All the voices in my ears disappeared, only that sentence echoed in my heart for a long time.
Chi Wang turned his head, and across the long stairs, the two stood far away, looking at each other quietly.
It took a long time before he spoke, his voice hoarse: "You mean, the ex you keep talking about is me? Or, is it the future me?"
Su Lian stood at the top of the stairs and nodded lightly: "It's you, I love you from the beginning to the end, and you are the only one."
After getting an affirmative answer, Chi Wang couldn't tell what it felt like.
His mind was in a state of turmoil, and his brain was almost empty. There were too many things he wanted to ask, but they were all blocked in his throat, and he couldn't make any extra sounds.
Time passed by every minute and every second, and the driver of the taxi had already called three times in a row to urge him, and the vibration kept ringing.
Chi Wang pinched the phone, his fingertips glowing white: "When we finish solving your father's matter, let's talk slowly."
"Okay, it's raining today, be careful." Su Lian smiled lightly, her expression relaxed as if she was relieved from a heavy burden.
Chi turned around, rushed into the rain quickly, and got into the long-awaited taxi.
His clothes were half wet from the rain, he brushed his wet hair back indifferently, his mind was full of the confession that had just been made by Su Lian.
If he really had a relationship with Su Lian for four years in the future, why would Su Lian travel back through time.
Chi Huang frowned, and suddenly remembered the conversation about his ex, Su Lian said that because of lung cancer, he left at a very young age.
His knuckles tightened suddenly, was it because he died in the future
So when they met for the first time, Su Lian still told him not to smoke even though they didn't know each other.
So on the first day of the transfer, he brought himself that strange cup of health care paste.
So I forced him to do exercises, exercise, go to bed early and get up early, give him a talisman, and talk about health and safety every day.
Those inexplicable actions in the past have now found their reasons.
I finally understand why I look so sad every time I sing, and my eyes always reveal the sadness that cannot be concealed. Those cryptic lyrics, every word, I thought I understood it at first, but now I really understand the meaning.
But after the confession, he was flustered, and he kept saying that he was afraid of repeating the same mistakes, and the struggle and uneasiness he brought with him, only at this moment did Chi Wang fully understand.
Chi Wang leaned his head on the back of the seat, raised his hand to wipe his face, and felt his fingers trembling uncontrollably.
How strong is Su Lian, to be able to resist all these things by himself.
Now he doesn't want to doubt the authenticity of time-travel anymore, and his heart is full of distress for that person.
I used to feel sorry for him who experienced such a big emotional trauma at a young age, but now I didn't expect that the person who caused him the harm turned out to be me.
Then when Su Lian faced the teenage Chi Wang again, what kind of mood did he have at the beginning
The lovers who have been dating for several years have become strangers, and they probably need to get closer to each other little by little with the sadness hidden in their hearts.
Chi Wan recalled the time when they first met, Su Lian's actions of wanting to get close and pretending to be indifferent, just a little bit of it, he felt a severe heartache.
The master in front saw the people in the back seat from the rearview mirror, and asked with concern: "Are you feeling uncomfortable? Do you need to drive slower?"
"No need, the sooner the better." Chi Wang straightened up, looked at the time on the screen, there was still time.
It was raining today, and there was a bit of congestion when I got on the elevated highway. Chi Wang looked at the clock anxiously, for fear of missing it.
Slowly moving through the traffic, when he arrived at the entrance of the alley, he happened to meet Su Huasheng pushing his motorcycle out.
Su Huasheng raised his chin as a greeting: "Xiao Su is not here."
Chi Wang strode forward, panting: "I'm not looking for him, I'm looking for you, uncle, I have something to talk about."
"Later, I have something to go out now." Su Huasheng frowned, and moved a few meters away from the motorcycle.
Chi Wan suddenly grabbed the motorcycle, pressed the front of the motorcycle with his palm, and said in a more forceful tone: "You can't go."
"Both of you took the wrong medicine today? What kind of tricks are you trying to prevent me from going out one by one?" Su Huasheng was speechless when he thought of the phone call just now.
"Anyway, you can't go out today. I really have something important to say."
"Okay, I'll give you five minutes, hurry up and finish."
"..." Chi Wang got stuck, thinking about Su Lian on the way, but forgot to find a good reason.
Now suddenly asked, the brain went blank.
Su Huasheng was helpless, supported the motorcycle slightly, and looked up at the person: "Let you say that you hesitate to speak, what do you want?"
"I want to talk to you on the premise of getting married." Chi Wang blurted out.
Su Huasheng: "?"
Are you alright? You haven't graduated from high school yet, so you're talking about marriage with me
Chi opened his mouth indiscriminately, and felt that it was a bit steep, and tried to make amends: "It happens that Su Lian is not here, so let's have a formal conversation, just the two of us."
"If I remember correctly, it's only been half a month since you came out with me last time." Su Huasheng looked at him lightly, his expression gradually confused.
"But I felt that I was too nervous last time and not sincere enough." Chi Wan nodded, emphasizing his tone, "I think I need to formally tell you about my future plans."
Su Huasheng said slowly: "It's very clear, I didn't stop the two of you from falling in love, so you don't need to rush to express your opinion."
Why is this father so difficult to deal with, Chi Wang felt extremely tired.
The task Su Lian entrusted to him was too difficult, but he couldn't hold him back. According to the original words, if there was an accident, it must be impossible.
Chi Huang lowered his head, pretending to be pitiful: "Then let me talk to you about the way I get along with Susu, I don't think I know him very well."
This is really funny, Su Huasheng sneered: "You want me to teach you how to fall in love with my son?"
"Can't you? Anyway, you also recognize me. If I treat him well, shouldn't you be happy?" Chi Wang felt that his logic was straightened out and became more and more smooth, "Yes, so let's talk now."
"I still have an order to run." Su Huasheng raised his phone, "It's too late if I don't leave, next time."
Chi Huang rolled his throat and said forcefully: "Cancel it, I will compensate you how much."
Su Huasheng was completely annoyed: "Speaking of which, anyway, you just won't let me go out, right?"
"Well, it must be today." Chi Wang nodded and helped to drag the motorcycle inside, "You should just take a day off, and we can chat casually."
Su Huasheng rolled his eyes at him with an indifferent expression, who is with you and your father.
Forced to be helpless, the two went home along the alley, sat on the sofa, and stared at each other.
Su Huasheng poured a glass of water for him, and put it in front of him with a bang: "Let's talk."
The glass collided with the coffee table, making a crisp sound, and the atmosphere in the room gradually became awkward.
"Just, what does he usually like?" Chi Wang didn't have a good draft in advance, and now Chi Wang couldn't get off.
Su Huasheng couldn't hold on, and almost knocked over the water: "You don't know this, and you still say you like him?"
Chi wanted to raise his hand to give himself a slap in the face, thinking that if the chat collapsed, and the person stayed, the love between the two of them would probably come to the end of the universe.
He straightened his sitting posture and nodded slightly: "Well, I actually know him quite well, and I know what he likes. I came today to tell you that he really loves you. I keep it in my heart all the time.”
Suddenly distracted, Su Huasheng froze for a moment, and did not speak again.
"Su Lian is your only family member. If something happens to you, he will be very sad. We don't want you to go out today because the weather is bad and accidents are prone to happen. It's also out of worry." Chi Huang mixed with sincerity Falsely, he told the matter in a random manner.
Su Huasheng was silent for a while before he said, "But it's not too rainy."
Chi Wan: "..."
Why don't you follow the sensational script, it's terrible.
While responding indiscriminately, he took out his mobile phone and sent Su Lian a message: How long do you have, you can't hold on anymore
[SU]: Just finished recording the score, I will take a taxi back now
[Delusion Daji]: Your dad is really hard to talk to, I want to die
[SU]: Endure for another forty minutes
[Fantasy Daji]: ... You'd better let me die
[SU]: Don't talk about the dead
[Delusion Daji]: I was wrong, withdraw and withdraw
Su Huasheng caught a glimpse of the movement, and tapped his knuckles on the table: "Didn't you want to chat with me, and you were sending messages there again?"
Chi Luan smiled awkwardly, and pressed the lock screen: "Well, actually, this is what I mainly want to say. Although the rain is not heavy, the roads are slippery. Anyway, stay at home today, okay?"
He thinks he is pretty good at chatting, but facing an enhanced version of the middle-aged cool guy, there is nothing he can do.
The two sat in the gradually dim living room, staring at each other for a long time, but no one made a sound.
Facing the staring gaze, Chi Huang rolled up his sleeves and stood up, looking for work by himself: "How about I go cook, it's almost time for dinner."
"Well, let's go, that's the kitchen over there." Su Huasheng probably also felt embarrassed, so he responded quickly.
After entering the kitchen, Chi Wang finally relieved a bit of embarrassment. While handling the ingredients, he looked at the living room from time to time, for fear that people would slip away.
The spicy smell of cooking quickly wafted out of the small room, and when everything was ready, I finally heard the sound of entering the room from outside.
Chi Wang turned around and raised his voice to say hello: "Susu is back."
"Well, it's raining heavily outside now, and I don't have an umbrella." Su Lian was relieved to see Su Huasheng sitting on the sofa watching the video intact.
Su Huasheng glanced at him, hesitated to speak.
"Don't blame Chi Huang, I asked him to come." Su Lian raised her eyes and glanced at the gloomy sky, where the dark clouds rolled and the torrential rain poured down.
Su Huasheng pondered for a few seconds, then suddenly smiled: "He is quite funny, he insisted on having a formal conversation with me."
"I guess there's really no other way." Su Lian raised the corner of her mouth, thinking that this time it was really embarrassing.
He went into the bedroom and changed into dry clothes, got into the kitchen, looked at the busy figure, and suddenly felt very at ease.
The man's cuffs were rolled up to the forearm, revealing a strong line. His shirt was a bit out of place with the kitchen, but it was too harmonious.
It seems that in a trance, the time is blurred, and it is back to the time when the two of them were in the rental house together.
If the scene of repairing the car last time brought him a lot of throbbing, this time it is even more so.
Both Chi Wang and his father are safe and sound, nothing is more important than this.
Su Lian walked over slowly, put his arms around Chi Wang's waist, put his chin on his shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "Thank you for your hard work today."
"Why is it so sticky all of a sudden? Aren't you afraid your dad will see it?" Chi Wan still had a shovel in his hand, unable to respond, he just laughed lightly.
Su Lian didn't speak any more, but quietly hugged the man, and when the man moved one step, he moved one step.
After Chi Huang left just now, his mind was also in a mess, his heartbeat was chaotic, and he almost entered the wrong score several times.
But Chi Wang's calm reaction made him feel at ease. This person is obviously only in his teens, and he is already too calm.
Being able to have such a lover, he felt that it was really worthwhile to travel back through such a toss.
If there is no such miracle, maybe I am already suffering from loneliness at this moment, and I am almost unable to live.
When that incident happened, he felt disheartened. When he began to lose his attachment to this world, it was no longer meaningful to survive, and it was better to die.
Su Lian originally planned to resign from the hospital after spending seven days with her in the cemetery, and then go home and commit suicide.
Fortunately, I met that master, who changed all the sorrows a little bit and reversed them back.
With a lot of emotions in her heart, Su Lian was worried that Su Huasheng was still outside, so she pressed it back abruptly: "I didn't know you could also cook."
"Do I need to repeat? Your brother Chi is good at everything except bad studies." Chi Huan turned off the fire and started the pot, and put a plate full of it.
Su Lian let out an ooh, and helped to serve the dishes, along with a heartless compliment: "Then you are awesome."
Seeing the sumptuous dinner, Su Huasheng was a little surprised: "I didn't expect you, a rich son, to have such a level."
"Yeah, I think I'm still a high-quality boyfriend." Chi Wang put down his rolled up cuffs, and handed over the bowl and chopsticks.
Su Lian complained: "Praise you and you'll have to piss yourself off."
There are more people, although there are few words, the atmosphere is not as embarrassing as in the afternoon.
The three of them ate and chatted, time passed slowly, and several dishes were swept away.
The two young lovers sat opposite each other, and it was obvious that they deliberately kept a distance because of their own presence.
Su Huasheng said quite self-consciously: "It's vacation, you two won't go out on a date?"
"The rain seems to have stopped outside." Su Lian glanced out the window, and then said vigilantly, "You and I won't go out to run business as soon as we leave, right?"
"Don't go out, you have been tossing around for a long time, what am I going out for?" Su Huasheng sat on the sofa, pinched the remote control and pressed a channel, "I'll just stay at home, don't worry about me."
Chi Wang followed the vine down, and quickly responded: "Okay Dad."
It was quite smooth, as if it had been rehearsed thousands of times in its mind.
"What are you screaming for?" Su Lian kicked him on the calf with a cold expression, her eyes threatening.
"Shut up, good uncle, then let's go." Chi Wang frowned and endured the violent attack just now, stretched out his hand to hook the man and walked out the door.
After the door closed, Su Lian loosely held his hand and walked into the alley. The two walked quietly for a while, no one spoke.
In the afternoon, this matter was tossed and tossed, and I never caught the gap to continue the previous topic, and suddenly the two of them were alone, and I didn't know where to start.
Chi Huang hooked his palm, and slowly opened his mouth: "You said, we have been together for four years? Is it so long?"
Having said that, he consciously made a slip of the tongue and fell silent again. Perhaps, it could have been longer.
"To be precise, it was four and a half years. You said it was a coincidence, we were also together during the New Year's Eve at that time. On the New Year's Day of 2021, we counted down together in the capital, and then kissed."
Su Lian raised her eyes to look at him, her eyes were gentle and full of love, "So what you said before is right, we are probably fate."
Chi Wan's heartstrings twitched slightly, and he whispered, "Is it such a coincidence?"
Su Lian nodded and said: "Well, it's such a coincidence, probably to make up for the shortcomings, everything has to be done again."
"Then, how did the two of us know each other?" Chi Wan was curious.
Su Lian suddenly felt a pain in his heart, and Su Lian let go of the space between his brows, and said softly, "Because that day was my twentieth birthday, and my dad originally came to help me celebrate my birthday. It was raining heavily and died in a car accident on the road. Later, I was going to jump off the building, You passed by and saved me."
In a few concise words, the sad past was clearly explained.
His tone was very calm, as if he was telling the past of a stranger, but every word hit Chi Wang's heart, and the sourness in his heart became even heavier.
The two most important people in his life left him one after another, no matter how strong he was, he probably couldn't bear such a blow.
After that, in the last period of his life, the pain he brought to Su Lian was so deep.
Just imagining such a scene made Chi Wan feel his heart ache.
He turned around, raised his arms and hugged him heavily into his arms, almost rubbing him into his body.
It took a long time to make a muffled sound, the voice was very hoarse: "Susu, how did you survive these years?"
"Brother Chi, it's all over." Su Lian comforted him softly, "Now you are all well, I am very happy."
Chi Wang hugged him tighter, and buried his head into his shoulder: "Those bad things won't happen this time, your father and I will always be by your side."
Su Lian blinked and trembled slightly, revealing her uneasiness: "But I will still be afraid, when you are twenty-five years old..."
The rest of the words were swallowed back, and he didn't dare to say the word death.
It was like a nightmare, lingering in my heart for a long time, making people restless.
"No, I will follow what you said, quit smoking and drinking, and exercise well. I will take good care of myself and go to the hospital for regular checkups." Chi Wang was a little anxious, and a series of words could not be stopped, " Don't worry, okay?"
He could understand Su Lian's fear, that time was like a time bomb, it would explode when the time came.
He finally understood the reason why Su Lian wanted to write a love diary. He was already prepared to leave at any time.
This feeling of powerlessness is getting bigger and bigger, and there is no other way but to comfort him with words.
Su Lian hummed, staring at the man with scorching eyes, looking at him with distressed face: "It's great to be able to tell you all these things."
Originally, he had a lot of bitterness and wanted to pour it out, but it didn't seem to matter now. Chi Wang was willing to believe him, and that was enough.
In the deep alley, the two teenagers just stood there, looking at each other, as if they couldn't get enough of each other.
The time is stretched infinitely, and the two time and space seem to overlap quietly at this moment.
Chi Wan raised his hand to rub against his cheek, and asked softly, "Will the future me live well? I mean, before I die."
There were tears in Su Lian's eyes, as well as endless tenderness: "I'm living a very good life. I have won many awards. The company has also been successfully listed and made a lot of money. The future is bright and bright."
"That's great."
"Where is it good?"
Chi Wang suppressed the soreness in his heart, lowered his eyes and smiled and said, "I can give you the best life in the future, so I don't worry. I'm afraid that you will be wronged."
"No, you are very kind to me, very gentle and mature, and you have given me a lot of love." Su Lian blinked, her eyes flushed.
He ignored those days when the rented house was crowded for heating. Chi Wan's expectation for the future should be bright and beautiful, and he couldn't bear to destroy such an imagination.
Seeing people's silence, Su Lian pretended to be relaxed and teased: "If I hadn't made a private decision with you for life, you would probably be the most eye-catching diamond bachelor on the market. But I'm not bad, I didn't lie to you, I really It's the doctor."
Chi Wang couldn't laugh, a soreness welled up in his heart, so many memories, but he didn't know it.
He really wanted to know all the details of his relationship with Su Lian, how they were ambiguous, how they kissed, how they lived every day, and what their work status was like, but for him, those things had never happened.
This feeling can't go up or down, it's very uncomfortable.
Chi Wan pursed his lips, with a helpless expression: "If only I had those memories too, I can't bear to leave you alone in those memories."
"But there's no way, it's all in the future." Su Lian sighed slightly, "If you want to hear it, I can tell you slowly later."
The two stared at each other for a few seconds, the breeze was blowing, and the atmosphere was gentle, Chi Huang suddenly cursed in a low voice.
Su Lian: "?"
"I seemed to call your ex a fool before, more than once, does this count as scolding yourself?" Thinking of this, Chi Wang was completely speechless.
The sensational atmosphere was broken in a second, and Su Lian laughed out loud: "Well, not only that, you also crazily eat your own vinegar, it tastes sour."
Chi Huan closed his eyes, his face ashen ashes: "Stop talking, you want face."
However, Su Lian refused to let him go, counting each case one by one: "Just because the other person's surname is Chi, I didn't know him at all, so I beat him up."
"..."
"It's been said that the moles on your lower abdomen are in the same position, so you insist on removing them, saying that you don't want the same style."
"..."
"On the day the relationship was confirmed, I was so angry that I was jealous that my ex taught me to kiss."
"..."
"Even gritted his teeth and asked me, what else have you done besides kissing?"
Caught off guard, the soul hit several times, and it was like a thunderbolt.
At this moment, Chi Wang really wanted to find a crack in the ground to sneak in. When those stupid flying vinegar came up, Su Lian was probably overjoyed and turned himself over and over again to mock him.
It's really embarrassing, but who would have thought that this is a plot where I love myself, and a green literature website dare not write like this.
Chi Wang raised his hand to cover his face, then quickly let go of his hand, squinted his eyes and asked, "Wait, so what else did you do?"
Su Lian blinked slowly, and said calmly, "What do you think? Ask yourself, sharing the same bed for four years, what do you think you can do?"
Chi Wang lowered his eyes, and his eyes fell on the face that was watching the show, with mixed emotions in his heart.
Knowing that Su Lian has never fallen in love with others, happiness is real, and resentment is also real.
But at this moment, he was quite jealous of his twenty-something self.
Seeing that the person didn't speak, Su Lian added a knife with a smile: "So brother, guess why I blushed at that time."
The tone is ambiguous and meaningful.
"Fuck." Chi Wang squeezed his chin, and said indignantly, "I'm really jealous of myself now, why should I?"
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