Roland looked at Ed's dumbfounded appearance and didn't even notice that the pen fell on the table, and couldn't help covering his mouth and laughing out: "I only made fun of you because you were too tired, can it be serious? ?"
"…Huh?" Ed hurriedly picked up the pen, "No, no way, how could it be? What a joke, it doesn't exist, what are you talking about."
"That's why I said you're too tired. You've even been tricked into tricks like this. It's not like you." Roland shook his head and sat opposite Ed, looking at him with innocent eyes, "In a state of fatigue, It's easy to make mistakes, and the work is not efficient, you go back to rest."
"but-"
"This is the order of His Royal Highness." Roland said with an embarrassed smile, "Even if aliens really appear next month, even if human beings are really wiped out, there is no way to do it. Doctor. He eats and sleeps as usual, Ed, there's no need to carry everything on his shoulders alone."
"but-"
"Either on the moon or on the earth, no one is forcing you, please don't push yourself so hard." Roland looked at him worriedly, "Your lover, children, and friends are all worried about you, you know Isn't it? It's not that with the fruit of life, everyone can feel at ease and not care about your body."
"but-"
"No but." Roland's tone rarely became serious, "You don't care about the life and death of human beings, you have the idea of running to another earth with important people because you are no match for it from beginning to end, why? How about pretending that you care a lot now?"
In an instant, a chill rose from Ed's tailbone to his brain, and then gradually spread down his body until the fingertips of his hands and feet were completely cold. In a trance, he had the illusion that he was stripped and thrown on the road in the winter. He could only watch Roland open his mouth wide, but couldn't utter a word.
"Ah, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be so serious." Roland showed a flustered look, and waved his hand while apologizing, "I just wanted to persuade you to go back to rest, accidentally..."
"Accidentally told the truth." Ed threw the pen in his hand to the side, and his voice became very depressed, "You guessed it right, I was playing the attention of running away. My shit, I've been pretending to be responsible, and you're absolutely right."
Roland was stunned for a while, got up impulsively to do something, thought about it, and sat back. Although this topic may hurt important friends, Roland chose to grit his teeth and continue: "I have carefully read the documents at the summit. Only your authority is terribly high, and everyone else is subject to various restrictions."
"Yes, I limit Char, I limit Bright, I limit Nanali, I limit Haman, and I even limit Diana. I don't trust anyone, only myself." Ed said with a broken jar, "I have always I naively thought that I had integrated into this world, and it was not until I lost the NT sensor that I realized that these were all illusions brought about by the lie detector. I was still the original me, a character with Yang Wenli's template, and nothing has changed."
"But have you thought about it? Why did all the documents pass? Why did they all vote in favor? Because they believe in you." Roland said firmly, "Ed, you are no longer NT, and they believe you are not. Because there's a polygraph, just because you're you."
"Don't give me an example to comfort me, haven't you seen the angry Char before?" Ed leaned back on the back of the chair feebly, "I don't even know if he really had a seizure for Minerva's sake. , or take Minerva down the stairs for something else to happen, such as seeing through the cowardly nature of my wanting to run away.”
"Xia Ya is a very complicated and cunning character, don't you understand that he is not normal?" Roland pressed his hand on the table excitedly, "Doubt and selfishness are both human nature, if you can't beat him, retreat rationally and have another chance. What's wrong?"
"I don't believe anyone, Roland, not even you, do you understand?" Ed said loudly, "I can't trust Lux, I can't trust An Qi, I can't trust CC, I don't know every word they say. Is it true? But how can I doubt them? Wouldn't the fragile environment, which is like walking on thin ice, collapse immediately?"
"So for your lover, for your friends, and for all mankind, you deceive yourself and pretend that there is no gap. Pretend that you have reached mutual understanding, and then use actual actions to prove that you are not hypocritical." Roland suddenly realized, and his eyes became a little sad, "Ed, I think I understand."
"Let's go if you understand, I'm going to continue to deceive myself." Ed sighed, picked up the pen and sat down again, "Travelers are traversers until death, I'm not the same as you, Roland, Yang Wenli and I the same kind."
"Are you..." Roland considered his words, "are you afraid of becoming Yang Wenli?"
"… Maybe."
"But I don't think it's bad to be like Yang Wenli." Roland met Ed's surprised eyes, "I talked to Mr. Zhang Wufei before, what did Dr. Yang Wenli say, he has an awkward personality, is paranoid and suspicious, and is very timid. , I don't like to ask for help when something goes wrong, and I have done something great but I don't have any self-consciousness. You see, you already look a lot like him, don't you?"
"I've..." Ed looked at Roland blankly, "...a lot like him?"
"Yes, very similar, but so what?" Roland stared into his eyes, "No matter what Yang Wenli thinks, Mr. Zhang still respects him, no matter what you think, I still like you. I feel that I have become Yang Wenli, you are still Eddie in everyone's eyes, and some things are not based on your will."
"But the starting point of this emotion is false, and it was induced by the wrong—"
"You're not even an NT, so what qualifications do you have to deny that other people's emotions are false?" Roland stood up abruptly on the table, staring at him condescendingly, "What's wrong with suspicion? What's wrong with being timid? What's wrong with being selfish? What's wrong with indifference? I, Roland Sayak, are right to recognize you at this moment."
"Stop joking." Ed glared back, "How can a hypocritical and arrogant outsider like me be-"
"The idea of hitting and running is correct, the idea of doubting loved ones and friends is correct, the idea of not being able to integrate into the world is correct, and the idea of being irresponsible to all human beings is correct. These are normal people who have ideas, don't take them The rules of the saints require themselves." Roland's eyes were resolute, "Even if humanity perishes, even if we flee to another earth, even if all the living and dead tell you what you are, I will be sure that you are right. "
Ed swallowed hard, not knowing what to say.
"Look, only the two of us know about these dark thoughts. As long as we don't talk about it, no one will blame you." Roland smiled, "Also, when you suspect CC and them, remember to only secretly, Don't show it, or your house will really explode. If you can't hold back, come to me, I will be sure of you."
"You..." Ed narrowed his eyes and lowered his head, "Your purity is so dazzling, I feel ashamed under the light."
"Don't use such a strange sentence to describe me." Roland scratched his cheek embarrassedly, "If you can't get an answer to some things for a while, just think about it slowly, if you really can't, you can discuss it with me. A friend. Anyway, Ed, you need to rest now."
"I-I'm a little confused, and I don't really want to go back." Ed held his forehead, "I was slapped by mouth, this plot is a bit wrong."
"I have to deal with my wife when I get home, it will only be more tiring, I understand." Roland nodded sympathetically, ignoring the second half of his sentence, "Then come with me and take you to a special place. place."
Eddie was stunned by the first time he was stunned. He followed Roland downstairs and got into the car in a daze. He went straight to Sixth Ring Road and stopped in a remote old community. Roland carefully led him to avoid the cameras in the community, went upstairs to open the door like a thief, and finally entered a very simply decorated room.
After closing the door, Roland breathed a sigh of relief, turned on the light and said excitedly, "This is my secret base."
"Secret base? Yours?" Ed changed his shoes under Roland's instructions, "Isn't the secret base for His Royal Highness... too shabby?"
"It's not easy for me to secretly save a room while Diana manages the money. The house price on the moon is really high." Roland said a line he should never say as a leader, and led Ed into the room. Bedroom, "If you don't want to go home, just rest here. This bed is only used by me. It's very clean, don't worry."
The dizzy Ed took off his shoes and undressed and went to bed. Roland turned his head embarrassedly: "I usually come here alone when I don't want to go home or be alone. Enter the door, you can come here if you need it in the future, and don't work overtime because you don't want to go home."
"...Thank you." Ed didn't finally wake up until he lay down, and then he remembered an important question and sat up again. , "No, how did you appear? Did Aeolia change your body?"
"You're only asking this question now, it seems you're really tired." Roland smiled bitterly, walked to the bed and pushed him back by pressing his shoulder, "Yes, so I was in your laboratory just now. It was the first time we met."
"Then, then you now..." Eddie asked in a low voice, tremblingly, "Have you changed back?"
"Does it matter, my current gender?" Roland sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him tenderly, "What if I am a male now? What if I am a female? Will our friendship change because of this? Will you? Don't you want to be friends with me?"
"… Won't."
"Then why do you ask? No matter what I become, this is the only thing I need to struggle with. I hope that in your eyes, I will always be the same me. Just like no matter how much you think you and Yang Wenli have become. Similar, in my eyes you are always the same as yourself." Roland tilted his head and thought, "Well, close your eyes."
Ed closed his eyes obediently, and then a sparse voice came from his ears. He didn't open his eyes until Roland said it was okay. At this time, what he saw was: "Uh, why did you change your clothes?"
"For you." Laura walked to the side with great manners and turned around, "Am I not Roland now? Did our friendship end because I changed a dress or changed my name? "
"...No." Ed found it hard to look away, but he resisted the urge to ask.
"Physiology affects people's thinking, Ed." Laura straightened her skirt and sat down on the edge of the bed again, "Just like the previous decades of life will change my preference for clothes, losing the NT will It is a very common thing to affect your thinking. They are all born naturally in response to changes in the environment. They are all you, and none of them are false. It seems that there is only one me from beginning to end, and I will not I am ashamed of my past, present, and future, and I will not deny it.”
"You're so dazzling," Ed said sincerely. "I can't be like you."
"You don't have to be like me, you are already cute enough. I now understand why CC is attracted to you. Both of you have characters who love to be horny. This is probably the way people are divided into groups, right?" Luo Larou He smiled softly and patted his hand lightly, "Don't think about it any more, if you can turn your attention to other things, my clothes will be valuable."
"My attention has really been diverted." Ed said honestly, feeling the warm breath around him. "Your actions are extremely valuable."
"We are all married, Ed, I love Diana deeply, and you love CC and them too. We are very good friends, and I feel very happy now." Laura responded with a sense of grace after hearing the song, "Is it better to say Do you have the courage to pursue the truth no matter what? Can you accept the outcome no matter what?"
"I'm sorry, I'm being rude," Ed explained quickly, "I'm not—"
"You're not being rude. I'm conscious of my appearance, and I'm very clear about your past behavior. If you want to continue to learn dancing with me, I can understand and agree, because we are friends." Lola rushed to him. He smiled lightly, "You are my only friend, and I cherish it very much."
After speaking, he and Ed looked at each other silently, motionless, as if he would not respond no matter what happened.
"Thank you." Ed patted her hand gently like she did just now, "I cherish it too."
After saying that, I closed my eyes and made a look like I was going to sleep.
"You're welcome, this is what friends should do." Laura leaned down in a heartbeat, and finally whispered in his ear, "Good night."