asked, "Why do you want to see the moon?"
Su Lian didn't speak, but reached out and grabbed the man's collar, and asked persistently in a fierce tone: "Are you accompanying me or not?"
"Accompany, accompany you until dawn." Chi Wang didn't know where he got so much patience, he slightly adjusted his sitting posture to make Su Lian lean more comfortably.
The scenery outside the window flew by and turned into an afterimage, and the two people in the car were silent, cuddling each other.
Time seemed to be pulled very slowly, Chi Wang wrapped his arm around Su Lian's back, stroking gently.
"Do you want to throw up?"
"Not really."
"It's hard to drink so much."
"kind of."
The picture in the food stall flashed slowly in my mind, and I realized it was too out of line.
Su Lian's face was buried in his chest, he couldn't see anything clearly, and his voice was a little vague: "I seemed to be ashamed just now."
Chi Huan chuckled lightly, and his chest trembled slightly: "It's not shameful, it's very nice. Teacher Xiao Su, do you want to make a team debut with me?"
This sounds ridiculous.
Slowly loosening the fingers holding the collar, Su Lian raised her head, her eyes were scattered, and her voice became softer: "You lied to me."
Chi Wan lowered his head, his lips seemed to touch the soft hair, and it was a little itchy: "I'm not lying to you, it's the best song I've ever heard. It's just that I haven't heard this song before. I'll practice it another day, and we will cooperate again. "
Satisfied, Su Lian lowered her head again and found a comfortable position to lean against.
The taxi stopped at the door of Ye Se, Chi Huang had paid, and carefully dragged the man out of the car.
The narrow stairs are very dark, afraid of people falling, Chi Huang clasped the shoulders of people and walked up the ladder to the fourth floor.
The iron gate was pushed open, and the roof was empty.
Su Lian walked over quickly, raised her eyes slightly, the dark clouds in the sky dispersed, and the moon reappeared. Translucent like an amber, hanging precariously in the sky.
With a surprised expression on his face, he turned to look at Chi Wang: "You are very lucky, you didn't miss the fullest moon this year."
That tone of voice and movements completely lacked the usual high-coldness of rejecting people thousands of miles away.
On the contrary, it seemed like a child who just got a candy, so soft that his heart was numb.
"Well, I see, it's very beautiful." Chi Huan walked over slowly, leaning on the railing on the roof, following the line of sight of people, looking towards the sky.
In fact, he doesn't think the moon is beautiful, it's the same every day, there is no difference. There must be a special reason for Su Lian to be so persistent.
However, if Su Lian didn't say anything, he didn't ask.
If it's a painful memory, asking too much will only expose the scars.
If it is the past that cannot be let go, it is better to let it go with the wind.
There was only one thing he had to do, and that was to stand side by side with Su Lian on the rooftop and spend this long night with him.
Time slowly slipped to two o'clock in the morning, Chi Wang turned over, leaned his back on the railing, and looked at people lazily: "Haven't you gotten tired of watching it for so long?"
"No." Su Lian reluctantly looked away, and then looked at the person in front of her, feeling a little dizzy.
"Are you sober?" Chi Wang stared into his eyes, two small selves were reflected in the amber pupils, as if covered by a thin layer of mist.
"... Wake up." Su Lian paused for several seconds before replying slowly.
That's what drunks say about themselves, Chi Ju lowered his head and chuckled, not exposing himself.
A gust of night wind blew over, messing up the hair of the two of them, and even blowing away Su Lian's consciousness.
He swayed slightly, clutching Chi Lu's coat, tightening his fingertips towards the front of his body, the distance suddenly narrowed.
Su Lian grabbed the man's clothes and complained in a low voice, "Brother Chi, it's cold."
The heartbeat stopped again, and Chi Wang lowered his eyes to stare at his thin shirt, which was blown up by the wind, revealing a part of his waist.
Before she could react, Su Lian had already fallen over crookedly.
The lips with warmth brushed against the Adam's apple lightly, and stuck to the neck, and the endless breath entwined with the smell of wine swept over the sky and covered the sky.
Chi delusional thought, perhaps, Su Lian was not the only one who got drunk.
He lifted off the jacket he was wearing, subconsciously wrapped the person into his arms along the clothes, and tightened his arms.
The rolling Adam's apple still had the warmth from just touching it, and he coaxed in a low voice: "Brother Chi won't be cold if you hold it."