Nonlinear Love

Chapter 42

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Su Lian turned her head to look at him in astonishment, the night was thick, no one noticed this sudden scene.

The two hands were entangled in such a reckless manner, and ambiguity arose in the corner blocked by the hem of the shirt.

Chi Wan clenched his cold hand tightly with his fingers, his expression and tone were very serious: "I don't know what you are sighing, but as long as you want to grab it, there is nothing you can't grab. For example, now, I caught you .If you don't want to let go, I won't let go."

So going back to the beginning, family and love, can he still grasp it

Will it be another flash in the pan and disappear again.

Messy thoughts flashed through her mind, Su Lian didn't know what to say, she just lowered her eyes to look at the two holding hands.

The back of the hand, which was blown cold by the night wind, was continuously covered with warmth, as if the last bit of autumn had been swept away.

Chi Wang is indeed gentle in his bones, even if he doesn't know the heavy burden in his heart, he can still comfort him in his own way.

Su Lian gently pinched his fingertips with his backhand, and the light from the opposite side swept over for a second, shining brightly on the two of them, as bright as daylight, and there was nowhere to hide.

He noticed the passing gaze of a passerby, his cheeks flushed slightly for a moment, and he suddenly let go.

Obviously Chi Wang is a straight man, so he did this to comfort himself at this moment.

It's just that the action of two boys holding hands is really beyond the scope of friends, and it's not appropriate.

Su Lian spread out her palms, grabbed his wrist and threw it aside, turned over and leaned on the railing, pretending to be looking at the night scene on the other side of the river.

Chi Wang looked over and said, "The light rail is gone, and the lights will still be on all night. It's very beautiful."

"Well, it's very beautiful." Su Lian's eyes were out of focus, and she didn't know which building to freeze on.

His mind was disturbed, and he had no time to think about it.

"What are you two whispering about?" Gu Anjiu took out a few cans of beer from the plastic bag next to him, stuffed a can with his hands, and said carelessly, "I brought it from a Sichuan restaurant. It has such a good atmosphere. Don't drink some beer." I can't say it."

Lin Yan raised his hand and opened the can, his gaze swept over Chi Huang, teasingly said: "That's right, at least someone can use the strength of alcohol to confess boldly."

"You all know that he is going to confess his love today?" Su Lian was a little surprised and looked at everyone.

Gu Anjiu coughed lightly, raised his head and took a big gulp of wine to cover up his embarrassment: "Yeah, it's not a secret."

Su Lian couldn't help laughing, but it was very similar to what Chi Huang could do. No matter what he did, the whole world would know about it before it was done.

He touched the person with his elbow, and said in a low voice, "It's past ten o'clock, and you still haven't confessed, what the hell are you writing?"

"Are you urging me to go like that?" Chi Wan raised his eyebrows slightly and asked back.

Holding the cold beer can, Su Lian was somewhat conflicted: "Haven't you been preparing for a long time? I was thinking about today a few weeks ago. I'm afraid that people will wait for you and won't show up for a long time. It's time to be anxious."

Chi Wan lowered his eyes slightly and smiled slightly.

I have a good vision, and the person I like is really a gentle young man, who looks cold and soft inside than anyone else.

I don't even know who I want to confess to, so I just put myself in the shoes of others.

He raised his chin slightly, and let the evening wind blow on his back: "I'm afraid, I'm afraid that people will reject me, it's very embarrassing."

Chi Wang didn't tell lies, even though he had done psychological training for a long time, when facing Su Lian, he still hesitated to speak.

The free and easy self-proclaimed arrogance and boldness in the past seem to have disappeared completely at the moment, turning into a timid coward.

At present, apart from knowing that he once liked boys, he can't see any clues about his attitude towards himself.

They really don't have confidence in Su Lian's reaction. If they refuse, the two of them will probably fall into an extremely embarrassing situation.

He didn't dare to think about the consequences after he really said it.

These nights, Chi Wang had imagined many situations in his mind, but he still couldn't predict whether Su Lian's reaction would be one of them.

I don't know if the long-awaited confession will end in a dismal end.

"Are you afraid of being ashamed?" Su Lian turned her head, and her eyes fell on him curiously.

"It's not that I'm not afraid of anything, I'm not as brave as you think." Chi Huan gave a hum, and said in a low voice, "I'm afraid I can't even make friends, so I'm very cowardly."

Su Lian thought to herself, to be able to have such a mood, she should really like it.

He didn't speak any more, and took a sip of the wine from the jar. The taste was equally bitter and not very good.

It would be nice if the beer was sweet, it would make people feel empty without feeling uncomfortable.

Chi Wang reached out and snatched Su Lian's beer can, drank more than half of the bottle, and helped to empty it: "You don't drink well, drink less."

"But I want to drink a little." Su Lian stared at the bottle in his hand, lowered her voice, "Just a little."

The tone of voice was different from usual, it was soft and soft, as if acting like a spoiled child, it tickled people's hearts.

Unable to bear such a tone, Chi Huang handed back the remaining half can, and said, "That's all, I won't give you the rest."

Su Lian complained: "You're still so stingy on your birthday."

Chi answered him in vain: "I'm afraid you'll go crazy with alcohol again. Didn't you learn enough last time? There's no microphone to sing for you this time."

"Speaking of the last time, I have to say, brother Lian, when will you sing a song for us again, your voice is so good." Gu Anjiu moved his head closer and said with a smile.

Su Lian took a sip of her wine and threatened in a low voice: "I advise you not to mention the last time."

"Okay, don't mention it, let's talk about other things." Gu Anjiu put the beer can on a platform outside the railing, rubbed his hands, "They are both at the age of first love, let's talk about the ideal type, As for me, I like petite and cute cute girls, and you, Lin Yan."

Being called by force, Lin Yan rarely showed a trace of embarrassment on his face, and thought about his words: "I like cute ones too."

"Fuck, you are indeed brothers. I didn't expect that our eyes were so similar that we actually collided. God, what if we both fell in love with the same person?" Gu Anjiu made up his mind and fell into distress.

Chi Wan laughed and patted him on the shoulder: "Probably not, he has better vision than you."

Sexual orientation is not the same, how could it be possible to bump into each other.

Su Lian's focus is on another place, why do you all like cute ones, and so did Chi Wan's note last time.

What's so strange about a cute person, he curled his lips slightly without judging.

Song Jia, who was only thinking about learning Ci, frowned and thought for a while: "No, I don't know, anyway, I like, like to stay, stay with Brother Yan, what do you want a girl, a girlfriend?"

"Forget it, I'm asking you for nothing, the kid skipped this question. Brother Lian, what kind do you like?" Going around in a circle, Gu Anjiu got right to the point.

Originally, he just wanted to help Chi Wang ask Su Lian, but the person in front of him was just throwing bricks to attract others, making people look less embarrassed.

When the assists were full, Chi Wang exchanged glances with him, expressing that he didn't know you brother in vain.

Not knowing how the topic got here, Su Lian frowned: "What do I like?"

Gu Anjiu let out an ah, and suddenly stammered: "Yes, yes, we are all curious about what kind of ideal type Cool is. If I didn't drink today, I wouldn't dare to ask."

Ideal type, this question stumped Su Lian and fell into deep thought.

He didn't know what his ideal type was, so after thinking for a while, he said slowly, "Mature and gentle?"

"Ah, the type of intellectual big sister, I understand." Gu Anjiu gave Chi Huan a look of pity, it's over, he seems to have nothing to do with him, and the confession will be cool tonight.

Chi Wang looked down at the tie he had just put on, and sighed slightly, not being mature, yet being gentle and self-confident.

But there is a process from being young and immature to being mature and stable. I just hope that Su Lian will not be so single-minded and cling to this point.

Seeing everyone's dejected faces, Lin Yan hurriedly stood up to smooth things over: "Many people's ideal type is completely different from their real love partner. This is just a matter of feeling. If it feels right, maybe gender is not that important."

Song Jiaci glanced at him blankly: "You, are you talking about Brother Lian, or yourself?"

"Talk to everyone." Lin Yan led it vaguely.

Chi Wan let out a little breath, raised his head and said, "That's right, who can say clearly about feelings."

"Master of emotional theory, it's almost eleven o'clock." Su Lian glanced at her watch and reminded her again.

Chi Wang refilled the beer, smiled helplessly and said, "Your timer is faster than me, wait until I finish drinking."

Su Lian looked down at the four empty jars beside him, she didn't know when she drank so much all of a sudden, probably because she had something in her heart and used the wine to relieve her worries.

He didn't break it, just waited for the people around him to drink up the can of wine one by one, before it became empty again.

As soon as the wind blew over, Chi Huang's whole body was tainted with a very faint smell of alcohol, which was not unpleasant, but there was a kind of seductiveness that seemed vaguely absent.

Su Lian took half a step back, staring at the drunken man in his eyes: "You still want to withdraw?"

Chi Wang squashed the bottle, put the messy empty cans into his pocket, and said, "Take it away."

When it was about to end, Su Lian's heartbeat suddenly slowed down a beat, and he said in his heart that Chi Wang was finally going to do his most important thing today.

Several cars arrived, Gu Anjiu got one, Lin Yan and Song Jiaci got into one, and left first.

Chi Wang grabbed Su Lian's wrist and sent him into the car: "I'll see you off first."

"My home is far away. If you don't have time to deliver it, I can go back by myself." Su Lian locked the car door, feeling that she was really considerate, and never forgot to remind others to confess.

Chi Wang stuffed the person in and signaled the master to drive: "It's okay, don't worry."

With this relaxed tone, it seems that he is the one who is anxious to speak.

Su Lian snorted softly, and didn't want to read any more. She just leaned her head back on the back seat.

Chi Wan raised his hand slightly, covering his eyelids, and said softly, "It's a bit far over there, you squint and sleep for a while."

Su Lian originally wanted to refute that she wasn't too sleepy, but when her palms covered her, her unreasonable mind began to feel a little dizzy.

He didn't drink too much wine today, at most he was slightly tipsy, but the car was swaying, so he obediently closed his eyes.

After an unknown amount of time, Chi Huang shook his head and shoulders, waking him up: "Mr. Su, get out of the car, the destination has arrived."

Su Lian stood on the road in a daze, a gust of cold wind blew by, and the bleak atmosphere spread over the sky.

Looking around, an entire lush forest was shrouded in darkness, and the lights and buildings of the city could no longer be seen. This scene was very strange.

He frowned and took out his mobile phone to check the current location. This place has never been before: "Did you let the master drive the wrong way, this is not my home."

"Just treat it as if I kidnapped you, I still have a place to go, come with me?" Chi Wang tilted his head, motioning for others to follow up.

Su Lian was confused and followed unconsciously. Looking at the deep mountains and old forests, her doubts gradually deepened.

After walking a few steps, I couldn't hold back, and asked, "Did you come to the mountains to seek death just now while I was asleep and confessed to you?"

Chi Wang was amused and said, "What do you think? You don't have to go through such troubles if you want to die, right?"

"That's not necessarily true, maybe you want to find a beautiful branch, or run to the top of the mountain and jump." Su Lian frowned and looked at him, "No, you don't have to do that when you're broken in love."

Chi Wang raised his hand, clasped his index finger and thumb together, flicked his forehead, and said helplessly, "Mr. Xiao Su, your imagination is really rich. But you reminded me that if you really fail, this pure land will be destroyed." This is my final grave."

"Nonsense." Su Lian was very sensitive to words like cemetery, so her expression changed instantly, and she kicked him on the calf, "Don't have such strange thoughts."

"Okay, okay, I was wrong, I said nonsense." Chi Huang raised his hands to express his surrender.

The two walked slowly along the trail for a while, went uphill with difficulty, panting, and finally reached the top of the mountain.

It was almost midnight at this moment, and there were still quite a few people on the mountain, some even set up tents, sitting inside and chatting while looking into the distance.

Really confused by this scene, Su Lian asked, "What are they waiting for?"

Chi Wang found an open space, took out a rolled cloth from the bag, spread it on the ground, patted it, and said, "Sit down, you'll know in a while."

"Mysterious." Su Lian propped her chin, looking around boredly.

The moonlight tonight is very good, there is no fog, no thick clouds, and occasionally a few twinkling stars can be seen.

Such weather is very rare in Fog City. The city is shrouded in fog all year round, and watching the moon has become a luxury.

Staring at the distant night sky, Su Lian suddenly realized: "Take me to see the moon."

Chi Wang looked down at the time and said with a smile, "It's not just the moon, there are still three minutes."

The time was stretched infinitely long, and the two sat casually on the top of the mountain, shoulder to shoulder, staring into the distance. There was the sound of wind sweeping through the treetops from time to time, and Su Lian suddenly felt a chill.

Just crossing his arms, his shoulders sank, Chi Wang found a coat from somewhere and put it on his shoulders: "It's cold at night, wear it."

Su Lian lowered her eyes to look at the jacket, and pulled her fingertips to her chest: "Are you a Jingdong cat? You have everything in your pocket."

"Teacher Xiao Su, we are all called Doraemon, you are so cute." Chi Wang looked down at him, his eyes swept over his brows and eyes, and fell on his faint lips.

"Aren't you cold? How handsome are you in a black shirt?"

"I am in good health and am not afraid of the cold."

Chi Wan slightly loosened his tie, looked at the time again, and continued to count down: "The time to witness the miracle is coming soon, look over there."

Suddenly, the nearby crowd became restless, followed by bursts of cheers and screams.

Following the direction of Chi Wan's fingertips, Su Lian raised his eyes to look at the sky. Near the moon, a few stars flickered faintly, and then dragged their long tails across, quickly leaving a few traces in the sky.

In the next second, many more fell one after another, leaving a brief moment in the blue sky before disappearing.

Incomparably gorgeous, extraordinarily grand, people can't take their eyes off.

"Is it a meteor?" Su Lian's expression was very pleasant. He turned his head and found that Chi Wang had closed his eyes at some point and was clasping his hands together to make a wish.

In the night wind, he trembled his eyelashes slightly, his facial features were too handsome in the moonlight, and he looked extremely pious.

Su Lian reacted for a second, then closed her eyes, and made that unchanging wish to the sky.

When it opened again, the sky fell into darkness again, as if it was just a stunning illusion just now.

"Did you know there are meteors today?" Su Lian asked in a low voice.

"I know, I saw the notice before, and I called the planetarium specifically to inquire about it. This is the last big meteor shower this year." Chi Ju looked at him with a smile in his eyes, "Do you like it?"

"I like it, it's very beautiful." Su Lian nodded in a daze. He has seen the moon so many times, but he has never seen a shooting star. This is the first time.

He looked at the sky with some regrets, hating himself for not looking too carefully just now: "Is this gone?"

Chi Huang raised his hand and straightened the shattered hair on his forehead: "Well, that's what meteors are like, but you already have your wish, right?"

Su Lian let his movements go, wondering whether it was because of the moonlight or the shooting stars, Chi Wang was extraordinarily gentle tonight, almost blending with the soft moonlight.

He lowered his voice, not wanting to break the beautiful atmosphere at the moment: "Didn't you just make a wish on your birthday? Come again?"

Chi Wang leaned back, stretched out his long legs casually, and smiled lazily: "I'm afraid that one is not enough, and the two are superimposed with BUFF."

"Oh, then your wish must be very important." Su Lian bent her eyes with a faint smile on her face.

When the eyes met, the night breeze blew gently, and the atmosphere suddenly became mellow.

Chi Wan's heartstrings twitched slightly, and he tossed and turned all night, feeling as if it was the best time to speak.

He turned his eyes away, took out a box from the pocket he had been carrying and opened it, fiddled with the dial with his fingertips: "I asked Xiao Jiu to help me get the watch I bought before, but I actually gave it to you quietly. It was just because of you It was too embarrassing to get lost and found, and I was too embarrassed to admit it at the time."

When he received the gift that day, Su Lian didn't open it to look at it, but now seeing the full moon on the dial, it seemed that Chi Wang helped him pick the moon off.

The watch is very beautiful and exquisite. He really likes it, but he can't have it.

"Isn't it your birthday, you still gave me a present?" Su Lian stared at the watch, closed the box, and pushed it back intact, "It's too expensive, you keep it yourself."

"I just wanted to give it to you. I wanted to give it to you a long time ago, so I carefully chose the style you like." Chi Wang said softly, his eyes fell into his eyes, and he could hardly move them away.

He looked at the gentle-looking young man under the moonlight, who was extremely dazzling and had a bright future.

Such a person is like the distant moon, which can only be seen from a distance and hangs in the sky.

A lot of words are stuck in my heart, and I want to rush up, but I don't know where to start.

It's really hard to break through that hole.

"Mr. Su, I seem to have drunk too much today. When the wind blows, I feel a little dizzy now." Chi Wang put the watch box aside, tilted his head slightly, and used the alcohol to play crazy.

Su Lian patted the head that was leaning towards her, but she didn't have the heart to push it away, she just raised her hand to touch the tip of her hair: "So what are you drinking so much for?"

Chi Wang leaned against his shoulder, and chuckled lightly: "Jiu Zhuang is cowardly."

"You're not brave enough..." Su Lian tilted his head, met the eyes that were close at hand, suddenly fell silent, swallowed the rest of the words, and his mind went blank.

He saw Chi Huang's eyes fixed on him, full of his own shadow, restrained and crazy.

His heart beat suddenly, and he straightened up, trying to hide aside, but his palm, which was chilled by the night wind, was grabbed.

That person did seem to have drunk too much wine, and the high temperature passed over, covering his entire palm with scalding heat.

They fell into a strange silence, staring at each other silently, the intimacy of intertwined fingers was infinitely magnified and grew wantonly.

Su Lian blinked lightly, suddenly understood the silence, and subconsciously wanted to escape.

"Actually, you are the person I want to confess on my birthday. The message to give me the watch is true, and the words on the note are also true."

Chi Wang grabbed his hand and pulled it into his arms suddenly, the coat he was wearing was scattered on the ground, no one cared.

He brushed his lips lightly over his earlobe, and murmured: "Su Lian, I like you."

These few words, with a faint smell of alcohol and hot breath, fell into the ears lightly, Su Lian felt like tinnitus, and the sound was buzzing indistinctly.

He was clasped tightly in his arms, his whole body was stiff, his breathing was stagnant, and his brain was almost frozen.

Several seconds passed before she murmured uncertainly: "I'm the one you like? Chi Wan, did you drink too much? I'm a boy."

Chi Wang looked down at his eyelashes, casting a heavy shadow on his face. It would be great if he could hold on to him forever.

He said softly: "I just lied to you. I drink very well and am not drunk at all. It has nothing to do with your gender. I like Su Lian. Maybe it's love at first sight, maybe it's because of fate, I don't know."

Su Lian's heart was hit violently by the word fate, and she froze in place.

There is really a theory of fate, once again, will Chi Wang still fall in love with himself? It feels ridiculous.

He is in a very messy mood now, his clothes are very thin, and he is stuck to Chi Wang through the thin fabric, and he can feel his heartbeat getting stronger and stronger.

One sound, one sound, transmitted through the chest cavity, almost resonating with oneself.

Su Lian opened her mouth, feeling almost out of breath from being hugged.

He raised his hand and patted Chi Wang's back, and comforted him softly: "We'll talk about it when you wake up tomorrow, okay?"

Chi Huang shook his head, put away his usual foolishness, and looked at him very seriously: "Su Lian, I am very rational and sober."

"Because I like it, I feel sorry for you and want to protect you. Because I like it, I care about your emotions and worry that you are unhappy. Because I like it, the moment I realize my feelings, I want to tell you directly, But I was afraid that you would refuse, so I kept hiding it and didn’t dare to speak.”

Su Lian stared at the deep eyes and eyebrows that were just a few feet away, and the two small selves were reflected in Chi Wang's pupils, almost touching each other.

The roots of his ears were scorching hot, and the breaths of each other seemed to be intertwined, and it felt like the whole body was going to be burned by the scorching breath.

Many details about Chi Huang in the past spread, those restrained hugs, those gentle promises, uncontrollable compromises, inexplicable jealousy, it seems that everything has become traceable.

But, what is there to like about him? How long can this love last

Su Lian felt that he had become a coward, while the teenage Chi Wang was far braver than he imagined.

He flinched back slightly, and was fastened tightly again, inseparable.

"Don't hide." Chi Wang stubbornly hugged him, rolled his Adam's apple, and said hoarsely, "November 13th, Su Lian. But I haven't received the gift I want the most."

Su Lian's heart was beating like thunder, and he said dryly, "What gift?"

Chi Wan tilted his head and rubbed his fair neck, and smiled lowly: "I just said so much, don't you understand, idiot."

The boy is always on the rampage, wanting to take off the unreachable moon, hold it in his arms, and hang it in his heart.

It was late autumn, and the wind on the top of the mountain was noisy, but at this moment, everything was silent.

"Chi Wang's wishful thinking towards you."