"... Then my brother will join the army next month." Zhen was sitting on the sofa at Ed's house, and Mayu was holding his brother's hand in the wheelchair beside him.
"It's also not easy for you to live." Mayo told Ed the general situation of the brother and sister instead of Zhen Zhen, who was not very calm. Is this some kind of coincidence in this world, or is it a butterfly effect of its own? If it's the latter, it's a very gratifying thing, "Is this a military academy that you chose for your hukou and salary?"
"Stop pretending to be a good person here. What can a big man like you understand?"
"Brother!" Mayu squeezed his brother's hand hard, trying to calm him down, "Don't do this. Mr. Lingus has no ill will towards us. And I don't think it's Mr. Lingus's business. wrong."
"Without this guy, there wouldn't be that kind of thing, Mom and Dad wouldn't die, and you wouldn't—"
"elder brother!"
"But..." Shin looked at Mayu with a complicated expression, not knowing what to say.
"Mr. Lingos, although I don't know the reason, thank you very much for your kindness to us." Mayo turned to Ed, "Please forgive such a brother. In order to pay for my medical expenses and living expenses, my brother, He has been forcing himself for so many years, he is really a good person. He was only temporarily blinded by impulse, please don't blame my brother. "
Mayu's maturity makes people feel a little distressed. She's only fourteen years old, isn't she? He lost his parents, lost his legs, and couldn't even take care of himself. He was lying in a hospital bed all day, living with his only brother. Although my brother is very hardworking and gentle, he is a little impulsive and sometimes can't see the way. In this case, he can only mature himself.
Mayo kept apologizing to herself in place of Ma, but Ed saw a lot in her determined eyes. It is difficult for him to feel any ill will towards such a Mayu, even such a truth.
I remember "a long time ago", I was very annoying for a while, mentally retarded, impulsive, followed the villain and the protagonist against the protagonist, and looked like a righteous person. Later, I understood that for him who lost his parents, no one taught him how to think. He had nothing left but revenge for something. In the end, even the legitimacy of revenge and even the object of revenge were rejected. Deprived, he didn't know what else to do but hysterical. And in "Final Ending", Kira smiled and shook hands with him is a cruel thing.
In this world, he has been forced to breathe under the pressure of life. He is only a child, so he has to raise his disabled sister alone, and he has lost his right to grief and anger. Losing the guidance of adults and running around just for life, his spiritual growth may have stopped a long time ago. Although he is now eighteen years old on the outside, his heart has always stayed at the age of fourteen. This departure of physical age and mental age is the reason why he is hysterical in front of him now. He is now directed at his inexplicable anger, just wanting to find a vent for his miserable and incomprehensible life.
"Mayu, I'm about the same age as your brother, you can just call me by my name, no honorifics." He still has a good impression of his sister Ed.
"Then... Mr. Adrian." Mayu looked at CC anxiously and shouted timidly after seeing the other party's indifferent expression.
"That's good." Ed smiled at Mayo and turned to the boy beside him, "Really, I can neither understand nor understand your feelings of hatred. Do you really think I killed your parents? Without me, someone else will always create a white demon, and without the white demon Orb, it will be reduced to a battlefield. If you want to hate whoever is your freedom, please do so, but if you want revenge, I'm afraid I'm not a suitable target."
"Do you think you'll be able to pluck yourself clean like this?" Mako held his sister's hand, "Mayu, don't be deceived by his appearance, he's an evil warmonger and that will never change. "
"I'm conscious of the fact that I make weapons, and I won't deny that these weapons will cause a lot of deaths, but I've never considered myself an evil warmonger." Ed was a little surprised that he thought of war himself. At the dealer level, the Moon, as Anaheim's home base, can't possibly teach this kind of stuff. "The Moon has always remained neutral, and Anaheim has never incited hatred or conflict. I don't deny that Anaheim is a Relying on the war to make a lot of money, but it is not that there is a war in Anaheim, but on the contrary, there is a war in Anaheim. If you know that those arms dealers on earth have done it for product promotions Whatever, you will be lucky, as the biggest arms dealer, how lucky Anaheim is to have the restraint of Queen Diana."
"Are you trying to say that this is all the fault of the Federation and ZAFT?"
"ZAFT invaded Orb in order to capture Orb's arsenal and mass accelerator, and the Federation would send reinforcements in order to prevent ZAFT's strategic goal. Both sides just did what was a matter of course in the war. Captain Amuro Ray who drove the white demon— It was a second lieutenant at the time—and just faithfully obeyed the orders of the army. If you stayed on the moon, you might have a chance to see him."
"Then why start a war, why can't everyone get along peacefully?" It seems that there are no cultural classes in the military school, and the world view is still at the junior high school level.
"Race, religion, interests... You can find as many reasons as you want. Struggle is the instinct of biology. Human beings have fought from the Stone Age to the cosmic century. Even if one day human beings really evolve to colonize the entire galaxy and the entire universe, believe me, war will always be there.”
"In this case... If this is the case..." Zhen looked at himself with an unacceptable expression, "Isn't it because my parents died because of bad luck? It happened because of my bad luck. ?"
"elder brother… "
"This kind of thing... this kind of thing..." Zhen buried his face into Mayu's chest weakly, "Mayu... I should... Who should I hate..."
Mayu didn't speak, just hugged Zhen's head gently and stroked his hair gently.
Ed just watched them silently. After a while, Zhen raised his head embarrassedly from Mayo's chest: "Thank you, Mr. Adrian, I understand. Human beings are such a hopeless creature, and society, like the universe, is originally It's just dark. I was too naive before and didn't see the truth clearly."
"You don't understand anything." Ed watched him speechlessly from one horn to another, but it was understandable. Although he was forced to take care of other people's lives at a young age, his mental age was just that of a child, and it was normal for a child to be on the top of his head. "So what? The essence of human beings is greedy, dirty, evil, dark, and you despair of human beings? Do you want to take revenge on society to destroy all human beings or assimilate yourself into a big devil?"
"I-"
"You think you understand human beings? Then tell me, how did this hopeless, self-destructive pest survive into the cosmic century? Why didn't it kill each other in the Middle Ages? Are all the people in history who sacrificed themselves for the happiness of their fellow citizens all conspirators with ulterior motives or idiots who don't understand you?"
"History is written by the victors. What love, courage, and hope are all made up by literary and artistic works to paralyze the world, and they don't exist at all." Zhen has given up debate and has entered a stage where I don't listen and I don't listen. This scene Ed is very familiar with, not to mention the second-year-old arrogant child, many adults will enter this stage unconsciously when they can't say their opponents.
"Isn't the relationship between you and Mayo love? Don't you have the courage to fight alone with your sister's life on your back? Isn't it hope that you brothers and sisters have to work hard for such a sad past?" Wrong After the three views are destroyed, it is necessary to rebuild a positive one. The brainwashing lines often used by the protagonists in anime are probably like this, "Can all the beautiful qualities of human beings since their birth be denied just because of your words?"
"I, I don't know..." The effect seemed to be surprisingly good, and I really got rid of all kinds of intense emotions and calmed down, "Mr. Adrian, please tell me the answer. This question is too complicated, I don't understand... "
"It's fine if you don't understand, how can you possibly understand? I can't tell you the answer to this question, and no one is qualified to tell you. Queen Diana doesn't, PLANT Speaker doesn't, Federal President doesn't, Confucius doesn't, Kant doesn't. , Marx did not. If you don’t understand, go to study, study history, study philosophy, study politics. Even if you can’t find the answer for a lifetime, it’s good to understand a little more. At least today, you will understand that you don’t actually understand , is this also progress?" You can only make up for the suspended time by yourself.
Really silent for a long time, suddenly stood up and bowed solemnly: "Thank you, Mr. Adrian." Mayu looked at her brother with relief and bowed slightly.
Well, although the result is that my purpose is achieved, is this transformation a bit too fast? I carefully recalled the conversation just now. Although various debates and rebuttals played a role, the turning point seems to be love, courage, and hope. Here, I just talk about it according to my feelings. Is it so useful
"By the way, really." Ed suddenly remembered, "The salary of the army is not high, and it is still difficult to support Mayu."
"It's a lot taller than before, there's always a way."
"Did you have courses related to MS real machine operation when you were in the military school?"
"Yes, MS theory and practice. Speaking of which, Mr. Adrian is also in the textbook."
"What about your grades?"
"This," scratching his head a little embarrassedly, "usually full marks."
"That's right. Are you interested in coming to Anaheim as an MS tester? The salary is very high."
"But I've signed an agreement with the army..."
"Is it still a problem to ask the army for an unenlisted recruit in my capacity?"
"But the account—"
"Anaheim is responsible for solving it, what is the problem?"
…
After making a commitment to report from Anaheim next week, the Asuka siblings took their leave.
"Is your personality a little broken?" CC looked at the person in front of him and felt strange for a long time, "and I found out that you are not interested in your sister, but your brother. Is Lux just a pretense, you are actually over there?"
"CC, I didn't figure it out, why did he suddenly figure it out?" Ed didn't have the time to joke now.
"Don't you understand what you are doing yourself?" CC took it for granted, "A child finally corrected his wrong three views under the guidance of an adult, and with his beloved sister, went to tomorrow with courage and hope. Work hard, what is it that you don't understand?"
"Did he change too fast?" Ed wanted to express more than this, but he could only say this to CC, "If another eloquent villain comes out to fool around, will he change back again? already?"
"Probably not." CC didn't understand what Ed was struggling with. "He has already figured out what is really important to him."
"No, what I mean is..." He couldn't understand, he was in a irritable mood, and he desperately longed for Alice to be by his side at the moment, "—I'm sorry, I'm in a hurry, go out for a while."
CC looked at Eddie with a look of astonishment and left himself to go out alone.
Every minute of the short thirty-minute journey was a torment. It was not until he entered Yinlei's cockpit that he slumped in the driver's seat as if he had put down a heavy burden.
"Isn't Ed going to accompany the guests today?"
"...I just wanted to talk to you all of a sudden." The irritability eased a lot.
"Really, Ed?" The tone was a little high and the volume was a little loud, perhaps expressing surprise. "Anyway, let's play music first."
Really turned into a music player, he thought happily. The familiar environment made people feel inexplicably relaxed. He chose a playlist called Minority, and the piano sound of the prelude to "lear earth" sounded in the cockpit.
"Alice." He closed his eyes, as if intoxicated by the music, and seemed to be muttering to himself, "I took a little brother with my mouth gun today."
"Sorry, Ed, I don't quite understand..."
"But there is no sense of accomplishment at all, instead I feel very complicated for some reason." Violin joined in.
"… "
"It's not quite right to say that it is to tune and teach the bad taste of the bear children. It is also impossible to say that it is self-loathing of myself in the second phase of the middle school."
"… "
"Hey, Alice. You say that if you say a few words, you will be fooled by love, courage, and hope. Isn't it childish and sad?" Listening to the prelude is obviously a very gentle song, but for some reason it suddenly became intense. stand up.
"Sorry, Ed. I understand the definitions of these words, but I can't understand..."
"Why are you a little envious..."