Lux has never been a poor girl waiting for Prince Charming to save her. In fact, on the contrary, in every field she has been involved in and at every stage of her life, she is actively embodying her own value and striving to create the living environment you want.
In the beginning, she tried so hard to have a child. When she secretly checked their genes and found that pregnancy was almost impossible, she worked hard to be an indispensable help in his work. When he was away, she worked hard to protect the home he left behind. When she knew he was still alive, she tried to learn to live peacefully with CC. However, no matter how hard she tried, her living environment continued to slide towards a worse abyss.
Until he brought An Qi back, she finally gave up her efforts.
"Is it because I'm not working hard enough, or I'm working hard in the wrong direction, or is there something wrong with my starting point?" In the dead of night, she was lying on the bed alone and asked herself, "Do I still have feelings for him? Do you still have feelings for me?"
Lux couldn't help but have some kind of romantic fantasy about her SEED ability, and she felt that the existence of this ability itself could answer the previous question. However, for the latter question, she really couldn't understand, and she didn't even understand whether everything she did was meaningful.
So she began to watch from the sidelines, analyzing everyone in the family. Every day she has new discoveries, every day she has new problems, but since CC stabbed her in, she finally fully understands that everyone in this family is twisted.
How distorted is CC's feelings to use such cruel means to vent the desperation of being betrayed, and even choose to stay after such a thing happened? If Eddard really died because of that knife, and CC had the ability to commit suicide, Lack had no doubt that she would die for love.
How distorted is An Qi's feelings to take the initiative to join this complex and multi-dimensional relationship, and even when Ed is lying in the ICU, he can still consider problems from his standpoint? If Eddie really died because of that knife, Lack had no doubt that An Qi would use all means to kill CC.
Although these two people are completely different types, in Lux's eyes, their cores are the same distortion. They have abnormally morbid feelings for Ed, the difference is only in the external performance.
And the remaining two "supporting roles" are not much better.
Lux will always remember the look that Minerva looked at her and CC, full of hatred and killing intent, how could such a look appear on a little girl who was less than ten years old? Has the mutual attraction between NTs distorted to such an extent? After that, Minerva's apology and reflection were all acting skills, and Lux just acted with her. Although the little girl is an angel in Ed's eyes, she understands that Minerva's hatred has never diminished, and she can't imagine what Minerva will become when she grows up.
As for Taoxiang, she seems to have no sense of existence like half-buy and half-getting, as if she has completely erased her personality, and even Kesi occasionally unconsciously regards her as a household appliance. An Qi said that Taoxiang is her important person, but in fact she still treats the maid as her private property, but how can a human distort his personality to become an object
And at the center of it all, Ed's very existence is a collection of contradictions and distortions. If nothing else, just that he was determined to maintain the integrity of the family was incomprehensible to Lux. To say that he is possessive, he can be stabbed with a smile, and he can even die for the sake of a woman. To say that he is true love, he knows that everything he does is hurting the people around him, and he still goes his own way.
"Is a group of twisted people attracted to a more twisted person, or is he unconsciously twisting everyone? I ask this question because only I am not twisted enough?" She laughed to herself. , "It's as if I'm the only normal person. Could it be that I'm broken in other people's eyes, but I just don't know it?"
She can't be as reckless as An Qi, and she can't be as desperate as CC, and her dark and unclear feelings can only make her more miserable. In this situation with no choice and a dilemma, she thought of a way out for herself - this was the last and only way she could think of apart from self-cutting.
"Just think of yourself as his mistress, and trade my body for my status. You are Siegel Klein's daughter, Lux, you can accept it with a smile." She looked firmly at her. The person in the mirror, "As a good politician, only talk about interests, not feelings, so that there will be no pain."
Once she figured this out, Lux's eyes suddenly opened up. Considering Ed's excellent personal conditions and the emotional history between them, and considering Ed's recent concern for her with unclear motives, she found that she was already much luckier than her father, and it is not an exaggeration to say that she made a lot of money. .
"Sure enough, a politician's daughter cannot be happy." She smiled and said to herself, "But that's good enough, isn't it?"
Lux, who has found her own position, suddenly has another goal to work hard for. Stella's death is now when Ed is most vulnerable. There is no reason not to seize such a perfect opportunity, right? She had used this routine when she was chasing backwards, and she could no longer be familiar with it. As long as this first time was a complete success, she could continue with peace of mind.
After dinner, she took a shower early, went back to her room and put on a set of pure and seductive underwear, and took the time to prepare for action. Just as she was about to leave, there was a knock on the door of the room, and Minerva in bear pajamas appeared at the door.
"Sister Lux, I'll sleep with Uncle Ed tonight." Minerva, who was holding the pillow, said innocently, "Just to tell you, Sister An Qi and Sister CC also know about it."
After saying this, the little girl turned around and ran away. Lux looked complicated for a while, then lay down on the bed weakly, staring at the ceiling: "It's too ugly, Lux, was actually defeated by a child."
With a mess in her mind, she didn't know what to do for a while, so she closed her eyes and thought about it until the door was pushed open again a few minutes later. She opened her eyes and stood up, looking a little confused at the person who should never be here, but anyway, the opportunity came: "Ed, why don't you knock on the door?"
"You're my wife, how can you knock on the door when you go back to the wife's room." He answered rightly, "Have you slept? If you haven't, I'd like to talk to you about the problem between us."
Here again, since CC ran away from home, he began to be considerate to her and tried his best to look like he still liked her. But she is not NT, I really can't tell if this is acting because of distorted possessiveness. Just as she couldn't convince Ed that she still liked him, she couldn't convince herself that Ed still liked her.
"What's the problem between us? I don't think there is a problem between us." So it's good to talk about interests and not about feelings, she showed an impeccable perfect smile, "By the way, where is my gift? Taoxiang But you said you would bring me a present back."
"Already doing it, really!" Ed looked embarrassed. "It's just that this kind of thing happened, and I came back in a hurry and didn't have time to get it."
Lux also couldn't tell whether this sentence was true or false, but as long as she believed it, she no longer wanted to wishful thinking: "There's still time before my birthday, I'm waiting for your surprise."
Ed's emotional intelligence is still too low, and in Lux's eyes, it is not even as good as An Qi. She easily grasped the other party's emotions, and switched the topic to Asuka and Stella without a trace. Sure enough, he quickly sank down, his eyebrows full of sorrow.
"It's okay to blame yourself, but don't lose to Asuka who is still trying to cheer up at the moment." She gently hugged the man in front of her, "I and everyone will always be by your side."
If he wants consolation, give him consolation. If he wants the harmony of the harem, give him the harmony of the harem. Everyone gets what they need. That's fine. As for the feeling of comfort and joy arising from seeing Ed feel a little better now—
"Isn't it too much to charge a little interest quietly?" she said to herself, "I am an excellent politician, I only talk about interests, not feelings."
Sex is the best placebo, and then she guides the other person to bed smoothly, admiring his skilled, surprising, clumsy, and impetuous appearance, and can't help being a little addicted.
However, this is not possible, the mistress must have the self-consciousness of the mistress and be able to do things that women who only talk about love can't do, so she said softly in his ear: "I can't bear it alone. Well, do you want to call An Qi over?"
Ed looked a little sad and shook his head firmly. Lux is not NT, don't know if he really doesn't want it or is acting for Harem Harmony, but she hopes it's the latter. She struggled to find evidence for her point, like why was he upset? Are you acting too hard
Ed didn't say much, just gagged her mouth and entered cautiously. At that moment, her body involuntarily arched back, and a slight spasm caused a brief blank in her brain. She felt the gentle, intense ups and downs on her body, and she had the illusion of returning to when they were still in love.
"Illusion, this is all an illusion, it's just that I haven't done it for a long time, that's all." She persuaded herself with her remaining rationality, "I am an excellent politician, I only talk about interests, not feelings."
After saying this to herself countless times, Lux felt a lot better, and she won't feel so distressed when she thinks about how they loved each other before.
"Sure enough, this is correct." She thought silently, "Let's try to keep it up in the future."
Author's message:
PS: Yesterday also because of work pigeons, sorry. But the most troublesome problem is finally solved, and you can happily code words later.