Consciousness does not know when it disappeared.
Yeri didn't know when he disappeared.
When Pei Yechen woke up, he was swallowed by the guilt in his heart, and then deeply, deeply buried his head in his knees, covered his face with his hands, and trembled all over.
what have i done...
Why is it uncontrollable, he seems to have become another person.
It turns out that fever will make Omegas lose their minds, and it's not just a bluffing trick.
It turns out that Omega is really not suitable for being a commander who needs to keep calm all the time on the battlefield.
It turns out that the dormant desire in his heart is so gloomy, so depraved, and so dark.
turn out to be…
It turned out that he had been deceiving himself and others all along.
The worst part was that he actually felt good about letting that darkness out, without being ashamed, without feeling incorrect, unfettered, unreservedly authentic.
He seems to be getting a little weird.
"You're awake." The door of the cabin opened suddenly, Pei Yechen raised his head suddenly, but saw Chu Yu slowly coming in from the door.
Seeing Chu Yu, he suddenly recalled everything he had experienced before, and was a little ashamed to face it for a while.
He dodged Chu Yu's gaze and nodded: "Well... why are you here?"
Chu Yu frowned slightly, then sighed: "The starship driver...you are the only one left to come back."
Pei Yechen's heart skipped a beat.
"You... what did you say?!"
Chu Yu looked into Pei Yechen's eyes and said, "The 700 warships we sent were ambushed by the Zerg, and only you came back alive without any wounds on your body."
This is very meaningful.
Pei Yechen was instantly alert: "What do you mean? Are you suspecting that I am cooperating with the Zerg?"
Chu Yu shook his head: "It's better to say that this is what the Zerg want me to doubt." Then he peeled an apple for Pei Yechen and handed it to Pei Yechen's mouth, "We are not so easy to deceive."
Pei Yechen didn't know what Chu Yu's intention was. If there was no doubt, why bother to emphasize it.
After thinking for a moment, Pei Yechen asked, "Did you give me a full body check?"
"I did." Chu Yu replied, "I even checked your memory area, and there is no problem with the memory function."
"Physically... Is there anything..." Pei Yechen pursed his mouth into a line, as if he was a little embarrassed to speak.
Chu Yu glanced at him, then interrupted him: "Everything is normal."
"..." Pei Yechen read something from Chu Yu's eyes almost immediately, and then said, "The last thing I did when I closed my eyes was to see the Zerg army coming out of the black vortex, and then I lost consciousness."
"Well, Chi Yan can prove this point. There are all records in Chi Yan's black box." Chu Yu said again.
The two words Chu Yu said really pulled him back from the brink of danger.
It was too risky, it almost reminded him that someone was monitoring here, and it also indirectly showed that Chu Yu must have found something wrong, but Chu Yu deliberately kept it a secret for him.
Reminiscent of the scene when his consciousness was eroded by Yeri, Pei Yechen felt ashamed in front of Chu Yu.
Man is a tangled and complex contradictory entity.
He admitted what Yeri had said, that he had been suppressing some dark, twisted thoughts.
He also admitted what Yeri pointed out, that he liked Shen Jingheng and was jealous of Chu Yu.
Yeri magnified his dark side infinitely, and attributed all his struggles and restraints to hypocritical disguises, but he did not mention that his admiration for Chu Yu was also sincere.
He admired Chu Yu from the bottom of his heart.
Pei Yechen took Chu Yu's apple, put it in his mouth and took a bite, the sweetness of the apple exploded in his mouth, subtly bringing him back to reality from the vast universe.
His throat felt sour, but he couldn't bite his mouth any more after taking the second bite of the apple.
His body trembled slightly, tears rolled down on the apple, just flowed into his mouth, it tasted salty.
Seeing this, Chu Yu stood up: "You get used to being alone first, I'll go out first."
After Chu Yu went out, Pei Yechen broke down and cried.
He can't define who he is, sometimes he feels hopelessly bad and other times he's not, what's good and what's evil, what's instinct and restraint... like he's messed up.
So the question finally returns to the three major questions of philosophy.
Who am I, where am I from, where am I going
There seems to be a problem with his emotional processing mechanism. If he can't sort out these problems, he can't even find the motivation to live.
For a soldier, this is dangerous. He knew it.
For an officer, this is extremely dangerous. He is even more aware.
But he didn't want to give up what he had worked so hard to achieve, and he didn't want to easily deny his powerlessness, and he didn't want to admit that he was defeated by his instinctive desire in the battle with the brain worm.
It's bad.
Obviously have no achievements, but want everything.
How despicable.
How shameless. He deserved to enjoy the support of his companions, but he was almost brainwashed by brain worms.
After crying bitterly, Pei Yechen made a decision.
He resigned from the position of admiral of the starship pilot, saying that he was ashamed of the trust in his subordinates.
But this request was not granted.
Shen Jingheng approached him personally.
Seeing Shen Jingheng's face, the familiar feeling of depravity emerged from his body like a brand, his legs were uncontrollably weak, and his heartbeat accelerated violently.
He suppressed his emotions, trying to control himself so as not to lose his composure: "Marshal."
Shen Jingheng took him to a private conference room where he had a private conversation, and cut straight to the point: "You've seen brain worms, right?"
A sense of loss welled up in Pei Yechen's heart. It turned out to be just business.
"Um."
"After seeing the brain worm, I resigned on the grounds that I was ashamed of my subordinates, and let go of the rest of the work arrangement...Did I teach you?" Shen Jingheng's tone was very cold, even a little sullen.
With Shen Jingheng's words in mind, Pei Yechen pursed his lips, and it took him a long time to reply: "I'm sorry, I'm ashamed of my trust in you."
"I didn't come to hear your apology." Shen Jingheng looked into Pei Yechen's eyes, "What did the cerebrum do to you to make my best soldier suddenly lose his will to fight?"
The best soldiers.
Does he deserve it
Pei Yechen smiled self-deprecatingly: "It allows me to face my true desires honestly, that's all."
"That's all?" Shen Jingheng frowned slightly, "The brain worm killed all your subordinates, but let you face your true desires honestly, and then let you go? Pei Yechen, you can make up stories without absurd movies."
"Yes, it's ridiculous." Pei Yechen sneered, "I also think it's ridiculous. Why did I survive? Let me explain everything I can't explain?"
Shen Jingheng keenly grasped the point: "What did the brain worm say to you?"
"Don't ask, I don't want to talk." Pei Yechen disobeyed Shen Jingheng for the first time, and he was quite self-defeating.
Shen Jingheng directly reasoned and came to a conclusion: "It means that brain worms can read minds, and even know the flaws in your mind."
"..." Pei Yechen smiled feebly, this man is so outstanding at any time, even if it is his avoidance, the man can keenly detect clues.
"yes."
"It seems that you really need to rest." Shen Jingheng seemed to have a little concern in his eyes, "This is very important information. If even the generals who have been trained in psychological quality can't resist this kind of psychological attack, our ordinary soldiers will be even more vulnerable. Impossible."
After finishing speaking, Shen Jingheng stepped forward and patted Pei Yechen on the shoulder: "Thank you, I will find a way to deal with it."
Shen Jingheng made a gesture to leave, but Pei Yechen didn't know where his courage came from, and suddenly asked: "Don't you want to ask me what the flaw in my heart is?"
"That's your secret." Shen Jingheng replied with his back turned. "If you don't want to say it, I won't force you to say it. I believe you won't do anything that endangers the Protoss, and you won't do anything to you because of the Zerg. Psychic attacks join the Zerg... because you are Pei Yechen."
Pei Yechen's heart skipped a beat.
"You are the best subordinate I have trained by myself. This is one of the reasons why I believe we can win."
Pei Yechen's eyes became hot, and two lines of tears rolled down again, hitting the ground.
Both Chu Yu and Shen Jingheng have the same trust in him. Chu Yu is protecting him carefully, and Shen Jingheng is also affirming him.
"Shen Jingheng..." Pei Yechen suppressed the soreness in his throat, and his voice was full of stubbornness and self-esteem.
"Remember to report to the officer when you talk to the officer." Shen Jingheng still had that cold look, but Pei Yechen was so moved that tears filled his eyes.
"Not talking to the officer, it's a private conversation."
Shen Jingheng turned his head slowly and saw Pei Yechen's face.
Pei Yechen looks very attractive.
He is not as weak as the average Omega looks, but there is always a sense of righteousness between his eyebrows, his eyes are always extremely firm, and his silver hair shows that he is an excellent pure-blood Omega.
The most important thing is that Pei Yechen was supposed to be the five hundred and twentieth world, his original wife.
At this moment, Pei Yechen looked at him with firm and tearful eyes, and said to him: "I love you very much."
The word used is directly "love", not "like".
Shen Jingheng replied calmly: "You should know that I love my wife."
Pei Yechen was crying and also smiled: "I just want you to know that I love you just as much, not less than him."
"No one will love me more than him." Shen Jingheng interrupted directly, "No one can surpass him."
Damn direct, damn refusal.
This is Shen Jingheng, a man who will never give anyone else any chance if he recognizes his wife.
Obviously, every word and every word is like a needle poking him, but Pei Yechen just loves his serious appearance.
"The flaw in your mind is me." Shen Jingheng grasped the key point keenly, "... I understand that the brain worm should infinitely magnify your desire and weaken your efforts to fight against it, right?"
Damn smart man.
Pei Yechen didn't answer.
Shen Jingheng asked him a question: "Do you understand me?"
This question directly confused Pei Yechen.
"Should... understand, right? You are serious about everything, very calm, and never panic."
"No, you don't understand." Shen Jingheng said frankly, "You only understand the part of me that you are willing to understand. My dark side has never been shown to others, but this does not mean that I am hypocritical, but that I am using My kindness makes life easier for those around me.”
"I also hated the world of the protoss. I think stupid people are hopeless. They will only call people who are working hard as waste, and they will always blame others. If a hero fails once, People will only be criticized in words and in writing. People are only greedy for pleasure and have high demands on others, and forget what kind of dog they are.” Shen Jingheng said these words bluntly, without shy away, “I even think that whether the Protoss will perish or not perish has nothing to do with I have nothing to do, I only need to live my present, other people have nothing to do with me."
"Pei Yechen, people have selfish desires. Everyone is afraid of death. Everyone has what they want. For a second or two, everyone wants to kill the person they hate... Possessing malice and inflicting it on others are two different things. You have Why should you be so hard on yourself? If you are going to be punished for being malicious, then all the protoss deserve to die."
[The author has something to say: The missing part of the last chapter may affect the reading... Forget it, there are not many people who read article 2333 anyway, thank you for the little cuties who are still supporting_(:з」∠)_If so Comment if you are interested? I will be super motivated!]